`` If once they become inattentive to the public affairs '' , Jefferson said , `` you and << I >> , and Congress and assemblies , judges and governors , shall all become wolves '' .
`` << I >> have to see the facts '' , is the way the prince puts it .
He did say he was out of cans , the No. 3's , but `` << I >> requisitioned 22,000 '' .
`` Don't ask << me >> if I think the cannery helps '' , he said .
`` Don't ask me if << I >> think the cannery helps '' , he said .
There is one thing << I >> know ; ;
Several years ago << I >> was his pastor .
After almost everyone had gone he told << me >> the simple story of how one of his neighbors had moved a fence a few feet over on his land .
`` << I >> leave this church with a feeling that a great weight has been lifted off my heart , I have left my grudge at the altar and forgiven my neighbor '' .
`` I leave this church with a feeling that a great weight has been lifted off my heart , << I >> have left my grudge at the altar and forgiven my neighbor '' .
Once Peter asked , `` How oft shall my brother sin against << me >> , and I forgive him ? ?
Once Peter asked , `` How oft shall my brother sin against me , and << I >> forgive him ? ?
Her mother , now dead , was my good friend and when she came to tell us about her plans and to show off her ring << I >> had a sobering wish to say something meaningful to her , something her mother would wish said .
For a while there was such shrill girlish commotion << I >> couldn't have made myself heard if I'd had the equivalent of the message to Garcia .
But when some of the squeals had subsided and she had been through one of those sessions that are so indispensable to the young female -- six girls sprawled on one bed , drinking Cokes and giggling -- she came back to the kitchen to talk with << me >> a minute .
<< I >> asked , looking at her searchingly .
Besides , in all honesty , << I >> don't know how you can be sure .
<< I >> don't know any secret recipe for certainty .
<< I >> asked .
`` Bore << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> mean '' , I went on ruthlessly , `` when he's not talking about you or himself or the wonders of love , is he interesting ? ?
`` I mean '' , << I >> went on ruthlessly , `` when he's not talking about you or himself or the wonders of love , is he interesting ? ?
She came back the other day to reassure << me >> .
She asked if << I >> had other advice and , heady with success , I rushed it in , I hope not too late .
She asked if I had other advice and , heady with success , << I >> rushed it in , I hope not too late .
She asked if I had other advice and , heady with success , I rushed it in , << I >> hope not too late .
<< I >> do not know Dr. Wilson Sneed well .
But << I >> was deeply moved by his letter of resignation as rector of St. Luke's Church in Atlanta .
And so the young minister resigned , to go and study and pray , having never passed a day , he told his parishioners , when `` << I >> did not gain from you far more than I ever gave to you '' .
And so the young minister resigned , to go and study and pray , having never passed a day , he told his parishioners , when `` I did not gain from you far more than << I >> ever gave to you '' .
His very honest act called up the recent talk << I >> had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` I feel so deeply blessed by God when I can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and I would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self .
His very honest act called up the recent talk I had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` << I >> feel so deeply blessed by God when I can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and I would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self .
His very honest act called up the recent talk I had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` I feel so deeply blessed by God when << I >> can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and I would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self .
His very honest act called up the recent talk I had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` I feel so deeply blessed by God when I can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and << I >> would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self .
But oh , how << I >> do sometimes need just a moment of rest , and peace , in myself '' .
`` << I >> like them things , too '' , he had said .
<< I >> do it , lots o' times -- I like to lie in a hammock at night , by myself , when it's all quiet .
I do it , lots o' times -- << I >> like to lie in a hammock at night , by myself , when it's all quiet .
`` Of course << I >> am '' , he said .
<< I >> just came out here to know it '' .
The really remarkable thing to << me >> is that most California natives unhesitatingly elect to slow down and permit the invading car free access .
Whether or not this is done out of enlightened self-preservation , << I >> don't know .
At the risk of losing my charge-a-plate at Marshall Field and Company , << I >> would like to challenge an old and hallowed stereotype .
After three months of research , << I >> can state unequivocally that Los Angeles drivers are considerably more courteous and competent than any other drivers I've ever encountered .
During one recent day of driving about Los Angeles there were actually a dozen occasions when oncoming drivers stopped an entire lane of traffic to permit << me >> to pull out of an impossible side street .
`` Now , if << I >> can just figure out what he's talking about , I'll use it '' .
To << me >> , Brandt looks as though he could be in for a fine year .
As the mother of an autistic child who is lacking in interest and enthusiasm about almost anything , << I >> have to manipulate my son's fingers for him when he first plays with a new toy .
He wants << me >> to do everything for him .
But << I >> do and my psychiatrist does , too .
`` One thing << I >> notice which I have seldom heard mentioned .
`` One thing I notice which << I >> have seldom heard mentioned .
This is that autistic people don't enjoy physical contact with others -- for instance , my children and << I >> .
When << I >> hold my son he stiffens his whole body in my arms until he is as straight and stiff as a board .
`` << I >> try to treat Daniel as if he were normal , though of course I realize he is far from that at present .
`` I try to treat Daniel as if he were normal , though of course << I >> realize he is far from that at present .
What << I >> do is to try to bring him into contact with reality as much as possible .
<< I >> try to give him as many normal experiences as possible .
Should << I >> show my daughter how things should be colored ? ?
At least , << I >> have found it so .
`` Remember the French railroad baron who was going to take << me >> floating down the Nile '' ? ?
`` Sure , we met a barrel of rich men but it's hard to find the real thing when you're young , beautiful and the toast of two continents '' `` Remember Fanny Brice promised my mother she would look after << me >> on the road '' ? ?
All this remembering took place the other night when << I >> had supper with the Ziegfeld Girls at the Beverly Hills Club .
But watching Mrs. Cyril Ring , Berniece Dalton Janssen , Mrs. Robert Jarvis , Mrs. Walter Adams order low-calorie seafood , no bread , << I >> could see the Ziegfeld Girls of 1920 were determined to be glamorous grandmothers of 1961 .
All << I >> could remember was Billie Dove pasted over the ceiling of my big brother's room .
`` But John forbad him , saying , << I >> have need to be baptized of thee , and comest thou to me ? ?
`` But John forbad him , saying , I have need to be baptized of thee , and comest thou to << me >> ? ?
' << I >> need rather to be baptized by you .
Your suggested solution , it seems to << me >> , is grossly oversimplified and is inconsistent with your generally realistic attitude toward , and endorsement of , sound planning .
<< I >> submit that it cannot be dismissed simply by saying we are not facing the facts of life .
<< I >> feel compelled to write this because I am greatly concerned with the problem of community growth rate and the relation between types of growth in a town such as East Greenwich .
I feel compelled to write this because << I >> am greatly concerned with the problem of community growth rate and the relation between types of growth in a town such as East Greenwich .
<< I >> believe it is an area in which professional planners have failed to set adequate guide posts ; ;
Until professional planners meet this situation squarely and update the concepts of zoning in a manner acceptable to the courts , << I >> hope we in East Greenwich can continue to shape our own destiny .
<< I >> would like very much , on behalf of my husband and myself , to send our eternal thanks to all the wonderful people responsible for the Gabrielle Fund .
<< I >> am a sophomore at Mount Pleasant High School .
A few weeks ago , << I >> read in the Bulletin that there were to be given Chinese classes in Cranston .
The following week , << I >> read in the Sunday paper that the students of Russia begin European and Asian languages in the seventh grade .
<< I >> wish you could see the situation as I see it .
I wish you could see the situation as << I >> see it .
<< I >> do not think that America is like Russia , not in the least ! !
<< I >> am proud of my country , the small city I live in , my wonderful parents , my friends and my school ; ;
I am proud of my country , the small city << I >> live in , my wonderful parents , my friends and my school ; ;
but << I >> am also a young , able and willing girl who wants to study the Chinese language but is not old enough .
At the height of the first snowstorm we had , it was impossible for << me >> to get medical attention needed during an emergency .
Words cannot tell of the undivided attention and comfort their service gave to << me >> .
The concern they felt for << me >> was such as I shall never forget and for which I will always be grateful .
The concern they felt for me was such as << I >> shall never forget and for which I will always be grateful .
The concern they felt for me was such as I shall never forget and for which << I >> will always be grateful .
Had they not gotten << me >> to the hospital when they did , perhaps I would not be here to commend them at this time .
Had they not gotten me to the hospital when they did , perhaps << I >> would not be here to commend them at this time .
No psychiatrist could tell << me >> that the experience in a war can not have its effect in the ensuing years .
But << I >> don't believe we should close the door on non-service-connected patients .
Upon a visit to a local junior college last week , << I >> was shocked to see the young ladies wearing short shorts and the young men wearing Bermuda shorts .
Rising costs have increased the difficulties of the elderly , and << I >> would be the last to say they should not receive consideration .
-- In reply to a letter in Today's `` Voice '' urging the sale of meat after 6 p.m. , << I >> wish to state the other side of the story .
<< I >> am the wife of the owner of a small , independent meat market .
-- << I >> , too , congratulate the American Legion , of which I am proud to have been a member for more than 40 years , on the recent state convention .
-- I , too , congratulate the American Legion , of which << I >> am proud to have been a member for more than 40 years , on the recent state convention .
Had << I >> been granted the floor on a point of personal privilege , the matter she raised would have been clarified .
At no time did << I >> attempt to seek approval or commendation for the members of the Chicago board of election commissioners for the discharge of their duties .
-- << I >> just want to let you know how much I enjoyed your June 25 article on Liberace , and to thank you for it .
-- I just want to let you know how much << I >> enjoyed your June 25 article on Liberace , and to thank you for it .
-- << I >> concur most heartily with today's letter on the futility of writing to Sen. Dirksen and Sen. Douglas .
<< I >> think we have the hardest working , best representative in Congress .
<< I >> am for it .
Sir -- Permit << me >> to commend your editorial in which you stress the fact that a program of county colleges will substantially increase local tax burdens and that taxpayers have a right to a clear idea of what such a program would commit them to .
Sir -- << I >> hasten to join in praise of the men in the toll booths on the Garden State Parkway .
Recently << I >> traveled the parkway from East Orange to Cape May and I found the most courteous group of men you will find anywhere .
Recently I traveled the parkway from East Orange to Cape May and << I >> found the most courteous group of men you will find anywhere .
<< I >> would ask , `` Why not do both '' ? ?
<< I >> feel that few burglars would be prone to break and enter into someone's apartment if they were met with a good hardy growl that a dog would provide .
<< I >> grant that the dog may not be really protective , based on his training , but if you were roaming the streets looking for a purse to snatch or a young lady to molest , how quick would you be to attack a person strolling with a dog ? ?
<< I >> would like to suggest that the landlords and Commissioners get together and consider liberalizing the practice of prohibiting dogs in apartments .
<< I >> have just returned from a seven-week trip to Europe and the Far East .
<< I >> have been absolutely shocked at the ineptness of the young ladies who are servicing person-to-person calls , special long-distance calls , etc. .
<< I >> disagree with the writer who says funeral services should be government-controlled .
The funeral for my husband was just what << I >> wanted and I paid a fair price , far less than I had expected to pay .
The funeral for my husband was just what I wanted and << I >> paid a fair price , far less than I had expected to pay .
The funeral for my husband was just what I wanted and I paid a fair price , far less than << I >> had expected to pay .
Recently << I >> visited the very remarkable Pilgrim School for retarded children .
<< I >> commend Senator Hart for his brave fight to establish a national park in the dunes area .
<< I >> just wish to congratulate Inspector Trimmer and his efficient police troops in cleaning the city of those horrible automobiles .
<< I >> worked on the Schuylkill Expressway and if it had not been for the big trucks carrying rock and concrete there wouldn't be an Expressway .
<< I >> suppose I am missing some elementary point but I honestly cannot see how two wrongs can make a right ! !
I suppose << I >> am missing some elementary point but I honestly cannot see how two wrongs can make a right ! !
I suppose I am missing some elementary point but << I >> honestly cannot see how two wrongs can make a right ! !
<< I >> am referring to this country conducting atmosphere tests of nuclear bombs just because Russia is .
As << I >> see it , if war starts and we survive the initial attack enough to be able to fight back , the nuclear weapons we now have -- at least the bombs -- can inflict all the demage that is necessary .
<< I >> repeat , two wrongs do not make a right .
Having led the world in this mad race << I >> pray that we may have the wisdom and courage to lead it out of the race .
While `` better late than never '' may have certain merits , the posthumous award of the Nobel Prize for Peace to the late Dag Hammarskjold strikes << me >> as less than a satisfactory expression of appreciation .
<< I >> wish to advocate two drastic changes in Washington Square : 1 .
The matter may seem a small thing to some people , << I >> know , but it's a very good start on the road to Totalitarianism The Commission has posted signs in Washington Square saying :
One means to help the birds occurs to << me >> : Let the chimes that ring over Washington Square twice daily , discontinue any piece of music but one .
<< I >> must , in fairness , take issue with his premise , primarily because the so-called scandals in labor unions were very much connected with business scandals .
Everywhere << I >> went in Formosa I asked the same question .
Everywhere I went in Formosa << I >> asked the same question .
<< I >> was searching for an accent of self-delusion or , even , of hypocrisy .
<< I >> never found it among any of the Chinese with whom I spoke , though granted they were , almost all , members of the official family who , presumably , harbor official thoughts .
I never found it among any of the Chinese with whom << I >> spoke , though granted they were , almost all , members of the official family who , presumably , harbor official thoughts .
And then << I >> put the question as pointedly as I could directly to Chiang Kai-shek : `` In America '' , I said , `` practically no one believes that you subjectively intend to re-enter the Mainland .
And then I put the question as pointedly as << I >> could directly to Chiang Kai-shek : `` In America '' , I said , `` practically no one believes that you subjectively intend to re-enter the Mainland .
And then I put the question as pointedly as I could directly to Chiang Kai-shek : `` In America '' , << I >> said , `` practically no one believes that you subjectively intend to re-enter the Mainland .
He smiled also at a British bloke seated next to << me >> , who asked the most asinine questions .
<< I >> recalled sympathetically the Duke's complaint in Browning's `` My Last Duchess '' .
) He smiled , and said a word or two to the interpreter , who turned to << me >> , `` The President wonders where you are going after you leave Taipei '' ? ?
That , << I >> smarted , is a royal rebuff if ever there was one .
The planners in Taiwan struck << me >> as realistic men .
<< I >> remarked jocularly to the President that the future of China would be far more certain if he would invite a planeload of selected American Liberals to Quemoy on an odd day .
He : `` Come with << me >> to the Casbah '' .
But it seems that pressures against him are coming from somewhere -- in the first place from China , but perhaps also from that `` China Lobby '' which , << I >> was assured in Moscow nearly two years ago , exists on the quiet inside the party .
Next September , after receiving a degree from Yale's Master of Arts in Teaching Program , << I >> will be teaching somewhere -- that much is guaranteed by the present shortage of mathematics teachers .
<< I >> will also be underpaid .
If it is not enough that all of our internationalist One Worlders are advocating that we join this market , << I >> refer you to an article in the New York Times' magazine section ( Nov. 12 , 1961 ) , by Mr. Eric Johnston , entitled `` We Must Join The Common Market '' .
In 1954 << I >> was drafted and after serving two years honorably on Active Duty I was not required to participate in any further Army Reserve activities .
In 1954 I was drafted and after serving two years honorably on Active Duty << I >> was not required to participate in any further Army Reserve activities .
Now , more than five years later , << I >> cannot in any realistic sense be called a trained soldier .
Today , seven years after the date of my initial induction as a draftee , << I >> am Assistant Professor of Philosophy and Science at St. Michael's College .
For , after leaving the Army in 1956 , << I >> spent five years in Graduate School first at Boston College and then at the University of Toronto .
This time , added to that which << I >> had already spent in school prior to my induction in 1954 , makes a total of twenty-two ( 22 ) years of education .
In my own case , << I >> submit that such reasonable and fair exercise is woefully lacking .
Taken back into the Army now as an Sp 4 , << I >> am leaving 110 college students whose teacher I am .
Taken back into the Army now as an Sp 4 , I am leaving 110 college students whose teacher << I >> am .
Even apart from the fact that now at the age of 31 my personal life is being totally disrupted for the second time for no very compelling reason -- << I >> cannot help looking around at the black leather jacket brigades standing idly on the street corners and in the taverns of every American city and asking myself if our society has gone mad .
In news broadcasts << I >> consistently hear the foreign volunteers fighting in the Katanga Army referred to as mercenaries .
This confuses << me >> no end .
Facing a prosecution which has demanded the death penalty , he said : ' << I >> have participated in the war against Communism in Korea and at Dienbienphu , and I have helped in the evacuation of North Vietnamese to the free world .
Facing a prosecution which has demanded the death penalty , he said : ' I have participated in the war against Communism in Korea and at Dienbienphu , and << I >> have helped in the evacuation of North Vietnamese to the free world .
<< I >> have done all this for the freedom of the individuals concerned and also for the states which have been threatened by Communist domination .
<< I >> found recently a very small article in the New York Times :
A few days before << I >> saw your mention of what Texas Liberals were doing to promote `` Louis Capet '' ( The Week '' , June 3 ) , another analogy had occurred to me .
A few days before I saw your mention of what Texas Liberals were doing to promote `` Louis Capet '' ( The Week '' , June 3 ) , another analogy had occurred to << me >> .
It seems to << me >> that N.C. , in his editorial `` Confrontation '' ( SR , Mar. 25 ) , has hit upon the real problem that bothers all of us in a complex world : how do we retain our personal relationship with those who suffer ? ?
<< I >> know of no other solution than the one N.C. proposes -- to do what we can for each sufferer as he confronts us , hoping that this will spread beyond him to others at some time and some place .
<< I >> feel that N.C. hit the very core of our existence in the editorial `` Confrontation '' .
<< I >> concur that it is necessary for Americans to have a confrontation of the situation existing in foreign lands .
<< I >> personally gained strength from it .
<< I >> would like to see you devote some space in an early issue to the news blackout concerning President Kennedy's activities , so far as Southern California is concerned .
The radio stations did run `` transcripts '' ( << I >> thought ) during the evening hours .
However , by comparing the TV snatches , two different radio station re-runs , and the censored Los Angeles Times version , << I >> found that the radio stations had edited out questions ( ABC removed the one regarding Laos ) or even a paragraph out of the middle of the President's answer .
<< I >> am interested to know he is getting mail from all over the country about the `` abuse '' he is being subjected to .
It also happened with the Inauguration , which was not re-run at all during the evening hours , and << I >> wrote to the TV editor of the Times .
This is one of the most constructive suggestions made in this critical field in years , and << I >> certainly hope it sparks some action .
`` << I >> have read an advance copy of the Snow book which is to be titled , ' Science And Government .
Until the work actually appears << I >> am not privileged to analyze it publicly in detail .
But << I >> have compared its text with already published commentaries on the 1960 series of Godkin lectures at Harvard , from which the book was derived , and I can with confidence challenge the gist of C. P. Snow's incautious tale '' .
But I have compared its text with already published commentaries on the 1960 series of Godkin lectures at Harvard , from which the book was derived , and << I >> can with confidence challenge the gist of C. P. Snow's incautious tale '' .
<< I >> think it was a grave error to print the article at this time .
So << I >> started making some calls of my own .
Another is a wily countryman called Larkin , whose blandly boisterous progress has been chronicled , << I >> believe , in earlier volumes of Mr. Bates' comedie humaine .
So << I >> made no mention of air transport until we could get at least some of it '' .
<< I >> saw `` Fiorello ! !
'' Performed in New York by the original cast and << I >> think this company is every bit as good , and perhaps better .
Bob Carroll may not bear quite as close a physical resemblance to LaGuardia as Tom Bosley does , but << I >> was amazed at the way he became more and more Fiorello as the evening progressed , until one had to catch one's self up and remember that this wasn't really LaGuardia come back among us again .
Such fascinating novelties in the score as the fugual treatment of `` On The Side Of The Angels '' and `` Politics And Poker '' were handled splendidly , and << I >> thought Rudy Bond and his band of tuneful ward-heelers made `` Little Tin Box '' even better than it was done by the New York cast ; ;
( Several times recently << I >> have wondered whether shows were being staged for the sake of the script or just to entertain the audience with the spectacle of scenery being shifted right in front of their eyes .
Since the hero , a sterling and upright fellow , is a rich Brown senior , while two Yalies are cast as virtual rapists , << I >> suppose I should disqualify myself from sitting in judgment on `` Where The Boys Are '' , but I shall do nothing of the sort .
Since the hero , a sterling and upright fellow , is a rich Brown senior , while two Yalies are cast as virtual rapists , I suppose << I >> should disqualify myself from sitting in judgment on `` Where The Boys Are '' , but I shall do nothing of the sort .
Since the hero , a sterling and upright fellow , is a rich Brown senior , while two Yalies are cast as virtual rapists , I suppose I should disqualify myself from sitting in judgment on `` Where The Boys Are '' , but << I >> shall do nothing of the sort .
The answers the girls give struck << me >> as reasonably varied and healthily individual .
If most of them weren't exactly specific -- well , that's the way it is in life , << I >> guess .
<< I >> was delighted with Paula Prentiss' comedy performance , which was as fresh and unstilted as one's highest hopes might ask .
<< I >> must say , however , that I preferred the acting that had something of a biting edge to it .
I must say , however , that << I >> preferred the acting that had something of a biting edge to it .
Although << I >> absolutely reject the Platonism of it , I have literally squealed with delight at the imperturbable perfection with which the position is laid down on page after page '' .
Although I absolutely reject the Platonism of it , << I >> have literally squealed with delight at the imperturbable perfection with which the position is laid down on page after page '' .
But there is a dignity and even a hint of the inspired prophet in his words to one correspondent : `` You ask what << I >> am going to ' reply ' to Bradley .
All polemic of ours should , << I >> believe , be either very broad statements of contrast , or fine points treated singly , and as far as possible impersonally .
`` One of them banged the sash of the window nearest my bed around midnight in July and << I >> leaped out of sleep and out of bed .
' It's just a bat ' , said my wife reassuringly , and << I >> sighed with relief .
' Thank God for that ' , << I >> said ; ;
' << I >> thought it was a human being ' '' .
This is something like what Thurber's best effects are like , if << I >> am not mistaken .
It sometimes threatens to linger in the memory after the final curtain , and some of it , such as the catchy `` Sez << I >> '' , does .
<< I >> make this observation about the lady , Miss Judy Garland , because she brought up the subject herself in telling a story about a British female reporter who flattered her terribly in London recently and then wrote in the paper the next day :
There also came a brief contretemps with the sound mixers who made the mistake of being overheard during a quiet moment near the conclusion of `` Do It Again '' , and she made the tart observation that `` << I >> never saw so much moving about in an audience '' .
Sometimes they struck << me >> as horribly over-arranged -- which was the way I felt about her `` Come Rain or Come Shine '' -- and sometimes they were just plain magnificent , like her shatteringly beautiful `` Beautiful Weather '' .
Sometimes they struck me as horribly over-arranged -- which was the way << I >> felt about her `` Come Rain or Come Shine '' -- and sometimes they were just plain magnificent , like her shatteringly beautiful `` Beautiful Weather '' .
Shearing , himself , seemed to << me >> to be playing better piano than in his recent Newport appearances .
Yet there is the classic case of the Gershwins' `` The Man << I >> Love '' .
Dorothy Loudon's raucous listing of the attractions `` At The Roxy Music Hall '' from `` << I >> Married An Angel '' ; ;
With three fine Russian films in recent months on World War 2 , -- `` The House << I >> Live In '' , `` The Cranes Are Flying '' and `` Ballad Of A Soldier '' -- we had every right to expect a real Soviet block-buster in `` The Day The War Ended '' .
`` He has married << me >> with a ring of bright water '' , begins the Kathleen Raine poem from which Maxwell takes his title , and it is this mystic bond between the human and natural world that the author conveys .
<< I >> say `` apparently '' although I saw Jouvet as Arnolphe when he visited this country shortly before his death ; ;
I say `` apparently '' although << I >> saw Jouvet as Arnolphe when he visited this country shortly before his death ; ;
`` << I >> Saw Stars '' , `` Lover Man '' , `` Menilmontant '' and `` Swing 42 '' .
But << I >> am afraid Mr. Wesker's meat and potatoes dish isn't well seasoned enough for local audiences .
`` << I >> like to sniff a place , and reproduce what it really smells and looks like , its color , its particular kind of life '' .
The jacket biography describes him as a former racing driver , and he may indeed have been , although << I >> do not recall having encountered his name either in the records or the literature .
a Portago could say , as he did say to << me >> , `` If I die tomorrow , still I have had twenty-eight wonderful years ; ;
a Portago could say , as he did say to me , `` If << I >> die tomorrow , still I have had twenty-eight wonderful years ; ;
a Portago could say , as he did say to me , `` If I die tomorrow , still << I >> have had twenty-eight wonderful years ; ;
but << I >> shan't die tomorrow ; ;
<< I >> hear the boot of Lucifer , I see his filthy face '' ! !
I hear the boot of Lucifer , << I >> see his filthy face '' ! !
If to be a Christian means to say yes where << I >> otherwise say no , or where I do not have the right to say anything at all , then my only choice is to refuse to be a Christian .
If to be a Christian means to say yes where I otherwise say no , or where << I >> do not have the right to say anything at all , then my only choice is to refuse to be a Christian .
As an American Catholic of Irish ancestry , << I >> came with certain preconceptions and expectations ; ;
being intellectually influenced by Newman and the general 19th-century literature of England , << I >> knew only a Protestant-dominated country .
Since arriving here , however , << I >> have formed a far different religious picture of present-day England .
In representing part of this new picture , << I >> will be recounting some of my own personal experiences , reactions and judgments ; ;
Since the Protestant clergy for the most part wear gray or some variant from the wholly black suit , my Roman collar and black garb usually identify << me >> in England as a Roman Catholic cleric .
In any case , << I >> have always been treated with the utmost courtesy by Englishmen , even in Devonshire and Cornwall , where anti-Catholic feeling has supposedly existed the strongest and longest .
Nowhere have << I >> seen public expression of anti-Catholicism .
On my first Guy Fawkes Day here , << I >> found Catholics as well as non-Catholics celebrating with the traditional fireworks and bonfires , and was told that most Englishmen either do not know or are not concerned with the historical significance of the day .
`` When you pile your `` guy '' on the bonfire tomorrow night , << I >> wonder how much of the true story of Guy Fawkes you will remember ? ?
A Protestant woman marveled to << me >> over the large crowds going in and out of the Birmingham Oratory ( Catholic ) Church on Sunday mornings .
An Anglican clergyman in Oxford sadly but frankly acknowledged to << me >> that this is true .
<< I >> have not seen this charge made during my stay here , but apparently it is still in the air .
<< I >> think it fair to say that he never quite reached such candor in his sermons .
By reminding ourselves of these factors in the situation , we should , << I >> am sure , come to a fresh realization , however painful it be , that the battle between Parker and his neighbors was fought in earnest .
You and << I >> do the same thing .
`` If it gave << me >> pleasure to say hard things '' , he wrote , `` I would shut up forever '' .
`` If it gave me pleasure to say hard things '' , he wrote , `` << I >> would shut up forever '' .
We have to tell ourselves that when Parker spoke in this vein , he believed what he said , because he could continue , `` But the truth , which cost << me >> bitter tears to say , I must speak , though it cost other tears hotter than fire '' .
We have to tell ourselves that when Parker spoke in this vein , he believed what he said , because he could continue , `` But the truth , which cost me bitter tears to say , << I >> must speak , though it cost other tears hotter than fire '' .
We have not the leisure , or the patience , or the skill , to comprehend what was working in the mind and heart of a then recent graduate from the Harvard Divinity School who would muster the audacity to contradict his most formidable instructor , the majesterial Andrews Norton , by saying that , while he believed Jesus `` like other religious teachers '' , worked miracles , `` << I >> see not how a miracle proves a doctrine '' .
<< I >> have , within the past fifty years , come out of all uncertainty into a faith which is a dominating conviction of the Truth and about which I have not a shadow of doubt .
I have , within the past fifty years , come out of all uncertainty into a faith which is a dominating conviction of the Truth and about which << I >> have not a shadow of doubt .
<< I >> have also constantly engaged in scientific work and am fully aware of the value of opinions formed in science as well as in the religions in the world .
In an amateurish , yet in a very real sense , << I >> have followed the developments of archaeology , geology , astronomy , herpetology , and mycology with a hearty appreciation of the advances being made in these fields .
At one time << I >> became disturbed in the faith in which I had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which I felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to me that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure .
At one time I became disturbed in the faith in which << I >> had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which I felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to me that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure .
At one time I became disturbed in the faith in which I had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which << I >> felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to me that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure .
At one time I became disturbed in the faith in which I had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which I felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to << me >> that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure .
Doubts thus inculcated left << me >> floundering for a while and , like some higher critical friends , trying to continue to use the Bible as the Word of God while at the same time holding it to have been subjected to a vast number of redactions and interpolations : attempting to bridge the chasm between an older , reverent , Bible-loving generation and a critical , doubting , Bible-emancipated race .
To ask << me >> to believe that so inexpressibly marvelous a book was written long after all the events by some admiring follower , and was not inspired directly by the Spirit of God , is asking me to accept a miracle far greater than any of those recorded in the Bible .
To ask me to believe that so inexpressibly marvelous a book was written long after all the events by some admiring follower , and was not inspired directly by the Spirit of God , is asking << me >> to accept a miracle far greater than any of those recorded in the Bible .
Here << I >> took my leave of my learned friends to step out on another path , to which we might give the modern name of Pragmatism , or the thing that works .
So , << I >> put my Bible to the practical test of noting what it says about itself , and then tested it to see how it worked .
As a short , possibly not the best method , << I >> looked up `` Word '' in the Concordance and noted that the Bible claims from Genesis 1 to Revelation 22 to be God's personal message to man .
The next traditional step then was to accept it as the authoritative textbook of the Christian faith just as one would accept a treatise on any earthly `` science '' , and << I >> submitted to its conditions according to Christ's invitation and promise that , `` If any man will do his will , he shall know of the doctrine , whether it be of God , or whether I speak of myself '' ( John 7 : 17 ) .
The next traditional step then was to accept it as the authoritative textbook of the Christian faith just as one would accept a treatise on any earthly `` science '' , and I submitted to its conditions according to Christ's invitation and promise that , `` If any man will do his will , he shall know of the doctrine , whether it be of God , or whether << I >> speak of myself '' ( John 7 : 17 ) .
<< I >> now ever look for Christ according to His promises and those of the Old Testament as well , to appear again in glory to put away all sin and to reign in righteousness over the whole earth .
<< I >> place His precepts and His leadings above every seeming probability , dismissing cherished convictions and holding the wisdom of man as folly when opposed to Him .
<< I >> discern no limits to a faith vested in God and Christ , who is the sum of all wisdom and knowledge , and daring to trust Him even though called to stand alone before the world .
<< I >> stood at the bedside of my patient one day and beheld a very sick man in terrible pain .
In his heart he had that peace of which the Lord spoke when He said , `` Peace << I >> leave with you , my peace I give unto you : not as the world giveth , give I unto you .
In his heart he had that peace of which the Lord spoke when He said , `` Peace I leave with you , my peace << I >> give unto you : not as the world giveth , give I unto you .
In his heart he had that peace of which the Lord spoke when He said , `` Peace I leave with you , my peace I give unto you : not as the world giveth , give << I >> unto you .
<< I >> praise God for the privilege of being a nurse who has that peace through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ .
How often have << I >> looked to Jesus when entering the sick room , asking for His presence and help in my professional duties as I give my talents not only as the world giveth but as one who loves the Saviour and His creatures .
How often have I looked to Jesus when entering the sick room , asking for His presence and help in my professional duties as << I >> give my talents not only as the world giveth but as one who loves the Saviour and His creatures .
`` << I >> am resting today in His wonderful peace ,
<< I >> am kept from all danger by night and by day ,
whom shall << I >> fear ? ?
<< I >> doubt that `` fear parties '' and `` group confessionals '' will help very much .
whom shall << I >> fear ? ?
of whom shall << I >> be afraid '' ? ?
Read the next two verses : `` When the wicked , even mine enemies and my foes , came upon << me >> to eat up my flesh , they stumbled and fell .
whom shall << I >> fear ? ?
of whom shall << I >> be afraid '' ? ?
In fact , He came into this world Himself , in the person of His Son , Jesus Christ , who stood here amid the darkness of human sin and said : `` << I >> am the light of the world : he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness , but shall have the light of life '' .
In fact , He came into this world Himself , in the person of His Son , Jesus Christ , who stood here amid the darkness of human sin and said : `` I am the light of the world : he that followeth << me >> shall not walk in darkness , but shall have the light of life '' .
The only way that << I >> can see is through communication .
By personal factors << I >> mean those rooted in personality structure .
The progressive closing of Afro-Asian ears to the Christian message is epitomized in a conversation << I >> had three years ago while flying from Jerusalem to Cairo .
<< I >> was seated next to the director of the Seventh Day Adventists' world radio program .
Although << I >> have emphasized the barriers which an aroused nationalism has raised against relations between Christians and non-Christians in Asia , the fact is that this development has also widened the gulf between certain Afro-Asian religions themselves .
<< I >> turn finally to several theological developments .
<< I >> do not mean to imply that Christians have adopted the liberal assumption , so prevalent in Hinduism , that all religions are merely different paths to the same summit .
In mentioning this under `` salvation reconsidered '' << I >> do not mean to imply that Roman Catholic doctrine has changed in this area but rather that it has become clearer to the world community what that doctrine is .
<< I >> mean , however , that the moral theologian knows what he means by `` permit '' .
But << I >> can only make this choice because I believe that the risk need not increase , but may be deliberately reduced '' ( by precautions against accidents or by limiting war ? ?
But I can only make this choice because << I >> believe that the risk need not increase , but may be deliberately reduced '' ( by precautions against accidents or by limiting war ? ?
`` If Philip Toynbee is claiming that the choice lies between capitulation and the risk of nuclear war , << I >> think he is right .
You know that << I >> could hold right here in my hand the little chunk of uranium metal that was the heart of the bomb that dropped on Hiroshima .
<< I >> have calculated that if I could snap my fingers in one magic gesture to release the power of all the hydrogen in my body , I would explode with the force of a hundred bombs of the kind that fell on Hiroshima .
I have calculated that if << I >> could snap my fingers in one magic gesture to release the power of all the hydrogen in my body , I would explode with the force of a hundred bombs of the kind that fell on Hiroshima .
I have calculated that if I could snap my fingers in one magic gesture to release the power of all the hydrogen in my body , << I >> would explode with the force of a hundred bombs of the kind that fell on Hiroshima .
<< I >> won't try the experiment , but I think you can see that if we all knew the secret and we could all let ourselves go , there would be quite an explosion .
I won't try the experiment , but << I >> think you can see that if we all knew the secret and we could all let ourselves go , there would be quite an explosion .
For if << I >> knew the secret of letting this power in my body change directly into electricity , I could rent myself out to the electric companies and with just the power in my body I could light all the lights and run all the factories in the entire United States for some days .
For if I knew the secret of letting this power in my body change directly into electricity , << I >> could rent myself out to the electric companies and with just the power in my body I could light all the lights and run all the factories in the entire United States for some days .
For if I knew the secret of letting this power in my body change directly into electricity , I could rent myself out to the electric companies and with just the power in my body << I >> could light all the lights and run all the factories in the entire United States for some days .
<< I >> have been trying to make this clear to my own class in chemistry .
One night there were some dried peas lying on our kitchen table , and these peas looked to << me >> like a little group of atoms ; ;
and << I >> asked myself a question : Suppose I had the same number of peas as there are atoms in my body , how large an area would they cover ? ?
and I asked myself a question : Suppose << I >> had the same number of peas as there are atoms in my body , how large an area would they cover ? ?
<< I >> calculated first that there are about an octillion atoms in the average human body ; ;
Then << I >> calculated that a million peas would just about fill a household refrigerator ; ;
<< I >> start growing rapidly and this calcium atom grows along with me .
I start growing rapidly and this calcium atom grows along with << me >> .
<< I >> shoot up through the roof , into the sky , past the clouds , through the stratosphere , out beyond the moon , out among the planets , until I am over a hundred and fifty million miles long .
I shoot up through the roof , into the sky , past the clouds , through the stratosphere , out beyond the moon , out among the planets , until << I >> am over a hundred and fifty million miles long .
If << I >> could put your body in an imaginary atomic press and squeeze you down , squeeze these holes out of you in the way we squeeze the holes out of a sponge , you would get smaller and smaller until finally when the last hole was gone , you would be smaller than the smallest speck of dust that you could see on this piece of paper .
Thereupon Hwang Pah said : `` If << I >> knew thou art an Arhat , I would have doubled you up before thou got over there '' ! !
Thereupon Hwang Pah said : `` If I knew thou art an Arhat , << I >> would have doubled you up before thou got over there '' ! !
`` Early this morning '' , replied the other , `` << I >> set out from India '' .
`` << I >> stopped '' , responded the man , `` several times to look at beautiful sceneries '' .
`` Thou mayst have supernatural powers '' , exclaimed Yang Shan , `` yet thou must give back the Spirit of Buddha to << me >> '' .
Then the monk praised Yang Shan saying : `` << I >> have come over to China in order to worship Manjucri , and met unexpectedly with Minor Shakya '' , and after giving the master some palm leaves he brought from India , went back through the air .
Do not wonder that << I >> said to thee , `` You must be born again '' .
for it is written , You shall be holy , because << I >> am holy .
<< I >> am convinced of this , that he who has begun a good work in you will bring it to perfection until the day of Christ Jesus .
`` Amen , amen , << I >> say to thee , unless a man be born again of water and the Spirit , he cannot enter into the kingdom of God .
Do not wonder that << I >> said to thee , ' You must be born again ' '' .
<< I >> came that they may have life .
It is now no longer << I >> that live , but Christ lives in me .
It is now no longer I that live , but Christ lives in << me >> .
And the life that << I >> now live in the flesh , I live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved me and gave himself up for me .
And the life that I now live in the flesh , << I >> live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved me and gave himself up for me .
And the life that I now live in the flesh , I live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved << me >> and gave himself up for me .
And the life that I now live in the flesh , I live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved me and gave himself up for << me >> .
Our blessed Lord Jesus Christ , the sinless Son of God , who could not lie , said , `` Amen , amen , << I >> say to thee , unless a man be born again , he cannot see the kingdom of God '' ( St. John 3 : 3 ) .
Being convinced that salvation is alone by accepting Christ as Saviour , and being convicted by the Holy Spirit of my lost condition , << I >> do repent of all effort to be saved by any form of good works , and just now receive Jesus as my personal Saviour and salvation as a free gift from Him .
He has said , `` Behold , << I >> stand at the door , and knock : if any man hear my voice , and open the door , I will come in to him , and will sup with him , and he with me '' ( Revelation 3:20 : :
He has said , `` Behold , I stand at the door , and knock : if any man hear my voice , and open the door , << I >> will come in to him , and will sup with him , and he with me '' ( Revelation 3:20 : :
He has said , `` Behold , I stand at the door , and knock : if any man hear my voice , and open the door , I will come in to him , and will sup with him , and he with << me >> '' ( Revelation 3:20 : :
<< I >> am a magazine ; ;
When you read << me >> , you are holding in your hands the product of many minds and hearts .
To << me >> , the explanation is very simple .
<< I >> am not doing anything , of myself .
<< I >> am merely a channel for something .
<< I >> cannot define it fully .
The crisis later on when debts seemed about to overwhelm << me >> .
Today more than a thousand industries distribute << me >> to their employees .
Hundreds of civic clubs , business firms and individuals make << me >> available to school teachers throughout the land .
Bedridden people say << I >> am easy to hold -- and read .
Throughout these exciting years << I >> have been fortunate for , although I have never offered great financial inducements , talent has found its way to me : William Boal who so ably organizes business operations ; ;
Throughout these exciting years I have been fortunate for , although << I >> have never offered great financial inducements , talent has found its way to me : William Boal who so ably organizes business operations ; ;
Throughout these exciting years I have been fortunate for , although I have never offered great financial inducements , talent has found its way to << me >> : William Boal who so ably organizes business operations ; ;
<< I >> need your support , your criticism , your encouragement , your prayers .
<< I >> am a magazine ; ;
At first << I >> was happy to throw the support of our newspaper behind this man .
<< I >> am sure that Castro was happy , too , about that support .
My own earliest memories are of exiles : my three brothers and << I >> were taken often to the United States `` to visit relatives '' while my father stayed on to fight the dictator Machado .
When it was my turn , << I >> , too , printed the truth as I knew it about Batista , and rejoiced to see his regime topple .
When it was my turn , I , too , printed the truth as << I >> knew it about Batista , and rejoiced to see his regime topple .
Within a week , however , << I >> began to suspect that something was wrong .
<< I >> had watched Castro handling his enemies before the paredon .
There was no doubt in my mind that if << I >> crossed him , mobs would appear outside our windows shouting `` Paredon ! !
<< I >> was proud of the new buildings which housed Diario now : the rotogravures , gleaming behind glass doors ; ;
Here was a powerful , ready-made medium , but it could speak only if << I >> told it to .
Then one day , early in January , 1960 , << I >> sat down at my desk , and suddenly I was aware of the crucifix .
Then one day , early in January , 1960 , I sat down at my desk , and suddenly << I >> was aware of the crucifix .
<< I >> had mounted it on velvet and hung it over my desk to remind me always to use the power of the paper in a Christian manner .
I had mounted it on velvet and hung it over my desk to remind << me >> always to use the power of the paper in a Christian manner .
Now it seemed almost as if Jesus were looking down at << me >> with sadness in His eyes , saying :
<< I >> knew in that moment that I did not have any choice .
I knew in that moment that << I >> did not have any choice .
From that day on << I >> began to write editorials about the things I did not think correct in Fidel Castro's regime .
From that day on I began to write editorials about the things << I >> did not think correct in Fidel Castro's regime .
The exercise << I >> shall discuss in this -- the first of a new series of articles on muscle definition-specialization of a particular body part -- is the One Leg Lunge .
Although << I >> suggested that you hold the bar at the back of the neck there's no reason why you shouldn't make some experiments with the bar held in front of the neck .
<< I >> sought out the gardener and asked him what he did to produce such beauties in that weather .
`` << I >> just love them '' , he said .
The more << I >> talked with him , the more convinced I became that that was the secret of their riotous blooming .
The more I talked with him , the more convinced << I >> became that that was the secret of their riotous blooming .
These specialists , << I >> learned , have done a great deal of work to improve the size and health of the plants and the resulting flowers .
<< I >> asked him if he took seeds from his own plants .
but pansy seeds , he told << me >> , soon `` run down '' .
<< I >> fingered it and had the feeling of adequacy that comes with the right texture , tilth and body .
<< I >> like to make a seedbed right in the open , though many people start them successfully in cold frames .
For my seedbed << I >> use good garden soil with a little sand added to encourage rooting .
<< I >> dig it , rake it smooth , sow the seeds and wet them down with a fog spray .
When the first sprinkling of green appears << I >> remove the board .
As soon as they are large enough to move , << I >> put mine 9 inches apart where they are to bloom .
<< I >> doubt if it is possible to overfeed them .
<< I >> spade lots of compost into their bed ; ;
One year << I >> simply set the plants in the remains of a compost pile , to which a little sand had been added , and I had the most beautiful pansies in my , or any of my neighbors' experience .
One year I simply set the plants in the remains of a compost pile , to which a little sand had been added , and << I >> had the most beautiful pansies in my , or any of my neighbors' experience .
<< I >> like hay for this and apply it so that only the tops of the plants show right after a good frost .
The pansies << I >> cherished most bloomed for me in February during a particularly cold winter .
The pansies I cherished most bloomed for << me >> in February during a particularly cold winter .
( An unheated greenhouse would have been better , if << I >> had had one .
<< I >> like to shear half my plants at a time , leaving one half of them to blossom while the second half is getting started on its new round of blooming .
Recently << I >> was struck anew by the divergent approaches , when in the course of one afternoon and evening I listened to no fewer than ten different performances .
Recently I was struck anew by the divergent approaches , when in the course of one afternoon and evening << I >> listened to no fewer than ten different performances .
But Schnabel was a great teacher in addition to being a great performer , and the fact that four of the ten versions << I >> listened to are by Schnabel pupils ( Clifford Curzon , Frank Glazer , Adrian Aeschbacher , and Victor Babin ) also sheds light on the master's pedagogical skills .
About the Pro Arte's contribution << I >> am less happy .
<< I >> , for one , rather regret that Schnabel didn't collaborate with the Budapest Quartet , whose rugged , athletic playing was a good deal closer to this pianist's interpretative outlook than the style of the Belgian group .
There is a break in continuity just before the fourth variation in the `` Forellen '' movement , and << I >> suspect that this is due to imperfect splicing between sides of the original Aj .
Every detail in his interpretation has been beautifully thought out , and of these << I >> would especially cite the delicious laendler touch the pianist brings to the fifth variation ( an obvious indication that he is playing with Viennese musicians ) , and the gossamer shading throughout .
Some of Curzon's playing strikes << me >> as finicky , however .
But having lived with the disc for some time now , << I >> find the performance less exciting than either Schnabel's or Fleisher's ( whose superb performance with the Budapest Quartet has still to be recorded ) and a good deal less filled with humor than Curzon's .
Returning once again to the Schnabel reissue , << I >> am beguiled anew by the magnificence of this pianist's musical penetration .
( Music often sounds best to << me >> when I can dress informally and sit in something more comfortable than a theatre seat .
( Music often sounds best to me when << I >> can dress informally and sit in something more comfortable than a theatre seat .
For << me >> it has more of both elements than the majority of its competitors .
So many times << I >> have wondered why veterinarians do not wipe the table clean before each new canine patient is placed on it for examination .
<< I >> wonder if anyone ever bothered to make the point that when it comes to boats and their motors , Americans excel over any country in the world in the long run .
Torrid Adios ( Torrid-Adios Molly ) is not so masculine as most of the colts , but << I >> like his type and he certainly is one of the best-gaited pacers on the grounds .
Blistered for curbs and laid off three weeks , he is coming along fine and looks like a pacer to << me >> .
The first time << I >> saw the latter filly she trotted by me and I noticed such a family resemblance that I said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' .
The first time I saw the latter filly she trotted by << me >> and I noticed such a family resemblance that I said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' .
The first time I saw the latter filly she trotted by me and << I >> noticed such a family resemblance that I said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' .
The first time I saw the latter filly she trotted by me and I noticed such a family resemblance that << I >> said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' .
<< I >> will be able to tell you more about this string of equines in the near future .
<< I >> have just seen Debonnie and Prompt Time work a mile in 2:34 , last quarter in :35.3 .
For << me >> , a changed barrel length or an improved stock doesn't constitute a truly new design .
At least five years ago , Tom Robinson of Marlin made up an over/under double rifle for << me >> in this caliber , using the now defunct Model 90 action in 20-gauge size .
But even without jacketed bullets , << I >> had enough faith in my double to take it on an opening-day deer hunt that first year .
Within half an hour << I >> jumped a six-point buck that hop-skipped through a rhododendron thicket , and I caught him just behind the left foreleg at 60 yards .
Within half an hour I jumped a six-point buck that hop-skipped through a rhododendron thicket , and << I >> caught him just behind the left foreleg at 60 yards .
<< I >> tested it in my scoped S & W and it was good enough to allow me to hit a chuck with every shot at 100 yards if I did my part by holding the handgun steadily .
I tested it in my scoped S & W and it was good enough to allow << me >> to hit a chuck with every shot at 100 yards if I did my part by holding the handgun steadily .
I tested it in my scoped S & W and it was good enough to allow me to hit a chuck with every shot at 100 yards if << I >> did my part by holding the handgun steadily .
It's extremely accurate for an auto , and the test rifle << I >> tried was completely trouble-free in functioning .
Jet -- which << I >> coupled with the Deerstalker carbine as one of the year's two biggest developments -- few significant innovations appeared among 1961's handguns .
<< I >> started my tour of them at the Turkish Government Tourist Office , next to Pan American's office on the left as you enter the driveway that leads to the Hilton Hotel .
Directly across from the Gardens << I >> found a bus stop sign for T 4 and rode it down to the Bosphorus , with the sports center on my left just before I reached the water and the entrance to Dolmabahce Palace immediately after that .
Directly across from the Gardens I found a bus stop sign for T 4 and rode it down to the Bosphorus , with the sports center on my left just before << I >> reached the water and the entrance to Dolmabahce Palace immediately after that .
Across the bridge on the left << I >> saw St. Sophia with its sturdy brown minarets and to the right of them the slenderer spires of the Blue Mosque .
On the other side of the Golden Horn << I >> rode through Eminonu Square , with Yeni Cami , or the New Mosque , which dates from the Seventeenth Century , just across from the entrance to the bridge .
<< I >> got off there , crossed the street , walked ahead with St. Sophia on my left , the Blue Mosque on my right , and in a moment came to the entrance of St. Sophia .
The eight green columns , << I >> learned , came from the Temple of Artemis at Ephesus , the others , red , from the Temple of the Sun at Heliopolis .
Beneath the dome << I >> saw the spot where the Byzantine Emperors were crowned , a bit of floor protected now by a wooden fence .
Outside St. Sophia << I >> walked through the flower garden in front of it , with the Blue Mosque ahead on my left .
Across the street on my right << I >> saw the Hippodrome , now a park .
Just before coming to the mosque entrance << I >> crossed the street , entered the Hippodrome , and walked ahead to the Obelisk of Theodosius , originally erected in Heliopolis in Egypt about 1,600 B.C. by Thutmose , who also built those now in New York , London and Rome at the Lateran .
Beyond it << I >> noted a small green column , about twelve feet below the present ground level -- the Serpentine Column , three entwined serpents , which once stood at the Temple of Apollo at Delphi , Greece .
Near the end of the Hippodrome << I >> came upon the Built Column , a truncated obelisk of blocks , all that remains of a monument that once rivalled the Colossus of Rhodes .
Back at the Kaiser's Fountain , << I >> walked left to the streetcar stop and rode up the hill -- any car will do -- past the Column of Constantine , also known as the Burnt Column , at the top on my right .
<< I >> stayed on the car for a few minutes until , turning right , it entered a huge square , Bayezit , with the Bayezit Mosque on the right and the gate to the university just beyond it .
There << I >> got off , crossed the square , and on the side directly opposite the gate found a good restaurant , hard to come by in this part of the city .
After lunch , in the arcade on my left just before reaching the street << I >> found a pastry shop that sells some of the best baklava -- a sweet , flaky cake -- in Istanbul .
Taking the streetcar back to Kaiser's Fountain , << I >> walked ahead , then left down the street opposite St. Sophia and just beyond the corner came to a small , one-story building with a red-tile roof , which is the entrance to the Sunken Palace .
<< I >> found it fairly depressing and emerged almost immediately .
Just before reaching it << I >> came to a grey and brown stone building that looks somewhat like an Oriental pagoda , with Arabic lettering in gold and colored tile decorations -- the Fountain of Sultan Ahmet .
Going through the Imperial Gate in the wall , << I >> entered the grounds of Topkapi Palace , home of the Sultans and nerve center of the vast Ottoman Empire , and walked along a road toward another gate in the distance , past the Church of St. Irene , completed by Constantine in 330 A.D. on my left , and then , just outside the second gate , I saw a spring with a tap in the wall on my right -- the Executioner's Spring , where he washed his hands and his sword after beheading his victims .
Going through the Imperial Gate in the wall , I entered the grounds of Topkapi Palace , home of the Sultans and nerve center of the vast Ottoman Empire , and walked along a road toward another gate in the distance , past the Church of St. Irene , completed by Constantine in 330 A.D. on my left , and then , just outside the second gate , << I >> saw a spring with a tap in the wall on my right -- the Executioner's Spring , where he washed his hands and his sword after beheading his victims .
Passing through the gate , with towers on either side once used as prisons , << I >> entered a huge square surrounded by buildings , and on the wall to my right found a general plan of the grounds , with explanations in English for each building .
Following arrowed signs , << I >> veered right toward the former kitchens , complete with chimneys , which now house one of the world's greatest collections of Chinese porcelain and a fabulous array of silver dinner services .
In the court once more , << I >> went right toward the Reception House , a long one-story building with a deep portico .
Going through a door into another small court , << I >> had the Throne Room directly in front .
Taking the path behind the Throne Room to the building directly beyond it , the Portrait Gallery , << I >> went right at the end of it , through a garden to a small building at the back -- a sitting room furnished with low blue divans , its floor covered with carpets , its ceiling painted with gold squares and floral designs .
You only have to think of franks and sausages to know what << I >> mean .
The aluminum , flush against the battens , acted as a fairing stick and enabled << me >> to plane the chines and keelson to the proper bevels easily .
<< I >> used a Homemaster Routo-Jig made by Porter Cable for this job .
<< I >> used bright red , mixing the pigment in thoroughly before adding the hardener .
<< I >> set it on the Gator trailer .
For added strength , << I >> also fastened a small block on each side of every frame and batten joint .
A head is a handy thing to have and << I >> installed one under a removable section of the port bunk .
For padding the seats and bunks , << I >> used Ensolite , Type Aj .
In this sequence << I >> shall write about them in the order of their erection .
Your invitation to write about Serge Prokofieff to honor his 70th Anniversary for the April issue of Sovietskaya Muzyka is accepted with pleasure , because << I >> admire the music of Prokofieff ; ;
<< I >> myself was one of the skeptics ( 35 years ago ) .
<< I >> remember Ernest Bloch in the foyer , shouting in his high-pitched voice : `` it may be a tour de force , mais mon Dieu , can anyone take this music seriously '' ? ?
<< I >> think the answer is to be found in Prokofieff's own words : `` the clarity must be new , not old '' .
More often than not << I >> have found easy excuse to leave my own work and stand at a respectable distance where I could watch this man transform raw nature into a composed , not imitative , painting .
More often than not I have found easy excuse to leave my own work and stand at a respectable distance where << I >> could watch this man transform raw nature into a composed , not imitative , painting .
What << I >> have observed time and time again is a process of integration , integration that begins as abstract design and gradually takes on recognizable form ; ;
`` Of late years , << I >> find that I like best to work out-of-doors .
`` Of late years , I find that << I >> like best to work out-of-doors .
First << I >> make preliminary watercolor sketches in quarter scale ( approximately Af inches ) in which I pay particular attention to the design principles of three simple values -- the lightest light , the middle tone , and the darkest dark -- by reducing the forms of my subject to these large patterns .
First I make preliminary watercolor sketches in quarter scale ( approximately Af inches ) in which << I >> pay particular attention to the design principles of three simple values -- the lightest light , the middle tone , and the darkest dark -- by reducing the forms of my subject to these large patterns .
If a human figure or wild life are to be part of the projected final picture , << I >> try to place them in the initial sketch .
`` << I >> am thoroughly convinced that most watercolors suffer because the artist expects nature will do his composing for him ; ;
`` If << I >> have seemed to emphasize the structure of the composition , I mean to project equal concern for color .
`` If I have seemed to emphasize the structure of the composition , << I >> mean to project equal concern for color .
When this occurs , << I >> make the change on the sketch or on the final watercolor -- if I have been working on a full sheet in the field .
When this occurs , I make the change on the sketch or on the final watercolor -- if << I >> have been working on a full sheet in the field .
When this linear draft is completed , << I >> dust it down to a faint image .
From this point , << I >> paint in as direct a manner as possible , by flowing on the washes with as pure a color mixture as I can manage .
From this point , I paint in as direct a manner as possible , by flowing on the washes with as pure a color mixture as << I >> can manage .
However , first << I >> thoughtfully study my sketch for improvement of color and design along the lines I have described .
However , first I thoughtfully study my sketch for improvement of color and design along the lines << I >> have described .
Then << I >> plan my attack : the parts I will finish first , the range of values , the accenting of minor details -- all in all , mechanics of producing the finished job with a maximum of crispness .
Then I plan my attack : the parts << I >> will finish first , the range of values , the accenting of minor details -- all in all , mechanics of producing the finished job with a maximum of crispness .
`` As for materials , << I >> use the best available .
<< I >> work on a watercolor easel in the field , and frequently resort to a large garden umbrella to protect my eyes from undue strain .
In my studio << I >> work at a tilt-top table , but leave the paper unfixed so that I can move it freely to control the washes .
In my studio I work at a tilt-top table , but leave the paper unfixed so that << I >> can move it freely to control the washes .
After selecting a sheet and inspecting it for flaws ( even the best sometimes has foreign ' nubbins ' on its surface ) , << I >> sponge it thoroughly on both sides with clean , cold water .
Then << I >> dry the sheet under mild pressure so that it will lie flat as a board .
`` In addition to the usual tools , << I >> make constant use of cleansing tissue , not only to wipe my brushes , but to mop up certain areas , to soften edges , and to open up lights in dark washes .
`` My brushes are different from those used by most watercolorists , for << I >> combine the sable and the bristle .
When << I >> looked up the actual date of his birth and found it to be March 15th , I realized that Roy was born under the right zodiacal sign for a watercolorist : the water sign of Pisces ( February 18 thru March 20 ) .
When I looked up the actual date of his birth and found it to be March 15th , << I >> realized that Roy was born under the right zodiacal sign for a watercolorist : the water sign of Pisces ( February 18 thru March 20 ) .
<< I >> lived in this onward-driving contest where each day overcame a new difficulty , gained a new truth , or banished a previous error '' .
As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes << I >> have invented , I have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen I used 30 ) and intend to carry it with me '' .
As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes I have invented , << I >> have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen I used 30 ) and intend to carry it with me '' .
As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes I have invented , I have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen << I >> used 30 ) and intend to carry it with me '' .
As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes I have invented , I have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen I used 30 ) and intend to carry it with << me >> '' .
<< I >> suppose it is because we are just not big enough .
We have not yet succeeded in establishing recognition of technical specialization comparable to our higher levels of management , but << I >> believe we will trend in this direction but not to exceed vice-president '' .
Just about the most enthralling real-life example of meeting cute is the Charles MacArthur-Helen Hayes saga : reputedly all he did was give her a handful of peanuts , but he said simultaneously , `` << I >> wish they were emeralds '' .
Conclusions : The people involved ( and subsequent facts bear << me >> out here ) knew clearly the relative values of peanuts and emeralds , both monetary and sentimental .
Immediately thereafter , the patient fractures her rehearsed story , veering into an oversoft , breathy , sloppily articulated , `` << I >> don't feel like talking right now '' .
She says later , but still within the opening five minutes , `` << I >> keep thinking of a divorce but that's another emotional death '' .
Stammering or repetition of << I >> , you , he , she , et cetera may signal ambiguity or uncertainty .
On the other hand significant facts may be concealed -- she may mean << I >> or everybody , as it did with the tense and irritable woman mentioned before , may refer to a specific person .
When someone says , for example , `` They took x-rays to see that there was nothing wrong with << me >> '' , it pays to consider how this statement would normally be made .
<< I >> have been loath to believe that any nation , even our present enemies , could or would be willing to loose upon mankind such terrible and inhumane weapons .
This country has not used them , and << I >> hope that we never will be compelled to use them .
<< I >> state categorically that we shall under no circumstances resort to the use of such weapons unless they are first used by our enemies '' .
You explain , `` << I >> have the strangest feeling of having lived through this very same event before .
Rudyard Kipling's scorn for the `` jargon '' of psychical research was altered somewhat when he wondered `` how , or why , had << I >> been shown an unreleased roll of my life film '' ? ?
<< I >> recall the startling , vivid realism of a dream in which I lived through the horror of the bombing of a little Korean town .
I recall the startling , vivid realism of a dream in which << I >> lived through the horror of the bombing of a little Korean town .
<< I >> am sure that nothing within me is capable of composing that life-like sequence , so complete in detail , from the hodge-podge of news pictures I have seen .
I am sure that nothing within << me >> is capable of composing that life-like sequence , so complete in detail , from the hodge-podge of news pictures I have seen .
I am sure that nothing within me is capable of composing that life-like sequence , so complete in detail , from the hodge-podge of news pictures << I >> have seen .
Became `` Yes , the first half hour is tough , but by then I'm so numb << I >> don't notice it '' ! !
How did << I >> get to be sixty-five so fast ? ?
What do << I >> do now '' ? ?
What am << I >> going to do ? ?
Where do << I >> go from here ? ?
It seems to << me >> , the first thing you've got to do , to be happy , is to face up to your problems , no matter what they may be .
One thing , << I >> am sure of , you must get an interest in life .
Many of you will say , `` Well , what can << I >> do '' ? ?
Believe << me >> ! !
<< I >> , frankly , can't draw a straight line .
When you see a needle in my hands you will know the family buttons have fallen off and << I >> have to sew them back on , or get out the safety pins .
Not for << me >> , but perhaps just the thing for you .
<< I >> can look at furniture in one spot year in and year out and really feel for sure that's where it belongs .
Ever since << I >> was a child , I have always had a yen to try my hand at writing .
Ever since I was a child , << I >> have always had a yen to try my hand at writing .
Few new writers have their first story accepted , so they tell << me >> .
<< I >> can hear some of you folks protesting .
<< I >> haven't got that kind of money '' .
As for << me >> , I am holding in reserve two huge puzzles ( I love puzzles ) to put together when time hangs heavy on my hands .
As for me , << I >> am holding in reserve two huge puzzles ( I love puzzles ) to put together when time hangs heavy on my hands .
As for me , I am holding in reserve two huge puzzles ( << I >> love puzzles ) to put together when time hangs heavy on my hands .
<< I >> just don't have time to do half the things I want to do now .
I just don't have time to do half the things << I >> want to do now .
So in closing , fellow retired members , << I >> advise you to make the most of each day , enjoy each one to the n'th degree .
<< I >> never gave that boy a cent .
<< I >> am not a prostitute , and I had only one very wealthy boy friend '' , she said .
I am not a prostitute , and << I >> had only one very wealthy boy friend '' , she said .
After a few minutes he said , `` << I >> can't use you if you dance like that .
`` << I >> think that maybe she wanted it this way '' , a vice squad cop said .
<< I >> am a carpet salesman .
<< I >> work for one of the biggest chains of retail carpet houses in the East .
From where << I >> sit it looks more like a nightmare .
People come to << me >> with confidence .
`` You didn't tell << me >> I had cancer '' .
`` You didn't tell me << I >> had cancer '' .
`` Neither << me >> nor my wife were helped by that chiropractor's treatments '' .
If he is not told which of four or five readings was meant for him , he can more readily assess each item in a larger frame : `` Does that statement really sound as if it were for << me >> , significant in my particular life ? ?
`` << I >> feel cold '' , the medium says , or `` My leg aches '' , `` My head is heavy '' .
Simply using it increases its intensity , << I >> was told by one sensitive .
One wrote : `` ( << I >> am so hungry ) I could eat a rider off his horse & snap at the stirups '' .
One wrote : `` ( I am so hungry ) << I >> could eat a rider off his horse & snap at the stirups '' .
After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if << I >> did not write and receive letters from you I believe that I would forgit that I was married .
After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if I did not write and receive letters from you << I >> believe that I would forgit that I was married .
After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if I did not write and receive letters from you I believe that << I >> would forgit that I was married .
After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if I did not write and receive letters from you I believe that I would forgit that << I >> was married .
<< I >> don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive me as I am so forgitful '' .
I don't feel much like a maryed man but << I >> never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive me as I am so forgitful '' .
I don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if << I >> should you must forgive me as I am so forgitful '' .
I don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive << me >> as I am so forgitful '' .
I don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive me as << I >> am so forgitful '' .
A Yank , disturbed by his increasing corpulence , wrote : `` << I >> am growing so fat I am a burden 2 myself '' .
A Yank , disturbed by his increasing corpulence , wrote : `` I am growing so fat << I >> am a burden 2 myself '' .
if they should bite before << I >> wake , I pray the Lord their jaws to break '' .
if they should bite before I wake , << I >> pray the Lord their jaws to break '' .
`` << I >> expect to be tough as a knott as soon as I get over the Georgia Shitts '' .
`` I expect to be tough as a knott as soon as << I >> get over the Georgia Shitts '' .
A Georgia soldier gave his wife the following description of the cause and consequence of diarrhoea : `` << I >> have bin a little sick with diorah two or three days .
<< I >> eat too much eggs and poark .
A Michigan soldier wrote his brother : `` << I >> am well at present with the exception I have got the Dyerear and I hope thease few lines find you the same '' .
A Michigan soldier wrote his brother : `` I am well at present with the exception << I >> have got the Dyerear and I hope thease few lines find you the same '' .
A Michigan soldier wrote his brother : `` I am well at present with the exception I have got the Dyerear and << I >> hope thease few lines find you the same '' .
A Yank writing from Vicksburg , May 28 , 1863 , stated : `` not less than 50 balls have passed over << me >> since I commenced writing .
A Yank writing from Vicksburg , May 28 , 1863 , stated : `` not less than 50 balls have passed over me since << I >> commenced writing .
<< I >> could tell you of plenty narrow escapes , but we take no notice of them now '' .
Just count each blot a dodge and add in a few for << I >> don't dodge every time '' .
Another Reb writing under similar circumstances before Atlanta reported : `` the Yankees keep shooting so << I >> am afraid they will knock over my ink , so I will close '' .
Another Reb writing under similar circumstances before Atlanta reported : `` the Yankees keep shooting so I am afraid they will knock over my ink , so << I >> will close '' .
An Alabama soldier whose feminine associations were of the more admirable type wrote boastfully of his achievements among the Virginia belles : `` they thout << I >> was a saint .
<< I >> would tell them I got a letter from home stating that five of my Negroes had runaway and ten of Pappy's .
I would tell them << I >> got a letter from home stating that five of my Negroes had runaway and ten of Pappy's .
But << I >> wold say I recond he did not mind it for he had a plenty more left and then they would lean to me like a sore eyd kitten to a basin of milk '' .
But I wold say << I >> recond he did not mind it for he had a plenty more left and then they would lean to me like a sore eyd kitten to a basin of milk '' .
But I wold say I recond he did not mind it for he had a plenty more left and then they would lean to << me >> like a sore eyd kitten to a basin of milk '' .
<< I >> think you made a dam good chouise to turn off as nise a feler as Alf Dyer and let that orney thefin , drunkard , damed card playing sun of a bich com to sea you , the god damed theaf and lop yeard pigen tode helion , he is too orney for hel .
<< I >> will shute him as shore as I sea him '' .
I will shute him as shore as << I >> sea him '' .
On December 9 , 1862 , Sergeant Edwin H. Fay , an unusual Louisianan who held A.B. and M.A. degrees from Harvard University and who before the war was headmaster of a private school for boys in Louisiana , wrote his wife : `` << I >> saw Pemberton and he is the most insignificant puke I ever saw .
On December 9 , 1862 , Sergeant Edwin H. Fay , an unusual Louisianan who held A.B. and M.A. degrees from Harvard University and who before the war was headmaster of a private school for boys in Louisiana , wrote his wife : `` I saw Pemberton and he is the most insignificant puke << I >> ever saw .
Private George Gray Hunter of Pennsylvania wrote : `` << I >> am well convinced in my own mind that had it not been for officers this war would have ended long ago '' .
Another Yankee became so disgusted as to state : `` << I >> wish to God one half of our officers were knocked in the head by slinging them against ( the other half ) '' .
<< I >> insisted on takeing the field and prevailed -- thinking that I had better die by rebel bullets than ( by ) Union quackery '' .
I insisted on takeing the field and prevailed -- thinking that << I >> had better die by rebel bullets than ( by ) Union quackery '' .
A Pennsylvania soldier wrote that `` they were the hardest looking set of men that ever << I >> saw .
'' Private Jenkins Lloyd Jones of the Wisconsin Light Artillery wrote in his diary : `` << I >> strolled among the Alabamans on the right , found some of the greenest specimens of humanity I think in the universe , their ignorance being little less than the slave they despise with as imperfect a dialect .
'' Private Jenkins Lloyd Jones of the Wisconsin Light Artillery wrote in his diary : `` I strolled among the Alabamans on the right , found some of the greenest specimens of humanity << I >> think in the universe , their ignorance being little less than the slave they despise with as imperfect a dialect .
In a similar vein , but writing from the opposite side , Thomas Taylor , a private in the 6th Alabama Volunteers , in a letter to his wife , stated : `` you know that my heart is with you but << I >> never could have been satisfied to have staid at home when my country is invaded by a thievin foe , by a set of cowardly skunks whose motto is Booty .
He was also personally active in ward politics , and by 1924 O'Banion had acquired sufficient political might to be able to state : `` << I >> always deliver my borough as per requirements '' .
`` But when << I >> arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters I had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , I knew I had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' .
`` But when I arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters << I >> had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , I knew I had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' .
`` But when I arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters I had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , << I >> knew I had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' .
`` But when I arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters I had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , I knew << I >> had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' .
Why , << I >> can get them knocked off for half that much '' .
But in the meantime the beer-runner , unhappy with this solution , telephoned Torrio and returned to O'Banion with the message : `` Say , Dionie , << I >> just been talking to Johnny , and he said to let them cops have the three hundred .
`` Follow << me >> '' .
<< I >> do not mean to suggest that these assumptions are self-evident , in the sense that everyone agrees with them .
<< I >> do mean , however , that I take them for granted , and that everything I shall be saying would appear quite idiotic against any contrary assumptions .
I do mean , however , that << I >> take them for granted , and that everything I shall be saying would appear quite idiotic against any contrary assumptions .
I do mean , however , that I take them for granted , and that everything << I >> shall be saying would appear quite idiotic against any contrary assumptions .
<< I >> speak of `` the largest possible measure '' because any person who supposes that these conditions can be universally and perfectly achieved -- ever -- reckons without the inherent imperfectability of himself and his fellow human beings , and is therefore a dangerous man to have around .
<< I >> submit that this is the key problem of international relations , that it always has been , that it always will be .
In the recent political campaign two charges were leveled affecting the question of power , and << I >> think we might begin by trying to put them into proper focus .
You may have misgivings about certain aspects of our military establishment -- << I >> certainly do -- but you know any comparison of over-all American strength with over-all Soviet strength finds the United States not only superior , but so superior both in present weapons and in the development of new ones that our advantage promises to be a permanent feature of U.S.-Soviet relations for the foreseeable future .
<< I >> have often searched for a graphic way of impressing our superiority on those Americans who have doubts , and I think Mr. Jameson Campaigne has done it well in his new book American Might And Soviet Myth .
I have often searched for a graphic way of impressing our superiority on those Americans who have doubts , and << I >> think Mr. Jameson Campaigne has done it well in his new book American Might And Soviet Myth .
This ignorant estimate , << I >> repeat , is not of any interest in itself ; ;
Here << I >> do not speak of military power where our advantage is obvious and overwhelming but of political power -- of influence , if you will -- about which the relevant questions are : Is Soviet influence throughout the world greater or less than it was ten years ago ? ?
The first rattle of the machine guns , at 7:10 in the evening , roused around << me >> the varied voices and faces of fear .
The middle-aged man said over and over , `` Why did << I >> come here , why did I come here '' .
The middle-aged man said over and over , `` Why did I come here , why did << I >> come here '' .
Amid the crackle of small arms and automatic weapons , << I >> heard the thumping of mortars .
Where should << I >> go ? ?
`` Let's play hero '' , << I >> said .
But everyone << I >> met had sought cover first and asked questions later .
<< I >> saw holes in planes at the airport and in cars in the streets .
We talked after << I >> hailed his Jeep marked with the U.N. flag .
In Keng Kok , the City of Silkworms , the Prime Minister bought fried chickens and fried cicadas , and two notebooks for << me >> .
<< I >> was careful to keep my feet , the seat of the least worthy spirits , from pointing at anyone's head , where the worthiest spirits reside .
John said : `` << I >> have some antiseptic salve with me , but it's too late for that '' .
John said : `` I have some antiseptic salve with << me >> , but it's too late for that '' .
When << I >> pressed for a purely religious definition , I encountered the familiar blend of liberal piety , interfaith good will , and a small residue of ethnic loyalty .
When I pressed for a purely religious definition , << I >> encountered the familiar blend of liberal piety , interfaith good will , and a small residue of ethnic loyalty .
`` << I >> like to follow the holidays when they come along .
As << I >> see it , there's no real difference between being Jewish , Catholic , or Protestant '' .
Nevertheless , most of the teen-agers << I >> interviewed believed in maintaining their Jewish identity and even envisioned joining a synagogue or temple .
`` << I >> want to show respect for my parents' religion '' was the way in which a boy justified his inhabiting a halfway house of Judaism .
Most of the teen-agers << I >> interviewed rejected it on pragmatic grounds .
It is significant , too , that the older teen-agers << I >> interviewed believed , unlike the younger ones , that Jewish students tend to do better academically than their gentile counterparts .
Of course , << I >> would like to go to an out-of-town school where there are all kinds of people , but I would want lots of Jewish kids there '' .
Of course , I would like to go to an out-of-town school where there are all kinds of people , but << I >> would want lots of Jewish kids there '' .
It's so much trouble , << I >> don't usually bother '' .
at least << I >> have only one remedy for anything of this kind in my collection , one for hastening delayed menstruation .
Many people agreed that burns should be treated with bland oily salves or unsalted butter or lard , but one informant told << me >> that a burn should be bathed in salt water ; ;
My lawyer told << me >> that his mother used a similar remedy for cuts and wounds ; ;
He showed << me >> one of his fingers which had been practically amputated and which his mother had treated ; ;
One old man told << me >> that when he was a boy he was kicked in the head by a fractious mule and had his scalp laid back from the entire front of his head .
A German informant gave << me >> a sure cure made by combining rye flour and molasses into a poultice .
One young girl told << me >> how her mother removed a wart from her finger by soaking a copper penny in vinegar for three days and then painting the finger with the liquid several times .
<< I >> know this worked .
One person recommended to << me >> washing the wart with sulphur water ; ;
Leg cramps , one person tells << me >> , were relieved by standing barefoot with the weight of the body on the heel and pressing down hard .
`` << I >> considered that your views would be best carried out '' , he explained , `` by taking women whose progeny will of course be free & more fully extend the philantrophy of Emancipation .
In New York , Lydia Maria Child welcomed him enthusiastically : `` << I >> have lately heard of you from the Legislature of Louisiana , and felt joy at your public recognition of the brotherhood of man '' .
Instead of the expected `` annoyances '' due to the nature of his mission , he received many calling cards and invitations from `` gentlemen of mark , on whom << I >> had no sort of claim , & have had many more invitations than I could accept '' .
Instead of the expected `` annoyances '' due to the nature of his mission , he received many calling cards and invitations from `` gentlemen of mark , on whom I had no sort of claim , & have had many more invitations than << I >> could accept '' .
( `` It is always of sorrow to << me >> when I find people who neither know nor understand music '' , he declared not long ago in proposing that White House prizes be awarded for music and art .
( `` It is always of sorrow to me when << I >> find people who neither know nor understand music '' , he declared not long ago in proposing that White House prizes be awarded for music and art .
Morse testified that while he was having breakfast in the dining room , Mrs. Borden told the servant , `` Bridget , << I >> want you to wash these windows today '' .
She replied , `` << I >> know of one man that has not been friendly with him .
When << I >> interviewed Kirby , who as a boy picked up pears in the Borden yard , I asked if anybody else in the household besides Lizzie and Morse had been under any suspicion at the time of the murders .
When I interviewed Kirby , who as a boy picked up pears in the Borden yard , << I >> asked if anybody else in the household besides Lizzie and Morse had been under any suspicion at the time of the murders .
<< I >> inquired .
<< I >> have previously described how , during the week of the murder , Bridget spent the first few hot days scrubbing and ironing clothes .
Do you think << I >> might profitably study some of the history you do , perhaps two weeks behind you .
Many years later ( on August 3 , 1915 ) , Lucy Upton wrote Winslow's daughter soon to be graduated from Smith College : `` While << I >> love botany which , after dabbling in for years , I studied according to the methods of that day exactly forty years ago in a summer school , it must be fascinating to take up zoology in the way you are doing .
Many years later ( on August 3 , 1915 ) , Lucy Upton wrote Winslow's daughter soon to be graduated from Smith College : `` While I love botany which , after dabbling in for years , << I >> studied according to the methods of that day exactly forty years ago in a summer school , it must be fascinating to take up zoology in the way you are doing .
She read Maitland's Dark Ages , `` which << I >> enjoyed very much '' ; ;
When Dr. Wallace Buttrick , wise in his judgment of people , declined to have the Science Building named for him , he wrote Miss Tapley ( April 7 , 1923 ) `` If you had asked << me >> , I think I would have suggested that you name the building for Miss Upton .
When Dr. Wallace Buttrick , wise in his judgment of people , declined to have the Science Building named for him , he wrote Miss Tapley ( April 7 , 1923 ) `` If you had asked me , << I >> think I would have suggested that you name the building for Miss Upton .
When Dr. Wallace Buttrick , wise in his judgment of people , declined to have the Science Building named for him , he wrote Miss Tapley ( April 7 , 1923 ) `` If you had asked me , I think << I >> would have suggested that you name the building for Miss Upton .
Her services to the School for many years were of a very high character , and << I >> have often thought that one of the buildings should be named for her '' .
<< I >> make no attempt to measure the enduring satisfaction and material well-being of a man who went to work on graduation from high school and was highly successful in the business which he entered .
Quite the contrary , as << I >> can testify from personal experience as a former university president .
<< I >> intend to include under the term all the practical courses open to boys and girls .
One has to talk confidentially with some of the directors of vocational high schools to realize that a boy cannot just say , `` << I >> want to be a plumber '' , and then , by doing good work , find a job .
Two stories will illustrate what << I >> have in mind .
In a far distant part of the United States , << I >> was talking to an instructor about a boy who in the twelfth grade was doing special work .
<< I >> asked .
`` He'll have no difficulty '' , << I >> was told .
<< I >> discovered in the course of a visit there that almost all the pupils were Negroes .
`` That's the Colonel '' , he said , `` But << I >> can't see the dogs '' .
Why she doesn't charge him , << I >> don't know .
She was standing on a flat rock three feet above ground and when she saw him she rose to full height and roared , opening her mouth wide , lashing her tail , and stamping at the rock with both forefeet in irritation , as much as to say : `` How dare you disturb << me >> in my sacred precinct '' ? ?
`` Why , no , ma'am '' , he replied , `` this church belongs to << me >> '' ! !
As long as the bar prefers to adduce evidence by written deposition , rather than viva voce before an authoritative judicial officer , << I >> fear that the antiquated rules will remain unchanged , and expensive prolixity remain the best known characteristic of Equity '' .
`` << I >> am satisfied that in the Selden case had this power existed and this course ( been ) pursued , it would have shortened the depositions of some of the experts nearly one-half and of some of the other witnesses thereto more than that '' .
One manufacturer who held an allegedly basic patent said : `` << I >> would readily put over $50,000 into the manufacture of the device , but it is so easy to make that we would enter immediately into a prolonged ordeal of patent litigation which would eat up all our profits '' .
<< I >> once tried to describe to a very well-known American intellectual the conditions among Negroes in the South .
and he asked << me >> in perfect innocence , `` Why don't all the Negroes in the South move North '' ? ?
<< I >> tried to explain what has happened , unfailingly , whenever a significant body of Negroes move North .
This is precisely what happened when the Puerto Ricans arrived in their thousands -- and the bitterness thus caused is , as << I >> write , being fought out all up and down those streets .
<< I >> know Negroes who prefer the South and white Southerners , because `` At least there , you haven't got to play any guessing games '' ! !
<< I >> know another Negro , a man very dear to me , who says , with conviction and with truth , `` The spirit of the South is the spirit of America '' .
I know another Negro , a man very dear to << me >> , who says , with conviction and with truth , `` The spirit of the South is the spirit of America '' .
He did not , as far as << I >> can gather , find the South `` worse '' ; ;
<< I >> had intended to be there myself .
<< I >> was curious about the impact of this political assassination on Negroes in Harlem , for Lumumba had -- has -- captured the popular imagination there .
<< I >> was curious to know if Lumumba's death , which is surely among the most sinister of recent events , would elicit from `` our '' side anything more than the usual , well-meaning rhetoric .
Had << I >> been there , I , too , in the eyes of most Americans , would have been merely a pawn in the hands of the Communists .
Had I been there , << I >> , too , in the eyes of most Americans , would have been merely a pawn in the hands of the Communists .
<< I >> find this view amazing .
The first question is : Would << I >> like to live here ? ?
Unless one takes refuge in the theory -- however disguised -- that Negroes are , somehow , different from white people , << I >> do not see how one can escape the conclusion that the Negro's status in this country is not only a cruel injustice but a grave national liability .
Now , << I >> do not doubt that , among the people at the U.N. that day , there were Stalinist and professional revolutionists acting out of the most cynical motives .
What << I >> find appalling -- and really dangerous -- is the American assumption that the Negro is so contented with his lot here that only the cynical agents of a foreign power can rouse him to protest .
And that Menshikov replied : `` Just call << me >> Mike '' .
`` This is where << I >> get my information from '' , he confided .
The next day << I >> visited International Christian College which has developed since the war under the leadership of people who were interned and who know Japan well .
In the afternoon Miss Hosaka and her mother invited << me >> to go with them and young Mrs. Kodama to see the famous Spring dances of the Geisha dancers .
The dances were as beautiful as anything << I >> have ever seen -- they rival the New York Rockettes for scenery and precision as well as imagination .
Because Don was leaving the next day , << I >> spent the evening with him at Asia Center .
The following morning Mr. Morikawa called for << me >> , and we went to visit schools -- kindergarten , middle-school , elementary school , and high school -- Mr. Yoshimoto's school .
There is much more freedom in the schools here than << I >> expected -- some think too much .
<< I >> was told that it is quite likely that Japanese soldiers would not fight again -- for why should they ? ?
They suggested several new foods , and usually << I >> found them good , except the sweets , which I think I could learn to like .
They suggested several new foods , and usually I found them good , except the sweets , which << I >> think I could learn to like .
They suggested several new foods , and usually I found them good , except the sweets , which I think << I >> could learn to like .
After a day at Nikko , Mrs. Kodama put << me >> on the train for Kyoto .
My instructions were that Mr. Nishimo would meet << me >> at the hotel , but instead he and three others were at the station with a very warm welcome .
They understood and teased << me >> a bit about it .
<< I >> think I would have been much disappointed in Japan if I had not seen Kyoto , Nara , and Hiroshima .
I think << I >> would have been much disappointed in Japan if I had not seen Kyoto , Nara , and Hiroshima .
I think I would have been much disappointed in Japan if << I >> had not seen Kyoto , Nara , and Hiroshima .
<< I >> arrived at 7:00 a.m. and by 9:00 a.m. I had finished breakfast and was on my way to see what they had planned .
I arrived at 7:00 a.m. and by 9:00 a.m. << I >> had finished breakfast and was on my way to see what they had planned .
We visited the Okamoto home -- where for the first time << I >> saw the famous tea ceremony .
After a supper of unagi ( rice with eel -- eel which is raised in an ice-cold pond at the foot of Mt. Fuji ) , << I >> returned to my beautiful room to sleep as hard as possible to be ready for another busy day .
<< I >> was amazed at the very poor hospital facilities accompanying the medical school .
They apologized for the condition , including dirt and flies , and << I >> was a little at a loss to know what to say .
<< I >> don't have the answer yet .
We had tea at Mr. Washizu's home where << I >> learned that he , too , comes from a very wealthy family .
He had displayed more of them than usual so that << I >> could enjoy them .
Mr. Nishima went with << me >> on the train to Nara .
In Nara << I >> stayed at the hotel where the Prince and Princess had stayed on their honeymoon .
A new red carpet had been laid for their coming , but << I >> walked on it , too .
In the evening both of the men went with << me >> on the train 30 miles to Osaka to put me on the train for Hiroshima .
In the evening both of the men went with me on the train 30 miles to Osaka to put << me >> on the train for Hiroshima .
Again the plan was for << me >> to go alone , but they wouldn't let me .
Again the plan was for me to go alone , but they wouldn't let << me >> .
At Osaka , Mr. Yoneda had to leave us to get the train to his home , but Mr. Nishima and << I >> had an hour and a half before train time to see Osaka at night .
One spot in Osaka << I >> shall always remember -- the bridge where we stood to watch the reflections of the elaborate neon signs in the still waters of the river .
<< I >> had planned to go to the hotel by taxi and sleep a little , after which Mr. Uno would arrive and pilot me around .
I had planned to go to the hotel by taxi and sleep a little , after which Mr. Uno would arrive and pilot << me >> around .
<< I >> know now why the students insisted that I go to Hiroshima even when I told them I didn't want to .
I know now why the students insisted that << I >> go to Hiroshima even when I told them I didn't want to .
I know now why the students insisted that I go to Hiroshima even when << I >> told them I didn't want to .
I know now why the students insisted that I go to Hiroshima even when I told them << I >> didn't want to .
They knew that << I >> was still grieving over the tragic event , and they felt that if I could see the recovery and the spirit of the people , who hold no grudge , but who also regret Pearl Harbor , I would be happier and would understand better a new Japan .
They knew that I was still grieving over the tragic event , and they felt that if << I >> could see the recovery and the spirit of the people , who hold no grudge , but who also regret Pearl Harbor , I would be happier and would understand better a new Japan .
They knew that I was still grieving over the tragic event , and they felt that if I could see the recovery and the spirit of the people , who hold no grudge , but who also regret Pearl Harbor , << I >> would be happier and would understand better a new Japan .
The teachers of Mr. Uno's school gave << me >> a small gift to thank me for coming .
The teachers of Mr. Uno's school gave me a small gift to thank << me >> for coming .
<< I >> was grateful for their insight into my need for this experience .
<< I >> am told the time will soon come when women will find it necessary to do most of their own work , and even now it is important to have conveniences for the use of servants .
As far as << I >> am concerned there is continuous piling up of evidence that the creative fresh ideas which are needed in the world are going to be found by educated women unafraid to break traditions .
Here again it was vacation time and there were many things << I >> could not see , but I was able to visit with a professor who is famous in Japanese circles and be guided through the grounds by his assistant .
Here again it was vacation time and there were many things I could not see , but << I >> was able to visit with a professor who is famous in Japanese circles and be guided through the grounds by his assistant .
It is these other differences between North and South -- other , that is , than those which concern discrimination or social welfare -- which << I >> chiefly discuss herein .
<< I >> write about Northern liberals from considerable personal experience .
A Southerner married to a New Englander , << I >> have lived for many years in a Connecticut commuting town with a high percentage of artists , writers , publicity men , and business executives of egghead tastes .
When << I >> question them as to what they mean by concepts like liberty and democracy , I find that they fall into two categories : the simpler ones who have simply accepted the shibboleths of their faith without analysis ; ;
When I question them as to what they mean by concepts like liberty and democracy , << I >> find that they fall into two categories : the simpler ones who have simply accepted the shibboleths of their faith without analysis ; ;
<< I >> am naive , they say , to make use of such words .
<< I >> am concerned here , however , with the Northern liberal's attitude toward the South .
Time's editor , Thomas Griffith , in his book , The Waist-High Culture , wrote : `` most of what was different about it ( the Deep South ) << I >> found myself unsympathetic to .
'' This , for the liberals << I >> know , would be an understatement .
But in our case -- and neither my wife nor << I >> have extreme views on integration , nor are we given to emotional outbursts -- the situation has ruined one or two valued friendships and come close to wrecking several more .
<< I >> never heard of a poll being taken on the question .
Prior to 1954 << I >> imagine that a majority of Southerners would have voted against the Confederacy .
And therein , << I >> feel , many Northerners delude themselves about the South .
<< I >> suppose the reason is a kind of wishful thinking : don't talk about the final stages of Reconstruction and they will take care of themselves .
and << I >> have heard many say that they are content to earn a half or a third as much as they could up North because they so much prefer the quieter habits of their home town .
<< I >> have just asked these questions in the Pentagon , in the White House , in offices of key scientists across the country and aboard the submarines that prowl for months underwater , with neat rows of green launch tubes which contain Polaris missiles and which are affectionately known as `` Sherwood Forest '' .
Yet implicit in each movement was the death of millions , perhaps hundreds of millions , perhaps you and << me >> -- and the experts .
Officers who participate in the continual practice drills assured << me >> that the President's decision could be made and announced on the gold circuit within minutes after the first flash from Aj .
<< I >> asked Wisman what would happen if he broke out the go codes and tried to start transmitting one .
They saw it before << I >> did , even with my binoculars .
<< I >> followed them in the jeep and now they did not care .
Sometimes << I >> guessed it was because the rain squall had changed direction .
The aborigine lives on the cruelest land << I >> have ever seen .
<< I >> do not know if such a way of life can come to be a self-conscious challenge , but I suspect that it can .
I do not know if such a way of life can come to be a self-conscious challenge , but << I >> suspect that it can .
<< I >> persuaded an Australian friend who had lived `` outback '' for years to take me to see some aborigines living in the bush .
I persuaded an Australian friend who had lived `` outback '' for years to take << me >> to see some aborigines living in the bush .
It took << me >> a moment to realize what was odd about that panel : there was a gimbaled compass welded to it , which rocked gently back and forth as the Land Rover bounced about .
<< I >> asked .
`` Once << I >> get out on the flat I do .
`` Once I get out on the flat << I >> do .
<< I >> would try to memorize landmarks and saw in a half-hour that it was hopeless .
It struck << me >> as a very bright and very malnourished dog .
`` << I >> suppose because it saves them some loss of body water .
There was something about his face that disturbed << me >> and it took several seconds to realize what .
The Australian and << I >> both were wearing insect repellent and were not badly bothered by insects , but my eyes watered as we stood watching the aborigine .
<< I >> turned to look at the lubra .
The two children , both boys , wandered around the Australian and << me >> for a few moments and then returned to their work .
In spots such as the elbows and knees the second skin is worn off and << I >> realized the aborigines were much darker than they appeared ; ;
The stink is all the same to << me >> , but I really think they can make one another out blindfolded '' .
The stink is all the same to me , but << I >> really think they can make one another out blindfolded '' .
<< I >> should like , by the way , to make it clear that I am not using the word `` Persians '' carelessly .
I should like , by the way , to make it clear that << I >> am not using the word `` Persians '' carelessly .
A few months ago it was a fairly typical landlord who in the dead of night lugged << me >> up a mountainside to drink from a spring famous in the neighborhood for its clarity and flavor .
<< I >> really didn't know what he meant .
His London contract was rescinded , and now , he explains cheerfully , as a bright smile lightens his intense , mobile face , `` << I >> conduct only one hundred and twenty concerts '' ! !
`` By observing the conductor '' , he says with a twinkle in his eyes , `` << I >> learned how not to conduct '' .
<< I >> consider it the center of the world and make it a point to be there once a year '' .
`` Then << I >> return to the United States for engagements at the Hollywood Bowl and in Philadelphia '' , he added .
Of course , << I >> shall conduct Mahler and Bruckner works in the coming season , as usual .
`` Now that Bruno Walter is virtually in retirement and my dear friend Dimitri Mitropoulos is no longer with us , << I >> am probably the only one -- with the possible exception of Leonard Bernstein -- who has this special affinity for and champions the works of Bruckner and Mahler '' .
But << I >> usually stick to the old phrase : ' Ich habe ein Amt , aber keine Meinung ( I hold an office , but I do not feel entitled to have an opinion ) .
But I usually stick to the old phrase : ' Ich habe ein Amt , aber keine Meinung ( << I >> hold an office , but I do not feel entitled to have an opinion ) .
But I usually stick to the old phrase : ' Ich habe ein Amt , aber keine Meinung ( I hold an office , but << I >> do not feel entitled to have an opinion ) .
<< I >> consider it to be my job to expose the public to what is being written today '' .
<< I >> was chairman , the only not youthful participant .
<< I >> was far from convinced of the truth of my statement , but could not think of anything that might evoke responses more quickly .
When << I >> mentioned that for my first long voyage I did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that I would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at me doubtingly .
When I mentioned that for my first long voyage << I >> did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that I would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at me doubtingly .
When I mentioned that for my first long voyage I did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that << I >> would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at me doubtingly .
When I mentioned that for my first long voyage I did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that I would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at << me >> doubtingly .
<< I >> think it is rather foolhardy to trust to luck '' .
Others mentioned that << I >> might have had to ask friends or even strangers for help and that to be stranded in a foreign country without sufficient funds did not contribute to international understanding .
The debate needed no additional controversy and soon << I >> could ask each individually what he expected from life , what his hopes were and what his fears .
In taking account of seventeen years of law practice , Adams concluded that `` no lawyer in America ever did so much business as << I >> did '' and `` for so little profit '' .
`` If you can conveniently let << me >> have twenty dollars '' , he wrote one friend in 1791 when he was Secretary of the Treasury .
`` << I >> have just come from viewing a man who had made the fortune of his country , but now is working all night in order to support his family '' , he reflected .
`` As an independent American << I >> considered all who were not for us , and you amongst the rest , as against us , yet be assured that John Jay never ceased to be the friend of Peter Van Schaack '' .
The latter in turn assured him that `` were << I >> arraigned at the bar , and you my judge , I should expect to stand or fall only by the merits of my cause '' .
The latter in turn assured him that `` were I arraigned at the bar , and you my judge , << I >> should expect to stand or fall only by the merits of my cause '' .
His first inaugural address speaks of `` my country whose voice << I >> can never hear but with veneration and love '' .
The design is determined emotionally : `` << I >> must reach into myself for the spring that will send me catapulting recklessly into the chaos of event with which the dance confronts me '' .
The design is determined emotionally : `` I must reach into myself for the spring that will send << me >> catapulting recklessly into the chaos of event with which the dance confronts me '' .
The design is determined emotionally : `` I must reach into myself for the spring that will send me catapulting recklessly into the chaos of event with which the dance confronts << me >> '' .
But << I >> would never have thought of it myself '' .
<< I >> think it is essential , however , to pinpoint here the difference between the two concepts of sovereignty that went to war in 1861 -- if only to see better how imperative is our need today to clarify completely our far worse confusion on this subject .
When it comes to this , << I >> shall prefer emigrating to some country where they make no pretence of loving liberty -- to Russia , for instance , where despotism can be taken pure , without the base alloy of hypocrisy '' ( His emphasis )
<< I >> want , therefore , to discuss a second and quite different fruit of science , the connection between scientific understanding and fear .
<< I >> am certainly not adequately trained to describe or enlarge on human fears , but there are certain features of the fears dispelled by scientific explanations that stand out quite clearly .
<< I >> think that we are here also talking of the kind of fear that a young boy has for a group of boys who are approaching at night along the streets of a large city .
When confronted with a drunk or an insane person << I >> have no notion of what any one of them might do to me or to himself or to others .
When confronted with a drunk or an insane person I have no notion of what any one of them might do to << me >> or to himself or to others .
<< I >> believe that what I do has some effect on his actions and I have learned , in a way , to commune with drunks , but certainly my actions seem to resemble more nearly the performance of a rain dance than the carrying out of an experiment in physics .
I believe that what << I >> do has some effect on his actions and I have learned , in a way , to commune with drunks , but certainly my actions seem to resemble more nearly the performance of a rain dance than the carrying out of an experiment in physics .
I believe that what I do has some effect on his actions and << I >> have learned , in a way , to commune with drunks , but certainly my actions seem to resemble more nearly the performance of a rain dance than the carrying out of an experiment in physics .
<< I >> am usually filled with an uneasiness that through some unwitting slip all hell may break loose .
The persistent horror of having a malformed child has , << I >> believe , been reduced , not because we have gained any control over this misfortune , but precisely because we have learned that we have so little control over it .
The fear of disease was formerly very much the kind of fear << I >> have tried to describe .
His letter had suggested we meet at my hotel at noon on Sunday , and << I >> came into the lobby as the clock struck twelve .
But to << me >> Beckett's writing had seemed permeated with love for human beings and with a kind of humor that I could reconcile neither with despair nor with nihilism .
But to me Beckett's writing had seemed permeated with love for human beings and with a kind of humor that << I >> could reconcile neither with despair nor with nihilism .
<< I >> knew that a conversation with the author would not settle such questions , because a man is not the same as his writing : in the last analysis , the questions had to be settled by the work itself .
Nevertheless << I >> was curious .
When Beckett's name came into the discussion , the priest grew loud and told << me >> that Beckett `` hates life '' .
That , << I >> thought , is at least one thing I can find out when we meet .
That , I thought , is at least one thing << I >> can find out when we meet .
<< I >> reconstruct his sentences from notes made immediately after our conversation .
<< I >> suggested that one must let it in because it is the truth , but Beckett did not take to the word truth .
When Heidegger and Sartre speak of a contrast between being and existence , they may be right , << I >> don't know , but their language is too philosophical for me .
When Heidegger and Sartre speak of a contrast between being and existence , they may be right , I don't know , but their language is too philosophical for << me >> .
<< I >> am not a philosopher .
<< I >> granted this might be so , but found the result to be even more attention to form than was the case previously .
Yet , << I >> responded , could not similar things be said about the art of the past ? ?
<< I >> asked about the battle between life and death in his plays .
Given a theological lead , << I >> asked what he thinks about those who find a religious significance to his plays .
<< I >> have no religious feeling .
Once << I >> had a religious emotion .
The family was Protestant , but for << me >> it was only irksome and I let it go .
The family was Protestant , but for me it was only irksome and << I >> let it go .
At a party an English intellectual -- so-called -- asked << me >> why I write always about distress .
At a party an English intellectual -- so-called -- asked me why << I >> write always about distress .
<< I >> told him no , that I had had a very happy childhood .
I told him no , that << I >> had had a very happy childhood .
Then he thought << me >> more perverse than ever .
<< I >> left the party as soon as possible and got into a taxi .
On the glass partition between << me >> and the driver were three signs : one asked for help for the blind , another help for orphans , and the third for relief for the war refugees .
The personal quality of Samuel Beckett is similar to qualities << I >> had found in the plays .
As a Christian , << I >> know I do not stand where Beckett stands , but I do see much of what he sees .
As a Christian , I know << I >> do not stand where Beckett stands , but I do see much of what he sees .
As a Christian , I know I do not stand where Beckett stands , but << I >> do see much of what he sees .
Once , then -- for how many years or how few does not matter -- my world was bound round by fences , when << I >> was too small to reach the apple tree bough , to twist my knee over it and pull myself up .
<< I >> think that my grandmother was not an impassioned gardener : she was too indulgent a lover of dogs and grandchildren .
<< I >> have more than once sat cross-legged in the grass through a long summer morning and watched without touching while a poppy bud higher than my head slowly but visibly pushed off its cap , unfolded , and shook out like a banner in the sun its flaming vermilion petals .
In the work of every artist , << I >> suppose , there may be found one or more moments which strike the student as absolutely decisive , ultimately emblematic of what it is all about ; ;
When << I >> try to work out my reasons for feeling that this passage is of critical significance , I come up with the following ideas , which I shall express very briefly here and revert to in a later essay .
When I try to work out my reasons for feeling that this passage is of critical significance , << I >> come up with the following ideas , which I shall express very briefly here and revert to in a later essay .
When I try to work out my reasons for feeling that this passage is of critical significance , I come up with the following ideas , which << I >> shall express very briefly here and revert to in a later essay .
And if << I >> have gone into so much detail about so small a work , that is because it is also so typical a work , representing the germinal form of a conflict which remains essential in Mann's writing : the crude sketch of Piepsam contains , in its critical , destructive and self-destructive tendencies , much that is enlarged and illuminated in the figures of , for instance , Naphta and Leverkuhn .
Accordingly , it is the aim of this essay to advance a new theory of imitation ( which << I >> shall call mimesis in order to distinguish it from earlier theories of imitation ) and a new theory of invention ( which I shall call symbol for reasons to be stated hereafter ) .
Accordingly , it is the aim of this essay to advance a new theory of imitation ( which I shall call mimesis in order to distinguish it from earlier theories of imitation ) and a new theory of invention ( which << I >> shall call symbol for reasons to be stated hereafter ) .
<< I >> have chosen to use the word `` mimesis '' in its Christian rather than its classic implications and to discover in the concrete forms of both art and myth powers of theological expression which , as in the Christian mind , are the direct consequence of involvement in historical experience , which are not reserved , as in the Greek mind , only to moments of theoretical reflection .
Both << I >> and my feelings come up out of a chain of events that fan out into the past into sources that are ultimately very unlike the entity which I now am .
Both I and my feelings come up out of a chain of events that fan out into the past into sources that are ultimately very unlike the entity which << I >> now am .
The traditional strategy of the South has been to expose the vices of the North , to demonstrate that the North possessed no superior virtue , to `` show the world that '' as James's Christopher Newman said to his adversaries ) `` however bad << I >> may be , you're not quite the people to say it '' .
<< I >> was having lunch not long ago ( apologies to N. V. Peale ) with three distinguished historians ( one specializing in the European Middle Ages , one in American history , and one in the Far East ) , and I asked them if they could name instances where the general mores had been radically changed with `` deliberate speed , majestic instancy '' ( Francis Thompson's words for the Hound Of Heaven's Pursuit ) by judicial fiat .
I was having lunch not long ago ( apologies to N. V. Peale ) with three distinguished historians ( one specializing in the European Middle Ages , one in American history , and one in the Far East ) , and << I >> asked them if they could name instances where the general mores had been radically changed with `` deliberate speed , majestic instancy '' ( Francis Thompson's words for the Hound Of Heaven's Pursuit ) by judicial fiat .
But << I >> suspect that the old Roman was referring to change made under military occupation -- the sort of change which Tacitus was talking about when he said , `` They make a desert , and call it peace '' ( `` Solitudinem faciunt , pacem appellant '' .
<< I >> murmured something about a possible difference between New Mexico's history and Mississippi's .
that is , about one-half of one per cent , which looks pretty `` tokenish '' to << me >> , especially in an institution which professes to be `` national '' .
<< I >> leave out of account the question of the best interests of the children , the question of what their best interests really are .
A dear , respected friend of mine , who like myself grew up in the South and has spent many years in New England , said to << me >> not long ago : `` I can't forgive New England for rejecting all complicity '' .
A dear , respected friend of mine , who like myself grew up in the South and has spent many years in New England , said to me not long ago : `` << I >> can't forgive New England for rejecting all complicity '' .
Being a teacher of American literature , << I >> remembered Whittier's `` Massachusetts To Virginia '' , where he said : `` But that one dark loathsome burden ye must stagger with alone , And reap the bitter harvest which ye yourselves have sown '' .
Robert Penn Warren puts it this way in `` Brother To Dragons '' : `` The recognition of complicity is the beginning of innocence '' , where innocence , << I >> think , means about the same thing as redemption .
A man must be able to say , `` Father , << I >> have sinned '' , or there is no hope for him .
Our Northern brethren also << I >> believe felt a little tender under those censures ; ;
But << I >> think that something more than this is involved .
<< I >> don't propose to go into their history , but I have one or two surmises .
I don't propose to go into their history , but << I >> have one or two surmises .
`` << I >> scanned the world through printed symbol swart , And through the beggar's rags I strove to see The inner man .
`` I scanned the world through printed symbol swart , And through the beggar's rags << I >> strove to see The inner man .
It slips away , it burns and tortures << me >> .
A dominant motive is the poet's longing for his homeland and its boyhood associations : `` Not men-folk , but the fields where << I >> would stray , The stones where as a child I used to play '' .
A dominant motive is the poet's longing for his homeland and its boyhood associations : `` Not men-folk , but the fields where I would stray , The stones where as a child << I >> used to play '' .
These little problems help << me >> to do so '' .
But first << I >> want to quote him on the relationship that he found between religion and politics in this country and what happened to it .
Let << me >> quote him even more fully , for his analysis is important to my theme .
And let << me >> add , utopianism , also .
Some fourteen or fifteen years ago , in an essay << I >> called The Leader Follows -- Where ? ?
It seemed to << me >> that the liberals had scrapped the balanced polarity and reposed both liberty and the fundamental law in the common man .
That John Locke's philosophy of the social contract fathered the American Revolution with its Declaration of Independence , << I >> believe , we generally accept .
All of this , << I >> know , is recent history familiar to you .
<< I >> will assume that we are all aware of the continuing struggle , with its limited and precarious success , toward conservatism .
<< I >> would agree with this view .
What << I >> am here to do is to report on the gyrations of the struggle -- a struggle that amounts to self-redefinition -- to see if we can predict its future course .
One of the obvious conclusions we can make on the basis of the last election , << I >> suppose , is that we , the majority , were dissatisfied with Eisenhower conservatism .
But before << I >> try to diagnose it , I would offer other evidence .
But before I try to diagnose it , << I >> would offer other evidence .
<< I >> will mention two volumes of specific comment on this malaise that appeared last year .
What << I >> want to point out here is that all of them are ex-liberals , or modified liberals , with perhaps one exception .
<< I >> suppose we might classify Billy Graham as an old liberal .
And << I >> would further note that they all -- with one exception again -- sang in one key or another the same song .
The Commission seems to represent the viewpoint of what << I >> would call the unconscious liberal , but not unconscious enough , to invoke the now taboo symbolism of socialism .
But it is the need to undertake these testaments that << I >> would submit here as symptom of the common man's malaise .
Father Murray goes back to the Declaration of Independence , too , though << I >> may add , with considerably more historical perception .
<< I >> will reserve discussion of it for a moment , however , to return to President Kennedy .
Asked which institution most needs correction , << I >> would say the corporation as it exists in America today .
When we `` forced '' individuals to assume the corporate structure by means of taxes and other legal statutes , we adopted what << I >> would term `` pseudo-capitalism '' and so took a major step toward socialism .
Socialism , << I >> grant , has a definite place in our society .
In my own company , in effect a partnership , although legally a corporation , << I >> have been able to do many things for my employees which `` normal '' corporations of comparable size and nature would have been unable to do .
Also , << I >> am convinced that if my company were a sole proprietorship instead of a partnership , I would have been even abler to solve long-range problems for myself and my fellow-employees .
Also , I am convinced that if my company were a sole proprietorship instead of a partnership , << I >> would have been even abler to solve long-range problems for myself and my fellow-employees .
Any abilities << I >> may have were achieved in their present shape from experience in sharing in the growth and control of my business , coupled with raising my family .
This combined experience , on a foundation of very average , << I >> assure you , intelligence and background , has helped me do things many well-informed people would bet heavily against .
This combined experience , on a foundation of very average , I assure you , intelligence and background , has helped << me >> do things many well-informed people would bet heavily against .
`` << I >> may possibly be a greater risk than is the normal person of my age '' , the President had said on February 29th of the election year , ignoring the fact that no one of his age had ever lived out another term .
`` My doctors assure << me >> that this increased percentage of risk is not great '' .
<< I >> am not making a clinical judgment here , for such personal tragedies are real and are commonplace in the analyst's consulting room , but literature makes a different claim upon our sympathies than tragedy in life .
<< I >> am suggesting that a case-history approach to the Oedipus complex is a blind alley for a storyteller .
If << I >> now risk some comparisons with Sons And Lovers let it be clear that I am not comparing the two works or judging their merits ; ;
If I now risk some comparisons with Sons And Lovers let it be clear that << I >> am not comparing the two works or judging their merits ; ;
<< I >> am only singling out differences in treatment of a theme and the resultant effects .
<< I >> had read the story many times without asking myself why it affected me or caring why it did .
I had read the story many times without asking myself why it affected << me >> or caring why it did .
But on one occasion when << I >> encountered a similar fantasy in a little boy who was my patient I began to understand the uncanny effects of this story .
But on one occasion when I encountered a similar fantasy in a little boy who was my patient << I >> began to understand the uncanny effects of this story .
The rocking , << I >> realized , is the single element in the story that carries the erotic message , the unspoken and unconscious undercurrent that would mar the innocence of a child's fantasy and disturb the effects of the work if it were made explicit .
<< I >> am sure that none of the effects of this story were consciously employed by Lawrence to describe an oedipal fantasy in childhood .
<< I >> have argued that Oedipus of the Oedipus complex has a doubtful future as a tragic figure in literature .
Later Helion wrote of this phase : `` For years << I >> built for myself a subtle instrument of relationships -- colors and forms without a name .
<< I >> played on it my secret songs , unexplained , passionate and peaceful '' .
`` << I >> arrived in the United States with the idea of establishing myself there more or less permanently and finding inspiration for new compositions '' .
`` Fear possessed << me >> , and the certainty of war '' , he has related .
`` << I >> truly smelled blood , death , heaps of corpses everywhere '' .
`` << I >> knew I was carrying on with abstraction to its very end -- for me '' , he said of the two years' output in Virginia .
`` I knew << I >> was carrying on with abstraction to its very end -- for me '' , he said of the two years' output in Virginia .
`` I knew I was carrying on with abstraction to its very end -- for << me >> '' , he said of the two years' output in Virginia .
`` << I >> hated the war '' , he said , `` but thought I ought to go because I was , perhaps , one of those who hadn't done enough to prevent it '' .
`` I hated the war '' , he said , `` but thought << I >> ought to go because I was , perhaps , one of those who hadn't done enough to prevent it '' .
`` I hated the war '' , he said , `` but thought I ought to go because << I >> was , perhaps , one of those who hadn't done enough to prevent it '' .
Four hands were stretched toward << me >> by my comrades behind me .
Four hands were stretched toward me by my comrades behind << me >> .
Now all his desires centered on `` rediscovering and singing of the prosaic and yet beautiful world of men and objects so long barred from << me >> by a barbed wire fence '' .
Helion , however , clung to the belief that `` in escaping from the Stalag << I >> had also escaped from Abstraction '' .
They have indicated the direction but they have not been explicit enough , << I >> believe , in pointing out Faulkner's independence , his questioning if not indeed challenging the Southern tradition .
It is to say rather , << I >> believe , that he has brought to bear on the history , the traditions , and the lore of his region a critical , skeptical mind -- the same mind which has made of him an inveterate experimenter in literary form and technique .
The fact that he has cast over those materials the light of a skeptical mind does not make him any the less Southern , << I >> rather think , for the South has been no more solid than other regions except in the political and related areas where patronage and force and intimidation and fear may produce a surface uniformity .
The myth of the Southern plantation has had only a tangential relation with actuality , as Francis Pendleton Gaines showed forty years ago , and << I >> suspect it has had a far narrower acceptance as something real than has generally been supposed .
It would be profitable , << I >> believe , to read these realistic humorists alongside Faulkner's works , the thought being not that he necessarily read them and owed anything to them directly , but rather that they dealt a hundred years ago with a class of people and a type of life which have continued down to our time , to Faulkner's time .
and , `` << I >> do think that families are the most beautiful things in all the world '' , burst out Jo some five hundred pages later in that popular story of the March family , which had first appeared when Henrietta was eight ; ;
Cloud made an interesting statement in parting from his client : `` << I >> wanted to be a lawyer , and Mrs. Wright wanted me to be an avenging angel .
Cloud made an interesting statement in parting from his client : `` I wanted to be a lawyer , and Mrs. Wright wanted << me >> to be an avenging angel .
But every time << I >> suggested this to her , Mrs. Wright turned it down and demanded that I go out and punish Mr. Wright .
But every time I suggested this to her , Mrs. Wright turned it down and demanded that << I >> go out and punish Mr. Wright .
<< I >> am an attorney , not an instrument of vengeance '' .
Miriam Noel Wright said , `` Here << I >> am at my own home , locked out so I must stand in the road '' ! !
Miriam Noel Wright said , `` Here I am at my own home , locked out so << I >> must stand in the road '' ! !
When << I >> take over Taliesin , the first thing I'll do is fire you '' .
`` Madame Noel , << I >> think you had better go '' , said Mrs. Cupply .
`` And << I >> think you had better leave '' , replied Miriam .
Then , after overtures to accept a settlement and go through with a divorce , Miriam gave a ghastly echo of Mrs. Micawber by suddenly stating , `` << I >> will never leave Mr. Wright '' .
His reply was , `` Everything that has been printed derogatory to you , purporting to have come from << me >> , was a betrayal , and nothing yet has been printed which I have sanctioned '' .
His reply was , `` Everything that has been printed derogatory to you , purporting to have come from me , was a betrayal , and nothing yet has been printed which << I >> have sanctioned '' .
From her California headquarters , Miriam fired back , `` << I >> shall never divorce Mr. Wright , to permit him to marry Olga Milanoff '' .
Miriam said that she must be assured that `` that other woman , Olga , will not be in luxury while << I >> am scraping along '' .
<< I >> realize , in taking this stand , just what it means to me and mine '' .
I realize , in taking this stand , just what it means to << me >> and mine '' .
Here Wright gave a slight sigh of weariness , and continued , `` It means more long years lived across the social grain of the life of our people , making shift to live in the face of popular disrespect and misunderstanding as << I >> best can for myself and those dependent upon me '' .
Here Wright gave a slight sigh of weariness , and continued , `` It means more long years lived across the social grain of the life of our people , making shift to live in the face of popular disrespect and misunderstanding as I best can for myself and those dependent upon << me >> '' .
For pride's sake , << I >> will not say that the coy and leering vade mecum of those verses insinuated itself into my soul .
<< I >> do not suppose you ever heard of F. Scott Fitzgerald , living or dead , and moreover I do not suppose that , even if you had , his legend would have seemed to you to warrant more than a cluck of disapproval .
I do not suppose you ever heard of F. Scott Fitzgerald , living or dead , and moreover << I >> do not suppose that , even if you had , his legend would have seemed to you to warrant more than a cluck of disapproval .
Although his tender nights were not the ones << I >> dreamed of , nor was it for yachts , sports cars , tall drinks , and swimming pools , nor yet for money or what money buys that I burned , I too was burning and watching myself burn .
Although his tender nights were not the ones I dreamed of , nor was it for yachts , sports cars , tall drinks , and swimming pools , nor yet for money or what money buys that << I >> burned , I too was burning and watching myself burn .
Although his tender nights were not the ones I dreamed of , nor was it for yachts , sports cars , tall drinks , and swimming pools , nor yet for money or what money buys that I burned , << I >> too was burning and watching myself burn .
In any case , Miss Millay's sweet-throated bitterness , her variations on the theme that the world was not only well lost for love but even well lost for lost love , her constant and wonderfully tragic posture , so unlike that of Fitzgerald since it required no scenery or props , drew from the << me >> that I was when I fell upon her verses an overwhelming yea .
In any case , Miss Millay's sweet-throated bitterness , her variations on the theme that the world was not only well lost for love but even well lost for lost love , her constant and wonderfully tragic posture , so unlike that of Fitzgerald since it required no scenery or props , drew from the me that << I >> was when I fell upon her verses an overwhelming yea .
In any case , Miss Millay's sweet-throated bitterness , her variations on the theme that the world was not only well lost for love but even well lost for lost love , her constant and wonderfully tragic posture , so unlike that of Fitzgerald since it required no scenery or props , drew from the me that I was when << I >> fell upon her verses an overwhelming yea .
But all this , << I >> am well aware , is the bel canto of love , and although I have always liked to think that it was to the bel canto and to that alone that I listened , I know well enough that it was not .
But all this , I am well aware , is the bel canto of love , and although << I >> have always liked to think that it was to the bel canto and to that alone that I listened , I know well enough that it was not .
But all this , I am well aware , is the bel canto of love , and although I have always liked to think that it was to the bel canto and to that alone that << I >> listened , I know well enough that it was not .
But all this , I am well aware , is the bel canto of love , and although I have always liked to think that it was to the bel canto and to that alone that I listened , << I >> know well enough that it was not .
Whether you experienced the passion of desire << I >> have , of course , no way of knowing , nor indeed have I wished with even the most fleeting fragment of a wish to know , for the fact that one constitutes by one's mere existence so to speak the proof of some sort of passion makes any speculation upon this part of one's parents' experience more immodest , more scandalizing , more deeply unwelcome than an obscenity from a stranger .
Whether you experienced the passion of desire I have , of course , no way of knowing , nor indeed have << I >> wished with even the most fleeting fragment of a wish to know , for the fact that one constitutes by one's mere existence so to speak the proof of some sort of passion makes any speculation upon this part of one's parents' experience more immodest , more scandalizing , more deeply unwelcome than an obscenity from a stranger .
<< I >> recoil from the very thought .
At the same time , << I >> am aware that my recoil could be interpreted by readers of the tea leaves at the bottom of my psyche as an incestuous sign , since theirs is a science of paradox : if one hates , they say it is because one loves ; ;
) , << I >> have never wanted to know what you knew of passion .
<< I >> can see us now .
We had been walking quite briskly , for despite your being so small and << me >> so tall , your stride in those days could easily match mine .
We had stopped before a shop window to assess its autumnal display , when you suddenly turned to << me >> , looking up from beneath one of your wrong hats , and with your nervous `` ahem '' ! !
Said : `` There are things << I >> must tell you about this man you are marrying which he does not know himself '' .
With scarcely a mumble of excuse , << I >> fled .
<< I >> fled , however , not from what might have been the natural fear of being unable to disguise from you that the things about my bridegroom -- in the sense you meant the word `` things '' -- which you had been galvanizing yourself to tell me as a painful part of your maternal duty were things which I had already insisted upon finding out for myself ( despite , I may now say , the unspeakable awkwardness of making the discovery on principle , yes , on principle , and in cold blood ) because I was resolved , as a modern woman , not to be a mollycoddle waiting for Life but to seize Life by the throat .
I fled , however , not from what might have been the natural fear of being unable to disguise from you that the things about my bridegroom -- in the sense you meant the word `` things '' -- which you had been galvanizing yourself to tell << me >> as a painful part of your maternal duty were things which I had already insisted upon finding out for myself ( despite , I may now say , the unspeakable awkwardness of making the discovery on principle , yes , on principle , and in cold blood ) because I was resolved , as a modern woman , not to be a mollycoddle waiting for Life but to seize Life by the throat .
I fled , however , not from what might have been the natural fear of being unable to disguise from you that the things about my bridegroom -- in the sense you meant the word `` things '' -- which you had been galvanizing yourself to tell me as a painful part of your maternal duty were things which << I >> had already insisted upon finding out for myself ( despite , I may now say , the unspeakable awkwardness of making the discovery on principle , yes , on principle , and in cold blood ) because I was resolved , as a modern woman , not to be a mollycoddle waiting for Life but to seize Life by the throat .
I fled , however , not from what might have been the natural fear of being unable to disguise from you that the things about my bridegroom -- in the sense you meant the word `` things '' -- which you had been galvanizing yourself to tell me as a painful part of your maternal duty were things which I had already insisted upon finding out for myself ( despite , << I >> may now say , the unspeakable awkwardness of making the discovery on principle , yes , on principle , and in cold blood ) because I was resolved , as a modern woman , not to be a mollycoddle waiting for Life but to seize Life by the throat .
I fled , however , not from what might have been the natural fear of being unable to disguise from you that the things about my bridegroom -- in the sense you meant the word `` things '' -- which you had been galvanizing yourself to tell me as a painful part of your maternal duty were things which I had already insisted upon finding out for myself ( despite , I may now say , the unspeakable awkwardness of making the discovery on principle , yes , on principle , and in cold blood ) because << I >> was resolved , as a modern woman , not to be a mollycoddle waiting for Life but to seize Life by the throat .
<< I >> had developed too foolproof a facade to be afraid of self-betrayal .
What << I >> fled from was my fear of what , unwittingly , you might betray , without meaning to , about my father and yourself .
While my memory holds with relentless tenacity , as << I >> cannot too often stress , to my wrongs , when it comes to my shames , it gestures and jokes and toys with chronology like a prestidigitator in the hope of distracting me from them .
While my memory holds with relentless tenacity , as I cannot too often stress , to my wrongs , when it comes to my shames , it gestures and jokes and toys with chronology like a prestidigitator in the hope of distracting << me >> from them .
Just as << I >> was about to enlarge upon my discovery of the underside of the leaf of love , memory , displeased at being asked to yield its unsavory secrets , dashed ahead of me , calling back over its shoulder : `` Skip it .
Just as I was about to enlarge upon my discovery of the underside of the leaf of love , memory , displeased at being asked to yield its unsavory secrets , dashed ahead of << me >> , calling back over its shoulder : `` Skip it .
But << I >> will not skip it or cut it out .
If to be innocent is to be helpless , then << I >> had been -- as are we all -- helpless at the start .
But the time came when << I >> was no longer innocent and therefore no longer helpless .
Helpless in that sense << I >> can never be again .
However , << I >> confess my hope that I will be innocent again , not with a pristine , accidental innocence , but rather with an innocence achieved by the slow cutting away of the flesh to reach the bone .
However , I confess my hope that << I >> will be innocent again , not with a pristine , accidental innocence , but rather with an innocence achieved by the slow cutting away of the flesh to reach the bone .
The innocence of which << I >> speak is , I know , not incorruptible .
The innocence of which I speak is , << I >> know , not incorruptible .
But << I >> insist upon believing that even when it is lost , it may , like paradise , be regained .
However , it was not of innocence in general that << I >> was speaking , but of perhaps the frailest and surely the least important side of it which is innocence in romantic love .
But to << me >> innocence is far less tangible .
<< I >> had long since begun to lose my general innocence when I lost my trust in you , but this special innocence I lost before ever I loved , through my discovery that one could tremble with desire and even experience a flaming delight that had nothing , nothing whatever to do with friendship or liking , let alone with love .
I had long since begun to lose my general innocence when << I >> lost my trust in you , but this special innocence I lost before ever I loved , through my discovery that one could tremble with desire and even experience a flaming delight that had nothing , nothing whatever to do with friendship or liking , let alone with love .
I had long since begun to lose my general innocence when I lost my trust in you , but this special innocence << I >> lost before ever I loved , through my discovery that one could tremble with desire and even experience a flaming delight that had nothing , nothing whatever to do with friendship or liking , let alone with love .
I had long since begun to lose my general innocence when I lost my trust in you , but this special innocence I lost before ever << I >> loved , through my discovery that one could tremble with desire and even experience a flaming delight that had nothing , nothing whatever to do with friendship or liking , let alone with love .
<< I >> knew this knowledge to be corrupting at the time I acquired it ; ;
I knew this knowledge to be corrupting at the time << I >> acquired it ; ;
today , these many years later , after all the temptations resisted or yielded to , the weasel satisfactions and the engulfing dissatisfactions since endured , << I >> call it corrupting still .
You had grown up at a time when the most distinguishing mark of a lady was the noli << me >> tangere writ plain across her face .
A lady , you made clear to << me >> both by precept and example , never raised her voice or slumped in her chair , never failed in social tact ( in heaven , for instance , would not mention St. John the Baptist's head ) , never pouted or withdrew or scandalized in company , never reminded others of her physical presence by unseemly sound or gesture , never indulged in public scenes or private confidences , never spoke of money save in terms of alleviating suffering , never gossiped or maligned , never stressed but always minimized the hopelessness of anything from sin to death itself .
<< I >> found that this precocious , grown-up boy of 74 deserved to be taught .
There has long existed a brotherly affection between us , thus << I >> accepted him as my pupil .
Just as in the case of every prodigy child , we must watch for the efficacy of my teaching to show up in the future -- if he should master all the strenuous exercises << I >> inflicted on him .
<< I >> am certain that Carl Sandburg will not fall into the same sad philosophy .
While the picture was taken , Mr. Miller's disposition to be generous to Mr. Sandburg increased to the point where he advised , ' << I >> won't even charge you the one dollar rental fee ' '' .
Carl thought the question over slowly and answered : `` << I >> know a starving man who is fed never remembers all the pangs of his starvation , I know that '' .
Carl thought the question over slowly and answered : `` I know a starving man who is fed never remembers all the pangs of his starvation , << I >> know that '' .
Even now << I >> will not intrude upon her except to state a few bare facts .
`` My mother read a book right after << I >> was born and there was a Lilian in the book she loved and I became Lilian -- and eventually I became Paula '' .
`` My mother read a book right after I was born and there was a Lilian in the book she loved and << I >> became Lilian -- and eventually I became Paula '' .
`` My mother read a book right after I was born and there was a Lilian in the book she loved and I became Lilian -- and eventually << I >> became Paula '' .
`` << I >> felt that I must devote myself to the ' outside ' world '' .
`` I felt that << I >> must devote myself to the ' outside ' world '' .
Paula generously lent << me >> one of Carl's love letters , dated February 21 , 1908 , Hotel Athearn , Oshkosh , Wisconsin :
`` Dear Miss Steichen : It is a very good letter you send << me >> -- softens the intensity of this guerilla warfare I am carrying on up here .
`` Dear Miss Steichen : It is a very good letter you send me -- softens the intensity of this guerilla warfare << I >> am carrying on up here .
Never until in this work of S-D organization have << I >> realized and felt the attitude and experience of a Teacher .
<< I >> believe that the industrial countries are ready to participate actively in supplementing the efforts of the developing nations to achieve progress .
<< I >> cannot express to you the depth of my conviction that , in our own and free world interest , we must co-operate with others to help these people achieve their legitimate ambitions , as expressed in their different multi-year plans .
Other countries , some of which << I >> visited last month , have similar needs .
During the past year << I >> have discussed this matter with the leaders of several Western nations .
But << I >> once again assure all peoples and all nations that the United States , except in defense , will never turn loose this destructive power .
From all reports so far received , its performance conformed to the high standards << I >> have just described .
Moreover , << I >> have directed that steps be taken to program on a longer range basis our military assistance to these allies .
Next << I >> refer to our program in space exploration , which is often mistakenly supposed to be an integral part of defense research and development .
<< I >> am assured by experts that the thrust of our present missiles is fully adequate for defense requirements .
<< I >> believe it deficient in certain particulars .
The accomplishment of the many tasks << I >> have alluded to requires the continuous strengthening of the spiritual , intellectual , and economic sinews of American life .
A year ago , when << I >> met with you , the nation was emerging from an economic downturn , even though the signs of resurgent prosperity were not then sufficiently convincing to the doubtful .
<< I >> had known him for some years , when I was a delegate and before , and this manner had never been his '' .
I had known him for some years , when << I >> was a delegate and before , and this manner had never been his '' .
<< I >> don't consider that he was prejudged .
`` << I >> think our report sums up our finding '' , Gross answered .
Supposing you or << I >> were being accused in this manner , and yet we were doing our level best to carry on our work .
`` I've been in government and << I >> can tell some pretty hairy stories about personnel difficulties , so I know what a problem he was '' .
`` I've been in government and I can tell some pretty hairy stories about personnel difficulties , so << I >> know what a problem he was '' .
`` << I >> thought the entire report was going to be confidential from beginning to end .
<< I >> don't know .
as << I >> understand it , Mr. Hammarskjold wanted outside advice .
You see what << I >> mean ? ?
' I've found errors and << I >> want you to look them over .
When << I >> speak of how Shann felt , I know well .
When I speak of how Shann felt , << I >> know well .
Don't forget , << I >> am an old member of the club , a former delegate .
`` the matters to be considered are obviously of a grave character , and << I >> therefore respectfully request that the hearing be postponed for two weeks in order that I might make adequate preparation '' .
`` the matters to be considered are obviously of a grave character , and I therefore respectfully request that the hearing be postponed for two weeks in order that << I >> might make adequate preparation '' .
`` We were requested by the Secretary General , as << I >> understand it , to discuss with you such matters as appear to us to be relevant , and we are not of course either a formal group or a committee in the sense of being guided by any rules or regulations of the Secretariat .
The only rules which << I >> think we shall follow will be those of common sense , justice , and fairness '' .
`` Everything tasted differently from what it does on land and those things << I >> was most fond of at home , I loathed the most here '' , Ann noted .
`` Everything tasted differently from what it does on land and those things I was most fond of at home , << I >> loathed the most here '' , Ann noted .
She wrote in her journal , `` << I >> have not heard the least profane language since I have been on board the vessel .
She wrote in her journal , `` I have not heard the least profane language since << I >> have been on board the vessel .
`` << I >> care not how soon we reach Calcutta , and are placed in a still room , with a bowl of milk and a loaf of Indian bread .
<< I >> can hardly think of this simple fare without exclaiming , oh , what a luxury .
<< I >> have been so weary of the excessive rocking of the vessel , and the almost intolerable smell after the rain , that I have done little more than lounge on the bed for several days .
I have been so weary of the excessive rocking of the vessel , and the almost intolerable smell after the rain , that << I >> have done little more than lounge on the bed for several days .
But << I >> have been blest with excellent spirits , and to-day have been running about the deck , and dancing in our room for exercise , as well as ever '' .
`` If you become a Baptist , << I >> will not '' , Ann informed her husband , but sweeping her threat aside Adoniram continued to search for an answer to the personal dilemma in which he found himself .
Even Harriet could boldly write , `` << I >> know not how it is ; ;
but << I >> hear the thunder roll ; ;
This is the most delightful trial << I >> have ever had '' , she decided .
If `` Jack the Courtier '' is really to be taken as Swift , the following remark is obviously Steele's comment on Swift's change of parties and its effect on their friendship : `` << I >> assure you , dear Jack , when I first found out such an Allay in you , as makes you of so malleable a Constitution , that you may be worked into any Form an Artificer pleases , I foresaw I should not enjoy your Favour much longer '' .
If `` Jack the Courtier '' is really to be taken as Swift , the following remark is obviously Steele's comment on Swift's change of parties and its effect on their friendship : `` I assure you , dear Jack , when << I >> first found out such an Allay in you , as makes you of so malleable a Constitution , that you may be worked into any Form an Artificer pleases , I foresaw I should not enjoy your Favour much longer '' .
If `` Jack the Courtier '' is really to be taken as Swift , the following remark is obviously Steele's comment on Swift's change of parties and its effect on their friendship : `` I assure you , dear Jack , when I first found out such an Allay in you , as makes you of so malleable a Constitution , that you may be worked into any Form an Artificer pleases , << I >> foresaw I should not enjoy your Favour much longer '' .
If `` Jack the Courtier '' is really to be taken as Swift , the following remark is obviously Steele's comment on Swift's change of parties and its effect on their friendship : `` I assure you , dear Jack , when I first found out such an Allay in you , as makes you of so malleable a Constitution , that you may be worked into any Form an Artificer pleases , I foresaw << I >> should not enjoy your Favour much longer '' .
among whom , his Party have indeed more Friends than << I >> could wish '' .
`` There was nothing else << I >> could do '' , the maid answered , satisfied with a rather vague explanation .
The maid then told her , `` Because he fired << me >> '' .
But Mercer's explanation was simple : `` << I >> made out the check and carried it around a few days unsigned -- in case I lost it '' .
But Mercer's explanation was simple : `` I made out the check and carried it around a few days unsigned -- in case << I >> lost it '' .
When he heard that Paul Whiteman was looking for singers to replace the Rhythm Boys , Mercer applied and got the job , `` not for my voice , I'm sure , but because << I >> could write songs and material generally '' .
<< I >> wouldn't hear from him for a couple of weeks , then he'd come around with the completed lyric '' .
`` Some guys bothered << me >> '' , Mercer has said .
`` << I >> couldn't write with them in the same room with me , but I could with Harold .
`` I couldn't write with them in the same room with << me >> , but I could with Harold .
`` I couldn't write with them in the same room with me , but << I >> could with Harold .
<< I >> feel obliged to describe this cubbyhole .
May << I >> say that you have just demonstrated the truth of an old proverb -- the younger Pliny's , if memory serves me -- which , translated freely from the archaic Latin , says , ' The more haste , the less peed ' '' .
May I say that you have just demonstrated the truth of an old proverb -- the younger Pliny's , if memory serves << me >> -- which , translated freely from the archaic Latin , says , ' The more haste , the less peed ' '' .
<< I >> had had difficulties from the very first day .
When , in my enthusiasm , << I >> proposed the party , my city editor ( who disliked the club and many of its members ) tried to block my participation in the gala event .
Even earlier than that he had resented the fact that << I >> had been chosen to edit the club's Reporter .
`` He's a wrong-o '' , said Runyon , `` and << I >> wouldn't trust him as far as I could throw the Statue of Liberty '' .
`` He's a wrong-o '' , said Runyon , `` and I wouldn't trust him as far as << I >> could throw the Statue of Liberty '' .
Watson told << me >> that his brother always sent roses to his mother , blossoms bought with Vic's allowance to him .
' And would you believe it ' , Vic added , ' she likes him better than she does << me >> .
One day he assigned << me >> to lay bare a `` plot '' by the Duponts to supply munitions to a wholly fictitious revolution he said was about to occur in Cuba .
`` << I >> can tell you this much '' , he said .
<< I >> worked for a day on this plainly ridiculous assignment and consulted several of my own well-informed sources .
Then << I >> spent the next two days at the baseball park and at Jack Doyle's pool parlors .
And << I >> was to go to work on that odd matter .
<< I >> shall tell of it later on .
One day << I >> tired of following the Hetman's advice of `` shadowing '' and of the `` ring-around-the-rosie '' approach to a report that Enrico Caruso had pinched a lady's hip while visiting the Central Park monkey house .
<< I >> explained my state of mind to artist Winsor McCay and to `` Bugs '' Baer .
As for myself , << I >> had on an enormous black `` muff '' .
This , together with a derby hat and horn-rim eyeglasses , gave << me >> the appearance of a Russian nihilist .
The Hetman told << me >> to take the story over the phone and to write it .
While << I >> was sitting at one of the rewrite telephones with my derby and my great beard , Arthur Brisbane whizzed in with some editorial copy in his hand .
<< I >> thought it expedient to take off my derby , my glasses , and the beard ; ;
<< I >> managed to do this by the time the great A.B. returned to the place where he last had seen the fierce nihilist .
It seems to << me >> now , in a long backward glance , that many of the Hetman's conceits and odd actions -- together with his grim posture when brandishing the hatchet in the name of Mr. Hearst -- were keyed with the tragedy which was to close over him one day .
The unfinished note , written in pencil upon the back of a used envelope , and addressed to the coroner , makes one wonder about many things : `` God forgive << me >> for everything .
<< I >> cannot ''
Much to Damon Runyon's amazement , as well as my own , << I >> got along splendidly with the Hetman ; ;
that is , until << I >> became an editor , hence , in his eyes , a rival .
During the next years he gave << me >> the second of the five contracts I would sign with the Hearst Service .
During the next years he gave me the second of the five contracts << I >> would sign with the Hearst Service .
<< I >> would like to believe that my ability warranted this advancement .
Somehow << I >> think that Watson paid more attention to me than he otherwise might have because his foe , Colonel Van Hamm , wouldn't touch me with a ten-foot blue pencil .
Somehow I think that Watson paid more attention to << me >> than he otherwise might have because his foe , Colonel Van Hamm , wouldn't touch me with a ten-foot blue pencil .
Somehow I think that Watson paid more attention to me than he otherwise might have because his foe , Colonel Van Hamm , wouldn't touch << me >> with a ten-foot blue pencil .
<< I >> used to go with Watson to call on the eminent neurologist at his apartment , to sit among the doctor's excellent collection of statues , paintings , and books and drink Oriental coffee while Watson seemed to thaw out and become almost affable .
<< I >> would like to straighten out a misconception about the dress Mrs. Coolidge is wearing in this painting .
Mrs. Coolidge gave Mama this dress for << me >> , and I wore it many times .
Mrs. Coolidge gave Mama this dress for me , and << I >> wore it many times .
<< I >> still have the dress , and I hope to give it to the Smithsonian Institution as a memento , or , as I more fondly hope , to present it to a museum containing articles showing the daily lives of the Presidents -- if I can get it organized .
I still have the dress , and << I >> hope to give it to the Smithsonian Institution as a memento , or , as I more fondly hope , to present it to a museum containing articles showing the daily lives of the Presidents -- if I can get it organized .
I still have the dress , and I hope to give it to the Smithsonian Institution as a memento , or , as << I >> more fondly hope , to present it to a museum containing articles showing the daily lives of the Presidents -- if I can get it organized .
I still have the dress , and I hope to give it to the Smithsonian Institution as a memento , or , as I more fondly hope , to present it to a museum containing articles showing the daily lives of the Presidents -- if << I >> can get it organized .
She used to tell << me >> , `` When I stand there and look at the flag blowing this way and that way , I have the wonderful , safe feeling that Americans are protected no matter which way the wind blows '' .
She used to tell me , `` When << I >> stand there and look at the flag blowing this way and that way , I have the wonderful , safe feeling that Americans are protected no matter which way the wind blows '' .
She used to tell me , `` When I stand there and look at the flag blowing this way and that way , << I >> have the wonderful , safe feeling that Americans are protected no matter which way the wind blows '' .
Mama would enjoy the sight of the famous guests as much as anyone , and would note a gown here and there to tell << me >> about that night .
Speaking as a non-Jew << I >> believe that its primary contribution is in the realm of future policy .
As a groundwork for the proposal << I >> give some attention to the first task enumerated above , the clarification of goal .
In any case << I >> do not intend to let the present occasion pass without dealing more directly with the problem of implementing good intentions .
<< I >> assume that the number of readers of this anthology who regard themselves as morally perfect is small , and that most readers are willing to consider procedures by which they may gain more insight into themselves and better understanding of others .
One , a reservation on the point << I >> have just made , is the phenomenon of pseudo-thinking , pseudo-feeling , and pseudo-willing , which Fromm discussed in The Escape From Freedom .
And this , << I >> think , holds for values as well as life styles .
after all , the large ( and probably unreliable ) Reader's Digest literature on the `` most unforgettable character << I >> ever met '' deals with village grocers , country doctors , favorite if illiterate aunts , and so forth .
<< I >> do not know that this is true ; ;
<< I >> am not aware of great attention by any of these authors or by the psychotherapeutic profession to the role of literary study in the development of conscience -- most of their attention is to a pre-literate period of life , or , for the theologians of course , to the influence of religion .
But there is one in particular which , it seems to << me >> , deserves special attention .
William Wimsatt and Cleanth Brooks , it seems to << me >> , have a penetrating insight into the way in which this control is effected : `` For if we say poetry is to talk of beauty and love ( and yet not aim at exciting erotic emotion or even an emotion of Platonic esteem ) and if it is to talk of anger and murder ( and yet not aim at arousing anger and indignation ) -- then it may be that the poetic way of dealing with these emotions will not be any kind of intensification , compounding , or magnification , or any direct assault upon the affections at all .
Here << I >> do not mean catharsis , the discharge of emotion .
Anyone who has watched children develop a taste for literature will understand what << I >> mean .
<< I >> would say , too , that the study of literature tends to give a person what I shall call depth .
I would say , too , that the study of literature tends to give a person what << I >> shall call depth .
<< I >> think these attributes cluster , but I have no evidence .
I think these attributes cluster , but << I >> have no evidence .
In fact , << I >> can only say this seems to me to follow from a wide , continuous , and properly guided exposure to literary art .
In fact , I can only say this seems to << me >> to follow from a wide , continuous , and properly guided exposure to literary art .
`` Mr. Lane '' , Hearst said , `` if you ever wish anything that << I >> can do , all you will have to do will be to send me a telegram asking , and it will be done '' .
`` Mr. Lane '' , Hearst said , `` if you ever wish anything that I can do , all you will have to do will be to send << me >> a telegram asking , and it will be done '' .
What << I >> want is to have this evidence come before Congress and if the Attorney General does not report it , as I am very sure he won't , as he has refused to do anything of the kind , I then wish that a committee of seven Representatives be appointed with power to take the evidence .
What I want is to have this evidence come before Congress and if the Attorney General does not report it , as << I >> am very sure he won't , as he has refused to do anything of the kind , I then wish that a committee of seven Representatives be appointed with power to take the evidence .
What I want is to have this evidence come before Congress and if the Attorney General does not report it , as I am very sure he won't , as he has refused to do anything of the kind , << I >> then wish that a committee of seven Representatives be appointed with power to take the evidence .
`` << I >> understand [ Hearst ] is a candidate for Presidential honors '' , Devery said without cracking a smile .
As for the paid Hessians from other states , we are here to instruct the Indiana Democracy in their duty , << I >> have nothing but contempt .
`` << I >> must hurry to catch my train '' .
Another editor pointed despairingly at a bundle of letters that had accumulated for him , saying , `` But Mr. Hearst , what shall << I >> do with this correspondence '' ? ?
`` << I >> should , of course '' , he said , `` like any other man , be honored and gratified should the Democrats see fit to nominate me .
`` I should , of course '' , he said , `` like any other man , be honored and gratified should the Democrats see fit to nominate << me >> .
But << I >> do not have to be bribed by office to be a Democrat .
<< I >> supported Cleveland three times and Bryan twice .
<< I >> intend to support the nominee of the party at St. Louis , whoever he may be '' .
<< I >> stood on a table , surrounded by hundreds of expectant young faces .
Questions came to << me >> from all sides about my world citizenship activities .
After making a short statement about human rights , and the freedom to travel , << I >> told them I would be going to the Kehl bridge the next morning in order to cross the Rhine into Germany .
After making a short statement about human rights , and the freedom to travel , I told them << I >> would be going to the Kehl bridge the next morning in order to cross the Rhine into Germany .
`` Well , << I >> might not get that far '' , I told them , `` as actually I have no papers to enter Germany and , as a matter of fact , no permit to return to France once I leave '' .
`` Well , I might not get that far '' , << I >> told them , `` as actually I have no papers to enter Germany and , as a matter of fact , no permit to return to France once I leave '' .
`` Well , I might not get that far '' , I told them , `` as actually << I >> have no papers to enter Germany and , as a matter of fact , no permit to return to France once I leave '' .
`` Well , I might not get that far '' , I told them , `` as actually I have no papers to enter Germany and , as a matter of fact , no permit to return to France once << I >> leave '' .
They would champion << me >> .
That evening , as << I >> learned later , the students , enjoying that spontaneous immodesty in action known only to university students , surged out onto the streets of Strasbourg , overturning empty streetcars , marking up store fronts , and shouting imprudently , `` Garry Davis to power '' ! !
Alarmed by this display of weapons , << I >> looked toward the bridge and there saw , stretched across the near side , a cordon of policemen , their bicycles forming a roadblock before which stood several French officers in uniform and a small waspish man in a brown derby .
`` Listen please '' , << I >> called to the students in French .
`` << I >> thank you most heartily for being here .
<< I >> ask you all to support me in this .
I ask you all to support << me >> in this .
Your self-control in this respect will be the only witness to your understanding of what << I >> am saying .
<< I >> marched up to the waiting officials , the students massed behind me .
I marched up to the waiting officials , the students massed behind << me >> .
The waspish man stopped << me >> three paces from the bicycle barricade , and asked me in French if I had papers to leave France .
The waspish man stopped me three paces from the bicycle barricade , and asked << me >> in French if I had papers to leave France .
The waspish man stopped me three paces from the bicycle barricade , and asked me in French if << I >> had papers to leave France .
<< I >> took one step eastward .
One of the uniformed officers stepped in my way , demanding to know whether << I >> had permission to enter Germany .
`` No , << I >> have no permission to enter Germany '' , I told him .
`` No , I have no permission to enter Germany '' , << I >> told him .
<< I >> asked him .
`` << I >> must then be standing on the line between France and Germany '' .
<< I >> mean ''
<< I >> asked .
<< I >> have witnesses .
And as you know , << I >> have no permission to re-enter France once out .
Now << I >> learn I cannot enter Germany .
Now I learn << I >> cannot enter Germany .
Then will you give << me >> a visa to re-enter France '' ? ?
`` Ah , then please tell << me >> where the frontier is because this gentleman here '' -- I indicated the French occupation officer -- `` informs me that Germany is just on the other side of him '' .
`` Ah , then please tell me where the frontier is because this gentleman here '' -- << I >> indicated the French occupation officer -- `` informs me that Germany is just on the other side of him '' .
`` Ah , then please tell me where the frontier is because this gentleman here '' -- I indicated the French occupation officer -- `` informs << me >> that Germany is just on the other side of him '' .
Seeing their hesitation , << I >> said , `` Well , until I have permission to enter Germany , or a visa to re-enter France , I shall be obliged to remain here on the line between two countries '' , whereupon I moved to the side of the road , parked my backpack against the small guardhouse on the sidewalk , sat down , took out my typewriter , and began typing the above conversation .
Seeing their hesitation , I said , `` Well , until << I >> have permission to enter Germany , or a visa to re-enter France , I shall be obliged to remain here on the line between two countries '' , whereupon I moved to the side of the road , parked my backpack against the small guardhouse on the sidewalk , sat down , took out my typewriter , and began typing the above conversation .
Seeing their hesitation , I said , `` Well , until I have permission to enter Germany , or a visa to re-enter France , << I >> shall be obliged to remain here on the line between two countries '' , whereupon I moved to the side of the road , parked my backpack against the small guardhouse on the sidewalk , sat down , took out my typewriter , and began typing the above conversation .
Seeing their hesitation , I said , `` Well , until I have permission to enter Germany , or a visa to re-enter France , I shall be obliged to remain here on the line between two countries '' , whereupon << I >> moved to the side of the road , parked my backpack against the small guardhouse on the sidewalk , sat down , took out my typewriter , and began typing the above conversation .
`` << I >> don't know '' , I told him , `` except that I will be here '' .
`` I don't know '' , << I >> told him , `` except that I will be here '' .
`` I don't know '' , I told him , `` except that << I >> will be here '' .
`` << I >> have a small sports shop in Strasbourg '' .
That would be a great help , << I >> told him , thanking him for his thoughtfulness .
A special guard was posted at my end of the bridge to make sure << I >> didn't cross , the ludicrousness of the situation being revealed fully in that everyone else -- men , women , and children , dogs , cats , horses , cars , trucks , baby carriages -- could cross Kehl bridge into Kehl without surveillance .
A volunteer food brigade had been arranged , they told << me >> , which would supply me with the necessities as long as I remained at the bridge .
A volunteer food brigade had been arranged , they told me , which would supply << me >> with the necessities as long as I remained at the bridge .
A volunteer food brigade had been arranged , they told me , which would supply me with the necessities as long as << I >> remained at the bridge .
One of the girl students , sitting by while << I >> ate the thick soup , asked me if I had a sleeping bag .
One of the girl students , sitting by while I ate the thick soup , asked << me >> if I had a sleeping bag .
One of the girl students , sitting by while I ate the thick soup , asked me if << I >> had a sleeping bag .
When << I >> informed her that I didn't , she said she would borrow her brother's and bring it to me later that evening .
When I informed her that << I >> didn't , she said she would borrow her brother's and bring it to me later that evening .
When I informed her that I didn't , she said she would borrow her brother's and bring it to << me >> later that evening .
<< I >> was delighted to make that personal contact in such trying and unusual circumstances .
The Peter family proved wonderful and helpful friends in the following days , Mrs. Peter , little Esther , and Raoul , who generously lent << me >> his sleeping bag for my `` Watch on the Rhine '' .
Sighting a line from the bridge to a small field directly to the side , << I >> pitched the tent that evening on the stateless `` line '' , digging a small trench around it as best I could with a toy spade donated by a neighborhood child .
Sighting a line from the bridge to a small field directly to the side , I pitched the tent that evening on the stateless `` line '' , digging a small trench around it as best << I >> could with a toy spade donated by a neighborhood child .
After scouring around a bit in the open area , << I >> came across what proved to be tar-soaked logs which crackled and burned brightly , giving off vast rolls of smoke into the ashen sky .
<< I >> had advised friends to write me to `` No Man's Land , Pont Kehl , Between Strasbourg and Kehl , France-Germany '' .
I had advised friends to write << me >> to `` No Man's Land , Pont Kehl , Between Strasbourg and Kehl , France-Germany '' .
Sure enough , mail began trickling in , delivered by a talkative , highly amused French postman who informed << me >> there had been quite a debate at the post office as to whether that address would be recognized .
It was a merry if somewhat soggy Christmas for << me >> that year .
Twenty thousand world citizens at Stuttgart had signed a petition inviting << me >> to visit their town .
As it began raining at around eight o'clock on December 26th , << I >> retired into my tent early , somewhat tired and discouraged , my body reacting sluggishly because of the continued exposure .
No matter how large the fire , << I >> couldn't seem to shake off the chill that day .
<< I >> heard nothing more .
Later << I >> learned that Sir Hugh Dalton had expressed a desire to see me , hence their trip to `` No Man's Land '' .
Later I learned that Sir Hugh Dalton had expressed a desire to see << me >> , hence their trip to `` No Man's Land '' .
She entreated << me >> to see a doctor , and when I refused , brought one out to see me .
She entreated me to see a doctor , and when << I >> refused , brought one out to see me .
She entreated me to see a doctor , and when I refused , brought one out to see << me >> .
<< I >> wouldn't hear of it because it meant giving up the `` line '' , though I realized I was in poor shape physically .
I wouldn't hear of it because it meant giving up the `` line '' , though << I >> realized I was in poor shape physically .
I wouldn't hear of it because it meant giving up the `` line '' , though I realized << I >> was in poor shape physically .
Esther , mistaking my hesitation , assured << me >> that the hospital expense would be taken care of by a leading merchant in Strasbourg whom she had already approached .
`` No , it's not that '' , << I >> told her .
`` You see , once << I >> relinquish the position I've already established here , I couldn't regain it without sacrificing the logic of it '' .
`` You see , once I relinquish the position I've already established here , << I >> couldn't regain it without sacrificing the logic of it '' .
Esther looked at << me >> .
<< I >> looked from her to him .
<< I >> asked him .
`` Shake '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> am so happy .
He never let << me >> know that my visit was about to terminate until the actual morning I was to leave for Lymington .
He never let me know that my visit was about to terminate until the actual morning << I >> was to leave for Lymington .
The result was that << I >> found myself in the ridiculous position of having made a formal engagement by letter for the next week , only two days before my departure from London .
Luckily both women knew my position and if anyone suffered in their opinion it was not << I >> '' .
Consequently , on October 31 , 1896 , Mrs. King wrote to Thompson , quite against her daughter's wishes , asking him not to `` recommence a correspondence which << I >> believe has been dropped for some weeks '' .
<< I >> am a great deal at the little children's Hospital .
<< I >> know you are very busy now , you are writing a great deal & your book is coming out , isn't it ? ?
Perhaps Mrs. Meynell would do << me >> the undeserved kindness to keep my own copy of the first edition of my first book , with all its mementos of her and the dear ones .
Last , not least , there are some poems which K. King sent << me >> ( addressed to herself ) when I was preparing a fresh volume , asking me to include them .
Last , not least , there are some poems which K. King sent me ( addressed to herself ) when << I >> was preparing a fresh volume , asking me to include them .
Last , not least , there are some poems which K. King sent me ( addressed to herself ) when I was preparing a fresh volume , asking << me >> to include them .
<< I >> wish you would return them to her .
<< I >> never had the courage to look at them , when my projected volume became hopeless , fearing they were poor , until now when I was obliged to do so .
I never had the courage to look at them , when my projected volume became hopeless , fearing they were poor , until now when << I >> was obliged to do so .
O my genius , young and ripening , you would swear , -- when << I >> wrote them ; ;
<< I >> want you to be grandfather to these orphaned poems , dear father-brother , now I am gone ; ;
I want you to be grandfather to these orphaned poems , dear father-brother , now << I >> am gone ; ;
<< I >> ask you to do me the last favour of reading them by 8 to-morrow evening , about which time I shall come to say my sad good-bye .
I ask you to do << me >> the last favour of reading them by 8 to-morrow evening , about which time I shall come to say my sad good-bye .
I ask you to do me the last favour of reading them by 8 to-morrow evening , about which time << I >> shall come to say my sad good-bye .
If you don't think much of them , tell << me >> the wholesome truth .
If otherwise , you will give << me >> a pleasure .
but this -- yes , terrible step << I >> am about to take is lightened with an inundating joy by the new-found hope that here , in these poems , is treasure -- or at least some measure of beauty , which I did not know of '' .
but this -- yes , terrible step I am about to take is lightened with an inundating joy by the new-found hope that here , in these poems , is treasure -- or at least some measure of beauty , which << I >> did not know of '' .
My own stern hand has rent the ancient bond , And thereof shall the ending not have end : But not for << me >> , that loved her , to be fond Lightly to please me with a newer friend Then hold it more than bravest-feathered song , That I affirm to thee , with heart of pride , I knew not what did to a friend belong Till I stood up , true friend , by thy true side ; ;
My own stern hand has rent the ancient bond , And thereof shall the ending not have end : But not for me , that loved her , to be fond Lightly to please << me >> with a newer friend Then hold it more than bravest-feathered song , That I affirm to thee , with heart of pride , I knew not what did to a friend belong Till I stood up , true friend , by thy true side ; ;
My own stern hand has rent the ancient bond , And thereof shall the ending not have end : But not for me , that loved her , to be fond Lightly to please me with a newer friend Then hold it more than bravest-feathered song , That << I >> affirm to thee , with heart of pride , I knew not what did to a friend belong Till I stood up , true friend , by thy true side ; ;
My own stern hand has rent the ancient bond , And thereof shall the ending not have end : But not for me , that loved her , to be fond Lightly to please me with a newer friend Then hold it more than bravest-feathered song , That I affirm to thee , with heart of pride , << I >> knew not what did to a friend belong Till I stood up , true friend , by thy true side ; ;
My own stern hand has rent the ancient bond , And thereof shall the ending not have end : But not for me , that loved her , to be fond Lightly to please me with a newer friend Then hold it more than bravest-feathered song , That I affirm to thee , with heart of pride , I knew not what did to a friend belong Till << I >> stood up , true friend , by thy true side ; ;
`` He's got high blood pressure , too , and bum kidneys '' , the doctor said to << me >> .
`` You know '' , Norton said to << me >> later , `` I am thinking of setting up the Klinico Brownapopolus .
`` You know '' , Norton said to me later , `` << I >> am thinking of setting up the Klinico Brownapopolus .
<< I >> might not make any money but I'd sure have patients '' .
The wear and tear of life have taught << me >> that very few friends of mutual friends long to see foreign strangers , but I planned on being the soul of tact , of giving them plenty of outs was there the tiniest implication that their cups were already running over without us .
The wear and tear of life have taught me that very few friends of mutual friends long to see foreign strangers , but << I >> planned on being the soul of tact , of giving them plenty of outs was there the tiniest implication that their cups were already running over without us .
<< I >> suppose the same emotion holds , if to a lesser degree , with any famous monument .
It remained , however , for Mando to teach << me >> that Doric symbolized strength , Ionic wisdom , and Corinthian beauty , the three pillars of the ancient world .
This agreeable state of affairs is explicable , << I >> think , on two counts .
For a delightful drive out of Athens << I >> should recommend Sounion , at the end of the Attic Peninsula .
<< I >> suppose the day will inevitably come when the area will be encrusted with developments , but at present it is deserted and seductive .
There is a mediocre restaurant at Sounion and << I >> fed a thin little Grecian cat and gave it two saucers of water -- there was no milk -- which it lapped up as though it were nectar .
<< I >> think its thirst had never been assuaged before .
Norton and << I >> dined one night in a sea-food restaurant in Piraeus right on the water's edge .
`` Little Rock is , without any flattery , one of the dullest towns in the United States and << I >> would not have remained two hours in the place , if I had not met with some good friends who made me forget its dreariness '' .
`` Little Rock is , without any flattery , one of the dullest towns in the United States and I would not have remained two hours in the place , if << I >> had not met with some good friends who made me forget its dreariness '' .
`` Little Rock is , without any flattery , one of the dullest towns in the United States and I would not have remained two hours in the place , if I had not met with some good friends who made << me >> forget its dreariness '' .
yet the tide is too strong against us , and << I >> fear ( if the framer of hearts help not ) it will force me to little Patience , a little isle next to your Prudence '' .
yet the tide is too strong against us , and I fear ( if the framer of hearts help not ) it will force << me >> to little Patience , a little isle next to your Prudence '' .
That night after supper << I >> went back over to 48 Spruce Street -- Ralph and I at that time were living at 168 Chestnut -- and Ralph went with me .
That night after supper I went back over to 48 Spruce Street -- Ralph and << I >> at that time were living at 168 Chestnut -- and Ralph went with me .
That night after supper I went back over to 48 Spruce Street -- Ralph and I at that time were living at 168 Chestnut -- and Ralph went with << me >> .
Let << me >> give Papa blood '' .
`` But why in the name of God can't << I >> give my father blood '' ? ?
`` Why can't << I >> , Doctor '' ? ?
After they had paid all his debts and the funeral costs , Ralph and Fred had some fourteen thousand dollars , as << I >> remember , with which to pay the bequests .
Consequently , Fred and Tom , the two who had been provided college educations , signed statements to the effect that each had received his bequest in full , and Effie and << I >> were each allotted $5000 .
Papa , << I >> should emphasize , had been an invalid the last several years of his life ; ;
<< I >> recall that several years their taxes exceeded $800 .
<< I >> have known Papa to exclaim on getting his tax bill , `` we're going to the dogs '' ! !
<< I >> believe there are seventeen short plays by Tom now housed in the Houghton Library at Harvard ; ;
<< I >> think I'm right in that figure .
In this play there were some thirty or more named characters and << I >> don't know how many more unnamed .
In describing it to Professor Baker after it had been chosen for production , he defended his great array of characters by declaring that he had included that many not because `` << I >> didn't know how to save paint '' , but because the play required them .
Tom told << me >> about it , how one evening he went over to see the Theatre Guild man .
It was not until we had returned to the city to live , while << I >> was still at Brown and Sharpe's , that I felt the full impact of evangelical Christianity .
It was not until we had returned to the city to live , while I was still at Brown and Sharpe's , that << I >> felt the full impact of evangelical Christianity .
<< I >> came under the spell of a younger group in the church led by the pastor's older son .
<< I >> was drawn deeper and deeper into these concerns and responsibilities .
<< I >> engaged more and more in religious activities .
<< I >> went to an afternoon service at the Aj .
<< I >> went to the Christian Endeavor Society and to the evening service of the church .
The young people were self-energizing , and << I >> was energized .
Meanwhile << I >> myself was not yet saved .
At least << I >> had been unable to lay hold on the experience of conversion .
Try as << I >> might to confess my sins and accept salvation , no answer came to me from heaven .
Try as I might to confess my sins and accept salvation , no answer came to << me >> from heaven .
Finally , after years , << I >> gave up .
<< I >> was familiar with Pilgrim's Progress , which I read as literature .
I was familiar with Pilgrim's Progress , which << I >> read as literature .
No load of sin had been laid on my shoulders , nor did earnest effort enable << me >> to become conscious of one .
<< I >> did not feel it presumptuous to expect that the Creator would be at least as just as the most righteous of His creatures ; ;
The actual impelling force which severed << me >> from evangelical effort was of another sort .
<< I >> found myself becoming one of that group of people who , in Carlyle's words , `` are forever gazing into their own navels , anxiously asking ' Am I right , am I wrong ' '' ? ?
I found myself becoming one of that group of people who , in Carlyle's words , `` are forever gazing into their own navels , anxiously asking ' Am << I >> right , am I wrong ' '' ? ?
I found myself becoming one of that group of people who , in Carlyle's words , `` are forever gazing into their own navels , anxiously asking ' Am I right , am << I >> wrong ' '' ? ?
<< I >> bethought me of the Lord's Prayer , and these words came to mind : `` Thy kingdom come , Thy will be done , on earth as it is in heaven '' .
I bethought << me >> of the Lord's Prayer , and these words came to mind : `` Thy kingdom come , Thy will be done , on earth as it is in heaven '' .
From that time to this my religious concern is that << I >> might give effective help to the bringing in of God's kingdom on earth .
In my experience the assurance of forgiveness comes only when << I >> have confessed to the wronged one and have made as full reparation as I can devise .
In my experience the assurance of forgiveness comes only when I have confessed to the wronged one and have made as full reparation as << I >> can devise .
This was taken after << I >> came to live in Springfield , and it was made under the guidance of the Reverend Raymond Beardslee , a young preacher who came to the Congregational Church there at about the same time that I moved from New York .
This was taken after I came to live in Springfield , and it was made under the guidance of the Reverend Raymond Beardslee , a young preacher who came to the Congregational Church there at about the same time that << I >> moved from New York .
His father was a professor at Hartford Theological Seminary , and from him he acquired a conviction , which he passed along to << me >> , that there is in the universe of persons a moral law , the law of love , which is a natural law in the same sense as is the physical law .
This viewpoint << I >> find interesting , but it has never weighed on my soul .
So far as `` sacredness '' inheres in any aspect of creation it seems to << me >> to be found in human personality , whether in Lambarene , Africa , or in Washington , D.C. .
This intellectual approach to spiritual life suited << me >> well , because I was never content to lead a divided life .
This intellectual approach to spiritual life suited me well , because << I >> was never content to lead a divided life .
As << I >> have said , words from Tennyson remain ever in my memory : `` That mind and soul , according well , May make one music as before '' .
<< I >> asked one day what he was doing .
He told << me >> that he had a big newt and a little newt and that he was transplanting a big eye of the big newt onto the little newt and a little eye of the little newt onto the big newt .
Said he , `` It teaches << me >> to wonder '' .
Such a list must naturally be selective , and the treatment of each man is brief , for << I >> am interested only in their general ideas on the moral measure of literature .
for if this can be proved we shall surely be the gainers -- << I >> mean , if there is a use in poetry as well as a delight '' .
For this reason , then << I >> want to describe , first , two examples of the puritanical attacks : Stephen Gosson's The School Of Abuse , 1579 , and his later Playes Confuted , published in 1582 .
`` << I >> never saw men '' , Lafayette declared in regard to the riflemen , `` so merry , so spirited , and so desirous to go on to the enemy , whatever force they might have , as that small party in this fight '' .
`` They straggle at such a rate '' , he told the commander-in-chief , `` that if the enemy were enterprising , they might get two from us , when we would take one of them , which makes << me >> wish General Howe would go on , lest any incident happen to us '' .
His fellow Virginian , George Washington , had stated , `` << I >> believe no event was ever received with more heartfelt joy '' .
<< I >> don't know how and I don't know why but the two stores , the one in Margaretville and the one in Fleischmanns that had been set up as a partnership , were dissolved , separated from each other .
I don't know how and << I >> don't know why but the two stores , the one in Margaretville and the one in Fleischmanns that had been set up as a partnership , were dissolved , separated from each other .
<< I >> became fifteen , sixteen , then twenty , and still Tessie Alpert sat on the porch with a rose in her hair , and Alfred got richer and sicker with diabetes .
One day Alfred told him that he had decided to leave everything to << me >> .
if he wanted to leave << me >> something let it be a trinket , nothing else .
By leaving << me >> everything he wouldn't be doing me a favor , my father told him , and he didn't want to see his daughter involved in a lawsuit .
By leaving me everything he wouldn't be doing << me >> a favor , my father told him , and he didn't want to see his daughter involved in a lawsuit .
He didn't want Alfred to leave << me >> trouble because that's all it would be , and Alfred understood .
He sent << me >> for Meltzer the Butcher , whom he wanted not as a friend but as a rabbi .
Meltzer knew why << I >> had come for him .
<< I >> sat down to wait , and I watched Tessie Alpert , who hadn't moved or said a word but kept staring out of the window .
I sat down to wait , and << I >> watched Tessie Alpert , who hadn't moved or said a word but kept staring out of the window .
Speak to << me >> '' .
<< I >> went to visit Alfred in the Kingston Hospital a few times .
The first time << I >> went there he asked me to bring him water from Flagler's well -- water that reminded him of his first days in the mountains -- and before I came the next time I filled a five-gallon jug for him and brought it to the hospital .
The first time I went there he asked << me >> to bring him water from Flagler's well -- water that reminded him of his first days in the mountains -- and before I came the next time I filled a five-gallon jug for him and brought it to the hospital .
The first time I went there he asked me to bring him water from Flagler's well -- water that reminded him of his first days in the mountains -- and before << I >> came the next time I filled a five-gallon jug for him and brought it to the hospital .
The first time I went there he asked me to bring him water from Flagler's well -- water that reminded him of his first days in the mountains -- and before I came the next time << I >> filled a five-gallon jug for him and brought it to the hospital .
The daughter , Lilly , was a very good friend of mine and << I >> always had hopes that someday she and Meltzer would find each other .
Lilly Banks and << I >> became friends .
Every chance << I >> got I left the hotel to visit Lilly .
Every chance I got << I >> left the hotel to visit Lilly .
<< I >> was free but she was bound to her duties that not even the coming of Meltzer lightened .
<< I >> helped Lilly in the store .
To << me >> it was a game , to her it was the deadly seriousness of life .
<< I >> wanted to help so that we could find time to play .
To << me >> Lilly was a fine and lovely girl .
She had the hips of a boy and a loose-jointed walk that reminded << me >> of a string of beads strolling down the street .
<< I >> accepted her crossed eyes as she accepted my childishness ; ;
We were almost the same age , she was fifteen , << I >> was twelve , and where I felt there was a life to look forward to Lilly felt she had had as much of it as was necessary .
We were almost the same age , she was fifteen , I was twelve , and where << I >> felt there was a life to look forward to Lilly felt she had had as much of it as was necessary .
Later , when << I >> was older , I found the song was part of Schubert's Die Schone Mullerin .
Later , when I was older , << I >> found the song was part of Schubert's Die Schone Mullerin .
And even hearing it in a concert hall surrounded by hundreds of people the words and the melody would make << me >> a little colder and I would reach out for my husband's hand .
And even hearing it in a concert hall surrounded by hundreds of people the words and the melody would make me a little colder and << I >> would reach out for my husband's hand .
<< I >> felt very flattered to be included in the protection of their company even though I had nothing to be protected from .
I felt very flattered to be included in the protection of their company even though << I >> had nothing to be protected from .
A man in Mississippi wired : `` Thanks for drawing 258 -- that's << me >> '' .
<< I >> say the late seventeenth century because Racine ( whom Lessing did not really know ) stands on the far side of the chasm .
<< I >> have said before how difficult it is to make any precise statements with regard to the character of the Greek and Elizabethan public .
<< I >> refer to the notion that the structure of society is a microcosm of the cosmic design and that history conforms to patterns of justice and chastisement as if it were a morality play set in motion by the gods for our instruction .
And although they were , as << I >> have indicated , under increasing strain at the time of Racine , they are still alive in his theatre .
In his letter mentioning Shakespeare on January 24 , 1597/8 , Sturley asked Quiney especially that `` theare might ( be ) bi Sir Ed. Grev. some meanes made to the Knightes of the Parliament for an ease and discharge of such taxes and subsedies wherewith our towne is like to be charged , and << I >> assure u I am in great feare and doubte bi no meanes hable to paie .
In his letter mentioning Shakespeare on January 24 , 1597/8 , Sturley asked Quiney especially that `` theare might ( be ) bi Sir Ed. Grev. some meanes made to the Knightes of the Parliament for an ease and discharge of such taxes and subsedies wherewith our towne is like to be charged , and I assure u << I >> am in great feare and doubte bi no meanes hable to paie .
Sir Ed. Gre. is gonne to Brestowe and from thence to Lond. as << I >> heare , who verie well knoweth our estates and wil be willinge to do us ani good '' .
Sturley on November 4 answered a letter from Quiney written on October 25 which imported , wrote Sturley , `` that our countriman Mr. Wm. Shak. would procure us monei : which << I >> will like of as I shall heare when , wheare & howe : and I prai let not go that occasion if it mai sort to ani indifferent condicions .
Sturley on November 4 answered a letter from Quiney written on October 25 which imported , wrote Sturley , `` that our countriman Mr. Wm. Shak. would procure us monei : which I will like of as << I >> shall heare when , wheare & howe : and I prai let not go that occasion if it mai sort to ani indifferent condicions .
Sturley on November 4 answered a letter from Quiney written on October 25 which imported , wrote Sturley , `` that our countriman Mr. Wm. Shak. would procure us monei : which I will like of as I shall heare when , wheare & howe : and << I >> prai let not go that occasion if it mai sort to ani indifferent condicions .
Baker wrote : `` << I >> tooke order with Sr. E. Grevile for the payment of Ceartaine monei beefore his going towardes London .
& synce << I >> did write unto him to dessier him to paie 10 for mee which standeth mee greatly uppon to have paide .
Baker added : `` << I >> pray you delivre these inclosed Letters And Comend mee to Mr. Rychard Mytton whoe I know will ffreind mee for the payment of this monei '' .
Baker added : `` I pray you delivre these inclosed Letters And Comend mee to Mr. Rychard Mytton whoe << I >> know will ffreind mee for the payment of this monei '' .
He listed what he had spent for `` My own diet in London eighteen weeks , in which << I >> was sick a month ; ;
another << I >> bought there to bring me home 7 weeks ; ;
another I bought there to bring << me >> home 7 weeks ; ;
all which cost << me >> at the least 20 pounds '' .
Victor had been stirred by my account of him in Makers And Finders , for Stephens was one of the lost writers whom Melville had seen in his childhood and whom << I >> was bent on resurrecting .
<< I >> had had my name taken out of the telephone book , and this was partly because of a convict who had been discharged from Sing Sing and who called me night after night .
I had had my name taken out of the telephone book , and this was partly because of a convict who had been discharged from Sing Sing and who called << me >> night after night .
He said he was a friend of Heywood Broun who had run a free employment bureau for several months during the depression , but the generous Broun to whom << I >> wrote did not know his name and I somehow conceived the morbid notion that the man in question was prowling round the house .
He said he was a friend of Heywood Broun who had run a free employment bureau for several months during the depression , but the generous Broun to whom I wrote did not know his name and << I >> somehow conceived the morbid notion that the man in question was prowling round the house .
There had been something sinister about him that warned << me >> against him , -- I had never felt that way about any other boy , -- but when he uttered his name on the telephone I had forgotten this and I was glad to do what he asked of me .
There had been something sinister about him that warned me against him , -- << I >> had never felt that way about any other boy , -- but when he uttered his name on the telephone I had forgotten this and I was glad to do what he asked of me .
There had been something sinister about him that warned me against him , -- I had never felt that way about any other boy , -- but when he uttered his name on the telephone << I >> had forgotten this and I was glad to do what he asked of me .
There had been something sinister about him that warned me against him , -- I had never felt that way about any other boy , -- but when he uttered his name on the telephone I had forgotten this and << I >> was glad to do what he asked of me .
There had been something sinister about him that warned me against him , -- I had never felt that way about any other boy , -- but when he uttered his name on the telephone I had forgotten this and I was glad to do what he asked of << me >> .
He was a captain , he said , in the army , and on the train to New York his purse and all his money had been stolen , and would << I >> lend him twenty-five dollars to be given him at the General Delivery window ? ?
Never hearing from him again , << I >> remembered the little boy of whom I had had such doubts when he was ten years old .
Never hearing from him again , I remembered the little boy of whom << I >> had had such doubts when he was ten years old .
To the Weston house came once William Allen Neilson , the president of Smith College who had been one of my old professors and who still called << me >> `` Boy '' when I was sixty .
To the Weston house came once William Allen Neilson , the president of Smith College who had been one of my old professors and who still called me `` Boy '' when << I >> was sixty .
<< I >> had always thought of that lovable man as many years older than myself , although he was perhaps only twenty years older , and he confirmed my feeling , along with the feeling of both my sons , that teachers of the classics are invariably endearing .
<< I >> must have written to say how much I had enjoyed his fine book The Building Of Eternal Rome , and I found he had not regretted giving me the highest mark in his old course on the later Latin poets , although in my final examination I had ignored the questions and filled the bluebook with a comparison of Propertius and Coleridge .
I must have written to say how much << I >> had enjoyed his fine book The Building Of Eternal Rome , and I found he had not regretted giving me the highest mark in his old course on the later Latin poets , although in my final examination I had ignored the questions and filled the bluebook with a comparison of Propertius and Coleridge .
I must have written to say how much I had enjoyed his fine book The Building Of Eternal Rome , and << I >> found he had not regretted giving me the highest mark in his old course on the later Latin poets , although in my final examination I had ignored the questions and filled the bluebook with a comparison of Propertius and Coleridge .
I must have written to say how much I had enjoyed his fine book The Building Of Eternal Rome , and I found he had not regretted giving << me >> the highest mark in his old course on the later Latin poets , although in my final examination I had ignored the questions and filled the bluebook with a comparison of Propertius and Coleridge .
I must have written to say how much I had enjoyed his fine book The Building Of Eternal Rome , and I found he had not regretted giving me the highest mark in his old course on the later Latin poets , although in my final examination << I >> had ignored the questions and filled the bluebook with a comparison of Propertius and Coleridge .
He had written to << me >> about a dinner he had had with the Benedictine monks at St. Anselm's Priory in Washington .
He felt as << I >> felt about this best of all my books , that it was `` really tops '' .
<< I >> could never forget the gaiety with which , when he was both blind and deaf , he let me lead him around his rooms to look at some of the pictures ; ;
I could never forget the gaiety with which , when he was both blind and deaf , he let << me >> lead him around his rooms to look at some of the pictures ; ;
There were several men of ninety or more whom << I >> knew first or last , all of whom were still productive and most of whom knew one another as if they had naturally come together at the apex of their lives .
<< I >> never met John Dewey , whose style was a sort of verbal fog and who had written asking me to go to Mexico with him when he was investigating the cause of Trotsky ; ;
I never met John Dewey , whose style was a sort of verbal fog and who had written asking << me >> to go to Mexico with him when he was investigating the cause of Trotsky ; ;
At Lee Simonson's house , << I >> had dined with Edith Hamilton , the nonogenarian rationalist and the charming scholar who had a great popular success with The Greek Way .
<< I >> saw Sedgwick often before his death at ninety-five , -- he had remarried at the age of ninety , -- and he asked me , when once I returned from Rome , if I knew the Cavallinis in the church of St. Cecilia in Trastevere .
I saw Sedgwick often before his death at ninety-five , -- he had remarried at the age of ninety , -- and he asked << me >> , when once I returned from Rome , if I knew the Cavallinis in the church of St. Cecilia in Trastevere .
I saw Sedgwick often before his death at ninety-five , -- he had remarried at the age of ninety , -- and he asked me , when once << I >> returned from Rome , if I knew the Cavallinis in the church of St. Cecilia in Trastevere .
I saw Sedgwick often before his death at ninety-five , -- he had remarried at the age of ninety , -- and he asked me , when once I returned from Rome , if << I >> knew the Cavallinis in the church of St. Cecilia in Trastevere .
<< I >> had to confess that I had missed these frescoes , recently discovered , that he had studied in his eighties .
I had to confess that << I >> had missed these frescoes , recently discovered , that he had studied in his eighties .
Mr. Burlingham , -- `` C.C.B. '' -- wrote to << me >> once about an old friend of mine , S. K. Ratcliffe , whom I had first met in London in 1914 and who also came out for a week-end in Weston .
Mr. Burlingham , -- `` C.C.B. '' -- wrote to me once about an old friend of mine , S. K. Ratcliffe , whom << I >> had first met in London in 1914 and who also came out for a week-end in Weston .
Then , all but blind , he said there was nothing in Back to Methuselah -- , -- `` G.B.S. ought to have known that '' , -- and `` << I >> look at my bookshelves despairingly , knowing that I can have nothing more to do with them '' .
Then , all but blind , he said there was nothing in Back to Methuselah -- , -- `` G.B.S. ought to have known that '' , -- and `` I look at my bookshelves despairingly , knowing that << I >> can have nothing more to do with them '' .
While S.K. did not like Dylan Thomas , << I >> liked his poems very much , but I made the mistake of telling Dylan Thomas so , whereupon he said to me , `` I suppose you think you know all about me '' .
While S.K. did not like Dylan Thomas , I liked his poems very much , but << I >> made the mistake of telling Dylan Thomas so , whereupon he said to me , `` I suppose you think you know all about me '' .
While S.K. did not like Dylan Thomas , I liked his poems very much , but I made the mistake of telling Dylan Thomas so , whereupon he said to << me >> , `` I suppose you think you know all about me '' .
While S.K. did not like Dylan Thomas , I liked his poems very much , but I made the mistake of telling Dylan Thomas so , whereupon he said to me , `` << I >> suppose you think you know all about me '' .
While S.K. did not like Dylan Thomas , I liked his poems very much , but I made the mistake of telling Dylan Thomas so , whereupon he said to me , `` I suppose you think you know all about << me >> '' .
<< I >> should have replied , `` I probably know something about the best part of you '' .
I should have replied , `` << I >> probably know something about the best part of you '' .
Many years later << I >> went to see S.K. in England , where he was living at Whiteleaf , near Aylesbury , and he showed me beside his cottage there the remains of the road on which Boadicea is supposed to have travelled .
Many years later I went to see S.K. in England , where he was living at Whiteleaf , near Aylesbury , and he showed << me >> beside his cottage there the remains of the road on which Boadicea is supposed to have travelled .
<< I >> am really ill at the present moment , and I will go to some sort of a sanitarium to normalize myself '' .
I am really ill at the present moment , and << I >> will go to some sort of a sanitarium to normalize myself '' .
Of course << I >> hope Hal can also , but those hopes are much more faint '' .
And she replied , `` << I >> was born in America , but I was conceived in Vienna '' .
And she replied , `` I was born in America , but << I >> was conceived in Vienna '' .
`` And from now on , for the rest of this trip , << I >> will only drink what you agree that I should drink '' .
`` And from now on , for the rest of this trip , I will only drink what you agree that << I >> should drink '' .
And this means , << I >> suppose , that almost invariably age reveals itself by easily recognizable signs engraved on both the body and the mind .
Those famous lines of the Greek Anthology with which a fading beauty dedicates her mirror at the shrine of a goddess reveal a wise attitude : `` Venus , take my votive glass , Since << I >> am not what I was , What from this day I shall be , Venus , let me never see '' .
Those famous lines of the Greek Anthology with which a fading beauty dedicates her mirror at the shrine of a goddess reveal a wise attitude : `` Venus , take my votive glass , Since I am not what << I >> was , What from this day I shall be , Venus , let me never see '' .
Those famous lines of the Greek Anthology with which a fading beauty dedicates her mirror at the shrine of a goddess reveal a wise attitude : `` Venus , take my votive glass , Since I am not what I was , What from this day << I >> shall be , Venus , let me never see '' .
Those famous lines of the Greek Anthology with which a fading beauty dedicates her mirror at the shrine of a goddess reveal a wise attitude : `` Venus , take my votive glass , Since I am not what I was , What from this day I shall be , Venus , let << me >> never see '' .
At least << I >> should like them to know that I know these discounts are being made .
At least I should like them to know that << I >> know these discounts are being made .
<< I >> have known some men and women who said that the selves they are told about or even remember seem utter strangers to them now ; ;
For my part << I >> find it difficult to conceive such a state of affairs .
<< I >> have changed and I have reversed opinions ; ;
I have changed and << I >> have reversed opinions ; ;
So far as << I >> am concerned , the child is unmistakably father to the man , despite the obvious fact that child and father differ greatly -- sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse .
But << I >> will also remind them that I have always been inclined to skepticism , to a kind of Laodicean lack of commitment so far as public affairs are concerned ; ;
But I will also remind them that << I >> have always been inclined to skepticism , to a kind of Laodicean lack of commitment so far as public affairs are concerned ; ;
so that , although not as eager as << I >> once was to be disapproved of , I can still resist prevailing opinions .
so that , although not as eager as I once was to be disapproved of , << I >> can still resist prevailing opinions .
At about the age of twelve << I >> became a Spencerian liberal , and I have always considered myself a liberal of some kind even though the definition has changed repeatedly since Spencer became a reactionary .
At about the age of twelve I became a Spencerian liberal , and << I >> have always considered myself a liberal of some kind even though the definition has changed repeatedly since Spencer became a reactionary .
Several times in my youth << I >> voted the Socialist ticket , but less because I was Socialist than because I was not either a Republican or a Democrat , and I voted for Franklin Roosevelt every time he was a candidate .
Several times in my youth I voted the Socialist ticket , but less because << I >> was Socialist than because I was not either a Republican or a Democrat , and I voted for Franklin Roosevelt every time he was a candidate .
Several times in my youth I voted the Socialist ticket , but less because I was Socialist than because << I >> was not either a Republican or a Democrat , and I voted for Franklin Roosevelt every time he was a candidate .
Several times in my youth I voted the Socialist ticket , but less because I was Socialist than because I was not either a Republican or a Democrat , and << I >> voted for Franklin Roosevelt every time he was a candidate .
Never once during the trying thirties did << I >> come so close to succumbing to the private climate of opinion as to grant Russian communism even that most weasel-worded of encomiums `` an interesting experiment '' .
There are few things of which << I >> am prouder than of that unblemished record .
Many of my friends at the time thought that << I >> had received a well-deserved condemnation when Lincoln Steffens denounced me in a review of one of my books as a perfect example of the obsolete man who could understand and sympathize only with the dead past .
Many of my friends at the time thought that I had received a well-deserved condemnation when Lincoln Steffens denounced << me >> in a review of one of my books as a perfect example of the obsolete man who could understand and sympathize only with the dead past .
But he , as << I >> can now retort , was the man who could see so short a distance ahead that after a visit to Russia he gave voice to the famous exclamation : `` I have seen the future and it works '' .
But he , as I can now retort , was the man who could see so short a distance ahead that after a visit to Russia he gave voice to the famous exclamation : `` << I >> have seen the future and it works '' .
With this excuse << I >> have never been much impressed .
There was , it seems to << me >> , enough in the openly declared principles and intentions of Russian leaders to alienate honorable men without their having to wait to see how it would turn out .
Once many years ago << I >> sat at dinner next to Arthur Train , and the subject of The Nation came up .
He asked << me >> suddenly , `` What are your political opinions '' ? ?
And << I >> suppose it did .
<< I >> never have been , and am not now , any kind of utopian .
When << I >> first came across Samuel Johnson's pronouncement , `` the remedy for the ills of life is palliative rather than radical '' , it seemed to me to sum up the profoundest of political and social truths .
When I first came across Samuel Johnson's pronouncement , `` the remedy for the ills of life is palliative rather than radical '' , it seemed to << me >> to sum up the profoundest of political and social truths .
Why did << I >> choose to fill these pages in this particular issue with this mixture of rather tenuous reflections and autobiography ? ?
The reason is , << I >> think , my awareness that my remarks last quarter on pacifism may well have served to confirm the opinion of some that my tendency to skepticism and dissent gets us nowhere , and that I am simply too old to hope .
The reason is , I think , my awareness that my remarks last quarter on pacifism may well have served to confirm the opinion of some that my tendency to skepticism and dissent gets us nowhere , and that << I >> am simply too old to hope .
<< I >> would , however , like to suggest that , wrong though I may be , the tendency to see dilemmas rather than solutions is one of which I have been a victim ever since I can remember , and therefore not merely a senile phenomenon .
I would , however , like to suggest that , wrong though << I >> may be , the tendency to see dilemmas rather than solutions is one of which I have been a victim ever since I can remember , and therefore not merely a senile phenomenon .
I would , however , like to suggest that , wrong though I may be , the tendency to see dilemmas rather than solutions is one of which << I >> have been a victim ever since I can remember , and therefore not merely a senile phenomenon .
I would , however , like to suggest that , wrong though I may be , the tendency to see dilemmas rather than solutions is one of which I have been a victim ever since << I >> can remember , and therefore not merely a senile phenomenon .
<< I >> know that one must act .
Apropos of what some would call cynicism , << I >> remember an anecdote the source of which I forget .
Apropos of what some would call cynicism , I remember an anecdote the source of which << I >> forget .
Not really , it seems to << me >> .
It is not that << I >> am unaware of the force of their strongest contention .
In fact << I >> cannot imagine myself condemning a man to the noose or the electric chair if I had to take , as an individual , the responsibility for his death .
In fact I cannot imagine myself condemning a man to the noose or the electric chair if << I >> had to take , as an individual , the responsibility for his death .
Seems to << me >> to create a dilemma not to be satisfactorily disposed of by a simple negative answer .
Here << I >> am face to face with the primeval stuff '' .
`` << I >> thought I knew more than my education had taught me , '' notes the narrator , `` because I had encountered the militant mobs of a political or religious faith '' .
`` I thought << I >> knew more than my education had taught me , '' notes the narrator , `` because I had encountered the militant mobs of a political or religious faith '' .
`` I thought I knew more than my education had taught << me >> , '' notes the narrator , `` because I had encountered the militant mobs of a political or religious faith '' .
`` I thought I knew more than my education had taught me , '' notes the narrator , `` because << I >> had encountered the militant mobs of a political or religious faith '' .
`` He was not much older than myself , '' writes the narrator , `` when he began to feel the impact of that human mystery which now obsesses << me >> , and which makes me begin , perhaps , to understand him '' .
`` He was not much older than myself , '' writes the narrator , `` when he began to feel the impact of that human mystery which now obsesses me , and which makes << me >> begin , perhaps , to understand him '' .
While << I >> fully agree with Sir Anthony's contention , I think that we must carry the analysis farther , bearing in mind that while common peril may be the measure of our need , the existence or absence of a positive sense of community must be the measure of our capacity .
While I fully agree with Sir Anthony's contention , << I >> think that we must carry the analysis farther , bearing in mind that while common peril may be the measure of our need , the existence or absence of a positive sense of community must be the measure of our capacity .
<< I >> believe that these proposals , however meritorious in terms of world needs , go far beyond our capacity to realize them .
<< I >> was born angry .
`` << I >> went to the city And there I did Weep , Men a-crowing like asses , And living like sheep .
`` I went to the city And there << I >> did Weep , Men a-crowing like asses , And living like sheep .
Yes , << I >> went to the city , And there I did bitterly cry , Men out of touch with the earth , And with never a glance at the sky .
Yes , I went to the city , And there << I >> did bitterly cry , Men out of touch with the earth , And with never a glance at the sky .
<< I >> do not want to quibble about typicality ; ;
He writes , `` Most of my friends and << I >> were Jewish ; ;
the combination of the Jewish intellectual tradition and the sensibility needed to be a writer created in my circle the most potent and incredible intellectual-literary ambition << I >> have ever seen or could ever have imagined .
The only possible answer to that is , << I >> am a suffering Franco-Irishman .
My `` touchstones , had , been strictly '' literature and , humanly enough , American literature ( because that was what << I >> wanted to write ) .
`` Excuse << me >> '' , the European said .
`` << I >> am not familiar with the expression '' .
<< I >> have seen diapers strung across the ruined roof .
It is hard for << me >> to know how I feel about Lauro Di Bosis .
It is hard for me to know how << I >> feel about Lauro Di Bosis .
Faced with a gesture like Di Bosis' , << I >> find usually that my sentiments are closer to those of my sculptor friend .
<< I >> keep thinking of a young woman I knew during the Occupation in Austria .
I keep thinking of a young woman << I >> knew during the Occupation in Austria .
<< I >> understand very well about Lauro Di Bosis and how his action is symbolic .
<< I >> thought : What the hell ? ?
<< I >> said I would do it for her .
I said << I >> would do it for her .
<< I >> admire the English lady .
<< I >> hate embarrassing silences and have been known to make a fool out of myself just to prevent one .
<< I >> also had and have feelings about Garibaldi .
Like every Southerner << I >> can't escape the romantic tradition of brave defeats , forlorn lost causes .
And to top it all << I >> am often sentimental on purpose , trying to prove to myself that I am not afraid of sentiment .
And to top it all I am often sentimental on purpose , trying to prove to myself that << I >> am not afraid of sentiment .
She gave << me >> the names of some people who would surely help pay for the flowers and might even march up to the monument with me .
She gave me the names of some people who would surely help pay for the flowers and might even march up to the monument with << me >> .
Maybe << I >> could call Rimanelli at the magazine Rottosei where he worked .
Then << I >> have seen the pride of country well in the eyes of these young people .
So , << I >> say , Mr. Speaker , God bless you and keep you for many years not only for this body but for the United States of America and the free world .
Mr. Speaker , << I >> ask unanimous consent that all Members who desire to do so may extend their remarks at this point in the record ; ;
<< I >> purposely refrained from adding the usual distinction of saying that he was from the State of Texas .
<< I >> did so because I agree with so many here today , that he is the beloved Speaker of all the people of the United States .
I did so because << I >> agree with so many here today , that he is the beloved Speaker of all the people of the United States .
In this my first year as a Member of this body << I >> have experienced many memorable moments .
Many of these experiences are so important that they will be cherished forever by << me >> .
And , like many of you here present , << I >> hold as the highlight of all , the occasion of my first meeting with the honorable Speaker of the House .
At that time , he afforded << me >> the courtesy of his busy workday for such length as I may need , to speak about my background , my hopes , my views on various national and local topics , and any problems that I may have been vexed with at the time .
At that time , he afforded me the courtesy of his busy workday for such length as << I >> may need , to speak about my background , my hopes , my views on various national and local topics , and any problems that I may have been vexed with at the time .
At that time , he afforded me the courtesy of his busy workday for such length as I may need , to speak about my background , my hopes , my views on various national and local topics , and any problems that << I >> may have been vexed with at the time .
In conclusion , he wished << me >> well -- and as kindly and humbly as this humane gentleman could express himself , he asked to be remembered to my wife and children .
In my short period here << I >> believe that at no time has he been otherwise than the most popular man on both sides of the aisle .
<< I >> am highly privileged today to commemorate the brilliant career of this parliamentary giant .
It is a matter of deep personal satisfaction for << me >> to add my voice to the great and distinguished chorus of my colleagues in this paean of praise , respect , and affection for Speaker Sam Rayburn .
It seems to << me >> that the prayers of the whole free world must rise like some vast petition to Providence that Sam Rayburn's vigor and his life remain undiminished through the coming decades .
Here briefly in this humble tribute << I >> have sought for some simple and succinct summation that would define the immense service of this patriot to his country .
But the task is beyond << me >> because I hold it impossible to compress in a sentence or two the complicated and prodigious contributions Sam Rayburn has made as an individual , as a legislator , as a statesman and as a leader and conciliator , to the majestic progress of this Nation .
But the task is beyond me because << I >> hold it impossible to compress in a sentence or two the complicated and prodigious contributions Sam Rayburn has made as an individual , as a legislator , as a statesman and as a leader and conciliator , to the majestic progress of this Nation .
It happens that << I >> am a legislator from Ohio and that I feel deeply about the needs , the aspirations , the interests of my district and my State .
It happens that I am a legislator from Ohio and that << I >> feel deeply about the needs , the aspirations , the interests of my district and my State .
In the same way << I >> like to think we owe our loyalty as legislators to our community , our district , our State .
And , if we follow the Rayburn pattern , as consciously or by an instinctual political sense << I >> like to think I have followed it , then the very nature of our loyalty to our own immediate areas must necessarily be reflected in the devotion of our services to our country .
And , if we follow the Rayburn pattern , as consciously or by an instinctual political sense I like to think << I >> have followed it , then the very nature of our loyalty to our own immediate areas must necessarily be reflected in the devotion of our services to our country .
It is , << I >> insist , hard to define the Rayburn contribution to our political civilization because it is so massive and so widespread and so complicated , and because it goes so deep .
<< I >> pray to God that he may be spared to us for many years to come for this is an influence the United States and the whole world can ill afford to lose .
Of this << I >> am proud .
<< I >> have a distinct admiration for this man we honor today because of the humility with which he carries his greatness .
<< I >> pay my personal tribute to Sam Rayburn , stalwart Texan and great American , not only because today he establishes a record of having served as Speaker of the House of Representatives more than twice as long as Henry Clay , but because of the contributions he has made to the welfare of the people of the Nation during his almost half century of service as a Member of Congress .
No greater pleasure has come to << me >> in my own service in this House than to be present today to participate in this tribute to this great Speaker , this great legislator , this great Texan , this great American .
<< I >> prefer to speak , however , of Sam Rayburn , the person , rather than Sam Rayburn , the American institution .
On September 16 , Sam Rayburn will have served as Speaker twice as long as any predecessor and << I >> am proud to join with others in marking this date , and in expressing my esteem for that notable American , Sam Rayburn .
In testimony whereof , << I >> have hereunto set my hand and caused the seal of the State to be affixed this 21st day of April , in the year of Our Lord , one thousand nine hundred and sixty-one and on Independence , the one hundred and eighty-fifth .
In testimony whereof , << I >> have hereunto set my hand and caused the seal of the State to be affixed this 17th day of May , in the year of Our Lord , one thousand nine hundred and sixty-one , and of Independence , the one hundred and eighty-sixth .
and now , therefore , do << I >> , John A. Notte , Jr. , Governor of the State of Rhode Island and Providence Plantations , proclaim Monday , May 22nd , 1961 , as National Maritime Day , reminding our citizens that American Merchant ships and American seamen are ready at all times to serve our Nation in the cause of freedom and justice .
In testimony whereof , << I >> have hereunto set my hand and caused the seal of the State to be affixed this 20th day of April , in the year of Our Lord , one thousand nine hundred and sixty-one , and of Independence , the one hundred and eighty-fifth .
and now , therefore , do << I >> , John A. Notte , Jr. , Governor of the State of Rhode Island and Providence Plantations , proclaim the week of June 11th to 17th , 1961 , as Miss Rhode Island Pageant Week , with deep appreciation to the Jaycees , local and statewide , for the presentation of their beautiful Pageants and the encouragement of all Rhode Island girls to participate .
In testimony whereof , << I >> have hereunto set my hand and caused the seal of the State to be affixed this 11th day of June , in the year of Our Lord , one thousand nine hundred and sixty-one , and of Independence , the one hundred and eighty-sixth .
and now , therefore , do << I >> , John A. Notte , Jr. , governor of the State of Rhode Island and Providence Plantations , proclaim Tuesday , October 24th , 1961 , as United Nations day , calling upon all our citizens to engage in appropriate observances , demonstrating faith in the United Nations and thereby contributing to a better understanding of the aims of the United Nations throughout the land .
and now , therefore , do << I >> , John A. Notte , Jr. , Governor of the State of Rhode Island and Providence Plantations , proclaim the week of Monday , November 13 , 1961 , as the State Ballet of Rhode Island Week , requesting all Rhode Islanders to give special attention to this unusual event which should contribute to the cultural life of the State .
now , therefore , do << I >> , John A. Notte , Jr. , governor of the State of Rhode Island and Providence Plantations , proclaim Thursday , November 23rd , 1961 , as Thanksgiving Day ,
<< I >> am pleased to note that Mr. Sulzberger will continue to serve as chairman of the board of the New York Times .
<< I >> should like at this time , Mr. Speaker , to pay warm tribute to Arthur Hays Sulzberger and Charles Merz on the occasion of their retirement from distinguished careers in American journalism .
The people of the 17th District of New York , and << I >> as their Representative in Congress , take great pride in the New York Times as one of the great and authoritative newspapers of the world .
Yesterday , << I >> had the privilege of reading a thoughtful article in the U.S. News & World Report of May 8 which discussed this type of action in more detail , including both its advantages and its disadvantages .
efforts , as << I >> see it , which are being directed , by the way , toward support for future actions , not for those already past .
Personally , << I >> think we ought to set up an immediate naval blockade of Cuba .
<< I >> am not easily persuaded that a rule accepted by so many people for so many centuries can be so lightly dismissed .
But in any event , << I >> submit that the power to depose belongs to Congress , not to this Court .
What << I >> am suggesting is that when we delay , or when we fail to act , we do so intentionally and not through inadvertence or through bureaucratic or procedural difficulties .
<< I >> also hope that we can do something about reducing the infant mortality rate of ideas -- an affliction of all bureaucracies .
<< I >> hope no one expects that only Presidential appointees are looked upon as sources of ideas .
Further , << I >> would hope that we could pay attention to little things .
While observing the operations of our Government in various parts of the world , << I >> have felt that in many situations where our policies were good we have tended to ignore minor problems which spoiled our main effort .
<< I >> would hope that we could create the recognition in the Department and overseas that those who come across little things going wrong have the responsibility for bringing these to the attention of those who can do something about them .
<< I >> tried to do so by calling to their attention some of the problems that a senior departmental policy officer faces .
May << I >> add a caution on this particular point ? ?
<< I >> doubt , for example , that , 3 months before the leadership began to talk about what came to be the Marshall plan , any public-opinion expert would have said that the country would have accepted such proposals .
<< I >> recommend to the Congress the establishment of a permanent Peace Corps -- a pool of trained American men and women sent overseas by the U.S. Government or through private organizations and institutions to help foreign countries meet their urgent needs for skilled manpower .
<< I >> have today signed an Executive Order establishing a Peace Corps on a temporary pilot basis .
<< I >> have requested the Secretary of Defense to reexamine the roles and missions of the reserve components in relation to those of the active forces and in the light of the changing requirements of modern warfare .
<< I >> strongly recommend to the Congress the avoidance of mandatory floors on the size of the reserve components so that we may have the flexibility to make adjustments in keeping with military necessity .
<< I >> again proposed a reduction in the Army National Guard and Army Reserve -- from their present strengths of 400,000 and 300,000 , respectively , to 360,000 and 270,000 by the end of the fiscal year 1961 .
<< I >> endorse pending legislation that will restore the traditional relationship between retired and active duty pay rates .
In the budget message for 1959 , and again for 1960 , << I >> recommended immediate repeal of section 601 of the Act of September 28 , 1951 ( 65 Stat. 365 ) .
As << I >> have stated previously , the Attorney General has advised me that this section violates fundamental constitutional principles .
As I have stated previously , the Attorney General has advised << me >> that this section violates fundamental constitutional principles .
Accordingly , if it is not repealed by the Congress at its present session , << I >> shall have no alternative thereafter but to direct the Secretary of Defense to disregard the section unless a court of competent jurisdiction determines otherwise .
As << I >> have repeatedly stated , this provision is much more restrictive than the general law , popularly known as the Buy American Act .
<< I >> am recommending additional acquisitions of the improved version of the B-52 ( the B-52H with the new turbofan engine ) and procurement of the B-58 supersonic medium bomber , together with the supporting refueling tankers in each case .
And lest anybody think that considerations such as these are not germane in a foundation report , let << me >> enlighten them with the truths that , under Communism there would have been no capital with which to endow the Foundation , and that there would not be that individual freedom within which the Fellows might proceed , untrammeled in every way , toward their discoveries , their creative efforts for the good of mankind .
It must have been with some pleasure and relief that on September 12 , 1848 , Joseph Brown made the momentous entry in his job book , in his characteristically cryptic style , `` Lucian Sharpe came to work for << me >> this day as an apprentice '' .
<< I >> believe a further gain is in prospect for 1961 .
<< I >> would expect that sales at retail in the first half of 1961 might be below 1960 by some 10 - 15% but that second-half levels should show a favorable comparison , with a possibility of quite strong demand late in the year if business conditions recover as some recent forecasts suggest they will .
<< I >> look for TV sales and production to be approximately equal at 5.7 million sets for the year , but I look for some decline in radios from the high rate in 1961 to more nearly the 1959 level of 15.0 - 15.5 million sets .
I look for TV sales and production to be approximately equal at 5.7 million sets for the year , but << I >> look for some decline in radios from the high rate in 1961 to more nearly the 1959 level of 15.0 - 15.5 million sets .
While this may well be true in general , << I >> believe it is also important to keep in mind that some recent developments suggest that over the next year or so military electronics may be one of the most strongly growing areas in an economy which is not expanding rapidly in other directions .
Although the impact of these increases on our industry's shipments will be gradual , on balance << I >> look for another good increase in shipments in the coming year , to at least $6 billion .
For the near term , however , it must be realized that the industrial and commercial market is somewhat more sensitive to general business conditions than is the military market , and for this reason << I >> would expect that any gain in 1961 may be somewhat smaller than those of recent years ; ;
Production totalled about 123 million units against 82 million in 1959 , and << I >> look for a further gain to 188 million units worth approximately $380 million in 1961 .
In sum , << I >> look for another good year for the electronics industry in 1961 , with total sales increasing about 7% to $10.8 billion , despite the uncertainties in the business outlook generally .
As << I >> have indicated above , I base this feeling on a belief that current weakness in the market for consumer durable goods may continue through the early months of the year , but will give way to a sufficiently strong recovery later on to bring the full-year figures close to those of 1960 ; ;
As I have indicated above , << I >> base this feeling on a belief that current weakness in the market for consumer durable goods may continue through the early months of the year , but will give way to a sufficiently strong recovery later on to bring the full-year figures close to those of 1960 ; ;
<< I >> will deal with these later on .
This may just be pride in my adopted State of Washington , but certainly << I >> love to visit their mound cities near Yakima and Prosser in July or August , when the bees are in their most active period .
<< I >> cannot make sense out of the figures for post maturity growth ; ;
Oliver , in his summary of the habits of the snakes of the United States , could supply data on the maturing period for only three species in addition to the rattlers , which << I >> shall consider separately .
Carl Kauffeld has written to << me >> of sexual activity in February 1943 of young born in March 1940 .
The father , accurately perceiving the child's needs , not only respected them as worthy of his attention , but immediately satisfied them by taking him on his lap along with the twins , saying , `` << I >> have a big lap ; ;
Similarities to the approach which << I >> have described are evident in the prompt establishment of a helping relationship , quick appraisal of key issues , and the immediate mobilization of treatment plans as the essential dynamics in helping to further the ego's coping efforts in dealing with the interplay of inner and outer stresses .
As one of them expressed it , `` It has done << me >> a world of good to listen to the naive questions and comments of these not-yet-married people .
<< I >> can now better see just what processes provoked certain actions from me in the past .
I can now better see just what processes provoked certain actions from << me >> in the past .
Had << I >> been in an all-married section I would have missed this , and I believe that this single aspect has been of great personal value to me '' .
Had I been in an all-married section << I >> would have missed this , and I believe that this single aspect has been of great personal value to me '' .
Had I been in an all-married section I would have missed this , and << I >> believe that this single aspect has been of great personal value to me '' .
Had I been in an all-married section I would have missed this , and I believe that this single aspect has been of great personal value to << me >> '' .
Some predictions had been made concerning factors R , N , << I >> and Co on these inventories which appeared to be directly related to control and security aspects of personality functioning which were hypothesized as being of importance in differential Kohnstamm reactivity .
One subject spontaneously asked ( after her arm had finally risen ) , `` Do you suppose << I >> was unconsciously keeping it down before '' ? ?
<< I >> thought it wasn't supposed to '' .
But she cleans it up very well when << I >> remind her '' .
He was criticized for his curtness and abruptness -- and he answered : `` << I >> am not working to become popular '' .
On being criticized for his arbitrary behavior -- he answered : `` << I >> have to make decisions .
At first << I >> did not know what she meant ; ;
<< I >> thought she must be seeing me as some one who had just come from seeing her grandmother , in their distant home-city .
I thought she must be seeing << me >> as some one who had just come from seeing her grandmother , in their distant home-city .
Then << I >> realized that she had been deliberately showing me , this time , what Granny was like ; ;
Then I realized that she had been deliberately showing << me >> , this time , what Granny was like ; ;
At another phase in the therapy , when a pathogenic mother-introject began to emerge more and more upon the investigative scene , she muttered in a low but intense voice , to herself , `` << I >> hate that woman inside me '' ! !
At another phase in the therapy , when a pathogenic mother-introject began to emerge more and more upon the investigative scene , she muttered in a low but intense voice , to herself , `` I hate that woman inside << me >> '' ! !
<< I >> could evoke no further elaboration from her about this ; ;
but a few seconds later she was standing directly across the room from << me >> , looking me in the eyes and saying in a scathingly condemnatory tone , `` Your father despises you '' ! !
but a few seconds later she was standing directly across the room from me , looking << me >> in the eyes and saying in a scathingly condemnatory tone , `` Your father despises you '' ! !
Again , << I >> at first misconstrued this disconcertingly intense communication , and I quickly cast through my mind to account for her being able to speak , with such utter conviction , of an opinion held by my father , now several years deceased .
Again , I at first misconstrued this disconcertingly intense communication , and << I >> quickly cast through my mind to account for her being able to speak , with such utter conviction , of an opinion held by my father , now several years deceased .
She looked confused at this , and << I >> felt sure it had been a wrong response for me to make .
She looked confused at this , and I felt sure it had been a wrong response for << me >> to make .
It then occurred to << me >> to ask , `` Is that what that woman told you '' ? ?
<< I >> realized , now , that she had been showing me , in what impressed me as being a very accurate way , something her mother had once said to her ; ;
I realized , now , that she had been showing << me >> , in what impressed me as being a very accurate way , something her mother had once said to her ; ;
I realized , now , that she had been showing me , in what impressed << me >> as being a very accurate way , something her mother had once said to her ; ;
What had been an unmanageably powerful introject was now , despite its continuing charge of energy disconcerting to << me >> , sufficiently within control of her ego that she could use it to show me what this introjected mother was like .
What had been an unmanageably powerful introject was now , despite its continuing charge of energy disconcerting to me , sufficiently within control of her ego that she could use it to show << me >> what this introjected mother was like .
A somewhat less fragmented hebephrenic patient of mine , who used to often seclude herself in her room , often sounded through the closed door -- as << I >> would find on passing by , between our sessions -- for all the world like two persons , a scolding mother and a defensive child .
and only when << I >> can acknowledge this , to myself , as being indeed an aspect of my personality , does it cease to be a prominently troublesome aspect of the patient's behavior .
For example , one hebephrenic man used to annoy << me >> , month after month , by saying , whenever I got up to leave and made my fairly steoreotyped comment that I would be seeing him on the following day , or whenever , `` You're welcome '' , in a notably condescending fashion -- as though it were his due for me to thank him for the privilege of spending the hour with him , and he were thus pointing up my failure to utter a humbly grateful , `` thank you '' to him at the end of each session .
For example , one hebephrenic man used to annoy me , month after month , by saying , whenever << I >> got up to leave and made my fairly steoreotyped comment that I would be seeing him on the following day , or whenever , `` You're welcome '' , in a notably condescending fashion -- as though it were his due for me to thank him for the privilege of spending the hour with him , and he were thus pointing up my failure to utter a humbly grateful , `` thank you '' to him at the end of each session .
For example , one hebephrenic man used to annoy me , month after month , by saying , whenever I got up to leave and made my fairly steoreotyped comment that << I >> would be seeing him on the following day , or whenever , `` You're welcome '' , in a notably condescending fashion -- as though it were his due for me to thank him for the privilege of spending the hour with him , and he were thus pointing up my failure to utter a humbly grateful , `` thank you '' to him at the end of each session .
For example , one hebephrenic man used to annoy me , month after month , by saying , whenever I got up to leave and made my fairly steoreotyped comment that I would be seeing him on the following day , or whenever , `` You're welcome '' , in a notably condescending fashion -- as though it were his due for << me >> to thank him for the privilege of spending the hour with him , and he were thus pointing up my failure to utter a humbly grateful , `` thank you '' to him at the end of each session .
Eventually it became clear to << me >> , partly with the aid of another schizophrenic patient who could point out my condescension to me somewhat more directly , that this man , with his condescending , `` You're welcome '' , was very accurately personifying an element of obnoxious condescension which had been present in my own demeanor , over these months , on each of these occasions when I had bid him good-bye with the consoling note , each time , that the healing Christ would be stooping to dispense this succor to the poor sufferer again on the morrow .
Eventually it became clear to me , partly with the aid of another schizophrenic patient who could point out my condescension to << me >> somewhat more directly , that this man , with his condescending , `` You're welcome '' , was very accurately personifying an element of obnoxious condescension which had been present in my own demeanor , over these months , on each of these occasions when I had bid him good-bye with the consoling note , each time , that the healing Christ would be stooping to dispense this succor to the poor sufferer again on the morrow .
Eventually it became clear to me , partly with the aid of another schizophrenic patient who could point out my condescension to me somewhat more directly , that this man , with his condescending , `` You're welcome '' , was very accurately personifying an element of obnoxious condescension which had been present in my own demeanor , over these months , on each of these occasions when << I >> had bid him good-bye with the consoling note , each time , that the healing Christ would be stooping to dispense this succor to the poor sufferer again on the morrow .
Another patient , a paranoid woman , for many months infuriated not only << me >> but the ward-personnel and her fellow patients by arrogantly behaving as though she owned the whole building , as though she were the only person in it whose needs were to be met .
Or an `` << I >> want to go home '' , or whatever -- but a nonverbal one which reveals itself , gradually , as the condensed expression of more than one latent meaning .
As << I >> have been intimating , in the schizophrenic -- and perhaps also in the dreams of the neurotic ; ;
this is a question which << I >> have no wish to take up -- condensation is a phenomenon in which one finds not a condensed expression of various feelings and ideas which are , at an unconscious level , well sorted out , but rather a condensed expression of feelings and ideas which , even in the unconscious , have yet to become well differentiated from one another .
Recently , for example , a paranoid woman's large-scale philosophizing , in the session , about the intrusive curiosity which has become , in her opinion , a deplorable characteristic of mid-twentieth-century human culture , developed itself , before the end of the session , into a suspicion that << I >> was surreptitiously peeking at her partially exposed breast , as indeed I was .
Recently , for example , a paranoid woman's large-scale philosophizing , in the session , about the intrusive curiosity which has become , in her opinion , a deplorable characteristic of mid-twentieth-century human culture , developed itself , before the end of the session , into a suspicion that I was surreptitiously peeking at her partially exposed breast , as indeed << I >> was .
One hebephrenic women confided to << me >> , `` I live in a world of words '' , as if , to her , words were fully concrete objects ; ;
One hebephrenic women confided to me , `` << I >> live in a world of words '' , as if , to her , words were fully concrete objects ; ;
A borderline schizophrenic young man told << me >> that to him the various theoretical concepts about which he had been expounding , in a most articulate fashion , during session after session with me , were like great cubes of almost tangibly solid matter up in the air above him ; ;
A borderline schizophrenic young man told me that to him the various theoretical concepts about which he had been expounding , in a most articulate fashion , during session after session with << me >> , were like great cubes of almost tangibly solid matter up in the air above him ; ;
as he spoke << I >> was reminded of the great bales of cargo which are swung , high in the air , from a docked steamship .
`` A charge to keep << I >> have , A God to glorify '' .
In << I >> know one thing dominant stress will usually be on the complement one thing ; ;
in one thing << I >> know it will usually be on the predicator know .
In << I >> have things to do the word things makes little real contribution to meaning and has weaker stress than do .
In << I >> know one thing dominant stress is likely to go to one rather than to semantically pale thing .
In << I >> knew you when you were a child , and you were pretty then dominant stress on then implies that the young woman spoken to is still pretty .
Thus to has light stress both in that was the conclusion that << I >> came to and in that was the conclusion I came to .
Thus to has light stress both in that was the conclusion that I came to and in that was the conclusion << I >> came to .
In << I >> wanted to tell him , but I was afraid to the final to is lightly stressed because it represents to tell him .
In I wanted to tell him , but << I >> was afraid to the final to is lightly stressed because it represents to tell him .
When << I >> have instructions to leave is equivalent in meaning to I have instructions that I am to leave this place , dominant stress is ordinarily on leave .
When I have instructions to leave is equivalent in meaning to << I >> have instructions that I am to leave this place , dominant stress is ordinarily on leave .
When I have instructions to leave is equivalent in meaning to I have instructions that << I >> am to leave this place , dominant stress is ordinarily on leave .
When the same sequence is equivalent in meaning to << I >> have instructions which I am to leave , dominant stress is ordinarily on instructions .
When the same sequence is equivalent in meaning to I have instructions which << I >> am to leave , dominant stress is ordinarily on instructions .
<< I >> can't be happy long without drinking water '' .
In the second sentence if drinking water is a gerundial clause and without drinking water is roughly equivalent in meaning to unless << I >> drink water , there will be stronger stress on water than on drinking ; ;
<< I >> hope his suggestions are given the consideration they deserve in Kikuyu circles .
It seems to << me >> that it rather easily can .
<< I >> , one that was specifically adapted to the San Joaquin Valley .
For Yokuts , << I >> tabulated these 71 items in five columns , according as they were expressed by 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , and more than 4 stems .
<< I >> was at least conscious of the distinction in my full Yokuts presentation that awaits publication , in which , in listing ' Two-Stem Meanings ' , I set off by asterisks those forms in which N of stem B was Af of stem A/3 , the unasterisked ones standing for Af ; ;
I was at least conscious of the distinction in my full Yokuts presentation that awaits publication , in which , in listing ' Two-Stem Meanings ' , << I >> set off by asterisks those forms in which N of stem B was Af of stem A/3 , the unasterisked ones standing for Af ; ;
or under ' Four Stems ' , << I >> set off by asterisks cases where the combined N of stems Af was Af .
If adjectival meanings show relatively low retentiveness of stems , as << I >> am confident will prove to be the case in most languages of the world , why should our basic lists include 15 per cent of these unstable forms , but only 8 per cent of animals and plants which replace much more slowly ? ?
<< I >> would propose , next , as the prime requirement for constitution of new basic lists , items whose forms show as high an empirical retention rate as possible .
My answer is in the negative because << I >> believe that total capital demands during the Sixties will continue to press against available supplies , and interest rates will generally tend to be firm at high levels .
There are serious dangers involved in this trend toward rising Federal expenditures , of which << I >> take a dim view , but it seems very likely to occur .
In a more pessimistic vein about the economic outlook , << I >> suspect that the reservoir of demand for consumer goods and housing which was dammed-up during the Thirties and World War 2 , is finally in the process of running dry .
The growers have strenuously argued that << I >> should have accepted the Superior Court decisions as conclusive and issued statewide instructions to our staff to ignore this provision in the Secretary's Regulation .
<< I >> cannot accept that view , either as a lawyer or as an administrator .
But over and beyond the compelling need for a binding precedent decision , << I >> am convinced that the decisions of the Superior Courts which in effect nullify the Secretary's Regulation are not a correct interpretation of the Secretary's power under the Federal law .
The public interest is so dominant in such an issue that << I >> cannot be so presumptuous as to attempt to settle it by an administrative order based upon conclusions reached in a summary action in one or two Superior Courts in the State .
Because of the uncertainty of this definition , << I >> solicited the interpretation of the Secretary of Labor .
He has advised << me >> that the narrower interpretation is the proper one ; ;
Before turning to my views as to the problems and issues before us at this Regional Conference , << I >> wish to note a small item in the Summary Report as it refers to the District of Columbia .
<< I >> see no real prospects for an all-Negro school population .
<< I >> believe we all want more schools where white and Negro together can and do attend .
<< I >> believe we all want no child denied admission to a school on account of his color .
And << I >> have established that the action of municipal , county , or state school boards or boards of education is small , infinitesimally small in comparison with the number of districts .
But in the second subtype , which << I >> take to be the one more frequently applied , only the operating expenses and not the `` cost of capital '' or `` fair return '' are apportioned directly among the various classes of service .
For the reason just suggested , << I >> shall assume the use of the first subtype of fully distributed cost apportionment in the following simplified example .
) Here << I >> think the role of the philosopher becomes apparent .
<< I >> think it must be said that , contrary to metaphysical insistence , these are questions so framed as to defy either empirical exploration or rational solutions .
But before discussing it , << I >> should like to record one vote of thanks to them for the clarity with which they have stated their case .
This theory has been put so clearly and precisely that it deserves criticism of the same kind , and this << I >> will do my best to supply .
Let us take a set of circumstances in which << I >> happen to be interested on the legislative side and in which I think every one of us might naturally make such a statement .
Let us take a set of circumstances in which I happen to be interested on the legislative side and in which << I >> think every one of us might naturally make such a statement .
<< I >> hold , on the contrary , that we mean to assert something of the pain itself , namely , that it was bad -- bad when and as it occurred .
On that view , nothing good or bad happened in the case until << I >> came on the scene and made my remark .
For what << I >> express in my remark is something going on in me at the time , and that of course did not exist until I did come on the scene .
For what I express in my remark is something going on in << me >> at the time , and that of course did not exist until I did come on the scene .
For what I express in my remark is something going on in me at the time , and that of course did not exist until << I >> did come on the scene .
On the positivist theory , everything << I >> sought to express by calling it evil in the first case is still present in the second .
The suggestion that in saying something evil had occurred we were after all making no mistake , because we had never meant anyhow to say anything about the past suffering , seems to << me >> merely frivolous .
So far as << I >> can see , there is only one way out for the positivist .
This way of escape is theoretically possible , but since it has grave difficulties of its own and has not , so far as << I >> know , been urged by positivists , it is perhaps best not to spend time over it .
<< I >> come now to a third argument , which again is very simple .
And this seems to << me >> untrue .
<< I >> come now to a fourth consideration .
Broad and Ross have lately contended that this fitness is one of the main facts of ethics , and << I >> suspect they are right .
Let << me >> illustrate .
The force of the authors' analysis ( if indeed it has any force ) can be felt by the reader , << I >> believe , only after three questions have been successfully answered .
Although it is not possible to sunder old and new in this era , << I >> shall consider in the present chapter primarily the first decades of the eighth century and shall interpret them as an apogee of the first stage of Greek civilization .
On this principle of division << I >> must postpone the evolution of sculpture , architecture , society , and politics ; ;
It was for this reason , and no other that << I >> can see , that in September 1912 , Braque took the radical and revolutionary step of pasting actual pieces of imitation-woodgrain wallpaper to a drawing on paper , instead of trying to simulate its texture in paint .
Those whom << I >> wish to address with this letter are for the most part unknown to me .
Those whom I wish to address with this letter are for the most part unknown to << me >> .
It may well be that , when Rudy Pozzatti and << I >> visited your country last spring , you were living and working close to the places we saw and the streets we walked .
<< I >> am very pleased that quite a number of you found ways to communicate to me your desire to hear of our reactions and experiences in the U.S.S.R. .
I am very pleased that quite a number of you found ways to communicate to << me >> your desire to hear of our reactions and experiences in the U.S.S.R. .
<< I >> can well understand your curiosity .
Pozzatti and << I >> endeavored earnestly to record our impressions without the prejudice that the anxiety of our time so easily provokes .
The time-span of little more than a month cannot entitle << me >> to pose as an expert on anything I saw .
The time-span of little more than a month cannot entitle me to pose as an expert on anything << I >> saw .
If this attitude is seriously questioned in the Soviet Union , it does not necessarily follow that the majority of the society in which << I >> live is too aware of the necessity for clarity on this ethical as well as aesthetic point of view .
It is a matter of some disappointment to << me >> that still many of my own countrymen are too shortsighted to ascribe any symbolic significance to the plight of a minority , such as artists , in any social order .
<< I >> encountered many questions and great interest upon my return from the Soviet Union about my reactions to that experience .
That which << I >> found most profound and most disturbing appeared to evoke a curiously muted reaction .
<< I >> cannot be content with the anecdotal small talk of a somewhat unusual travelogue .
<< I >> am equally impatient with the shrug of the shoulder , shake of the head of those who no longer care because they have known it for so long ; ;
Difficult as it may have been at times , Pozzatti and << I >> saw enough , talked to enough artists , historians and others to realize that the issue is quite clear .
These two recollections form the frame around a series of experiences and sights which , to << me >> at least , symbolize the extremes in the aesthetic as well as ethical conflict between materialism and humanism .
<< I >> could not bring myself to answer that `` some of my best friends are non-propagating mules '' .
No wonder that Pozzatti and << I >> had at times difficulty in remembering the real purpose of our presence , namely , Cultural Exchange .
<< I >> can only hope that the continuing exchange of groups and individuals between our countries will not wear out all language pertinent to the occasion .
It was only after we had responded , with what << I >> fear were similar cliches , that she went into action by questioning our desire for friendship and understanding with a challenge about aggressive and warlike actions by the U.S. Government in Cuba and Laos .
Pozzatti and << I >> could not know then that we would experience this sort of treatment more often in Moscow than elsewhere .
Until our Moscow experience , << I >> had not considered it necessary to prepare any argument formally or informally .
and , furthermore , << I >> could not presume the implication that I spoke for American artists as a group .
and , furthermore , I could not presume the implication that << I >> spoke for American artists as a group .
<< I >> mention these features of the book because they are inherent in the book's character and therefore must be mentioned .
Since << I >> have already discussed his moral position , that discussion is incorporated by reference into the following pages , which will focus on the empirical and analytic side of Fromm's treatment .
<< I >> shall first indicate a couple of weaknesses in Fromm's analysis , then argue that , granted these weaknesses , he still has much left that is valuable , and , finally , raise the general question of a philosophical versus a sociological approach to the question of alienation .
<< I >> am not suggesting that Fromm ought to do this kind of work .
Nor do << I >> think that alienation is nothing more than a projection of the malaise of the intellectual .
The only other one << I >> shall mention here is his use of the term capitalism .
<< I >> cite it as evidence that he did not develop through new styles as he grew older ( as Yeats did ) , but that he simply learned to use better what he already had .
Living in San Francisco << I >> saw them seldom enough to see them with a perspective which was not distorted by exasperation or fatigue .
So as the years passed , << I >> saw them each time in the light of an accelerated personal conflagration .
The last time << I >> saw Bird , at Jimbo's Bob City , he was so gone -- so blind to the world -- that he literally sat down on me before he realized I was there .
The last time I saw Bird , at Jimbo's Bob City , he was so gone -- so blind to the world -- that he literally sat down on << me >> before he realized I was there .
The last time I saw Bird , at Jimbo's Bob City , he was so gone -- so blind to the world -- that he literally sat down on me before he realized << I >> was there .
The last time << I >> saw Dylan , his self-destruction had not just passed the limits of rationality .
<< I >> do not believe that this is due to anything especially frightful about their relationship to their own creativity .
As the world began to take on the guise of an immense air raid or gas oven , << I >> believe his art became meaningless to him .
<< I >> think all this could apply to Parker just as well , although , because of the nature of music , it is not demonstrable -- at least not conclusively .
<< I >> want to make clear what I consider the one technical development in the first wave of significant post-war arts .
I want to make clear what << I >> consider the one technical development in the first wave of significant post-war arts .
<< I >> doubt if anyone holds such ideas today .
In his analysis , however , he touches upon but fails to explore an idea , generally neglected in discussions of the book , which << I >> believe is central to its art -- the importance of human hands as a recurring feature of the narrative .
Almost the first step in the corruption of Pip's values is the unworthy shame he feels when Estella cruelly remarks the coarseness of his hands : `` They had never troubled << me >> before , but they troubled me now , as vulgar appendages '' .
Almost the first step in the corruption of Pip's values is the unworthy shame he feels when Estella cruelly remarks the coarseness of his hands : `` They had never troubled me before , but they troubled << me >> now , as vulgar appendages '' .
When the snobbery that alienates Pip from Joe finally gives way before the deeper and stronger force of love , the reunion is marked by an embarrassed handshake at which Pip exclaims : `` No , don't wipe it off -- for God's sake , give << me >> your blackened hand '' ! !
We first see him shaking Mrs. Joe's hand on discovering the sizable amount of the premium paid to her husband for Pip's indenture as an apprentice and later pumping Pip's hands `` for the hundredth time at least '' ( `` May << I >> -- may I -- '' ? ?
We first see him shaking Mrs. Joe's hand on discovering the sizable amount of the premium paid to her husband for Pip's indenture as an apprentice and later pumping Pip's hands `` for the hundredth time at least '' ( `` May I -- may << I >> -- '' ? ?
`` << I >> can fix him something later in the afternoon when we get home '' .
She said , `` << I >> notice the girl from across the street hasn't bothered to phone or visit '' .
`` << I >> imagine you're always battling in school '' .
`` << I >> don't go to school any more '' .
`` << I >> think by the end of next week he could get out in the air a little .
`` That doctor annoys << me >> '' .
`` << I >> mean , do you feel like seeing Kate '' ? ?
Scotty said , `` << I >> don't know '' .
Or : `` << I >> walk around the house a lot '' .
And another time , without accusation : `` You never wore that scarf << I >> bought you '' .
Then we pull out under our mortar and artillery cover , but nobody pulls out until << I >> say so .
Remember what << I >> said about going out to get anybody left behind ? ?
`` Give << me >> your machine gun ammo '' .
I'm used to all three , but << I >> think the French have the healthiest attitude '' .
<< I >> think , too '' , he said , his dark eyes mischievous , `` that you will find there some clue to the secret of the cathedrals about which you have spoken '' .
Mickie had a pleasant glow as he said , `` You see , both of them , << I >> mean the President and Jeff Lawrence , are romantics .
<< I >> heard of some that tried it back in the States , and he'd knock them clear across the room .
The Colonel ordered that it be wiped out , and << I >> suggested , ' You ask for volunteers , and promise each man on the patrol a quart of whisky , ten dollars and a week-end pass to Davao .
The colored boy had it , and Trig lunged at him with a knife and said , ' Give that to << me >> , you black bastard .
When he was in the war , he was in Law or Supplies or something like that , and an old buddy of his told << me >> he would come down on Sundays to the Pentagon and read the citations for medals -- just like the one we sent in for Trig -- and go away with a real glow .
He said to the Secretary , `` << I >> understand you came from a little Pennsylvania town near Wilkes-Barre .
The Vice President said , `` If you hear of any names that would fix << me >> cheap in return for advertising they decorated the Vice President's home , let me know .
The Vice President said , `` If you hear of any names that would fix me cheap in return for advertising they decorated the Vice President's home , let << me >> know .
<< I >> can do business with that kind '' .
The Vice President said with a slight bluster , `` There isn't anyone who loves the President more than << I >> do .
You see what << I >> mean .
Let << me >> tell you what happened to me today .
Let me tell you what happened to << me >> today .
A fellow came up to << me >> , a Senator , I don't have to tell you his name , and he told me , ' I love the President like a brother , but God damn it , he's crucifying me .
A fellow came up to me , a Senator , << I >> don't have to tell you his name , and he told me , ' I love the President like a brother , but God damn it , he's crucifying me .
A fellow came up to me , a Senator , I don't have to tell you his name , and he told << me >> , ' I love the President like a brother , but God damn it , he's crucifying me .
A fellow came up to me , a Senator , I don't have to tell you his name , and he told me , ' << I >> love the President like a brother , but God damn it , he's crucifying me .
A fellow came up to me , a Senator , I don't have to tell you his name , and he told me , ' I love the President like a brother , but God damn it , he's crucifying << me >> .
`` Reverend '' , he said , `` << I >> think you don't quite understand the situation here .
Tenements , stores , saloons , some gambling , << I >> hope not too much .
Now , if << I >> were you I would just plan to repair the old church so it would last for five or ten years .
Now , if I were you << I >> would just plan to repair the old church so it would last for five or ten years .
<< I >> don't understand why a white hotel should be down here '' .
`` No '' , said Wilson , `` << I >> don't .
<< I >> was just asking about it .
`` Well , << I >> guess I know enough to turn you inside out , you sockdologizing old mantrap '' ! !
`` Well , I guess << I >> know enough to turn you inside out , you sockdologizing old mantrap '' ! !
`` << I >> know , Stephen '' , she smiled .
`` Not << me >> '' ! !
<< I >> heard them ! !
Man , how << I >> love nigger pussy ! !
What << I >> have to put up with ! !
Sonuvabitch , << I >> can't figure out what in hell for they went and put niggers in my squad for .
`` << I >> soon came back to my senses '' , he said , aloud , to the young blizzard , proudly , drawing himself up , as if making a report to some important superior .
<< I >> was the first to get my squad on the ball , and anybody thinkin it was easy is pretty damn dumb .
He kept sayin , not << me >> , not me , I don't wanta wind up like em .
He kept sayin , not me , not << me >> , I don't wanta wind up like em .
He kept sayin , not me , not me , << I >> don't wanta wind up like em .
But << I >> told him , goddammit .
`` << I >> told him '' , he said aloud They'll get the guys that done it .
<< I >> hear the whole bunch is croakin out in the snow .
Turn the bastards over to << me >> -- to me and my boys -- no nigger ever got what would be comin to them -- reactionary bastards .
Turn the bastards over to me -- to << me >> and my boys -- no nigger ever got what would be comin to them -- reactionary bastards .
`` They'll get them by God and let them bring them down here to << me >> , just let them , God , I'll slice their balls right off .
Why << me >> ? ?
Somebody , got to be somebody If << I >> don't put my two cents in soon , somebody else will I know they're waitin only for one thing : for the bastards what done it to be nailed .
Somebody , got to be somebody If I don't put my two cents in soon , somebody else will << I >> know they're waitin only for one thing : for the bastards what done it to be nailed .
Then he was asking himself the usual early morning questions : What the Hell am << I >> doin here ? ?
Am << I >> nuts ? ?
Am << I >> dreamin ? ?
`` Don't Christsake << me >> , buddy ! !
Did << I >> start the damn war ? ?
Did << I >> start the damn war ? ?
<< I >> bet .
Just let << me >> go home to Jersey , back to the shore , oh , Jesus , the shore .
If << I >> hafta do this to stay alive by God I'll do it .
Why should << I >> be spinning just because the goddamn log is spinning ? ?
`` This is the sort of stuff << I >> write and then throw away '' ! !
`` Let << me >> do the submitting to the Royal Academy '' , he suggested .
`` What else could << I >> do ? ?
But << I >> said I would first have to get the author's permission .
But I said << I >> would first have to get the author's permission .
And << I >> was certain he would refuse '' .
`` Who is going to stop << me >> '' ? ?
`` I'm dressed as << I >> always am '' , Rousseau said .
`` If they are here , then surely << I >> have the right to be here '' , Rousseau said .
Since << I >> am the composer '' ! !
`` What is slovenly about << me >> '' ? ?
Surely it would grow there whether << I >> washed myself or not .
Now times have changed , and << I >> must pretend that hair doesn't grow on my face .
Now , if you don't mind , << I >> should like to hear my own piece performed '' .
<< I >> think you could have heard him a mile away , and he was bursting at every seam with importance .
<< I >> have observed that being up on a horse changes the whole character of a man , and when a very small man is up on a saddle , he'd like as not prefer to eat his meals there .
That's understandable , and << I >> appreciate the sentiment .
As for this rider , << I >> never saw him before or afterwards and never saw him dismounted , so whether he stood tall or short in his shoes , I can't say ; ;
As for this rider , I never saw him before or afterwards and never saw him dismounted , so whether he stood tall or short in his shoes , << I >> can't say ; ;
<< I >> have heard people talk with contempt about the British regulars , but that only proves that a lot of people talk about things of which they are deplorably ignorant .
<< I >> wanted to wipe my flint , but I didn't dare to , the state my hands were in , just as I didn't dare to do anything about the priming .
I wanted to wipe my flint , but << I >> didn't dare to , the state my hands were in , just as I didn't dare to do anything about the priming .
I wanted to wipe my flint , but I didn't dare to , the state my hands were in , just as << I >> didn't dare to do anything about the priming .
<< I >> put a lot more trust in my two legs than in the gun , because the most important thing I had learned about war was that you could run away and survive to talk about it .
I put a lot more trust in my two legs than in the gun , because the most important thing << I >> had learned about war was that you could run away and survive to talk about it .
<< I >> don't know whether he was after our rider , who had gone by a minute before , or whether he was simply scouting conditions ; ;
From above << me >> and somewhere behind me , a rifle cracked .
From above me and somewhere behind << me >> , a rifle cracked .
but this grinning , broken head , not ten feet away from << me >> , was the sharp definition of what my reality had become .
<< I >> must state that the faster things happened , the slower they happened ; ;
the passage and rhythm of time changed , and when << I >> remember back to what happened then , each event is a separate and frozen incident .
<< I >> had squeezed the trigger of my own gun , and to my amazement , it had fired and kicked back into my shoulder with the force of an angry mule ; ;
and then << I >> was adding my own voice to the crescendo of sound , hurling more vile language than I ever thought I knew , sobbing and shouting , and aware that if I had passed water before , it was not enough , for my pants were soaking wet .
and then I was adding my own voice to the crescendo of sound , hurling more vile language than << I >> ever thought I knew , sobbing and shouting , and aware that if I had passed water before , it was not enough , for my pants were soaking wet .
and then I was adding my own voice to the crescendo of sound , hurling more vile language than I ever thought << I >> knew , sobbing and shouting , and aware that if I had passed water before , it was not enough , for my pants were soaking wet .
and then I was adding my own voice to the crescendo of sound , hurling more vile language than I ever thought I knew , sobbing and shouting , and aware that if << I >> had passed water before , it was not enough , for my pants were soaking wet .
<< I >> would have stood there and died there if left to myself , but Cousin Simmons grabbed my arm in his viselike grip and fairly plucked me out of there ; ;
I would have stood there and died there if left to myself , but Cousin Simmons grabbed my arm in his viselike grip and fairly plucked << me >> out of there ; ;
and then << I >> came to some sanity and plunged away with such extraordinary speed that I outdistanced Cousin Simmons by far .
and then I came to some sanity and plunged away with such extraordinary speed that << I >> outdistanced Cousin Simmons by far .
<< I >> know that I myself felt that it was a mortal shame for a man to be torn open by a British musket ball , as Isaac had been , yet I also felt relieved and lucky that it had been him and not myself .
I know that << I >> myself felt that it was a mortal shame for a man to be torn open by a British musket ball , as Isaac had been , yet I also felt relieved and lucky that it had been him and not myself .
I know that I myself felt that it was a mortal shame for a man to be torn open by a British musket ball , as Isaac had been , yet << I >> also felt relieved and lucky that it had been him and not myself .
<< I >> was drunk with excitement and the smell of gunpowder that came floating down from the road , and the fact that I was not afraid now , but only waiting to know what to do next .
I was drunk with excitement and the smell of gunpowder that came floating down from the road , and the fact that << I >> was not afraid now , but only waiting to know what to do next .
`` Good heavens , Adam '' , he said , `` << I >> thought one thing you'd have no trouble learning is when to get out of a place '' .
`` << I >> learned that now '' , I said .
`` I learned that now '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> have told you before , and I tell you again '' , Monsieur Favre said rudely .
`` I have told you before , and << I >> tell you again '' , Monsieur Favre said rudely .
<< I >> say to you that the Church will ever decry evil '' ! !
<< I >> have never asked for an easy task , but I am weary of the strife '' .
I have never asked for an easy task , but << I >> am weary of the strife '' .
<< I >> came to warn you of a plot '' ! !
`` Monsieur Favre just paid << me >> a visit .
`` Monsieur Favre indicated that if << I >> would co-operate , after you and William are banished , following the debate , I will be given a place of influence '' .
`` Monsieur Favre indicated that if I would co-operate , after you and William are banished , following the debate , << I >> will be given a place of influence '' .
In that moment of vision Adam heard the voice within himself saying : << I >> must not hate him , I must not hate him or I shall die .
In that moment of vision Adam heard the voice within himself saying : I must not hate him , << I >> must not hate him or I shall die .
In that moment of vision Adam heard the voice within himself saying : I must not hate him , I must not hate him or << I >> shall die .
If Simms Purdew would turn to him and say : `` Adam , you know when << I >> was a boy , it was a funny thing happened .
`` What's the matter with << me >> '' ? ?
`` Oh , what's the matter with << me >> '' ? ?
He heard the words : `` Rock of Ages , cleft for << me >> , Let me hide myself in Thee ! !
He heard the words : `` Rock of Ages , cleft for me , Let << me >> hide myself in Thee ! !
He thought : << I >> am a Jew from Bavaria .
He thought : Only in my heart can << I >> make the world hang together .
It is the same ole same , tell << me >> its name .
Had to put my foot on it to hole it down while << I >> cut it up fer the lob-scuse '' .
`` Know what << I >> had to fix fer Ole Him '' ? ?
`` Y'all should have let << me >> take that money out '' , Andrus said .
H'all should have let << me >> do it '' .
`` Yes , << I >> know , Fritzie .
<< I >> should have '' .
With a hard eye , she informed Moll : `` Don't sure 'nuff << me >> , officer .
`` Didn't occur to << me >> my child would be kidnaped when I had it listed '' , Andrus muttered .
`` Didn't occur to me my child would be kidnaped when << I >> had it listed '' , Andrus muttered .
`` Funny thing '' , Mr. Kahler said , when they were seated , `` when << I >> heard you ringing , I figured it was that guy down the block , Hausman '' .
`` Funny thing '' , Mr. Kahler said , when they were seated , `` when I heard you ringing , << I >> figured it was that guy down the block , Hausman '' .
`` Finally , all << I >> needed was to throw a little piece of red wood that looked like a firecracker and that dumb dog would run ki-yi-ing for his life '' .
Stirring , he said : `` << I >> am sorry that my work prevents me from doing anything with you today '' .
Stirring , he said : `` I am sorry that my work prevents << me >> from doing anything with you today '' .
`` Excuse << me >> '' , he said in Berlitz English , and got up and left them , to bathe and dress .
`` Call the Vouillemont , << I >> guess '' .
`` << I >> know , but there must be some other explanation .
`` << I >> know '' , he said , reading her mind .
`` << I >> don't know what I'm going to do with you '' .
`` All because << I >> didn't feel like dancing '' .
`` << I >> don't think it was that , really '' .
`` << I >> don't know .
`` << I >> am carving a Pieta from white Carrara marble .
<< I >> wish to make Jesus an authentic Jew .
<< I >> cannot accomplish this if you will not help me '' .
I cannot accomplish this if you will not help << me >> '' .
The rabbi said thoughtfully , `` << I >> would not want my people to get in trouble with the Church '' .
`` Leave << me >> your address .
<< I >> was taught '' .
<< I >> aim to keep a little whisky still back in the ridge for my pleasure '' .
<< I >> think I've taken it about fifty times already '' ! !
`` << I >> stopped to say goodbye , Mrs. Lattimer , and to tell you how sorry I was to hear about your baby .
`` I stopped to say goodbye , Mrs. Lattimer , and to tell you how sorry << I >> was to hear about your baby .
`` It was a terrible loss to << me >> '' , said Kate quietly , feeling the pain twist again at the mention , knowing now that Juanita must have written to him at Grafton .
<< I >> am to go to Washington to serve with him '' .
Would you permit Juanita to walk about the grounds with << me >> for a short spell , Mrs. Lattimer '' ? ?
`` He wants << me >> to go with him tomorrow '' , she told Kate .
`` << I >> could go with him .
He knows << me >> as your niece , which , of course , I am .
He knows me as your niece , which , of course , << I >> am .
But << I >> am a slave ! !
You own << me >> .
<< I >> have held your papers of manumission since I married Mr. Lattimer '' .
I have held your papers of manumission since << I >> married Mr. Lattimer '' .
`` << I >> don't hear the music .
<< I >> am getting deaf , I must admit it '' .
I am getting deaf , << I >> must admit it '' .
<< I >> say , where is everyone ? ?
`` << I >> do not care if your beliefs take you along a path of religion or a path of labor or a path of activism .
Before he went into battle Andrei had told Alex , `` << I >> only want to be a Pole .
<< I >> am a Jew '' .
<< I >> hate Warsaw , he said to himself .
<< I >> hate Poland and all the goddamned mothers' sons of them .
Only Palestine , and << I >> will never live to see Palestine because I did not believe .
Only Palestine , and I will never live to see Palestine because << I >> did not believe .
`` << I >> have been waiting across the street at the post office since dawn .
<< I >> thought you might get in on a morning train '' .
`` Remember to call << me >> Jan '' , Andrei said .
`` For a time << I >> thought of trying to reach the Free Polish Forces , but one thing led to another .
<< I >> got a girl in trouble and we had to get married .
<< I >> work at the granary .
Nothing like the old days in the army , but << I >> get by .
<< I >> came to Warsaw twice , but there was that damned ghetto wall ''
`` << I >> understand '' .
<< I >> did exactly as instructed .
<< I >> told him you are on orders from the Home Army to get inside Majdanek so you can make a report to the government in exile in London '' .
`` << I >> don't know .
`` << I >> have to believe it '' .
`` << I >> am only a simple soldier .
Until << I >> was transferred into the Seventh Ulanys I was like every other Pole in my feeling about Jews .
Until I was transferred into the Seventh Ulanys << I >> was like every other Pole in my feeling about Jews .
<< I >> hated you when I first came in .
I hated you when << I >> first came in .
What << I >> mean is , he was a Pole and the greatest soldier in the Ulanys .
`` Since the war << I >> have seen the way the Germans have behaved and I think , Holy Mother , we have behaved like this for hundreds of years .
`` Since the war I have seen the way the Germans have behaved and << I >> think , Holy Mother , we have behaved like this for hundreds of years .
All << I >> ever wanted was to be a free man in my own country .
<< I >> used to love this country and believe that someday we'd win our battle for equality .
But now << I >> think I hate it very much '' .
But now I think << I >> hate it very much '' .
<< I >> will get you inside the guard camp as a member of my crew .
<< I >> don't know if I can get you into the inner camp .
I don't know if << I >> can get you into the inner camp .
`` << I >> ain't taking no goddamned chances for no Jew business '' .
I'd have been more impressed if << I >> hadn't remembered that she'd played Hedda Gabler in her highschool dramatics course .
<< I >> didn't want her back on that broken record .
`` Nothing's free in the whole goddam world '' , was all << I >> could think of to say .
`` << I >> am '' , she said .
I'd forgotten all about Thelma and the Kentucky Derby and how it was Thelma's fifty dollars << I >> was spending .
It was just << me >> and Eileen getting drunk together like we used to in the old days , and me staring at her across the table crazy to get my hands on her partly because I wanted to wring her neck because she was so ornery but mostly because she was so wonderful to touch .
It was just me and Eileen getting drunk together like we used to in the old days , and << me >> staring at her across the table crazy to get my hands on her partly because I wanted to wring her neck because she was so ornery but mostly because she was so wonderful to touch .
It was just me and Eileen getting drunk together like we used to in the old days , and me staring at her across the table crazy to get my hands on her partly because << I >> wanted to wring her neck because she was so ornery but mostly because she was so wonderful to touch .
Drunk or sober she was the most attractive woman in the world for << me >> .
<< I >> did have the decency to call up Thelma and tell her I'd met old friends and would be home late .
`` << I >> could scratch her eyes out '' , Eileen cried and stamped her foot when I came back from the phone booth .
`` I could scratch her eyes out '' , Eileen cried and stamped her foot when << I >> came back from the phone booth .
`` You know << I >> don't like my men to have other women .
<< I >> hate it .
She got so drunk << I >> had to take her home .
She just about made << me >> carry her upstairs and then she clung to me and wouldn't let me go .
She just about made me carry her upstairs and then she clung to << me >> and wouldn't let me go .
She just about made me carry her upstairs and then she clung to me and wouldn't let << me >> go .
<< I >> had to shake her to make her listen .
`` Precious and << I >> allow each other absolute freedom .
He's used to << me >> bringing home strange men .
`` Well << I >> object .
Never in my life have << I >> felt so remorseful about anything I've done as I did about spending that night with my own wife .
Never in my life have I felt so remorseful about anything I've done as << I >> did about spending that night with my own wife .
She lay under the covers making jabbing motions with her forefinger telling << me >> where to look for the coffeepot .
<< I >> was stumbling in my undershirt trying to find my way around her damn kitchenette when I smelt that sickish sweet hairtonic smell .
I was stumbling in my undershirt trying to find my way around her damn kitchenette when << I >> smelt that sickish sweet hairtonic smell .
Honest << I >> could feel the hair stand up on the back of my neck like a dog's that is going to get into a fight .
<< I >> turned around with the percolator in my hand .
My eyes were so bleary << I >> could barely see him but there he was , a little smooth olivefaced guy in a new spring overcoat and a taffycolored fedora .
She gave the nastiest laugh << I >> ever heard .
<< I >> never felt such a lowdown hound in my life .
First thing << I >> knew he was in the kitchenette cooking up the breakfast and I was handing Eileen her coffeecup and she was lying there handsome as a queen among her courtiers .
First thing I knew he was in the kitchenette cooking up the breakfast and << I >> was handing Eileen her coffeecup and she was lying there handsome as a queen among her courtiers .
<< I >> couldn't face Thelma after that night .
<< I >> wrote her that I'd met up with Eileen and that old bonds had proved too strong and asked her to send my clothes down by express .
Of course << I >> had to give her Eileen's address , but she never came near us .
All she did was write << me >> a pleasant little note about how it was beautiful while it lasted but that now life had parted our ways and it was goodbye forever .
<< I >> must know that that was my greatest weakness underlined three times .
Afterwards << I >> learned that Eileen had called Thelma on the telephone and made a big scene about Thelma trying to take her husband away .
That finished << me >> with Thelma .
<< I >> use the phrase advisedly because there was something positively indecent about our relationship .
<< I >> felt it and it ate on me all the time , but I didn't know how right I was till later .
I felt it and it ate on << me >> all the time , but I didn't know how right I was till later .
I felt it and it ate on me all the time , but << I >> didn't know how right I was till later .
I felt it and it ate on me all the time , but I didn't know how right << I >> was till later .
What << I >> did know was that Precious was always around .
You wouldn't have << me >> throw the poor boy out on the street '' , Eileen said when I needled her about it .
You wouldn't have me throw the poor boy out on the street '' , Eileen said when << I >> needled her about it .
<< I >> said sure that was what I wanted her to do but she paid no attention .
I said sure that was what << I >> wanted her to do but she paid no attention .
Still << I >> didn't think she was twotiming me with Precious right then .
Still I didn't think she was twotiming << me >> with Precious right then .
Precious had << me >> worried .
<< I >> couldn't make out what his racket was .
He was smooth and civil spoken but it seemed to << me >> there was something tough under his selfeffacing manner .
<< I >> never could find out what his business was .
`` Connections '' was all he would say with that smooth hurt smile when << I >> put leading questions .
Occasionally if << I >> pushed him too far he'd give me a look out of narrowed eyes and the hard cruel bony skull would show through that smooth face of his .
Occasionally if I pushed him too far he'd give << me >> a look out of narrowed eyes and the hard cruel bony skull would show through that smooth face of his .
`` Some day '' , << I >> told Eileen , `` that guy will kill us both '' .
Getting drunk every night was the only way << I >> could handle the situation .
The way Eileen and << I >> were hitting it up , we needed ten or fifteen dollars an evening .
<< I >> don't know what we would have done if Pat O'Dwyer hadn't come to town .
Pat took Eileen and << me >> out to dinner at a swell steak house and told us with tears in his eyes how happy he was we had come together again .
How about << me >> trying to help her get her job back ? ?
`` But brother << I >> can't take a job right now '' , she said with her eyes on her ice cream , `` I'm going to have a baby , Francis Xavier's baby , my own husband's baby '' .
My first thought was how had it happened so soon , but << I >> counted back on my fingers and sure enough we'd been living together six weeks .
Before he left town Pat saw to it that << I >> was fixed up with a job .
There << I >> was a retired wobbly and structural iron worker who'd never gouged a cent off a fellow worker in my thirty years in the movement .
Sposato couldn't wait to get << me >> hired .
`` << I >> guess it will be all right .
`` << I >> will be expecting them '' .
`` << I >> beg to inquire if the back is now safe for travelers '' , he said .
`` << I >> should say about a hundred thousand '' , Fletcher said .
`` << I >> would like to enact a little tableau this afternoon '' , Rector said , He explained about the visit and the effect he wished to create , the picture of a very busy mission .
`` << I >> would like them to appear very busy today , not busy exactly , but joyous , exuberant , full of life .
<< I >> want to create the impression of a compound full of children .
`` << I >> think I've fixed the pump so we won't have to worry about it for a long time '' , he said .
`` When Konishi gets back with the jeep , << I >> want you to round up two or three Japanese boys .
`` Tomorrow will be a new experience -- << I >> have never before made love to a nightingale .
There have been cooing doves , chattering magpies , thieving jackdaws , a proud peacock , a silly goose , and a harpy eagle -- whom << I >> was silly enough to mate with and who is now busy tearing at my vitals '' .
`` We found some owls had built a nest in the chimney , milord , but << I >> promise you you'll never have trouble of that sort again '' .
That would be Minerva , << I >> suppose .
`` Tell << me >> about Minerva , how she behaved , what she did to please you '' .
<< I >> don't ask you who 'tis you're being unfaithful to , husband or lover .
Frankly , << I >> don't care '' .
What matter the others so long as << I >> have my place in history '' .
`` << I >> was told it on good authority '' , Claire answered darkly .
`` << I >> promised him I wouldn't '' .
`` I promised him << I >> wouldn't '' .
`` And in the future , since << I >> write for a public of one , I can save the poor publishers from wasting their money '' .
`` And in the future , since I write for a public of one , << I >> can save the poor publishers from wasting their money '' .
-- Fetch << me >> the copies of everything B and C companies have requisitioned in the last six months .
<< I >> want to take a look .
If my pass is approved , << I >> may be a half hour .
-- Let << me >> help him , for the love of God ! !
-- Henry said that he'd take my arm and get << me >> right there .
-- Why , course << I >> can .
<< I >> can walk real good .
<< I >> wish you was Henry .
He promised to take << me >> .
<< I >> would not want to be one of those writers who begin each morning by exclaiming , `` O Gogol , O Chekhov , O Thackeray and Dickens , what would you have made of a bomb shelter ornamented with four plaster-of-Paris ducks , a birdbath , and three composition gnomes with long beards and red mobcaps '' ? ?
<< I >> can see it from this window where I write .
I can see it from this window where << I >> write .
It bulks under a veil of thin , new grass , like some embarrassing fact of physicalness , and << I >> think Mrs. Pastern set out the statuary to soften its meaning .
Offer her a cup of tea and she would say , `` Why , these cups look just like a set << I >> gave to the Salvation Army last year '' .
Show her the new swimming pool and she would say , slapping her ankle , `` << I >> suppose this must be where you breed your gigantic mosquitoes '' .
`` << I >> did everybody on my list but the Blevins and the Flannagans .
<< I >> want to get my kit in tomorrow morning -- would you mind doing them while I cook the dinner '' ? ?
I want to get my kit in tomorrow morning -- would you mind doing them while << I >> cook the dinner '' ? ?
`` But << I >> don't know the Flannagans '' , Charlie Pastern said .
`` Nobody does , but they gave << me >> ten last year '' .
`` And << I >> am not sure that I have any cash -- any money , that is -- but if you will wait just a minute I will write you out a check if I can find my checkbook .
`` And I am not sure that << I >> have any cash -- any money , that is -- but if you will wait just a minute I will write you out a check if I can find my checkbook .
`` And I am not sure that I have any cash -- any money , that is -- but if you will wait just a minute << I >> will write you out a check if I can find my checkbook .
`` And I am not sure that I have any cash -- any money , that is -- but if you will wait just a minute I will write you out a check if << I >> can find my checkbook .
`` << I >> am terribly sorry to keep you waiting '' , she said , `` but won't you make yourself a little drink while you wait ? ?
`` I'll have a drink , then , if you'll have one with << me >> '' .
`` << I >> had a drink with the Flannagans '' .
`` She told << me >> he was in Germany '' .
`` Please come down as soon as you conveniently can '' , the upright letters stalked from the broad-nibbed pen , `` << I >> have an important matter to discuss with you '' .
To Abel : `` << I >> am afraid there is not much to amuse small children here .
<< I >> should be obliged if you could make other arrangements for your daughters .
`` You remember them , << I >> suppose '' ? ?
<< I >> hope Raphael bought them whole '' .
`` Yes '' , she said , `` << I >> remember that they came here every summer .
<< I >> used to play with the older one sometimes , when he'd let me .
I used to play with the older one sometimes , when he'd let << me >> .
`` << I >> suppose it has to do with the property '' , Mark had said over the telephone when they had discussed their receipt of the letters .
`` She's probably getting old -- crotchety , << I >> mean -- and we figured uh-uh , better not .
<< I >> feel kind of bad about it '' .
`` << I >> imagine the old girl hasn't missed us much '' , Mark added , his eyes on the road .
<< I >> decided I hated the Pedersen kid too , dying in our kitchen while I was away where I couldn't watch , dying just to entertain Hans and making me go up snapping steps and down a drafty hall , Pa lumped under the covers at the end like dung covered with snow , snoring and whistling .
I decided << I >> hated the Pedersen kid too , dying in our kitchen while I was away where I couldn't watch , dying just to entertain Hans and making me go up snapping steps and down a drafty hall , Pa lumped under the covers at the end like dung covered with snow , snoring and whistling .
I decided I hated the Pedersen kid too , dying in our kitchen while << I >> was away where I couldn't watch , dying just to entertain Hans and making me go up snapping steps and down a drafty hall , Pa lumped under the covers at the end like dung covered with snow , snoring and whistling .
I decided I hated the Pedersen kid too , dying in our kitchen while I was away where << I >> couldn't watch , dying just to entertain Hans and making me go up snapping steps and down a drafty hall , Pa lumped under the covers at the end like dung covered with snow , snoring and whistling .
I decided I hated the Pedersen kid too , dying in our kitchen while I was away where I couldn't watch , dying just to entertain Hans and making << me >> go up snapping steps and down a drafty hall , Pa lumped under the covers at the end like dung covered with snow , snoring and whistling .
<< I >> didn't hurry though it was cold and the Pedersen kid was in the kitchen .
He was all shoveled up like << I >> thought he'd be .
<< I >> think his name stopped the snoring but he didn't move except to roll a little when I shoved him .
I think his name stopped the snoring but he didn't move except to roll a little when << I >> shoved him .
The covers slid down his skinny neck so << I >> saw his head , fuzzed like a dandelion gone to seed , but his face was turned to the wall -- there was the pale shadow of his nose on the plaster -- and I thought , Well you don't look much like a pig-drunk bully now .
The covers slid down his skinny neck so I saw his head , fuzzed like a dandelion gone to seed , but his face was turned to the wall -- there was the pale shadow of his nose on the plaster -- and << I >> thought , Well you don't look much like a pig-drunk bully now .
<< I >> couldn't be sure he was still asleep .
`` Pap-pap-pap-hey '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> was leaning too far over .
<< I >> knew better .
<< I >> knew better but I was thinking of the Pedersen kid mother-naked in all that dough .
I knew better but << I >> was thinking of the Pedersen kid mother-naked in all that dough .
When his arm came up << I >> ducked away but it caught me on the side of the neck , watering my eyes , and I backed off to cough .
When his arm came up I ducked away but it caught << me >> on the side of the neck , watering my eyes , and I backed off to cough .
When his arm came up I ducked away but it caught me on the side of the neck , watering my eyes , and << I >> backed off to cough .
Pa was on his side , looking at << me >> , his eyes winking , the hand that had hit me a fist in the pillow .
Pa was on his side , looking at me , his eyes winking , the hand that had hit << me >> a fist in the pillow .
<< I >> didn't say anything , trying to get my throat clear , but I watched him .
I didn't say anything , trying to get my throat clear , but << I >> watched him .
It was better , though , he'd hit << me >> .
`` Big Hans sent << me >> .
He told << me >> to wake you '' .
`` << I >> ain't hid nothing in the crib '' .
`` << I >> goddamn well understand '' .
`` << I >> goddamn well understand .
You know << I >> don't want to see Pedersen .
Why should << I >> ? ?
`` Big Hans made << me >> come .
<< I >> taught him , dammit , and I'll teach you .
You want << me >> to drop my pot '' ? ?
He was about to get up so << I >> got out , slamming the door .
<< I >> always felt the memory was present in both of them , stirring in their chests like a laugh or a growl , as eager as an animal to be out .
<< I >> heard Pa cursing all the way downstairs .
`` Listen to << me >> , Jorge , I've had enough to your sassing .
If << I >> don't get some whisky down him he might die .
He don't care , and << I >> don't care to have his shit flung on me .
He don't care , and I don't care to have his shit flung on << me >> .
<< I >> was ready to jump but when Ma said she'd get the whisky it surprised him like it surprised me , and he ran down .
I was ready to jump but when Ma said she'd get the whisky it surprised him like it surprised << me >> , and he ran down .
`` I'll get more snow '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> took the pail and shovel and went out on the porch .
<< I >> thought she'd gone upstairs and expected to hear she had .
She had surprised Hans like she had surprised << me >> when she said she'd go , and then she surprised him again when she came back so quick like she must have , because when I came in with the snow she was there with a bottle with three white feathers on its label and Hans was holding it angrily by the throat .
She had surprised Hans like she had surprised me when she said she'd go , and then she surprised him again when she came back so quick like she must have , because when << I >> came in with the snow she was there with a bottle with three white feathers on its label and Hans was holding it angrily by the throat .
He was awful angry because he'd thought Ma was going to do something big , something heroic even , especially for her << I >> know him I know him we felt the same sometimes while Ma wasn't thinking about that at all , not anything like that .
He was awful angry because he'd thought Ma was going to do something big , something heroic even , especially for her I know him << I >> know him we felt the same sometimes while Ma wasn't thinking about that at all , not anything like that .
She'd found one and she hadn't said a word while Big Hans and << I >> had hunted and hunted as we always did all winter , every winter since the spring that Hans had come and I had looked in the privy and found the first one .
She'd found one and she hadn't said a word while Big Hans and I had hunted and hunted as we always did all winter , every winter since the spring that Hans had come and << I >> had looked in the privy and found the first one .
`` Here , help << me >> prop him up .
<< I >> got hold his mouth open '' .
<< I >> didn't want to touch him and I hoped Ma would do it but she kept looking at the kid's clothes piled on the floor and the pool of water by them and didn't make any move to .
I didn't want to touch him and << I >> hoped Ma would do it but she kept looking at the kid's clothes piled on the floor and the pool of water by them and didn't make any move to .
<< I >> took him by the shoulders .
`` << I >> can't '' .
<< I >> put my arm carefully around him .
<< I >> had my arm behind his back .
`` Gosh , << I >> don't know .
`` Listen , << I >> never had a chance to kill an antelope .
`` Hell , << I >> don't know .
When he was a kid << I >> wasn't around '' .
`` I'd give anything if << I >> could have found a girl like you '' .
`` Why , << I >> couldn't even cook a piece of antelope steak ; ;
<< I >> never even saw any '' .
<< I >> want to roast the whole thing , and have it for the boys '' .
`` But tell << me >> , doctor , where do you plan to conduct the hatching '' ? ?
`` What << I >> want you to do is to go to the market with me early tomorrow morning and help smuggle the hen back into the hotel '' .
`` What I want you to do is to go to the market with << me >> early tomorrow morning and help smuggle the hen back into the hotel '' .
`` It's been going since 1908 when << I >> was a junior in college .
Now you go outside and beckon << me >> when it's safe '' .
`` Chickens have short memories '' , the doctor remarked , `` that's why they are better company than most people << I >> know '' , and he went on to break some important news to Alex .
`` Well '' , he began , `` It seems like some people in Paris want to hear more from << me >> than those fellers over at the conference house do .
`` Leave << me >> alone '' , Leona said .
`` This is moving day '' , Winston reminded her , `` and << I >> bet you left things every which way upstairs , your clothes all over the floor and the bed not made .
`` If << I >> catch you one more time down here without stockings '' --
`` << I >> guess I better get ready to go '' .
`` I guess << I >> better get ready to go '' .
`` << I >> don't want to leave here , Winston '' .
`` << I >> thought you was sick to death of this big house .
`` << I >> told you what Miss Ada's doctor said '' .
`` << I >> don't mean Miss Ada ! !
What you think << I >> care about that ? ?
<< I >> mean our children '' .
`` How many times have << I >> told you '' -- he began , and was almost glad when she cut him off -- `` Too many times '' ! !
`` << I >> don't know what you think you've been doing about my clothes '' , he said .
`` What possessed you to tell << me >> a clotheshorse would be a good idea '' ? ?
every morning , << I >> lay out his clothes on it '' .
You mean picture of << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> don't know '' .
`` Lovie , you make << me >> feel naked '' .
`` You look like that picture << I >> have at the office '' , Mr. Jack had started .
`` Darling , << I >> love that photograph .
After a minute he went on , `` People must think the curse is on << me >> , seeing you fresh as an apple and me old and gray '' .
After a minute he went on , `` People must think the curse is on me , seeing you fresh as an apple and << me >> old and gray '' .
During the rest of the summer my scholarly mania for making plaster casts and spatter prints of Catskill flowers and leaves was all but surpassed by the constantly renewed impressions of Jessica that my mind served up to << me >> for contemplation and delight .
Nothing in all the preceding years had had the power to bring << me >> closer to a knowledge of profound sorrow than the breakup of camp , the packing away of my camp uniforms , the severing of ties with the six or ten people I had grown most to love in the world .
Nothing in all the preceding years had had the power to bring me closer to a knowledge of profound sorrow than the breakup of camp , the packing away of my camp uniforms , the severing of ties with the six or ten people << I >> had grown most to love in the world .
In final separation from them , in the railroad terminal across the river from New York , << I >> would nearly cry .
<< I >> lived to see an envelope of hers in the morning mail and to lock myself in my room in the afternoon to reread her letter for the tenth time and finally prepare an answer .
My memory has catalogued for easy reference and withdrawal the image of her pink , scented stationery and the unsloped , almost printed configurations of her neat , studious handwriting with which she invited << me >> to recall our summer , so many sentences beginning with `` Remember when ; ;
Then epistolatory << me >> was a foreign correspondent dispatching exciting cables and communiques , full of dash and wit and glamor , quoting from the books I read , imitating the grand styles of the authors recommended by a teacher in whose special , after-school class I was enrolled .
Then epistolatory me was a foreign correspondent dispatching exciting cables and communiques , full of dash and wit and glamor , quoting from the books << I >> read , imitating the grand styles of the authors recommended by a teacher in whose special , after-school class I was enrolled .
Then epistolatory me was a foreign correspondent dispatching exciting cables and communiques , full of dash and wit and glamor , quoting from the books I read , imitating the grand styles of the authors recommended by a teacher in whose special , after-school class << I >> was enrolled .
The letters took their source from a stream of my imagination in which << I >> was transformed into a young man not unlike my bunkmate Eliot Sands -- he of the porch steps anecdotes -- who smoked cigarettes , performed the tango , wore fifty dollar suits , and sneaked off into the dark with girls to do unimaginable things with them .
Like Eliot , in my fantasies , << I >> had a proud bearing and , with a skill that was vaguely continental , I would lead Jessica through an evening of dancing and handsome descriptions of my newest exploits , would guide her gently to the night's climax which , in my dreams , was always represented by our almost suffocating one another to death with deep , moist kisses burning with love .
Like Eliot , in my fantasies , I had a proud bearing and , with a skill that was vaguely continental , << I >> would lead Jessica through an evening of dancing and handsome descriptions of my newest exploits , would guide her gently to the night's climax which , in my dreams , was always represented by our almost suffocating one another to death with deep , moist kisses burning with love .
The night after reading her letter about her surgeon uncle -- it must have been late in September -- << I >> had a vision of myself returned in ragged uniform from The Front , nearly dying , my head bandaged and blooded , and Jessica bending over me , the power of her love bringing me back to life .
The night after reading her letter about her surgeon uncle -- it must have been late in September -- I had a vision of myself returned in ragged uniform from The Front , nearly dying , my head bandaged and blooded , and Jessica bending over << me >> , the power of her love bringing me back to life .
The night after reading her letter about her surgeon uncle -- it must have been late in September -- I had a vision of myself returned in ragged uniform from The Front , nearly dying , my head bandaged and blooded , and Jessica bending over me , the power of her love bringing << me >> back to life .
They caused my love for Jessica to become warmer and at the same time more hopeless , as if my adolescent self knew that only torment would ever bring << me >> the courage to ask to see her again .
Having received permission to give a camp reunion-Halloween party , she asked that << I >> come and be her date .
Again among those jubilantly reunited bunkmates , << I >> was shy with Jessie and acted as I had during those early Saturday mornings when we all seemed to be playing for effect , to be detached and unconcerned with the girls who were properly our dates but about whom , later , in the privacy of our bunks , we would think in terms of the most elaborate romance .
Again among those jubilantly reunited bunkmates , I was shy with Jessie and acted as << I >> had during those early Saturday mornings when we all seemed to be playing for effect , to be detached and unconcerned with the girls who were properly our dates but about whom , later , in the privacy of our bunks , we would think in terms of the most elaborate romance .
<< I >> remember standing in a corner , watching Jessica act the hostess , serving soft drinks to her guests .
It made her look sweet and schoolgirlish , << I >> was excited to be with her , but I did not know how to express it .
It made her look sweet and schoolgirlish , I was excited to be with her , but << I >> did not know how to express it .
It was late , we were playing kissing games , and Jessica and << I >> were called on to kiss in front of the others .
The kiss outraged our friends but it was done and meanwhile had released in << me >> all the remote , exciting premonitions of lust , all the mysterious sensations that I had imagined a truly consummated kiss would convey to me .
The kiss outraged our friends but it was done and meanwhile had released in me all the remote , exciting premonitions of lust , all the mysterious sensations that << I >> had imagined a truly consummated kiss would convey to me .
The kiss outraged our friends but it was done and meanwhile had released in me all the remote , exciting premonitions of lust , all the mysterious sensations that I had imagined a truly consummated kiss would convey to << me >> .
It was at that party that , finally overcoming my timidity , inspired by tales only half-understood and overheard among older boys , << I >> asked Jessie to spend New Year's Eve with me .
It was at that party that , finally overcoming my timidity , inspired by tales only half-understood and overheard among older boys , I asked Jessie to spend New Year's Eve with << me >> .
Among my school and neighborhood friends , during the next months , << I >> bragged and swaggered and pompously described my impending date .
It would be the first time << I >> had ever been completely alone with a girl I loved .
It would be the first time I had ever been completely alone with a girl << I >> loved .
<< I >> had no idea of what subjects one discussed when alone with a girl , or how one behaved : Should I hold her hand while walking or only when crossing the street ? ?
I had no idea of what subjects one discussed when alone with a girl , or how one behaved : Should << I >> hold her hand while walking or only when crossing the street ? ?
Should << I >> bring along a corsage or send one to her ? ?
In or out , should << I >> kiss her goodnight ? ?
All this was unknown to << me >> , and yet I had dared to ask her out for the most important night of the year ! !
All this was unknown to me , and yet << I >> had dared to ask her out for the most important night of the year ! !
When in one letter Jessica informed << me >> that her father did not like the idea of her going out alone on New Year's Eve , I knew for a moment an immense relief ; ;
When in one letter Jessica informed me that her father did not like the idea of her going out alone on New Year's Eve , << I >> knew for a moment an immense relief ; ;
<< I >> forced confidence into myself .
<< I >> made inquiries , I read a book of etiquette .
I made inquiries , << I >> read a book of etiquette .
In December << I >> wrote her with authority that we would meet on the steps of the Hotel Astor , a rendezvous spot that I had learned was the most sophisticated .
In December I wrote her with authority that we would meet on the steps of the Hotel Astor , a rendezvous spot that << I >> had learned was the most sophisticated .
We would attend a film and , later on , << I >> stated , we might go to the Mayflower Coffee Shop or Child's or Toffenetti's for waffles .
At five o'clock that night it was already dark , and behind my closed door << I >> was dressing as carefully as a groom .
<< I >> wore a new double-breasted brown worsted suit with a faint herringbone design and wide lapels like a devil's ears .
My camp-made leather wallet , bulky with twisted , raised stitches around the edges , << I >> stuffed with money I had been saving .
My camp-made leather wallet , bulky with twisted , raised stitches around the edges , I stuffed with money << I >> had been saving .
Hatless , in an overcoat of rough blue wool , << I >> was given a proud farewell by my mother and father , and I set out into the strangely still streets of Brooklyn .
Hatless , in an overcoat of rough blue wool , I was given a proud farewell by my mother and father , and << I >> set out into the strangely still streets of Brooklyn .
Times Square , when << I >> ascended to it with my fellow subway travellers ( all dressed as if for a huge wedding in a family of which we were all distant members ) , was nearly impassable , the sidewalks swarming with celebrants , with bundled up sailors and soldiers already hugging their girls and their rationed bottles of whiskey .
An old gentlemen next to << me >> held a Boy Scout bugle to his lips and blasted away at every fourth step and during the interim shouted out , `` V for Victory '' ! !
Was << I >> supposed to buy a funny hat and a rattle for Jessica ? ?
It was a quarter of seven when the crowd washed << me >> up among the other gallants who had established the Astor steps as the beach-head from which to launch their night of merrymaking .
<< I >> looked over their faces and felt a twinge : they all looked so much more knowing than I .
I looked over their faces and felt a twinge : they all looked so much more knowing than << I >> .
<< I >> looked away .
Suppose << I >> hadn't brought along enough money ? ?
<< I >> felt for my wallet .
But when << I >> saw that it was already ten past seven , I began to wonder if something had gone wrong .
But when I saw that it was already ten past seven , << I >> began to wonder if something had gone wrong .
<< I >> grew uneasy .
Whole platoons were taking up new positions on the steps , arriving and departing , while << I >> stayed glued , like a signpost , to one spot .
At 7:25 two hotel doormen came thumping down the steps , carrying a saw-horse to be set up as a barricade in front of the haberdashery store window next to the entranceway , and as << I >> watched them in their gaudy red coats that nearly scraped the ground , their golden , fringed epaulets and spic , red-visored caps , I suddenly saw just over their shoulders Jessica gracefully making her way through the crowd .
At 7:25 two hotel doormen came thumping down the steps , carrying a saw-horse to be set up as a barricade in front of the haberdashery store window next to the entranceway , and as I watched them in their gaudy red coats that nearly scraped the ground , their golden , fringed epaulets and spic , red-visored caps , << I >> suddenly saw just over their shoulders Jessica gracefully making her way through the crowd .
There were thirty-eight patients on the bus the morning << I >> left for Hanover , most of them disturbed and hallucinating .
<< I >> felt lonely and depressed as I stared out the bus window at Chicago's grim , dirty West Side .
I felt lonely and depressed as << I >> stared out the bus window at Chicago's grim , dirty West Side .
It seemed incredible , as << I >> listened to the monotonous drone of voices and smelled the fetid odors coming from the patients , that technically I was a ward of the state of Illinois , going to a hospital for the mentally ill .
It seemed incredible , as I listened to the monotonous drone of voices and smelled the fetid odors coming from the patients , that technically << I >> was a ward of the state of Illinois , going to a hospital for the mentally ill .
<< I >> suddenly thought of Mary Jane Brennan , the way her pretty eyes could flash with anger , her quiet competence , the gentleness and sweetness that lay just beneath the surface of her defenses .
She knew that << I >> lived at a good address on the Gold Coast , that I had once been a medical student and was thinking of returning to the university to finish my medical studies .
She knew that I lived at a good address on the Gold Coast , that << I >> had once been a medical student and was thinking of returning to the university to finish my medical studies .
She knew also that << I >> was unmarried and without a single known relative .
She wasn't quite sure that << I >> felt enough remorse about my drinking , or that I would not return to it once I was out and on my own again .
She wasn't quite sure that I felt enough remorse about my drinking , or that << I >> would not return to it once I was out and on my own again .
She wasn't quite sure that I felt enough remorse about my drinking , or that I would not return to it once << I >> was out and on my own again .
<< I >> asked .
`` << I >> was full of booze and , well , a drunk is apt to do anything he says he'll do '' .
<< I >> grew up in an Irish neighborhood on Chicago's West Side .
Don't tell << me >> about drunks .
`` << I >> wouldn't have gone into nursing if I didn't care about people .
`` I wouldn't have gone into nursing if << I >> didn't care about people .
When << I >> think of people like you , well , I '' --
When I think of people like you , well , << I >> '' --
<< I >> don't blame that girl for breaking her engagement with you .
`` Oh , yes '' , << I >> said , feeling annoyed , `` she was very pretty .
`` Why should << I >> ? ?
<< I >> wanted to go to college , too '' --
`` That's what << I >> mean about you , Anderson '' , she said .
<< I >> think it's a good deal .
I'm going to become a good nurse , and I've got two baby brothers that are going to have college if << I >> have to work at my profession until I'm an old maid to give it to them '' .
<< I >> asked .
`` My father and mother died when << I >> was two years old '' , I said .
`` My father and mother died when I was two years old '' , << I >> said .
`` My aunt raised << me >> .
Aunt Mary died when << I >> was doing my military service .
Something in my voice must have touched her deeply because her anger passed quickly , and she turned away to keep << me >> from seeing her face .
`` << I >> don't know what I'd do without my family .
Listening , << I >> felt cheated and lonely as only an orphan can .
When she had finished << I >> said :
<< I >> don't think he'd mind too much if he were sure you'd decided not to be a rumdum in the future '' .
`` If << I >> thought you were serious about going back to school , that you'd learned something from your experiences here and at Hanover -- well , I might consider such an offer .
`` If I thought you were serious about going back to school , that you'd learned something from your experiences here and at Hanover -- well , << I >> might consider such an offer .
It suddenly seemed very important to << me >> that Mary Jane Brennan should know the truth about me -- that I was not the confused , sick , irresponsible person she believed me to be .
It suddenly seemed very important to me that Mary Jane Brennan should know the truth about << me >> -- that I was not the confused , sick , irresponsible person she believed me to be .
It suddenly seemed very important to me that Mary Jane Brennan should know the truth about me -- that << I >> was not the confused , sick , irresponsible person she believed me to be .
It suddenly seemed very important to me that Mary Jane Brennan should know the truth about me -- that I was not the confused , sick , irresponsible person she believed << me >> to be .
`` There are things about << me >> that I can't tell you now , Mary Jane '' , I said , `` but if you'll go out to dinner with me when I get out of Hanover , I'd like to tell you the whole story .
`` There are things about me that << I >> can't tell you now , Mary Jane '' , I said , `` but if you'll go out to dinner with me when I get out of Hanover , I'd like to tell you the whole story .
`` There are things about me that I can't tell you now , Mary Jane '' , << I >> said , `` but if you'll go out to dinner with me when I get out of Hanover , I'd like to tell you the whole story .
`` There are things about me that I can't tell you now , Mary Jane '' , I said , `` but if you'll go out to dinner with << me >> when I get out of Hanover , I'd like to tell you the whole story .
`` There are things about me that I can't tell you now , Mary Jane '' , I said , `` but if you'll go out to dinner with me when << I >> get out of Hanover , I'd like to tell you the whole story .
As for that other girl , let's just say that << I >> never want to see her again .
`` We'll go up to the Edgewater Beach Hotel for dinner '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> like to dance '' , she said , then turned and walked away .
There hadn't been anything really personal in her interest in << me >> .
<< I >> knew that .
Now , riding this hospital bus , feeling isolated and utterly alone , << I >> knew that she was genuine and unique , quite unlike any girl I had known before .
Now , riding this hospital bus , feeling isolated and utterly alone , I knew that she was genuine and unique , quite unlike any girl << I >> had known before .
It seemed the most important thing in my life at this moment that she should know the real truth about << me >> .
Only two people in the state of Illinois knew that << I >> was entering Hanover State Hospital under an assumed name , or why .
But << I >> had the proof , all documented in a legal agreement which I would show her the moment I was free to do so .
But I had the proof , all documented in a legal agreement which << I >> would show her the moment I was free to do so .
But I had the proof , all documented in a legal agreement which I would show her the moment << I >> was free to do so .
As the bus turned into the main highway and headed toward Hanover << I >> settled back in my seat and closed my eyes , thinking over the events of the past two weeks , trying to put the pieces in order .
<< I >> wondered suddenly as I listened to the disconnected jabberings coming from the patient behind me , if I had not perhaps imagined it all .
I wondered suddenly as << I >> listened to the disconnected jabberings coming from the patient behind me , if I had not perhaps imagined it all .
I wondered suddenly as I listened to the disconnected jabberings coming from the patient behind << me >> , if I had not perhaps imagined it all .
I wondered suddenly as I listened to the disconnected jabberings coming from the patient behind me , if << I >> had not perhaps imagined it all .
<< I >> had come to Chicago from New York early in September with a dramatic production called Ask Tony .
Out of the entire cast << I >> alone received good notices for my portrayal of a psychopathic killer .
<< I >> felt lonely and depressed as I packed my bags at the Croydon Hotel .
I felt lonely and depressed as << I >> packed my bags at the Croydon Hotel .
It seemed to << me >> that my life was destined to be one brilliant failure after another .
<< I >> had been among the top third in my class at N.Y.U. , had wanted desperately to go to medical school , but I'd run out of money and energy at the same time .
It seemed to << me >> that I was not only unlucky but quite stupid as well .
It seemed to me that << I >> was not only unlucky but quite stupid as well .
<< I >> knew that I'd soon be back working as an orderly at the hospital or as a counterman at Union News or Schraffts while waiting for another acting job to open .
It suddenly occurred to << me >> that I did not particularly like acting , that I was at some sort of crossroads and would have to decide soon what I was going to do with my life .
It suddenly occurred to me that << I >> did not particularly like acting , that I was at some sort of crossroads and would have to decide soon what I was going to do with my life .
It suddenly occurred to me that I did not particularly like acting , that << I >> was at some sort of crossroads and would have to decide soon what I was going to do with my life .
It suddenly occurred to me that I did not particularly like acting , that I was at some sort of crossroads and would have to decide soon what << I >> was going to do with my life .
<< I >> closed the last bag and stood all three at the door for the bellboy to pick up , then went to the bathroom for a drink of water .
When << I >> answered it a voice too dignified and British to be real said , `` Is this Mr. Dale Nelson , the actor '' ? ?
`` All right '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> beg your pardon , sir '' ? ?
<< I >> smiled .
<< I >> started to say something else appropriate , but the man had hung up .
They all bowed low as << I >> approached them .
`` All right , you bastards '' , << I >> said , `` the great actor is about to buy a drink '' .
<< I >> laid a tenspot on the bar and motioned to the bartender to serve a round .
He had just returned my change when the doorman came in off the street to page << me >> .
<< I >> was giving the parked cars the once-over .
<< I >> walked with him back to the entrance .
He gave << me >> a ticket on the agency car and parked it .
<< I >> was back in ten minutes .
`` Forgot to get something out of the car '' , << I >> told him , showing him my ticket .
You're the one << I >> was talking to about a monthly rental .
`` That's right '' , << I >> told him .
<< I >> went back to the agency car and got out an electric bug , one of the newest devices for electronic shadowing .
<< I >> always keep a set in the car .
<< I >> put in new batteries so as to be certain I'd have plenty of power and on my way out walked over to the regular parking stalls and stood looking at them thoughtfully .
<< I >> waited until the parking attendant was busy with a customer , then slipped around the back of the car with license number JYM 114 , attached the electronic bug to the rear bumper and walked out .
<< I >> waited a solid two hours before my man came out of the office building .
<< I >> wasn't far behind him when he entered the parking lot and hurried over to his car .
`` << I >> haven't made up my mind yet '' , I said .
`` I haven't made up my mind yet '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> have a couple of them I'm figuring on ; ;
<< I >> kept trying to get him to take my money .
`` Okay '' , << I >> told him .
<< I >> know where the car is .
<< I >> grinned at him , handed him a couple of dollars and said , `` By the time you get the parking charge figured up , there should be a cigar in it for you '' .
<< I >> hurried over to the agency heap , jumped in , started the motor and was just in time to see the car I wanted to shadow turn to the left .
I hurried over to the agency heap , jumped in , started the motor and was just in time to see the car << I >> wanted to shadow turn to the left .
<< I >> was held up a bit trying to make a left turn .
<< I >> turned on the electric bug , and the signal came in loud and clear .
<< I >> made time and picked him up within ten blocks .
<< I >> stayed half a block behind him , letting lots of cars keep in between us , listening to the steady beep beep beep .
If it ever got behind << me >> , the beep turned to a buzz .
<< I >> turned left too soon and got a signal showing that I was still behind him but he was to the right .
I turned left too soon and got a signal showing that << I >> was still behind him but he was to the right .
After a while the signal became a buzz and << I >> knew he was behind me .
After a while the signal became a buzz and I knew he was behind << me >> .
<< I >> found a parking place half a block away , sat in the car and waited .
<< I >> circled the block and found he was in the parking lot of a high-class restaurant .
<< I >> sat there with the faint odor of charcoal-broiled steaks tantalizing my nostrils and occasionally catching the aroma of coffee .
<< I >> remembered it was the Peeping Tom place .
The card the man << I >> was shadowing had filled out was still on the counter .
<< I >> noticed that he was in Unit 12 and that he had registered under the name of Oscar L. Palmer and wife , giving a San Francisco address .
<< I >> used the alias of Robert C. Richards , gave the first three letters and the first and last figure of the license number on the agency heap , but a couple of phony numbers in between .
<< I >> could have written anything .
`` << I >> don't think so '' .
<< I >> asked .
`` Thank you '' , << I >> told her .
<< I >> took another sidelong glance at the other registration card , then took the key to Unit 13 that she had given me and went down long enough to park the car .
I took another sidelong glance at the other registration card , then took the key to Unit 13 that she had given << me >> and went down long enough to park the car .
<< I >> put a small electric amplifier against the wall on the side I wanted to case .
I put a small electric amplifier against the wall on the side << I >> wanted to case .
With the aid of that << I >> could hear my man moving around , heard him cough a couple of times , heard the toilet flush , heard the sound of water running .
<< I >> was so hungry my stomach felt all lines of communication had been severed .
<< I >> had noticed a drive-in down the road a quarter of a mile .
The powerful microphone << I >> could press against the wall between my motel unit and that occupied by the man would bring in the sound of any conversation , and I was positively nauseated I was so hungry .
The powerful microphone I could press against the wall between my motel unit and that occupied by the man would bring in the sound of any conversation , and << I >> was positively nauseated I was so hungry .
The powerful microphone I could press against the wall between my motel unit and that occupied by the man would bring in the sound of any conversation , and I was positively nauseated << I >> was so hungry .
<< I >> got in the car , drove down to the drive-in and ordered a couple of hamburgers with everything included , a cup of coffee and the fastest service possible .
The place wasn't particularly busy at that time of night , and the girl who was waiting on << me >> , who was clothed in the tightest-fitting pair of slacks I had ever seen on a woman and a sweater that showed everything there was -- and there was lots of it -- wanted to be sociable .
The place wasn't particularly busy at that time of night , and the girl who was waiting on me , who was clothed in the tightest-fitting pair of slacks << I >> had ever seen on a woman and a sweater that showed everything there was -- and there was lots of it -- wanted to be sociable .
`` There may not be any women left '' , << I >> said .
`` I'll be here at ten-fifty-five '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> said `` Darn it , that's the automatic signal that shows when the ignition key is on .
<< I >> didn't turn it off '' .
<< I >> reached over and switched off the electronic bugging device .
Then << I >> shut off the device again .
She wanted to hang around while << I >> was eating .
`` No '' , << I >> said .
She looked at << me >> provocatively .
<< I >> turned on the device again , half fearful that I might find silence , but the buzzes came in loud and clear .
I turned on the device again , half fearful that << I >> might find silence , but the buzzes came in loud and clear .
When << I >> switched on the lights for her to come and get the check , I had the exact change plus a dollar tip .
When I switched on the lights for her to come and get the check , << I >> had the exact change plus a dollar tip .
I'm sending you a couple of customers -- yeah -- just get them out of my hair and keep them out -- << I >> don't give a damn what you tell them -- only don't believe a word they say -- they're out to make trouble for me and it is up to you to stop them -- I don't care how -- and one more thing -- Cate's Cafe closed at eleven like always last night and Rose and Clarence Corsi left for Quebec yesterday -- some shrine or other -- I think it was called Saint Simon's -- yeah , yesterday .
I'm sending you a couple of customers -- yeah -- just get them out of my hair and keep them out -- I don't give a damn what you tell them -- only don't believe a word they say -- they're out to make trouble for << me >> and it is up to you to stop them -- I don't care how -- and one more thing -- Cate's Cafe closed at eleven like always last night and Rose and Clarence Corsi left for Quebec yesterday -- some shrine or other -- I think it was called Saint Simon's -- yeah , yesterday .
I'm sending you a couple of customers -- yeah -- just get them out of my hair and keep them out -- I don't give a damn what you tell them -- only don't believe a word they say -- they're out to make trouble for me and it is up to you to stop them -- << I >> don't care how -- and one more thing -- Cate's Cafe closed at eleven like always last night and Rose and Clarence Corsi left for Quebec yesterday -- some shrine or other -- I think it was called Saint Simon's -- yeah , yesterday .
I'm sending you a couple of customers -- yeah -- just get them out of my hair and keep them out -- I don't give a damn what you tell them -- only don't believe a word they say -- they're out to make trouble for me and it is up to you to stop them -- I don't care how -- and one more thing -- Cate's Cafe closed at eleven like always last night and Rose and Clarence Corsi left for Quebec yesterday -- some shrine or other -- << I >> think it was called Saint Simon's -- yeah , yesterday .
You ain't kidding << me >> -- the kid don't know the name of this town '' ? ?
`` Howda << I >> know '' ? ?
`` Why does everything have to happen to << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> know '' .
`` What am << I >> going to do with her all day ? ?
`` What the hell do << I >> care what you do with her all day ? ?
<< I >> ain't no baby sitter '' .
<< I >> wish you luck when you try scaring that kid '' .
And << I >> ain't going back there on account of one lousy kid '' .
She said , `` Barney , why is he keeping << me >> here '' ? ?
Lauren said , `` Why can't << I >> call my home ? ?
<< I >> could send the money right back '' .
He said , `` << I >> only work here '' .
Dave said , `` << I >> got the message .
Marty smiled at Squire pleasantly and said , `` There was a cab waiting for << me >> here .
`` << I >> see there are some cars here .
<< I >> wonder if one of you gentlemen could drive me back to town ? ?
I wonder if one of you gentlemen could drive << me >> back to town ? ?
Pete turned around and said to Marty , `` << I >> guess you think I'm a yellow-bellied hound .
But there wasn't no use in << me >> staying there .
<< I >> couldn't fight a dozen or so of 'em .
<< I >> was lucky they let me go , I guess '' .
I was lucky they let << me >> go , I guess '' .
I was lucky they let me go , << I >> guess '' .
`` << I >> don't know what you're getting into , Mike '' , he said unhappily .
We've got one other call to make before << I >> meet Alvarez '' .
`` << I >> want to be in Scotty's Bar at midnight when Marsha makes her phone call there '' , he ended grimly .
If it was designed to put << me >> on the spot , it would have to have been written before Peralta ever called me in on the case '' .
If it was designed to put me on the spot , it would have to have been written before Peralta ever called << me >> in on the case '' .
`` << I >> haven't the faintest idea .
<< I >> think her husband strongly suspects so , and that's why he called me in on the thing in direct defiance of his confederates and almost certainly without telling them why he was doing so .
I think her husband strongly suspects so , and that's why he called << me >> in on the thing in direct defiance of his confederates and almost certainly without telling them why he was doing so .
Turn to the left , << I >> think , for that number you gave me .
Turn to the left , I think , for that number you gave << me >> .
`` << I >> told you , Mike '' , said Rourke in an aggrieved voice .
`` << I >> didn't notice it .
<< I >> was watching for numbers .
<< I >> got a quick look at their faces as we went past .
`` The pair whom Petey is officially commending for slapping << me >> around and pulling me in '' .
`` The pair whom Petey is officially commending for slapping me around and pulling << me >> in '' .
`` A stake-out , << I >> suppose .
<< I >> may be wrong .
`` The things you talk << me >> into , Mike .
<< I >> made them show me their identification before I could be persuaded not to call on Felice Perrin '' .
I made them show << me >> their identification before I could be persuaded not to call on Felice Perrin '' .
I made them show me their identification before << I >> could be persuaded not to call on Felice Perrin '' .
Will that pay for a pint << I >> can take with me .
Will that pay for a pint I can take with << me >> .
If << I >> could call in , they could check the story while we were on our way .
<< I >> wouldn't have to tell them I had Roberts --
I wouldn't have to tell them << I >> had Roberts --
`` Or would it be easier if << I >> put my hands in my pockets '' ? ?
The local law here would hold << me >> till they check clear back home , and maybe more than that .
Only << me >> .
<< I >> think the best bet is to go through the society columns of last year and see if any of the grooms match with the obituaries a little later .
`` << I >> wish you good luck , but please don't dig up too tough a case for me this close to election .
`` I wish you good luck , but please don't dig up too tough a case for << me >> this close to election .
Well , << I >> do remember one .
<< I >> didn't see her till several days later at the wedding , and her face looked like it had never had a blemish on it .
`` Now how in hell would << I >> remember that '' ? ?
<< I >> can look it up .
`` << I >> think they moved away shortly after they were married .
And << I >> done favors for you , big favor not so long back , didn't I , and I'm right here to take on where Pretty left off .
And I done favors for you , big favor not so long back , didn't << I >> , and I'm right here to take on where Pretty left off .
`` Big favor << I >> done you .
And can't say << I >> blame you '' , said Angie thoughtfully .
<< I >> stay in business so long because I'm careful .
`` << I >> tell you , you want to leave it that way , I don't fool around with it .
`` I tell you , you want to leave it that way , << I >> don't fool around with it .
<< I >> can't wait no two weeks '' .
<< I >> mean , we all figured -- I guess anybody'd figure -- Angie '' --
I mean , we all figured -- << I >> guess anybody'd figure -- Angie '' --
`` Mr. Skyros too smart a fellow want to get rid of << me >> '' , he said .
`` Sure , sure , you're the one take over for Pretty , soon as << I >> get the supply , get started up again , isn't it ? ?
<< I >> tell you , I know how it is with you , my friend , I sympathize , and I'll make it a special point -- a special favor -- get in touch , and get some stuff just for you .
I tell you , << I >> know how it is with you , my friend , I sympathize , and I'll make it a special point -- a special favor -- get in touch , and get some stuff just for you .
I tell you , I know how it is with you , my friend , << I >> sympathize , and I'll make it a special point -- a special favor -- get in touch , and get some stuff just for you .
<< I >> don't know if I can manage it tonight or tomorrow , but I'll try my best , my friend .
I don't know if << I >> can manage it tonight or tomorrow , but I'll try my best , my friend .
My man , he won't be around a little while , he just fixed << me >> up with this stuff they took out of the Elite .
`` << I >> appreciate it , you do that .
Or maybe << I >> call you -- tonight ? ?
About nine o'clock , << I >> call and see if you got any .
A couple decks for << me >> , Mr. Skyros -- and ten-twelve to sell , see , I like to have a little ready cash '' .
A couple decks for me , Mr. Skyros -- and ten-twelve to sell , see , << I >> like to have a little ready cash '' .
`` Oh , now , << I >> don't know about that much '' , said Mr. Skyros .
Never mind how much << I >> cut it , how much I get '' , and he smiled his sleepy smile again .
Never mind how much I cut it , how much << I >> get '' , and he smiled his sleepy smile again .
`` << I >> do my best '' , said Mr. Skyros earnestly , `` just for you , my friend .
But << I >> do my best for you '' .
And , Here , I'll take this , << I >> was before her , you wait on me now or I don't bother with it , see ! !
And , Here , I'll take this , I was before her , you wait on << me >> now or I don't bother with it , see ! !
And , Here , I'll take this , I was before her , you wait on me now or << I >> don't bother with it , see ! !
No need leave a note with it , either -- or maybe just something like , Don't worry about << me >> , I'm going away to make a better life .
`` You've give << me >> the wrong change '' , said the customer sharply .
`` Think << I >> can't count '' ? ?
Oh , Katharine's awfully nice , and pretty too , << I >> like Katharine -- Let's ask Katharine to go with us , she's always lots of fun -- Katharine --
`` A lot of people are so peculiar that they don't like cats , it's not the easiest thing in the world to find good homes for kittens -- and , damn it , you know very well if << I >> have them around long , impossible to give them away ! !
And << I >> suppose now that you've finally grown up , if a little late , you'd go on producing kittens every six months or so .
Yes , well , it's a pity to spoil your girlish figure -- which all those kittens would do anyway -- but << I >> think when you've raised these we'll just have the vet fix it so there won't be any more .
<< I >> wonder if the Carters would take one .
She opened it an inch and poked out the keys for << me >> to give you .
`` << I >> don't want it '' , Sarah said , firmly .
`` << I >> forgot .
`` << I >> don't know Mrs. Stowe .
<< I >> don't know what we're going to do , Miss Sarah '' .
<< I >> want to talk to Sarah '' .
<< I >> mean I've got to -- to see to the kitchen .
Now why did << I >> do that ? ?
`` Miss Sarah , << I >> can't cut up no chicken .
<< I >> didn't think there was any reason to '' .
<< I >> think he might be '' , Conrad said grimly .
`` << I >> know '' .
`` << I >> think so .
`` << I >> don't think anything .
Do << I >> send him up '' ? ?
<< I >> don't remember ever seeing teeth that were quite so white and at the same time quite so emphatically not dentures .
`` << I >> try '' , Felix said blithely .
`` The past << I >> leave to historians '' , Felix intoned , demonstrating that he could be pompous as well as happy .
`` << I >> can't see what would make it necessary for you to know .
First thing << I >> did after my twenty-first birthday was go into court and have it officially changed , and this is something I don't tell everybody .
First thing I did after my twenty-first birthday was go into court and have it officially changed , and this is something << I >> don't tell everybody .
The killer , if in our present group , would certainly be interested in knowing that much , and even though with the fingerprint evidence what it was << I >> could see no way he could use this bit of information to improve on his situation , there might always be some way .
`` Shall << I >> let them know you're awake '' ? ?
`` << I >> suppose .
You want << me >> to call her '' ? ?
<< I >> wouldn't want him to miss the message '' .
`` << I >> got a bone to pick with you , Mr. Paxton .
`` They're going to louse << me >> up good .
`` << I >> want you to have the speakers taken out '' .
Didn't they tell you what << I >> wanted the p. a. system for '' ? ?
`` << I >> can't stop you from doing what you think is right .
But don't try to stop << me >> , either '' .
<< I >> guess nobody wants to pass out and miss anything '' .
Andy said , `` Well , << I >> guess we can't wait any longer .
There's a couple of call-backs << I >> can work on '' .
God knows how , but << I >> got it .
<< I >> practically had to sign your life away , you'll probably fire me for some of the deals I had to go for , but '' --
I practically had to sign your life away , you'll probably fire << me >> for some of the deals I had to go for , but '' --
I practically had to sign your life away , you'll probably fire me for some of the deals << I >> had to go for , but '' --
`` << I >> think you had better come home '' .
`` << I >> don't care .
<< I >> want you here .
<< I >> need someone to go out and find out what's happening '' .
`` << I >> can't be underfoot every time those cops turn around ! !
They'll they'll think << I >> did something '' .
I'd think that you even more than << I >> would be wondering what they're up to .
<< I >> guess he wants to ask you some questions .
<< I >> stalled him off .
`` << I >> don't remember any overalls at all '' .
Tell << me >> what this is all about '' .
`` My goodness , you ought to remember if << I >> do .
( `` << I >> certainly was not at the Dumont last night and my husband couldn't have been .
Also , he thought , << I >> doubt if she could hit the side of a barn with a shotgun .
`` << I >> know it isn't dinnertime '' .
`` << I >> said I would '' , Pam said .
`` I said << I >> would '' , Pam said .
<< I >> was hoping I'd hear from you today '' .
With his free hand he pulled a pad and pencil toward him and began to make notes as he listened , saying , `` Uh-huh '' and `` << I >> see '' at intervals .
At the time the will was drawn Mr. Hohlbein mentioned to << me >> how mentally alert she seemed for her age , knowing just what changes she wanted made and so forth '' .
`` Mr. Hohlbein and << I >> have noticed some lapses since , though .
`` It's all << I >> think about , too .
For all her domineering ways , << I >> can't conceive of her having had a deadly enemy '' .
Hoag said , `` << I >> didn't send for you , Leigh .
<< I >> want the captain in charge .
<< I >> told you there's nothing between Midge and me , nothing .
I told you there's nothing between Midge and << me >> , nothing .
<< I >> have some security information about the prime minister '' .
<< I >> did get you on the platform this morning '' .
`` << I >> was hit -- knocked out .
`` Listen to << me >> , Leigh .
If you want to spend another day in the State Department -- another day -- you get in there and tell that captain what << I >> told you '' .
`` And you know << I >> can do it '' .
<< I >> was just going .
`` << I >> want Captain Docherty '' .
Griffith said , `` Hoag told << me >> to tell you '' -- he waited until they were close ; ;
Leave << me >> alone , Gun thought .
But leave << me >> alone .
If you just leave << me >> to hell alone , Lieutenant .
`` << I >> called the station at three this morning '' , Killpath's nasal voice pronounced .
`` What if << I >> said nobody was here but a couple of patrolmen '' ? ?
`` << I >> was out in the district , sir '' .
`` << I >> might point out that your inability to report to my office this morning when you were instructed to do so has not ah limited my knowledge of your activities as you may have hoped '' .
`` << I >> didn't think Accacia knew so many big words , Lieutenant '' .
<< I >> would have been negligent and a goddam lousy cop to boot , if I'd sat around this station all night when somebody got away with murder in my district .
But I'm not one damned bit sorry << I >> went out to question the people I know in the places they hang around , and '' --
But I'm not one damned bit sorry I went out to question the people << I >> know in the places they hang around , and '' --
`` << I >> shouldn't like to have to write you up for insubordination as well as dereliction of duty '' .
<< I >> thought you hadn't come in yet '' .
`` She's honest as the day '' , Mr. Phillips said , and added , `` Mr. Gunnar , << I >> can say this to you : Beebe is a little too honest .
That way << I >> don't lose so much '' .
`` Can << I >> tell you a secret ? ?
`` You wouldn't want << me >> to say yes without making sure his intentions are honorable , would you '' ? ?
<< I >> knew the only way I could beat you was to play possum , but it was a good try , kid , and I appreciate it .
I knew the only way << I >> could beat you was to play possum , but it was a good try , kid , and I appreciate it .
I knew the only way I could beat you was to play possum , but it was a good try , kid , and << I >> appreciate it .
How can << I >> find him ? ?
`` You took a picture of << me >> at the corner of Washington and Blake about three thirty this afternoon '' .
`` << I >> wouldn't even want it to get around '' .
`` << I >> was hired to take a picture .
<< I >> took it .
`` Maybe you'd better tell the guy who hired you what << I >> said '' .
`` But << I >> meant what I said , Casey .
`` But I meant what << I >> said , Casey .
You don't know << me >> but I know you .
You don't know me but << I >> know you .
It's at the far end of the county and the last time << I >> came here was for a hit and run manslaughter -- about seven months ago .
Seeing << me >> he said with real surprise , `` Well , well , ain't we honored ! !
Took << me >> 19 years to become Chief of our three man police force .
`` << I >> guess it helps '' , I said , paying no attention to his ribbing .
`` I guess it helps '' , << I >> said , paying no attention to his ribbing .
When << I >> say move , a guy moves '' ! !
`` Yeah , passed your road block as << I >> drove in '' , I said , sitting on his polished desk .
`` Yeah , passed your road block as I drove in '' , << I >> said , sitting on his polished desk .
`` About nine this morning Mrs. Buck phones << me >> she's having trouble with one of her farm hands -- money trouble .
Anyway , Julia asks << me >> to .
Julia Buck , the deceased '' , Moore said , slipping << me >> his smug , idiot-grin again .
`` Julia asks << me >> to come out at once .
<< I >> would have come sooner if I'd known .
No doubt about Tim being the killer -- << I >> have a witness .
Told them << I >> can handle this '' .
Swears she recognized his voice , that Tim yelled , ' It's my money and << I >> want it ' ! !
Then she heard Julia phone << me >> .
Pulling back the sheet , << I >> examined the bruises around Julia Buck's once slender throat .
<< I >> dropped the sheet , glanced at my watch .
It was almost one and << I >> hadn't had lunch .
Still , << I >> wanted to get this over with , had a lot of paper work waiting in my own office .
<< I >> told him , `` I want to go see the Buck house '' .
I told him , `` << I >> want to go see the Buck house '' .
Walking back down Main Street , << I >> said , `` I saw the Harbor's one squad car at the road block , we'll ride out in my car '' .
Walking back down Main Street , I said , `` << I >> saw the Harbor's one squad car at the road block , we'll ride out in my car '' .
As << I >> slid in beside him he said , `` Some heap , hey ? ?
Five racing minutes later we pulled into the driveway of this typical two-story house , and when the Jaguar stopped << I >> managed to swallow .
She calmly repeated what Moore had told << me >> .
When << I >> asked , `` Why didn't you go into the living room to see how Mrs. Buck was '' ? ?
The old gal stared at << me >> with her hard eyes , said , `` She didn't call .
<< I >> went up stairs and did the bath and her bedroom -- way I always do in the morning '' .
I went up stairs and did the bath and her bedroom -- way << I >> always do in the morning '' .
<< I >> drummed on the kitchen table with my pencil .
`` << I >> never see none .
But then << I >> wasn't her social secretary '' .
<< I >> walked into the living room .
Look Jed , this is an open and shut case and << I >> have to relieve my men at the road block soon .
<< I >> asked .
<< I >> asked .
<< I >> knew she was lying .
<< I >> stood there , staring at her for a moment -- thinking mostly of her beauty and her poverty .
Moore said , `` Come on , Jed , << I >> have to get to my men '' .
I'll tell him -- if << I >> see him '' .
<< I >> tried not to act scared .
<< I >> told Moore I was going to eat , get some forms filled out by Doc Abel .
I told Moore << I >> was going to eat , get some forms filled out by Doc Abel .
Chief Moore said , `` If << I >> don't see you when I return , see you for certain at my road block , Inspector '' .
Chief Moore said , `` If I don't see you when << I >> return , see you for certain at my road block , Inspector '' .
Lighting my pipe , << I >> took a walk .
<< I >> asked an old guy running a fishing station if the boat was Moore's .
<< I >> dropped into the doctor's office , picked up my forms .
<< I >> got into the front seat .
<< I >> drove out of the Harbor , turned off into a dirt road among the scrub pine trees and stopped .
She mumbled , `` << I >> just know that Chief Moore is out to kill my Tim '' ! !
<< I >> never saw him so anxious before '' , I said , lighting my pipe and offering her a cigarette .
I never saw him so anxious before '' , << I >> said , lighting my pipe and offering her a cigarette .
`` I'd like the room << I >> had the last time '' .
`` Suppose you tell << me >> the real reason '' , he drawled .
Either << I >> get the story -- or I get the suite '' .
Either I get the story -- or << I >> get the suite '' .
In good time << I >> shall get to the distressing actuality , to Red McIver and Handley Walker , to murder and sudden death .
But you realize , << I >> am sure , how much old deeds incite to new ones , and you must forgive me if I tell you first of the old ones .
But you realize , I am sure , how much old deeds incite to new ones , and you must forgive << me >> if I tell you first of the old ones .
But you realize , I am sure , how much old deeds incite to new ones , and you must forgive me if << I >> tell you first of the old ones .
And she answered , `` << I >> don't know , but I hope you'll never do such a thing '' .
And she answered , `` I don't know , but << I >> hope you'll never do such a thing '' .
Much , << I >> assure you .
and << I >> knew they knew it , for I'd told them a lot of it .
You want from << me >> the story , but a story is about ' why ' and then , perhaps , about how .
So what << I >> am trying to tell you is the ' why ' -- that is my point -- and that concerns the spirit of the matter .
There is an inwardness and a luster to old furniture ( look at that mahogany highboy behind you ) which has a provocative emanation , if << I >> may say so .
Today Dogtown is the only deserted village in all New England that << I >> know of .
( << I >> myself have identified about sixty sites , from the old maps and registers .
A fascinating pursuit , << I >> assure you .
) Even << I >> can remember nothing but ruined cellars and tumbled pillars , and nobody has lived there in the memory of any living man .
Both Red McIver and Handley Walker lived nearby , almost as near as << I >> do .
Dead , dead as a brass door nail , and << I >> sometimes feel like the Sexton , for I'm about the last to be even interested .
<< I >> knew Red and Handley well .
And it was because of an old Norberg inheritance that << I >> got to understand them all so well .
The quarrel ended in a ridiculous draw , but << I >> must tell you about it .
You see , besides being custodian of antiquities , << I >> am also registrar .
No , << I >> don't hold with those who live entirely among dead things .
<< I >> know as well as the next man that a ship is called from the rigging she carries , where the live wind blows , and not from the hull .
As << I >> was saying , I've known all about the old records , including the old Norberg deed .
Some ten years ago that page was torn out , << I >> don't know by whom .
About five years ago , Handley came to ask << me >> if he could see the tattered register .
( When you see him , you'll notice his habit of fingering , << I >> might almost say , stroking a large mole with black hairs on it , by his right temple .
A real gentleman , << I >> feel , would do neither .
When << I >> told him someone had torn it out , he shouted .
During the quarrel << I >> learned what the trouble was , from the accusations each hurled at the other .
After the usual Honorable Sirs , it went on to say that there had been set off to the widow one full third part of the real estate of the deceased Salu Norberg , one lower room , on the Western side , privileges to the well and bake-oven and to one third of the cellar ( << I >> can show you the cellar when we go up ) , also one Cow Right , and lastly they set off to the widow her own land that she brought with her as dower , namely the Beech Pasture .
And << I >> remember that the whole of the privileges , not counting the Beech Pasture , was valued at twenty pounds .
A disturbing picture of bad blood , to be further heightened with illicit if buccolic colors , for on a subsequent day << I >> saw Handley escorting Anta , Red's wife , up on Dogtown Common .
<< I >> felt it would be inopportune to disclose my presence .
Not that << I >> intentionally go unperceived , but the boulders up there are very high and I am a small woman .
Not that I intentionally go unperceived , but the boulders up there are very high and << I >> am a small woman .
<< I >> suppose Handley knew it .
<< I >> would call them the patterns of life , perhaps even the designs of destiny .
Yet with all this knowledge << I >> had nothing of substance to unravel our case , as you would call it , till yesterday .
<< I >> suppose these absences gave her more clearance for her embraces with Cousin Handley .
Anyhow , << I >> wasn't surprised , early that morning , to see Handley himself crossing from Dogtown Common Road to the Back Road .
<< I >> myself had been up there by seven o'clock , after mushrooms , since there'd been a week of rain which had stopped early that morning and the day was as clear as Sandwich glass .
`` Guess << I >> can't think of anyone , Pete .
`` << I >> think you aren't taking me seriously , Phil .
`` I think you aren't taking << me >> seriously , Phil .
<< I >> might have got hit by that truck if it wasn't for you .
<< I >> believe in returning favors .
I'll do anything for somebody << I >> like .
Go ahead and try << me >> '' ! !
`` All right '' , he conceded finally , `` if you must know , << I >> don't get along with the landlord .
He keeps riding << me >> because I like to listen to the radio and sing while I'm taking a bath .
He keeps riding me because << I >> like to listen to the radio and sing while I'm taking a bath .
He says the neighbors complain , but << I >> don't believe it .
Why don't they tell << me >> themselves if it bothers them '' ? ?
Give << me >> your address .
You see , << I >> always make it look like an accident .
So you thought << I >> didn't mean what I said .
So you thought I didn't mean what << I >> said .
`` Then she'd get half of everything << I >> have .
Now << I >> see .
You must understand , << I >> haven't been in this state too long .
<< I >> came out here to retire .
You should have told << me >> about her before '' .
After all , << I >> didn't know you , Pete .
<< I >> always work it that way -- and always at a time when the customer has an alibi .
Let << me >> prove it , Phil .
<< I >> went through and down , into pitch darkness .
A moment later he struck a match and lighted a candle , and << I >> could see .
<< I >> looked back over my shoulder while I went to join him ; ;
I looked back over my shoulder while << I >> went to join him ; ;
`` You first '' , << I >> said .
`` Nice place '' , << I >> told him .
`` Listen , << I >> got a buddy I travel with , real nice guy named Larry .
`` Listen , I got a buddy << I >> travel with , real nice guy named Larry .
He hesitated a second , looking at the bottle , before he said `` Sure-sure '' , and << I >> reassured him .
<< I >> took a short swallow from it myself and handed it to him .
`` Perfect set-up '' , << I >> told him .
<< I >> bought another pint of sherry and when we got back Pops let us in in the dark , put back the blanket and then lighted the candle again .
<< I >> introduced my friend Larry to Pops and we made ourselves comfortable .
<< I >> was reminded , amusedly , by a poem of Kenneth Patchen's called The Murder of Two Men by a Young Kid Wearing Lemon Colored Gloves , which Patchen himself read on a record against jazz background .
About halfway through the second bottle , Charlie looked at << me >> across Pops , who was sitting between us and asked `` Now '' ? ?
<< I >> said , `` Wait '' , and handed the bottle to Pops for his final drink .
When he handed it back and << I >> had hold of it safely , Pops was looking toward me and I said `` Now '' , to Charlie and he swung the short length of lead pipe he'd meanwhile taken from his pocket , once .
When he handed it back and I had hold of it safely , Pops was looking toward << me >> and I said `` Now '' , to Charlie and he swung the short length of lead pipe he'd meanwhile taken from his pocket , once .
When he handed it back and I had hold of it safely , Pops was looking toward me and << I >> said `` Now '' , to Charlie and he swung the short length of lead pipe he'd meanwhile taken from his pocket , once .
<< I >> reached my hand toward him to put it inside his shirt to feel for a heartbeat , but Charlie said `` Wait '' ! !
He was holding the piece of lead pipe out to << me >> .
<< I >> gauged that blow to be borderline .
<< I >> dug him , I saw his point ; ;
I dug him , << I >> saw his point ; ;
The thunk was louder , anyway , and << I >> thought I heard bone crack .
The thunk was louder , anyway , and I thought << I >> heard bone crack .
We straightened Pops up and << I >> made sure there was no trace of a heartbeat .
<< I >> nodded to Charlie .
Charlie asked << me >> .
`` Cool '' , << I >> told him .
It was a kick , but not a big enough one for << me >> to want to take the chance again , except for stakes .
`` Take them '' , << I >> said .
Besides , << I >> doubt if the cops will even try dusting .
Almost too smoothly , << I >> found myself thinking , and then told myself that was ridiculous .
Also our plans for << me >> to commit Charlie's murder and for him to commit mine .
I'd tell him everything I'd learned about Seaton's habits and habitat , and he'd tell << me >> the score on Radic .
<< I >> was dead tired and slept soundly , as far as I know dreamlessly .
I was dead tired and slept soundly , as far as << I >> know dreamlessly .
<< I >> drew diagrams and floor plans ; ;
He gave << me >> equivalent and even more detailed dope on Radic , including diagrams -- one of the apartment building Radic lived in and one of the apartment itself .
it was not quite six o'clock when we finished and Charlie said , `` Well , << I >> guess that's it .
`` Wait a minute , Charlie '' , << I >> said .
And if you're as flat broke as << I >> am , I think we'll have to take the added risk of knocking over a filling station or something before we split for one of us to set up an alibi while the other does his dirty work '' .
And if you're as flat broke as I am , << I >> think we'll have to take the added risk of knocking over a filling station or something before we split for one of us to set up an alibi while the other does his dirty work '' .
If you draw the short straw I'll lend you some bread , like fifty bucks , before << I >> take off to visit my sister in Frisco .
Then , after I'm back , another fifty so you can put some mileage on yourself and have a solid alibi somewhere while << I >> take care of your seat cover boy '' .
`` Solid '' , << I >> said .
You'd have to wait till Seaton's back from Mexico City and also while << I >> set it up with Doris to have her have an alibi for D-night .
He grinned and clapped << me >> on the shoulder .
`` << I >> was hoping you'd say that , Willy .
But << I >> wouldn't have suggested it .
Well -- in that case , << I >> take off tomorrow morning for Frisco .
`` << I >> feel fine ! !
<< I >> have helped him .
<< I >> now grok you are my people -- teach plants another way .
`` At first << I >> was homesick '' , he answered .
`` << I >> was lonely always '' .
`` But now << I >> am not lonely .
<< I >> grok I shall never be lonely again '' .
I grok << I >> shall never be lonely again '' .
Is that -- << I >> mean , ' Do you know ' '' --
`` << I >> know .
A colossal campaign opened to sell more sexual organs of plants and Mrs. Joseph ( `` Shadow of Greatness '' ) Douglas was quoted as saying : `` << I >> would no more sit down without flowers on my table than without serviettes '' .
You too were a stupid jackass until you poisoned << me >> .
`` << I >> held still for the same thing , didn't I ? ?
`` I held still for the same thing , didn't << I >> ? ?
I'm helping you now , am << I >> not ? ?
Where do << I >> start '' ? ?
that is all << I >> can tell you about them .
`` Forgive << me >> , Sandalphon '' , said Hal .
<< I >> believe it was on page 573 '' ! !
Macneff smiled and said , `` << I >> am glad that your scriptural lessons have left such an impression '' .
<< I >> still bear scars on my back where Pornsen , my gapt , whipped me because I had not learned my lessons well enough .
I still bear scars on my back where Pornsen , my gapt , whipped << me >> because I had not learned my lessons well enough .
I still bear scars on my back where Pornsen , my gapt , whipped me because << I >> had not learned my lessons well enough .
As << I >> grew older and was promoted , so was he , always where I was .
As I grew older and was promoted , so was he , always where << I >> was .
He was the dormitory gapt when << I >> went to college and thought I was getting away from him .
He was the dormitory gapt when I went to college and thought << I >> was getting away from him .
No , not he , for << I >> , and I alone , am responsible for whatever happens to me .
No , not he , for I , and << I >> alone , am responsible for whatever happens to me .
No , not he , for I , and I alone , am responsible for whatever happens to << me >> .
If << I >> get a low M. R. , I do so because I want it that way or my dark self does .
If I get a low M. R. , << I >> do so because I want it that way or my dark self does .
If I get a low M. R. , I do so because << I >> want it that way or my dark self does .
If << I >> die , I die because I willed it so .
If I die , << I >> die because I willed it so .
If I die , I die because << I >> willed it so .
`` Please pardon << me >> again , Sandalphon '' , said Hal .
<< I >> can't tell you now the distance in lightyears or what star this was , though you can see it with the naked eye at night in this hemisphere .
`` But << I >> have just thought of one thing .
`` Tell << me >> more , Sandalphon '' .
`` << I >> had no idea that you , too , would be on this glorious voyage .
But << I >> might have known ! !
`` For instance , Hesperus agreed to help << me >> find my property , and I agreed to take him to Earth .
`` For instance , Hesperus agreed to help me find my property , and << I >> agreed to take him to Earth .
`` I'm going to turn my generator back on , as << I >> promised to do .
But << I >> can't take you to Earth yet .
`` Nobody else can live in your hearth while << I >> am in it '' , Hesperus said promptly .
If because of this incident they become angry with Earth , << I >> will not be permitted to go there at all .
Therefore of course << I >> will help '' .
`` Nothing wrong with << me >> that couldn't be cured '' , Nogol said .
`` << I >> think they're dead '' , Ekstrohm interjected quietly .
`` Ekstrohm , you and << I >> will have a look '' , Ryan said .
`` << I >> heard a story once about a rookie who got excited when the captain stepped outside and he couldn't get an encephalographic reading on him .
Me , << I >> know the mind of an officer works in a strange and unfathomable manner '' .
It sure as hell doesn't look like any dominant intelligent species to << me >> .
`` << I >> don't know about that .
But there's one possibility << I >> particularly don't like '' .
<< I >> just hope it doesn't work on Earthmen too .
What do you think << I >> did with them '' ? ?
`` << I >> don't know .
All << I >> know is that they are gone '' .
`` Why pick << me >> for your patsy ? ?
`` Listen , Ekstrohm , << I >> want to give you the benefit of every doubt .
`` You've been hiding things from << me >> and Nogol every jump we've made with you .
`` What could << I >> do with your lousy dead bodies ? ?
`` All << I >> know is that you were outside the bubbles last night , and you were the only sentient being who came in or out of our alarm web .
<< I >> give you my word I'm not trying to pull some stupid kind of joke , or to deliberately foul up the expedition .
`` << I >> don't think I can .
`` I don't think << I >> can .
<< I >> outweigh you fifty pounds and I'm fast for a big man '' .
`` << I >> wasn't planning on jumping you .
Why do you have to jump << me >> the first time something goes wrong ? ?
<< I >> enjoyed my lessons '' .
`` << I >> meant that you have a nice singing voice dear '' , the lady amended .
`` << I >> am currently reproducing the Last Supper on the head of a screw '' .
`` No , << I >> say '' , the lady twittered .
`` Of course , some of my color values do not match the old Master's and the perspective is faulty but << I >> believe it to be a fair copy '' .
`` Oh , << I >> forget '' , and Helva's voice was really contrite .
`` << I >> had that in mind '' .
Do you have anything for << me >> '' ? ?
Mercer stammered , not knowing what B'dikkat meant , and the two-nosed man answered for him , `` << I >> think he has a nice baby head , but it isn't big enough for you to take yet '' .
Maybe << I >> will grow another head .
<< I >> can talk .
<< I >> do so believe in death '' ! !
`` << I >> never saw that '' , said Mercer , `` but I '' --
`` I never saw that '' , said Mercer , `` but << I >> '' --
`` But you want to ask << me >> when B'dikkat is going to come back with the needle '' .
That's why << I >> think of plays .
<< I >> mean we know the order in which things happen , but we have no clocks and nobody cares enough to count days or to make calendars and there's not much climate here , so none of us know how long anything takes .
Take it out of << me >> '' ! !
They could still read the opening : `` Once , << I >> was like you , stepping out of my window at the end of day , and letting the winds blow me gently toward the place I lived in .
They could still read the opening : `` Once , I was like you , stepping out of my window at the end of day , and letting the winds blow << me >> gently toward the place I lived in .
They could still read the opening : `` Once , I was like you , stepping out of my window at the end of day , and letting the winds blow me gently toward the place << I >> lived in .
Once , like you , << I >> had one head , two hands , ten fingers on my hands .
The front part of my head was called a face , and << I >> could talk with it .
Now << I >> can only write , and that only when I get out of pain .
Now I can only write , and that only when << I >> get out of pain .
<< I >> guess you'd better go on in the morning '' .
`` I've been mucking in a mine in the San Juan , but << I >> used to work on a ranch .
`` << I >> know '' , Jones said dejectedly .
You fell down in front of the house , and << I >> carried you in .
`` Mr. Morgan , it's the best-looking food << I >> ever saw '' .
She said , `` << I >> guess the Lord looks out for fools , drunkards , and innocents '' .
`` << I >> mean , we don't have any way to get there and we can't expect you to quit work just to take us to town '' .
`` Could you find << me >> a needle and thread '' ? ?
`` << I >> get up early .
<< I >> just can't take any chances on getting her pregnant , and if we were sleeping together ''
He stopped , embarrassed , and Morgan said , `` << I >> understand that , but I don't savvy why you'd go off and leave your jobs in the first place '' .
He stopped , embarrassed , and Morgan said , `` I understand that , but << I >> don't savvy why you'd go off and leave your jobs in the first place '' .
`` You can't stay here with << me >> .
`` You can't make << me >> go '' .
`` He stuck with << me >> all these years .
Just a half-breed 'pache , never said much , never meant anythin to << me >> , but he stuck with me .
Just a half-breed 'pache , never said much , never meant anythin to me , but he stuck with << me >> .
<< I >> believed him .
My men , they all left << me >> .
<< I >> treated them fair ''
`` Do you mean '' -- he asked almost shyly -- `` you want << me >> to go with you , wherever you're goin '' ? ?
`` You don't hate << me >> any more '' ? ?
`` All my life '' , he said , `` << I >> tried .
<< I >> tried .
<< I >> saw you driftin away -- but I tried .
I saw you driftin away -- but << I >> tried .
And you wanted no part of << me >> when I had so much to give .
And you wanted no part of me when << I >> had so much to give .
Laurel is gone , my men are gone , Ed is dead -- and you come to << me >> , to help me .
Laurel is gone , my men are gone , Ed is dead -- and you come to me , to help << me >> .
God in Heaven , << I >> can't refuse you now .
That would mock << me >> too much ! !
There's someone there << I >> have to see .
<< I >> don't know yet , it's crazy ; ;
`` << I >> made you what you are '' , Gavin whispered .
<< I >> made you a man '' .
`` Help << me >> up , Clay .
`` << I >> hate to leave my garden '' , Gavin said .
<< I >> loved my garden '' .
`` << I >> loved this valley '' , he whispered huskily .
<< I >> don't want to leave it '' .
`` Stay well back of << me >> '' , he said .
There's bound to be someone on guard , but the hat might fool them long enough for << me >> to get close '' .
Just << me >> '' , Mike said .
`` You're lighter than << me >> .
We'll still have the rifle , and << I >> might be able to round up some more .
Now dammit , << I >> don't want to go into any more explanations .
`` That was a terrible thing to do '' , << I >> said to Oso .
Oso gave << me >> an unruffled look .
<< I >> saw that letter .
<< I >> remember being told it would happen so fast people would think it took place overnight .
As << I >> dug in behind one of the bales we were using as protection , I grudgingly found myself agreeing with Oso's logic , especially when I imagined what would have happened to Missy if Old Knife's large party of screeching warriors had overrun our company .
As I dug in behind one of the bales we were using as protection , << I >> grudgingly found myself agreeing with Oso's logic , especially when I imagined what would have happened to Missy if Old Knife's large party of screeching warriors had overrun our company .
As I dug in behind one of the bales we were using as protection , I grudgingly found myself agreeing with Oso's logic , especially when << I >> imagined what would have happened to Missy if Old Knife's large party of screeching warriors had overrun our company .
Still , << I >> was disgusted with myself for agreeing with Montero's methods .
In the brief moment << I >> had to talk to them before I took my post on the ring of defenses , I indicated I was sickened by the methods men employed to live and trade on the river .
In the brief moment I had to talk to them before << I >> took my post on the ring of defenses , I indicated I was sickened by the methods men employed to live and trade on the river .
In the brief moment I had to talk to them before I took my post on the ring of defenses , << I >> indicated I was sickened by the methods men employed to live and trade on the river .
In the brief moment I had to talk to them before I took my post on the ring of defenses , I indicated << I >> was sickened by the methods men employed to live and trade on the river .
<< I >> didn't catch a wink .
Every time << I >> closed my eyes , I saw Gray Eyes rushing at me with a knife .
Every time I closed my eyes , << I >> saw Gray Eyes rushing at me with a knife .
Every time I closed my eyes , I saw Gray Eyes rushing at << me >> with a knife .
under << me >> the ground quivered slightly .
Next to him was a young boy << I >> was sure had sat near me at one of the trading sessions .
Next to him was a young boy I was sure had sat near << me >> at one of the trading sessions .
<< I >> found his chest in my sights .
My God , how long is he going to wait , << I >> thought .
At first << I >> thought he had missed .
At the last second << I >> dropped my sights from the bare chest and bright red circle to the chest of his pony .
<< I >> saw the pony fall like a stone and the young warrior flew over its head , bouncing like a rubber ball .
Far up the valley << I >> could see the Rees circling and reorganizing .
The charge , << I >> tell you '' ! !
<< I >> could see the blood running down his chest .
In my sights << I >> watched him looming bigger and bigger .
<< I >> saw Little Billy rise and fire almost point blank and an Indian's face became shattered flesh and bone .
<< I >> saw the clergyman kneel for a moment by the twitching body of the man he had shot , then run back to his position .
Above << me >> a dark rider was whipping his pony with a quirt in an attempt to hurdle the bales .
Although my shot killed his horse , he rolled off the bale on top of << me >> .
Now under << me >> I could see him for what he really was , a boy dressed up in streaks of paint .
Now under me << I >> could see him for what he really was , a boy dressed up in streaks of paint .
`` << I >> saw your fire '' , she said , speaking slowly , making an effort to control her anger .
And << I >> appreciate the advice '' .
It's bigger than it has to be , though << I >> don't see where it's doing any harm .
Why should << I >> ? ?
`` << I >> know him .
<< I >> ought to .
He sold << me >> a clear title .
`` It wouldn't matter to my father , and not to << me >> .
<< I >> meant what I said about that fire .
I meant what << I >> said about that fire .
`` << I >> ought to '' -- he said .
`` << I >> am .
`` << I >> thought I told you to stay home '' .
`` I thought << I >> told you to stay home '' .
`` << I >> can take care of this .
`` << I >> said go home , Joseph .
It must have got there when you fell against << me >> '' .
<< I >> don't know what goes on around here , and I don't care .
I don't know what goes on around here , and << I >> don't care .
<< I >> don't know what makes you think you can get away with this kind of business , and I don't care about that , either .
I don't know what makes you think you can get away with this kind of business , and << I >> don't care about that , either .
You took << me >> by surprise .
I'll be down at the creek finishing the dishes , if you want << me >> '' .
Such was my state of mind that << I >> did not question the possibility of this ; ;
under the circumstances << I >> was only too willing to confess all .
<< I >> was nearly thirty at the time .
<< I >> went to the hall in the afternoons only , on these preliminary matters .
Sometimes << I >> was aware of people moving about in the darkness .
<< I >> would turn away from my writing in the hope of getting a good look at them but I never quite succeeded .
I would turn away from my writing in the hope of getting a good look at them but << I >> never quite succeeded .
Since they could see << me >> but I not them , their presence in the hall disturbed me .
Since they could see me but << I >> not them , their presence in the hall disturbed me .
Since they could see me but I not them , their presence in the hall disturbed << me >> .
He spoke to << me >> in a gruff voice , an affectation which quite belied his personality .
<< I >> felt certain he was really a spineless little man .
) hung on a hook on the wall , and underneath it << I >> could see his tie , knotted , ready to be slipped over his head , a black badge of frayed respectability that ought never to have left his neck .
Once , pressing him , << I >> learned that his job was only part-time , in the afternoons when nothing went on in the hall .
With distaste << I >> saw him assume a pompous air .
What limited knowledge he possessed he forced upon << me >> .
In the mornings , << I >> was informed , fluorescent tubes , similar to the one above the counter , illuminated the entire hall .
He pointed out the switch to << me >> and for a moment I foolishly believed that he would let deed follow words .
He pointed out the switch to me and for a moment << I >> foolishly believed that he would let deed follow words .
<< I >> was shown , instead , a batch of white tickets of the sort handed out , he told me , every morning .
I was shown , instead , a batch of white tickets of the sort handed out , he told << me >> , every morning .
Now , here was something of obvious importance to << me >> , yet when I reached for the tickets he snatched them away from my hand .
Now , here was something of obvious importance to me , yet when << I >> reached for the tickets he snatched them away from my hand .
<< I >> withdrew my hand .
Later << I >> would remember what this pompous little man had told me about the worth of a ticket .
Later I would remember what this pompous little man had told << me >> about the worth of a ticket .
Having nothing else to do except wait for my forms to be processed , << I >> gave myself over to speculations concerning the hall itself .
One afternoon , upon receiving permission and the necessary instructions from the clerk , << I >> had visited the toilet adjoining the hall .
By counting the number of stalls and urinals << I >> attempted to form a loose estimate of how many men the hall would hold at one time .
For although << I >> had crossed a corner of the hall on my way to the toilet I still could not tell for sure how far to the rear the darkness extended .
For although I had crossed a corner of the hall on my way to the toilet << I >> still could not tell for sure how far to the rear the darkness extended .
<< I >> could observe the two fans down at the end , but their size in themselves meant nothing to me as long as I had no measure of comparison .
I could observe the two fans down at the end , but their size in themselves meant nothing to << me >> as long as I had no measure of comparison .
I could observe the two fans down at the end , but their size in themselves meant nothing to me as long as << I >> had no measure of comparison .
<< I >> knew that three or four of them were almost always present in the hall , but what they were doing , and exactly where , I could not tell .
I knew that three or four of them were almost always present in the hall , but what they were doing , and exactly where , << I >> could not tell .
It was , << I >> felt , possible that they were men who , having received no tickets for that day , had remained in the hall , to sleep perhaps , in the corners farthest removed from the counter with its overhead light .
This light did not penetrate very far back into the hall , and my eyes were hindered rather than aided by the dim daylight entering through the fan vents when << I >> tried to pick out whatever might be lying , or squatting , on the floor below .
And << I >> had hardly finished my business in the toilet on the aforementioned occasion when the lights in that place , like the hall lights controlled from the switch in the office , flicked off and on impatiently .
This sort of petty vigilance annoyed << me >> .
<< I >> felt certain it was self-appointed .
<< I >> felt strongly attached to the hall , however , and hardly a day passed when I did not go to look at it from a distance .
I felt strongly attached to the hall , however , and hardly a day passed when << I >> did not go to look at it from a distance .
<< I >> lived in a state of suspense because of it .
<< I >> could not cling to my past nor did I wish to .
I could not cling to my past nor did << I >> wish to .
<< I >> had signed it off on the forms .
Although << I >> had been inside it I had not yet seen it functioning .
Although I had been inside it << I >> had not yet seen it functioning .
<< I >> wished to prepare myself but did not even know what sort of clothes I ought to be wearing .
I wished to prepare myself but did not even know what sort of clothes << I >> ought to be wearing .
<< I >> did not despair , however ; ;
Though only a relatively short walk separated it from my own part of town , its character was wholly foreign to << me >> .
The river was only a few blocks away but an unbroken line of piers prevented << me >> from seeing it .
Sometimes << I >> noticed the tops of ships' masts and funnels reaching above the pier roofs .
<< I >> kept circling the block hoping to see , from the street behind it , the rear of the hall .
For weeks << I >> wandered about this neighborhood of warehouses and garages , truck terminals and taxi repair shops , gasoline pumps and longshoremen's lunch counters , yet never did I cease to feel myself a stranger there .
For weeks I wandered about this neighborhood of warehouses and garages , truck terminals and taxi repair shops , gasoline pumps and longshoremen's lunch counters , yet never did << I >> cease to feel myself a stranger there .
<< I >> returned to the hall , despite my dislike for the clerk .
As << I >> had expected , he insisted that my visits to the hall would do nothing to further the process of my application .
When << I >> asked him what , if anything , I could do about it , he surprised me by referring me to the director of the hall .
When I asked him what , if anything , << I >> could do about it , he surprised me by referring me to the director of the hall .
When I asked him what , if anything , I could do about it , he surprised << me >> by referring me to the director of the hall .
When I asked him what , if anything , I could do about it , he surprised me by referring << me >> to the director of the hall .
<< I >> could consult this personage on any weekday morning , though not before ten o'clock .
The clerk impressed this upon << me >> : that I should not arrive in the hall before ten o'clock .
The clerk impressed this upon me : that << I >> should not arrive in the hall before ten o'clock .
When << I >> went for my interview with the director I saw why .
When I went for my interview with the director << I >> saw why .
<< I >> had felt the draft they were making while mounting the stairs .
No one was behind it , but in the rear wall of the office << I >> noticed , for the first time , a door which had been left partially open .
Past it << I >> could see part part of a desk , a flag in a corner , a rug on the floor .
<< I >> rapped my knuckles on the counter .
<< I >> was at once disappointed , although just what I had expected him to look like I could not have explained .
I was at once disappointed , although just what << I >> had expected him to look like I could not have explained .
I was at once disappointed , although just what I had expected him to look like << I >> could not have explained .
But he came toward << me >> sedately enough , showed me around the counter , offered me a seat inside his office , then walked to a file cabinet and got out my application .
But he came toward me sedately enough , showed << me >> around the counter , offered me a seat inside his office , then walked to a file cabinet and got out my application .
But he came toward me sedately enough , showed me around the counter , offered << me >> a seat inside his office , then walked to a file cabinet and got out my application .
<< I >> had the impression that he had read my forms , perhaps several times .
As he lowered himself on the chair behind his desk << I >> wondered what this dapper , slightly ridiculous man could possibly have to do with the workings of the hall .
Why had << I >> registered ? ?
indeed , my scholastic qualifications were such that he , a college graduate himself , must envy << me >> them .
What sort of men << I >> would come into contact with , at the hall ? ?
These questions did not surprise << me >> ; ;
<< I >> felt certain that the director , like the afternoon clerk , seldom moved beyond the counter , that the hall , to them , was a jungle , a dark and unwelcome place .
Though << I >> doubted that he would understand me , I told the director my motives for applying .
Though I doubted that he would understand << me >> , I told the director my motives for applying .
Though I doubted that he would understand me , << I >> told the director my motives for applying .
This desire , << I >> went on , growing voluble as my conviction was aroused , had mounted at such a rate recently that I now found its realization necessary not only to my physical but also to my spiritual wellbeing .
This desire , I went on , growing voluble as my conviction was aroused , had mounted at such a rate recently that << I >> now found its realization necessary not only to my physical but also to my spiritual wellbeing .
To this effect << I >> had already severed all connections which bound me to my former existence .
To this effect I had already severed all connections which bound << me >> to my former existence .
He dumped << me >> in solitary twice '' .
`` Let's get one thing straight , you and << me >> .
`` << I >> won't even try to thank you '' .
He said in a studied voice , `` << I >> didn't do it for you .
<< I >> did it for the valley .
We've been starving and << I >> don't like to starve '' .
`` Meaning you want << me >> to ride out '' ? ?
`` << I >> got no place to go '' .
But Kruger's men keep them off balance , and they don't trust << me >> .
`` << I >> was afraid of this .
<< I >> almost didn't tell you '' .
<< I >> understand how you feel about the child .
`` << I >> never saw him .
My wife died in childbirth after << I >> was sent away .
`` << I >> can't leave him there .
`` << I >> want to tell you something Thomas DeMontez Lord .
`` To << me >> you'll always be the girl o' my dreams , an' the sweetest flower that grows '' .
Do you hear << me >> ? ?
<< I >> think you're mean and hateful and stupid , and -- louder '' ? ?
So << I >> can hear you while I'm checkin' the car .
Print it in real big letters , an' << I >> can cipher it out later '' .
If << I >> could make myself feel the same way
But , by gosh , << I >> want him and I'm going to have him ! !
`` << I >> feel like getting back to town , that's what I feel like ! !
`` I feel like getting back to town , that's what << I >> feel like ! !
Now , are you going to take << me >> or am I supposed to walk '' ? ?
Now , are you going to take me or am << I >> supposed to walk '' ? ?
`` Might get there faster walkin' '' , Lord drawled , `` seein' as how << I >> got a busted front spring .
<< I >> figger it's probl'y a sixty-five-mile walk , and I c'n maybe get this spring patched up in a couple of hours '' .
I figger it's probl'y a sixty-five-mile walk , and << I >> c'n maybe get this spring patched up in a couple of hours '' .
`` Not a danged thing but rattlesnakes , so << I >> reckon I'll get the boss rattler to help me '' .
`` Not a danged thing but rattlesnakes , so I reckon I'll get the boss rattler to help << me >> '' .
`` << I >> '' -- She broke off , frowning .
`` Why , << I >> meant what I said '' , Lord declared .
`` Why , I meant what << I >> said '' , Lord declared .
`` What else would << I >> mean , anyways '' ? ?
`` Why single << me >> out on this permit deal '' ? ?
Don't like to bother no one unless we have to , which << I >> figger we do , in your case .
`` << I >> know you've got a grudge against me , and maybe I can't blame you .
`` I know you've got a grudge against << me >> , and maybe I can't blame you .
`` I know you've got a grudge against me , and maybe << I >> can't blame you .
You think that Highlands swindled you and << I >> helped 'em do it .
<< I >> just do what I'm told , and '' --
`` Just as soon as << I >> go to the bank , and '' --
Why , he's going to kill << me >> , he thought wildly .
<< I >> was just doing my job , just following orders , and for that he's going to kill me .
I was just doing my job , just following orders , and for that he's going to kill << me >> .
Beat << me >> to death in front of a hundred people .
Finally Hernandez said , `` << I >> could offer you advice , Tomas , but you wouldn't heed it '' .
How long should << I >> wait '' ? ?
`` In a year she'll like living in Clayton's house too much to come back to << me >> '' , Brannon said flatly .
I've got to take Danny away from Clayton before << I >> lose him altogether .
Hell , in a year or five or ten , the boy will have forgotten << me >> -- his own father '' ! !
`` In my place , you'd follow such advice as you give << me >> '' ? ?
`` That << I >> can't answer , for I can't imagine something like this happening to me .
`` That I can't answer , for << I >> can't imagine something like this happening to me .
`` That I can't answer , for I can't imagine something like this happening to << me >> .
Maybe << I >> should withdraw my advice -- no '' ? ?
`` << I >> don't know , Tom .
Like Luis , << I >> can't see something like this happening to me .
Like Luis , I can't see something like this happening to << me >> .
With Maria and << me >> , there's never any problem .
<< I >> am with you , of course , Tomas '' .
`` Brannon , << I >> warn you '' ! !
<< I >> won't '' --
`` Just let << me >> meet up with that damned bushwhackin' coward face-to-face '' ! !
`` That's all << I >> ask '' ! !
`` Exterminatin' cow thieves is just a business proposition with << me >> '' , he'd blandly announce .
`` And << I >> sort o' got a corner on the market '' .
`` Yeah , << I >> can see that '' , the friend was forced to agree .
`` << I >> seen a lot o' things in my time .
<< I >> found a trooper once the Apache had spread-eagled on an ant hill , and another time we ran across some teamsters they'd caught , tied upside down on their own wagon wheels over little fires until their brains was exploded right out o' their skulls .
But there's one thing << I >> never seen or heard of , one thing I just don't think there is , and that's a sportin' way o' killin' a man '' ! !
But there's one thing I never seen or heard of , one thing << I >> just don't think there is , and that's a sportin' way o' killin' a man '' ! !
I'm sure you won't mind doing << me >> a small favor '' .
`` What is it you want << me >> to do , Mr. Brenner '' ? ?
<< I >> just want you to take a message to Diane Molinari .
`` << I >> don't know , Mr. Brenner '' , he said haltingly , beginning to get an inkling of Brenner's plans .
Couldn't << I >> just '' -- His voice trailed off into silence .
`` You and << I >> have a little talking to do , Jess .
If << I >> don't come back in the house , Breed's going to '' --
Now turn around so << I >> can see your face '' .
<< I >> suppose you don't know anything about a piece of two-by-four , either ; ;
`` << I >> heard how you outdrew Chico .
<< I >> ain't a gunslinger '' .
`` Tell << me >> about Arbuckle ! !
`` Soon as we send them on their way and make camp , let's you and << me >> go for a walk down by the Snake -- all by ourselves '' .
`` Got a lot to tend to , but I'll get back quick as << I >> can '' , he assured her .
`` << I >> know you ain't '' ! !
`` Me and you's trading hats so's you'll have something permanent to remember << me >> by '' ! !
<< I >> can see Dan .
`` Not that it matters to << me >> , being this far along '' .
At these words of sympathy and understanding , Harmony said generously , `` << I >> don't mind setting here along with Gran while you go out and join in the games '' .
`` Don't reckon there's nobody out there , 'cept maybe Dan , who can outgrip << me >> , Harmony '' .
`` A body would swear << I >> floated right up here on a cloud '' ! !
`` << I >> ain't ragging him '' ! !
`` But the sun'll fry it out'n << me >> onct we git to rolling '' .
`` From now on , Sally and << me >> and her folks aim to give you our turn when it comes up and fall in behind you and Rod's outfit '' .
`` Jackson recruited his critters , and him and << me >> fixed up his wagon while we was waiting for you to catch up .
Besides , 'tain't no more'n right for << me >> to follow with my black oxen , so's I can unhook and pull up fast if either of you get in a pinch '' .
Besides , 'tain't no more'n right for me to follow with my black oxen , so's << I >> can unhook and pull up fast if either of you get in a pinch '' .
It's all << I >> ask , Stevens '' .
But << I >> want this to sink in awhile .
`` But << I >> still think Penny's an awful nice girl , Russ '' --
`` You don't have to tell << me >> '' , flashed Cobb .
`` Penny's always glad to see << me >> over there '' , he mused bleakly .
`` I've got her as neat as << I >> can '' , Donovan said , as he dropped the straps of the Seton harness over Greg's shoulders .
`` Moriarty '' , my driver suddenly exclaimed with something so definite , so final in his tone << I >> once more repeated the absurdity , mustering all my latent powers of hypocrisy to sound convinced .
Adios '' , << I >> said , exhausting my Spanish vocabulary on my host and exchanging one of a scarcely-tapped store of smiles with my host's daughters .
<< I >> waved with discretion and moderation to the vague golden faces fading through rising dust and the distortions of the back window glass .
Then << I >> saw the father's head slightly turn ; ;
Suddenly a treble auto horn tootley-toot-tootled , and , thumbing hopefully , << I >> saw emergent in windshield flash : red lips , streaming silk of blonde hair and -- ah , trembling confusion of hope , apprehension , despair -- the leering face of old Herry .
<< I >> would have foregone my romantic chances rather than leave a friend sweltering and dusty and -- Well , at least I wouldn't have shouted back a taunt .
I would have foregone my romantic chances rather than leave a friend sweltering and dusty and -- Well , at least << I >> wouldn't have shouted back a taunt .
Still nursing anger << I >> listlessly thumbed a car that was slowly approaching , its pre-war chrome nearly blinding me .
Still nursing anger I listlessly thumbed a car that was slowly approaching , its pre-war chrome nearly blinding << me >> .
<< I >> nodded .
<< I >> said that it didn't make any difference to me either , as far as I knew .
I said that it didn't make any difference to << me >> either , as far as I knew .
I said that it didn't make any difference to me either , as far as << I >> knew .
How far << I >> knew will shortly become apparent .
Let << me >> pass over the trip to Sante Fe with something of the same speed which made Mrs. Roebuck `` wonduh if the wahtahm speed limit '' ( 35 m.p.h. ) `` is still in ee-faket '' .
An Ah coudn ansuh him an so Ah said ' Aw right , Ah gay-ess , an his fathuh didn uttuh one wohd an aftuh Huhmun was gone , the majuh laughed an tole << me >> thet he an the bawh had been hevin an occasional drink t'gethuh f'ovuh a yeah , onleh an occasional one , but just the same it was behahn mah back , an Ah doan think thet's nahce at all , d'you '' ? ?
`` No , << I >> don't '' , Johnson said .
How lightly her `` eventshah-leh '' passed into the crannies where << I >> was storing dialect material for some vaguely dreamed opus , and how the word would echo .
`` In back , buddy '' , the driver said to << me >> .
Quickly but carefully lowering my duffel bag over the low side-rack , << I >> stepped on the running board ; ;
<< I >> seized the rack and made a western-style flying-mount just in time , one of my knees mercifully landing on my duffel bag -- and merely wrecking my camera , I was to discover later -- my other knee landing on the slivery truck floor boards and -- but this is no medical report .
I seized the rack and made a western-style flying-mount just in time , one of my knees mercifully landing on my duffel bag -- and merely wrecking my camera , << I >> was to discover later -- my other knee landing on the slivery truck floor boards and -- but this is no medical report .
<< I >> was again in motion and at a speed which belied the truck's similarity to Senor X's Ford turtle .
Maybe << I >> would beat old Herry to Siberia after all .
<< I >> drew back , drawing back my foot for a kick .
The way his red rubber lips were stretched across his pearly little teeth << I >> thought he was only having a little joke , but , no , he wanted me to bend down from the roar of wind so he could roar something into my ear .
The way his red rubber lips were stretched across his pearly little teeth I thought he was only having a little joke , but , no , he wanted << me >> to bend down from the roar of wind so he could roar something into my ear .
`` Hell , yes '' , << I >> roared back between dusty lips .
Did << I >> want a beer ? ?
At once my ears were drowned by a flow of what << I >> took to be Spanish , but -- the driver's white teeth flashing at me , the road wildly veering beyond his glistening hair , beyond his gesticulating bottle -- it could have been the purest Oxford English I was half hearing ; ;
At once my ears were drowned by a flow of what I took to be Spanish , but -- the driver's white teeth flashing at << me >> , the road wildly veering beyond his glistening hair , beyond his gesticulating bottle -- it could have been the purest Oxford English I was half hearing ; ;
At once my ears were drowned by a flow of what I took to be Spanish , but -- the driver's white teeth flashing at me , the road wildly veering beyond his glistening hair , beyond his gesticulating bottle -- it could have been the purest Oxford English << I >> was half hearing ; ;
<< I >> wouldn't have known the difference .
<< I >> ducked just as the first strand broke somewhere down the line and came whipping over the sideboards .
When << I >> fell on my back , I saw a vulture hovering .
When I fell on my back , << I >> saw a vulture hovering .
<< I >> regained my squatting position behind the truck cab's rear window .
`` That was Tee-wah << I >> was talking .
You thought << I >> was a Mexican , didn't you , buddy '' ? ?
<< I >> nodded .
`` Hell , that's all right , buddy '' , the Indian ( << I >> now guessed ) said .
No sooner had << I >> started drinking than the driver started zigzagging the truck .
<< I >> drank furiously .
Teeth again flashing back at << me >> , the driver released a deluge of Spanish in which `` amigo '' appeared every so often like an island in the stormy waves of surrounding sound .
<< I >> bobbed my head each time it appeared .
<< I >> tossed the bottle .
But Johnson couldn't quickly unwire the truck door , and if << I >> escaped , he might suffer .
with more time << I >> could have loosened a small burr or cotter pin --
Suddenly and not a second too soon << I >> thought of the coins in my pocket .
<< I >> got a coin between my thumb and forefinger , leaned my elbows in a very natural and casual manner on top of the truck cab and flipped my little missile .
<< I >> heard the screech of brakes behind me , an insane burst of laughter beneath me .
I heard the screech of brakes behind << me >> , an insane burst of laughter beneath me .
I heard the screech of brakes behind me , an insane burst of laughter beneath << me >> .
Looking back << I >> saw a gray-haired man getting out of his halted car and trying to read our license number .
<< I >> saw Johnson's bottle snatched from his hand , saw it go in a swirl of foam just behind the second car .
<< I >> looked back at pale ovals framed in the elongated oval of the car's rear window .
<< I >> quickly turned around and began to drink .
She sat quietly , staring at << me >> from the wide eyes .
It was a disturbingly familiar face , too , but << I >> couldn't remember where we had met .
<< I >> said , `` Do we know each other , Miss '' ? ?
`` No , << I >> remembered reading about you in the papers and that you lived here , and when it happened all I could think of was '' -- This time she stopped the rush of words herself .
`` No , I remembered reading about you in the papers and that you lived here , and when it happened all << I >> could think of was '' -- This time she stopped the rush of words herself .
She was still hugging the stained coat around her , so << I >> said , `` Relax , let me take your things .
She was still hugging the stained coat around her , so I said , `` Relax , let << me >> take your things .
There had been a good second or two during which my muffler had been blowing out , and now << I >> was certain I'd seen her somewhere before .
`` << I >> forgot '' ! !
`` Oh , do forgive << me >> .
`` << I >> forgive '' --
`` You and << me >> both , dear .
Haven't we haven't << I >> seen you .
<< I >> mean , surely we've '' --
`` You may have seen << me >> on TV '' , she said .
Then it hit << me >> .
<< I >> cried .
In fact , << I >> was watching you on that little seventeen-inch screen when you rang my bell .
<< I >> sat by her on the divan .
It was fun for << me >> , all right .
<< I >> don't mean to pry , but do they hide the swimsuit with the bubbles ? ?
<< I >> mean : Is advertising honest ? ?
<< I >> never wear anything at all .
`` << I >> couldn't agree with you more '' .
`` << I >> really do have something important to tell you , Mr. Scott .
Oh , yeah '' , << I >> said .
`` Tell << me >> about the murder '' .
She told << me >> .
The finished -- and drastically cut -- product would begin with a hazy longshot of Joyce entering the suds , then bursting above the pool's surface clad in layers of lavender lather , and << I >> had a hunch this item was going to sell tons and tons of soap ; ;
Joyce went on , `` When we'd finished , Lou -- Mr. Thor -- asked << me >> to stay a little longer .
Did , << I >> mean '' .
`` << I >> didn't know .
<< I >> wouldn't have the stuff in the house .
`` So << I >> just scooted out of his clutches .
The keys were still in it , and << I >> was miles away before I remembered that my clothes and purse and everything were still in the little cabana where I'd changed '' .
The keys were still in it , and I was miles away before << I >> remembered that my clothes and purse and everything were still in the little cabana where I'd changed '' .
Maybe Lou was only unconscious , but right then << I >> thought he must be dead .
<< I >> was so scared well , I just ran to my car and came here '' .
I was so scared well , << I >> just ran to my car and came here '' .
`` No , << I >> never did see his face .
<< I >> didn't get a good look at him at all , his back was to me , and I was so scared It was just somebody in a man's suit .
I didn't get a good look at him at all , his back was to << me >> , and I was so scared It was just somebody in a man's suit .
I didn't get a good look at him at all , his back was to me , and << I >> was so scared It was just somebody in a man's suit .
What Joyce wanted << me >> to do was go to Thor's house and `` do whatever detectives do '' , and get her clothes -- and handbag containing her identification .
`` And << I >> so want the part '' , she said .
<< I >> could show what I can do '' .
I could show what << I >> can do '' .
As far as << I >> was concerned , she had already and had dandily shown what she could do .
But << I >> promised Joyce I would mention her name , if at all , only as a last resort .
But I promised Joyce << I >> would mention her name , if at all , only as a last resort .
Seeming much relieved , she smiled one of those worth-waiting-for smiles , and << I >> smiled all the way into the bedroom .
<< I >> showed her the shower and tub , and she said , smiling , `` If you really don't mind , I think I'll get clean in the shower , then soak for a few minutes in your tub .
I showed her the shower and tub , and she said , smiling , `` If you really don't mind , << I >> think I'll get clean in the shower , then soak for a few minutes in your tub .
`` Only when << I >> do it '' .
<< I >> shook my head .
It'll probably be at least an hour or two before << I >> can check back with you .
<< I >> looked at my watch .
`` Well , goodbye '' , << I >> said .
However , when there's a job to be done , I'm a monstrosity of grim determination , << I >> like to think .
<< I >> spun about and clattered through the front room to the door .
As << I >> went out , I could hear water pouring in the shower .
As I went out , << I >> could hear water pouring in the shower .
Bryn Mawr Drive is only two or three miles from the Spartan , and it took << me >> less than five minutes to get there .
<< I >> followed a shrubbery-lined gravel path alongside the house to the pool .
Two uniformed officers , a couple of plain-clothesmen << I >> knew , and two other men stood on a gray cement area next to the pool on my left .
Lieutenant Rawlins , one of the plain-clothesmen , spotted << me >> and said , `` Hi , Shell '' , and walked toward me .
Lieutenant Rawlins , one of the plain-clothesmen , spotted me and said , `` Hi , Shell '' , and walked toward << me >> .
<< I >> grinned , but ignored the question .
He filled << me >> in .
Neither of them , << I >> understood , had been present at the filming session earlier .
<< I >> asked Rawlins .
<< I >> said , `` O.K. , so now only Blake knows .
<< I >> worked for my Uncle ( an Uncle by marriage so you will not think this has a mild undercurrent of incest ) who ran one of those antique shops in New Orleans' Vieux Carre , the old French Quarter .
The arrangement << I >> had with him was to work four hours a day .
The rest of the time << I >> devoted to painting or to those other activities a young and healthy man just out of college finds interesting .
<< I >> had come to New Orleans two years earlier after graduating college , partly because I loved the city and partly because there was quite a noted art colony there .
I had come to New Orleans two years earlier after graduating college , partly because << I >> loved the city and partly because there was quite a noted art colony there .
When my Uncle offered << me >> a part-time job which would take care of my normal expenses and give me time to paint I accepted .
When my Uncle offered me a part-time job which would take care of my normal expenses and give << me >> time to paint I accepted .
When my Uncle offered me a part-time job which would take care of my normal expenses and give me time to paint << I >> accepted .
<< I >> loved the city and I particularly loved the gaiety and spirit of Mardi Gras .
I loved the city and << I >> particularly loved the gaiety and spirit of Mardi Gras .
My Uncle and << I >> were not too close socially because of the difference in our ages .
One Monday morning << I >> saw him approach the store with a woman and introduce me to her as my new Aunt .
One Monday morning I saw him approach the store with a woman and introduce << me >> to her as my new Aunt .
There was something about the contour of her face , her smile that was like New Orleans sunshine , the way she held her head , the way she walked -- there was scarcely anything she did which did not fascinate << me >> .
You must forgive << me >> if I seem to dwell too much on her physical aspects but I am an artist , accustomed to studying the physical body .
You must forgive me if << I >> seem to dwell too much on her physical aspects but I am an artist , accustomed to studying the physical body .
You must forgive me if I seem to dwell too much on her physical aspects but << I >> am an artist , accustomed to studying the physical body .
And that is the way << I >> first saw her when my Uncle brought her into his antique store .
That she impressed << me >> instantly was obvious ; ;
<< I >> was aware that when our eyes met we both quickly averted them .
True , she was my Aunt , married to an Uncle related to << me >> only by marriage , but why she had married a man twice her age , and more , perhaps , I did not know or much care .
True , she was my Aunt , married to an Uncle related to me only by marriage , but why she had married a man twice her age , and more , perhaps , << I >> did not know or much care .
Her form was silhouetted and with the strong light << I >> could see the outlines of her body , a body that an artist or anyone else would have admired .
And then << I >> became aware that she , too , glanced at me surreptitiously .
And then I became aware that she , too , glanced at << me >> surreptitiously .
<< I >> felt that her eyes were undressing me as if she were a painter and I a nude model .
I felt that her eyes were undressing << me >> as if she were a painter and I a nude model .
I felt that her eyes were undressing me as if she were a painter and << I >> a nude model .
<< I >> dismissed these feelings as wishful thinking but I could not get it out of my head that we had a strong physical attraction for one another and we both feared to dwell on it because of our relationship .
I dismissed these feelings as wishful thinking but << I >> could not get it out of my head that we had a strong physical attraction for one another and we both feared to dwell on it because of our relationship .
Why she married him << I >> do not know .
<< I >> myself was fond of him but what a young woman half his age saw in him was a mystery to me .
I myself was fond of him but what a young woman half his age saw in him was a mystery to << me >> .
<< I >> was waiting in front of it when she showed up and told me of my Uncle's indisposition .
I was waiting in front of it when she showed up and told << me >> of my Uncle's indisposition .
Even as she was telling << me >> about it I became aware of a give-away flush that suffused her neck and moved upwards to her cheeks , and subconsciously I realized that when she entered the store she did not switch on the lights .
Even as she was telling me about it << I >> became aware of a give-away flush that suffused her neck and moved upwards to her cheeks , and subconsciously I realized that when she entered the store she did not switch on the lights .
Even as she was telling me about it I became aware of a give-away flush that suffused her neck and moved upwards to her cheeks , and subconsciously << I >> realized that when she entered the store she did not switch on the lights .
<< I >> was standing beside her , watching the outspread palms and wondering about the old horsehair sofa against the wall on which he sometimes napped .
<< I >> bent and kissed the still pink neck and suddenly she jumped up , and her two arms encircled me in a bear-like crush .
I bent and kissed the still pink neck and suddenly she jumped up , and her two arms encircled << me >> in a bear-like crush .
It did not take << me >> long to slip the bolt securely and return to the rear and its couch .
`` << I >> know .
`` << I >> don't know '' , she said .
`` << I >> guess we both felt it '' .
<< I >> said .
`` << I >> guess so '' , she said .
`` << I >> know what we can do '' , I said .
`` I know what we can do '' , << I >> said .
`` Tell him << I >> made a pass at you '' .
If << I >> even hint at it do you think it will matter that you are his nephew -- and not even a blood nephew '' ? ?
`` << I >> don't want to be thrown out and I don't think I will .
`` I don't want to be thrown out and << I >> don't think I will .
`` I don't want to be thrown out and I don't think << I >> will .
<< I >> think I have a way so we can carry on without his suspecting us '' .
I think << I >> have a way so we can carry on without his suspecting us '' .
`` By telling him you are making passes at << me >> '' ? ?
`` When << I >> was in college '' , I grinned , `` I remember a poem I had to read in my lit class .
`` When I was in college '' , << I >> grinned , `` I remember a poem I had to read in my lit class .
`` When I was in college '' , I grinned , `` << I >> remember a poem I had to read in my lit class .
`` When I was in college '' , I grinned , `` I remember a poem << I >> had to read in my lit class .
<< I >> don't even remember who wrote it but it was one of those 15th or 16th century poets .
and now << I >> think we can use the knowledge they passed on to us .
If you tell him << I >> made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something I said or did , so instead of just telling him I made a pass , say I tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse I really am .
If you tell him I made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something << I >> said or did , so instead of just telling him I made a pass , say I tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse I really am .
If you tell him I made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something I said or did , so instead of just telling him << I >> made a pass , say I tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse I really am .
If you tell him I made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something I said or did , so instead of just telling him I made a pass , say << I >> tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse I really am .
If you tell him I made a pass at you he might think you misunderstood something I said or did , so instead of just telling him I made a pass , say I tried to date you and that you agreed so you could prove to him what a louse << I >> really am .
When << I >> show up he will know you are a good wife to have told him about it '' .
`` << I >> don't understand '' , she insisted .
`` No '' , << I >> chuckled , `` I'm just beginning to collect dividends on my investment in education '' .
<< I >> felt that he looked at me coldly and appraisingly and seemed to be uncertain what his attitude towards me should be , but he did not say one word which might indicate that he had been told of advances to his wife .
I felt that he looked at << me >> coldly and appraisingly and seemed to be uncertain what his attitude towards me should be , but he did not say one word which might indicate that he had been told of advances to his wife .
I felt that he looked at me coldly and appraisingly and seemed to be uncertain what his attitude towards << me >> should be , but he did not say one word which might indicate that he had been told of advances to his wife .
<< I >> quit work at my usual hour as if this day was no different from other days .
<< I >> heard subsequently that my Uncle and Aunt had dinner in a nearby restaurant in the French Quarter after which he went home to get into his costume to keep the date .
Shortly before nine << I >> drove my jalopy to the street facing the Lake and parked the car in shadows far enough away from the rendezvous corner but near enough to keep the corner in clear view .
<< I >> must say the figure was well made up .
If it were not that << I >> knew who it was I could have mistaken it for my Aunt so well did her clothes fit him .
If it were not that I knew who it was << I >> could have mistaken it for my Aunt so well did her clothes fit him .
<< I >> suspected why he brought it along .
He was looking out on the dark waters of the Lake when << I >> came upon him and without wasting words I smacked him hard across the face .
He was looking out on the dark waters of the Lake when I came upon him and without wasting words << I >> smacked him hard across the face .
<< I >> exclaimed .
So if all these beers was to get << me >> in bed , man , you just spent a lot of money '' .
Ballet dancer : Protests , tears , and `` take what you want , Nicolas , << I >> am a dancer , you are a poet , it is all beautiful '' .
To this meek conjugation Nicolas had replied , `` O.K. << I >> can use this blanket .
And << I >> will greatly appreciate it if you will not tell your husband .
But a young American has a bath next to his room and << I >> shall ask him if you might use it this once .
veal cutlets : `` Oh , << I >> couldn't possibly eat all this '' ! !
`` << I >> think the maids tipple in the afternoon '' .
`` Would you first read the poem aloud to << me >> and then let me read it to myself '' ? ?
`` Would you first read the poem aloud to me and then let << me >> read it to myself '' ? ?
In the bedroom before the husband and wife find their way to the bed , the lights go on : `` In dull domestic radiance << I >> watch her staring face , still blind , Start wincing in obedience To dirty waters , counters , pots and pans , Waiting below stairs , in her mind '' .
<< I >> can never pronounce it '' .
`` Or do you want to see if << I >> can stand fever , too '' ? ?
`` They wouldn't have sold << me >> in the first place if there'd been food enough to go around '' .
`` They knew << I >> was a good sharecrop farmer back in Carolina , but out West was a chance to build a real farm of our own .
`` << I >> might have starved , but at least I wouldn't be fried to a crisp and soaked with dirt '' ! !
`` I might have starved , but at least << I >> wouldn't be fried to a crisp and soaked with dirt '' ! !
He said hesitantly , `` Hettie , << I >> don't figure your things got wet too much .
<< I >> heard a cry from a stoker as a pillar of flame leaped from a hatch and tongued the man's bare back .
Brassnose , Max and << I >> leaped into the sea and swam to the boat .
The big man with the whitened hair murmured something : his words sounded as if they were in the Manu tongue , which << I >> recognized , having studied the dialect in my Anthropology 6 , class at the University of Chicago .
<< I >> was puzzled by the remark , then I recalled the voice of mild Professor Howard Griggs three years ago in a university lecture on primitive societies .
I was puzzled by the remark , then << I >> recalled the voice of mild Professor Howard Griggs three years ago in a university lecture on primitive societies .
There had been classroom guffaws which quickly subsided as Professor Griggs said dryly : `` << I >> see your point , Pauson .
Of course , males play a role there , but believe << me >> when I say you wouldn't enjoy yourself one bit on Eromonga .
Of course , males play a role there , but believe me when << I >> say you wouldn't enjoy yourself one bit on Eromonga .
`` << I >> think I know what you mean , Brassnose '' , I said .
`` I think << I >> know what you mean , Brassnose '' , I said .
`` I think I know what you mean , Brassnose '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> know something about Eromonga .
Foster Lukuklu Frayne made a sign over his heart with his two linked thumbs : << I >> recognized it as an ancient Manu gesture intended to propitiate the Devil .
<< I >> squinted at the looming shoreline .
Often , << I >> heard my uncles and cousins speak of it when I was a small boy growing up in Rabaul .
Often , I heard my uncles and cousins speak of it when << I >> was a small boy growing up in Rabaul .
Our lifeboat was filling rapidly and despite what << I >> had heard of the inhabitants of Eromonga , I was glad to see a long and graceful outrigger manned by three bronzed girls glide out of a lagoon into the open sea and toward our craft .
Our lifeboat was filling rapidly and despite what I had heard of the inhabitants of Eromonga , << I >> was glad to see a long and graceful outrigger manned by three bronzed girls glide out of a lagoon into the open sea and toward our craft .
So , << I >> mustered my few words of the Manu dialect and said , `` We greet you in peace .
My friends and << I >> come from a ship which was destroyed by fire .
The girl in the prow of the outrigger turned a smile like a beacon on << me >> .
<< I >> noted that her full breasts were bare and that she wore a garland of red pandanus fruit in her blue-black hair .
<< I >> saw a dozen or so other outriggers moored there .
<< I >> looked with revulsion at the legs .
`` You have every right to be '' , << I >> replied gravely in the Manu dialect , but my attention was fixed on Brassnose , the biggest and strongest of us .
<< I >> felt a queasiness in my own stomach but it wouldn't do to show these girls that we were afraid .
<< I >> clapped the big man with the bleached hair on his shoulder and said heartily , hoping it would make an impression on the women : `` This one is the maku Frayne .
This was the worst thing << I >> could have said .
Brassnose turned a stricken face toward << me >> and said brokenly , `` Sommers , you meddling Yank , you're a fool ! !
At first , << I >> thought he was out of his head , talking wildly like this .
In the hut to which << I >> was assigned -- Max had his own quarters -- my food was brought to me by a wrinkled crone with bare drooping breasts who seemed to enjoy conversing with me in rudimentary phrases .
In the hut to which I was assigned -- Max had his own quarters -- my food was brought to << me >> by a wrinkled crone with bare drooping breasts who seemed to enjoy conversing with me in rudimentary phrases .
In the hut to which I was assigned -- Max had his own quarters -- my food was brought to me by a wrinkled crone with bare drooping breasts who seemed to enjoy conversing with << me >> in rudimentary phrases .
Her name was L'Turu and she told << me >> many things .
Though << I >> had a great dread of the island and felt I would never leave it alive , I eagerly wrote down everything she told me about its women .
Though I had a great dread of the island and felt << I >> would never leave it alive , I eagerly wrote down everything she told me about its women .
Though I had a great dread of the island and felt I would never leave it alive , << I >> eagerly wrote down everything she told me about its women .
Though I had a great dread of the island and felt I would never leave it alive , I eagerly wrote down everything she told << me >> about its women .
From L'Turu , << I >> heard that until about 1850 the people of this island -- which was about the size of Guam or smaller -- had been of both sexes , and that the normal family life of Melanesian tribes was observed here with minor variations .
`` Karipo was great goddess , told our mothers that men were not necessary except to father children '' , the crone told << me >> .
Come , << I >> show you '' .
In the shade of a palm tree in front of the squalid dwelling << I >> saw four figures in a semi-circle on the ground .
`` << I >> guess he spent the morning getting himself all organized , then headed for home .
`` Nope , just you , all the time -- sometimes << I >> think it's the only way I'll ever get a decent partner '' .
Ramey smiled but he thought to himself , << I >> always see me too .
Ramey smiled but he thought to himself , I always see << me >> too .
`` Can you hear , can you talk to << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> realize that this is hardly the time to say it , Penny '' , said Keith .
`` But knowing you , << I >> know that you're glad to be alive , and grateful -- and sorry because I killed the snake , even though I had to .
`` But knowing you , I know that you're glad to be alive , and grateful -- and sorry because << I >> killed the snake , even though I had to .
`` But knowing you , I know that you're glad to be alive , and grateful -- and sorry because I killed the snake , even though << I >> had to .
All of us , that is , except << me >> .
You hate << me >> , you hate my guts , because I like to hunt .
You hate me , you hate my guts , because << I >> like to hunt .
You actually hate << me >> -- and we both know it -- because I killed that filthy snake .
You actually hate me -- and we both know it -- because << I >> killed that filthy snake .
`` << I >> loused it '' , Rob said , with a savage note in his voice .
`` All << I >> have to do to set the record is to go on down .
So instead << I >> come up '' .
`` << I >> was down to 275 .
<< I >> don't get it why this time I should pull such a stupid trick '' .
I don't get it why this time << I >> should pull such a stupid trick '' .
`` Well , << I >> get it '' , Artie said , still on the ladder .
<< I >> came up maybe fifty feet before I knew what was happening '' .
I came up maybe fifty feet before << I >> knew what was happening '' .
`` << I >> was expecting it , sure .
Not << me >> , anyway .
Personally , << I >> don't blame him for giving up the dive , much as I regret losing the story '' .
Personally , I don't blame him for giving up the dive , much as << I >> regret losing the story '' .
`` Why '' , he went on , `` when Rob asked << me >> if he could make his dive on this trip , I didn't think twice about it .
`` Why '' , he went on , `` when Rob asked me if he could make his dive on this trip , << I >> didn't think twice about it .
Hell , << I >> gave him the first decent job he ever had , six , seven -- how many years ago was it , Rob '' ? ?
He was thinking , big deal : skipper on his drunken fishing parties for seven years and no better off than when << I >> started .
`` Excuse << me >> '' , he said abruptly .
`` Can << I >> make you one '' ? ?
`` << I >> do not drink so much , thank you '' .
`` Rob tells << me >> he's using your Atlantis equipment on the dive '' .
<< I >> like that kid '' .
`` << I >> agree , yes '' .
`` But that's what he told << me >> .
`` Please let << me >> explain '' , the German said earnestly , his face still devoid of deceit .
Now << I >> wish to enter the American market , where the competition is very strong .
<< I >> must have a powerful representative here , a firm with a national distribution and ten , twenty thousand dollars to advertise my products .
Never , never did << I >> offer him the exclusive rights .
of course , << I >> was willing .
`` If you will pardon , << I >> think it would be better if not .
`` << I >> am an honest man '' , the German said with fervor .
<< I >> will make him distributor for all of Florida -- a big market .
`` << I >> think maybe you're right , Schaffner '' , he said .
<< I >> guess you're right '' .
`` Join << me >> in another '' ? ?
`` << I >> do not drink so much '' .
And when << I >> make the dive again '' -- He paused ; ;
Let << me >> set the record this time , and let me get back OK , so the German will give me the exclusive .
Let me set the record this time , and let << me >> get back OK , so the German will give me the exclusive .
Let me set the record this time , and let me get back OK , so the German will give << me >> the exclusive .
`` Well , << I >> was a little bit confused .
Anyway , << I >> wasn't down long enough to matter .
You don't see << me >> stretched out on the deck , do you '' ? ?
`` << I >> don't think you should go down again '' .
`` Seems to << me >> I don't remember altering any law about that '' .
`` Seems to me << I >> don't remember altering any law about that '' .
`` << I >> don't aim to have minors breathing down my neck when I'm a-drinking '' :
Most of the time << I >> get what I ask for '' .
Most of the time I get what << I >> ask for '' .
And << I >> aim to have it '' .
`` And now '' , said Tilghman with deadly calm , `` I'll repeat what << I >> said .
`` I'm gonna drop these into Blue Throat's lap '' , he announced , `` and I'd like every gun to be firing into that barn while << I >> get near enough to toss 'em through the window '' .
`` If << I >> don't come out within half an hour ride back to town and bring out a posse '' .
<< I >> guess it's this hot weather '' .
`` OK. , << I >> won't play hard '' , he promised .
`` You know what << I >> done last night '' ? ?
`` << I >> got Margaret Rider in one of them old box cars down there by the quarry '' .
`` Hell , << I >> jist got on top of -- ''
`` Hell , << I >> jist ask her '' .
She's been hangin' around << me >> a lot here lately , and I figgered I might as well's try it .
She's been hangin' around me a lot here lately , and << I >> figgered I might as well's try it .
She's been hangin' around me a lot here lately , and I figgered << I >> might as well's try it .
`` << I >> never heard that '' .
`` << I >> might try it one of these days '' , Jack said wonderingly , thinking of Miss Langford .
<< I >> didn't mean to pull so hard '' .
`` << I >> don't believe I'll play any more neither '' .
His heart was pounding like a mighty dynamo and he was trying to think , his mind seeming to scream at him like a hurt or frightened child , `` How will << I >> do it ? ?
<< I >> won't bite , you know '' .
She said with intense feeling : `` Come near , let << me >> feel your arms .
You look quite strong and healthy to << me >> , Dandy '' .
If the old fool argues about the price , tell him << I >> shall order my husband not to treat him as a patient any longer .
<< I >> want the room in the attic prepared for him He is a most unusual lad , quite precocious in many ways .
You did this you like to hurt to beat people << I >> want to go home '' .
After << I >> paid Monsieur Prieur for Dandy , I brought him home , but he was ill at ease and ran away the same night .
After I paid Monsieur Prieur for Dandy , << I >> brought him home , but he was ill at ease and ran away the same night .
How he returned in such a ghastly condition , or why , << I >> cannot say .
Dr. Lalaurie and << I >> didn't even know he was in the house until the night of our ball when he came down the stairs '' .
The fugitive cried out in an oddly sibilant voice : `` Help << me >> , somebody ! !
`` Bastards '' , he would say , `` all << I >> did was put a beat to that Vivaldi stuff , and the first chair clobbered me '' ! !
`` Bastards '' , he would say , `` all I did was put a beat to that Vivaldi stuff , and the first chair clobbered << me >> '' ! !
Curly hair , high cheekbones , wide gnomelike mouth , a pair of drummer's blocky hands , and a body that said well , maybe << I >> can wrestle you for ten minutes -- but then I'm finished .
`` Now stay with << me >> , Kitty '' , he snapped irritably .
`` << I >> vowed to take care of you -- and that's what I'm gonna do .
<< I >> been riding train for a ways now '' .
Certainly not , << I >> mean , no that isn't what I said '' ! !
Certainly not , I mean , no that isn't what << I >> said '' ! !
`` << I >> only said I was hungry .
`` I only said << I >> was hungry .
C'mon , buddy , help << me >> set up the kitchen and we'll have food in a minute or two '' .
`` << I >> self-served '' .
`` You gonna give << me >> a drink , fella '' ? ?
`` << I >> didn't know I was gonna have company in this car '' .
`` I didn't know << I >> was gonna have company in this car '' .
`` No , << I >> don't think so '' , said the big man , and it was the final clincher for Ernie .
`` Maybe you and << me >> will , girlie , but these two ain't goin' nowhere '' .
`` Laura , what would you say if << I >> smoked a pipe '' ? ?
`` It seems to << me >> you have enough to do as it is '' , Eugenia said .
`` << I >> have plenty of odd moments when I could be doing something '' , Maggie said .
`` I have plenty of odd moments when << I >> could be doing something '' , Maggie said .
`` It would make << me >> feel a lot better , but the Woman's Exchange isn't taking baked goods any more and I can't leave the baby with Grandma because she isn't strong enough and the baby's too young to be put in a nursery '' .
`` It would make me feel a lot better , but the Woman's Exchange isn't taking baked goods any more and << I >> can't leave the baby with Grandma because she isn't strong enough and the baby's too young to be put in a nursery '' .
`` She's so beautiful , and << I >> do like to keep her looking nice '' .
`` Well now , Maggie , you don't have to snap at << me >> '' , Eugenia said .
<< I >> do seem to snap at everybody these days , but I would like to think of a way to make a little extra money '' .
I do seem to snap at everybody these days , but << I >> would like to think of a way to make a little extra money '' .
`` << I >> have here that you could run a nursery of your own for working mothers '' , Eugenia said .
And Grandma isn't strong enough to take on something like that , and to tell you the truth neither am << I >> '' .
She said , `` Well , those are the really interesting things , but if you don't like any of those << I >> can turn over some of my extra typing jobs to you , if you think you can type well enough '' .
`` Oh , I'm sure << I >> could do that '' , Maggie said .
`` Don't worry , << I >> can get plenty more '' , Eugenia said , wondering where in the world she could .
`` And then whenever << I >> have a minute I can be working at it , and keep an eye on the baby and the stove at the same time .
`` And then whenever I have a minute << I >> can be working at it , and keep an eye on the baby and the stove at the same time .
And << I >> can go back to my contests and be thinking while I'm doing the washing '' .
`` << I >> wish I had three wishes '' , Maggie said .
`` I wish << I >> had three wishes '' , Maggie said .
`` << I >> know you when you start talking about brains and talent '' , Maggie said .
`` The only thing that worries << me >> is how I'm going to prove it '' , Eugenia said .
`` << I >> read it , yes .
Zion stayed to get my pin , but it'll be a cold day in June when << I >> go back '' .
You told << me >> to bring my camera .
Why should << I >> want pictures of an empty room now ? ?
This -- trip of his had nothing to do with her consorting with tenants , and << I >> am going to see that everybody at Mt. Pleasant understands that simple fact .
Wait for << me >> , Laban , I'll be dressed in half a second '' ! !
<< I >> drove him away .
`` I'll decide that when << I >> get there .
<< I >> was so cruel to Tolley , so unfair .
`` ' And let << me >> go , for the night gathers me , and in the night shall no man gather fruit ' '' .
`` ' And let me go , for the night gathers << me >> , and in the night shall no man gather fruit ' '' .
And if << I >> ever hear you say ' Mist Laban ' again I'll scream .
And don't tell << me >> you didn't at church Sunday .
<< I >> heard you '' ! !
`` He must have forgiven << me >> '' , Henrietta murmured to the room .
But << I >> would have gone anyway , thought Henrietta .
`` They'll be takin' << me >> next '' , he said pleasantly , `` but not so soon's they plan .
See half of 'em in their graves before << I >> choose my own coffin .
She said gently , `` Of course << I >> remember you '' .
`` Not so well's << I >> remember you '' , he said .
`` Not << me >> .
Maybe you likee date with << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> beg your pardon '' ! !
You see , << I >> thought -- I mean I really had no idea '' --
You see , I thought -- << I >> mean I really had no idea '' --
You see , I thought -- I mean << I >> really had no idea '' --
<< I >> could , he thought , take a long walk -- but where ? ?
`` << I >> went over to the Willows and dropped two notes '' .
Probably saw << me >> in the lobby .
`` You see '' , she said , looking past him into the room , where the highball glasses sparkled dully in the bright light , `` you and << I >> can't understand the many hardships they have to undergo '' .
`` << I >> don't know much about them '' , Owen admitted , `` but I suppose they have their own religion and they probably resent outsiders coming in and telling them what to do and what not to do '' .
`` I don't know much about them '' , Owen admitted , `` but << I >> suppose they have their own religion and they probably resent outsiders coming in and telling them what to do and what not to do '' .
The more canvassing << I >> do , the more I note how far most people are from their personal God '' .
The more canvassing I do , the more << I >> note how far most people are from their personal God '' .
`` Oh , << I >> just come once a week .
<< I >> feel it's my duty .
<< I >> do this work all on my own , because I understand the difficulties and I want to help these lay-sisters .
I do this work all on my own , because << I >> understand the difficulties and I want to help these lay-sisters .
I do this work all on my own , because I understand the difficulties and << I >> want to help these lay-sisters .
<< I >> have the whole Pacific Northwest '' .
`` << I >> didn't say it was Christian .
<< I >> don't think you'll find many active Christian salesmen .
`` God , << I >> take it , plays no part in this '' , she said waspishly .
<< I >> have an appointment '' .
`` << I >> can imagine '' , she said .
`` << I >> have no card '' , she said bitterly .
<< I >> only hope my talking to you has helped you a little , anyway , because you need spiritual bucking-up '' .
`` << I >> wonder if they did eat each other at the end '' , Owen mused .
`` << I >> keep all these plays in this little black book , and I watch over a twelve-hour period to find out what numbers are repeating .
`` I keep all these plays in this little black book , and << I >> watch over a twelve-hour period to find out what numbers are repeating .
He's my own horse , and what << I >> collect from him I use on blackjack .
He's my own horse , and what I collect from him << I >> use on blackjack .
<< I >> figure if I can get any kind of publicity campaign going , I'll land him on TV -- you know , one of those favorite horses for some Western hero .
I figure if << I >> can get any kind of publicity campaign going , I'll land him on TV -- you know , one of those favorite horses for some Western hero .
`` << I >> haven't had any luck since I was a baby '' .
`` I haven't had any luck since << I >> was a baby '' .
`` Stake << me >> '' , she said , `` and let me at those dice .
`` Stake me '' , she said , `` and let << me >> at those dice .
My mother wanted to call << me >> Sylphide , but it sounded too affected '' .
Spencer was quiet for a moment longer , then he said , `` There is nothing << I >> want to say , Captain '' .
`` More arrests , << I >> fear '' .
<< I >> saw him myself and it was done after consultation with Cromwell .
<< I >> swear it , sir '' .
`` Of course , << I >> agree with the Captain '' , Gansevoort said thoughtfully , `` but the conspiracy is ferocious and desperate .
He said , `` Captain , may << I >> speak , please ? ?
Captain , << I >> am innocent of any plot against you or the ship '' .
<< I >> know nothing of any plot , if there is such a thing '' .
`` << I >> cannot speak for others , sir , but I am innocent '' .
`` I cannot speak for others , sir , but << I >> am innocent '' .
`` No , Cromwell , << I >> did not find your name .
`` And do you think there is a reason why << I >> should accept your word '' ? ?
<< I >> have nothing to gain by defending Cromwell '' .
`` << I >> am innocent , Captain '' , Cromwell said again .
`` Before God , Captain , << I >> am innocent '' .
`` << I >> thought '' , Midshipman Rogers had told Alexander , `` that Spencer was teaching him geometry '' .
Rachel steered << me >> along toward a school for young boys beginning to study the Torah .
<< I >> was suddenly conscious of my bare arms .
<< I >> turned and watched him stride down the center of the road .
Rachel had seen << me >> watching the young man .
<< I >> swallowed hard and looked down at my feet plodding along beside Rachel .
She led << me >> into a twisting side alley .
He nodded , clasping and unclasping his hands over his paunch , and flicked glances at << me >> .
Since they did not glance curiously at us once , << I >> guessed that there was a penalty for distraction .
<< I >> stared at him for a long time .
<< I >> could not keep my eyes away from the boy with the red hair .
<< I >> shuddered and backed out of the room .
Rachel followed , looked at << me >> , and clucked with her tongue .
<< I >> said , `` How long do they keep that up '' ? ?
<< I >> rubbed my hands together .
Then << I >> picked it up again and handed it to the old man .
He thanked << me >> .
<< I >> didn't look at him .
<< I >> grinned at Rachel .
<< I >> said .
<< I >> was amazed .
And << I >> wasn't .
<< I >> resented them .
Rachel faced << me >> .
She said , `` Sometimes << I >> think they are keeping religion for us while we play around .
<< I >> said quietly , respectfully , `` What did she do here ? ?
It was an impulse when she was here in Me'a She'arim -- << I >> was with her -- that led her to stay in Israel .
<< I >> said quietly , gaining nerve , ready to ask any question at all , no matter how intimate , ready to be rebuffed , `` Then why did she leave Israel ? ?
She pursed her lips , then clamped them together so tightly that << I >> thought she was angry with me .
She pursed her lips , then clamped them together so tightly that I thought she was angry with << me >> .
At first << I >> thought they were relatives of your mother , but it was not so .
This refugee was a middle-aged man , a big , handsome man with a strut to his walk as << I >> have never before seen .
Then his son did something '' -- Rachel threw up her hands -- `` << I >> don't know what , but something , to an official here -- it was during the Mandate -- and the son was imprisoned .
Then she continued with energy , `` << I >> myself did not see her until a week after she had run off to find the father .
`` Yes '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> know him '' .
Rachel gave << me >> a direct , bright-eyed look .
He complained to << me >> once that I must talk to her .
He complained to me once that << I >> must talk to her .
When << I >> did , she shrugged her shoulders and said that Reuveni wanted her to marry him .
<< I >> asked her if she would , and she said she would not .
She came to << me >> one day .
`` And I'll take you with << me >> '' .
`` What did << I >> imagine '' ? ?
`` Did << I >> see him about to swing low in a chariot ? ?
Maybe << I >> saw him on a barge with a gang of Ethiopians poling it '' .
And I'll take you with << me >> .
And I'll take you with << me >> .
You think : `` Did he feel that way about << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> should have stayed at the store '' , she thought .
<< I >> did book jackets and covers for paperback reprints : naked girls huddling in corners of dingy furnished rooms while at the doorway , daring the cops to take him , is the guy in shirt sleeves clutching a revolver .
<< I >> remember once I did a jacket for Magpie Press ; ;
I remember once << I >> did a jacket for Magpie Press ; ;
the book was a fine historical novel about Edward 3 , , and << I >> did a week of research to get the details just right : the fifteenth-century armor , furnishings , clothes .
<< I >> even ferreted out the materials from which shields were made -- linden wood covered with leather -- so I'd get the light reflections accurate .
<< I >> said , `` Mr. McKenzie , it is as authentic as careful research can make it '' .
In the end , << I >> did the same old picture , the naked girl and the guy in the doorway , only I put a Lord Byron shirt on the guy , gave him a sword instead of a pistol , and painted in furniture from the stills of a costume movie .
In the end , I did the same old picture , the naked girl and the guy in the doorway , only << I >> put a Lord Byron shirt on the guy , gave him a sword instead of a pistol , and painted in furniture from the stills of a costume movie .
It may have been true for all << I >> know , because his glasses were like the bottoms of milk bottles , but it didn't prevent the paintings from being exciting .
<< I >> wanted to paint again .
<< I >> hadn't done a serious picture in almost a year .
It wasn't just the pressure of work , although that was the excuse << I >> often used , even to myself .
It was the kind of work << I >> was doing , the quality of the ambition it awoke in me , that kept me from painting .
It was the kind of work I was doing , the quality of the ambition it awoke in << me >> , that kept me from painting .
It was the kind of work I was doing , the quality of the ambition it awoke in me , that kept << me >> from painting .
Askington was a kind of goal << I >> set myself ; ;
<< I >> had admired him long before I talked to him .
I had admired him long before << I >> talked to him .
It looked to << me >> as though he had everything an artist could want , joy in his work , standing in the profession , a large and steady income .
He was fifteen years older than << I >> -- forty-four -- but full of spring and sparkle .
He didn't look like what << I >> thought of as an old man , and his lively and erudite speech made him seem even younger .
<< I >> had a long talk with him .
<< I >> asked .
`` << I >> don't think I've reached the point , yet , where I can say I know everything I ought to know about the craft .
`` I don't think I've reached the point , yet , where << I >> can say I know everything I ought to know about the craft .
`` I don't think I've reached the point , yet , where I can say << I >> know everything I ought to know about the craft .
`` I don't think I've reached the point , yet , where I can say I know everything << I >> ought to know about the craft .
<< I >> asked .
<< I >> was fascinated ; ;
<< I >> nodded .
Burns and << I >> had not loved each other .
`` I'm also studying enameling with Hajime Iijima '' , he went on , `` and twice a week << I >> go to a life class taught by Pendleton '' .
<< I >> said .
<< I >> went to a retrospective of his work when I was eighteen , and I thought he was a contemporary of Cezanne's '' .
I went to a retrospective of his work when << I >> was eighteen , and I thought he was a contemporary of Cezanne's '' .
I went to a retrospective of his work when I was eighteen , and << I >> thought he was a contemporary of Cezanne's '' .
I've always admired him , and when << I >> heard he was taking a few pupils , I went to him and joined his class '' .
I've always admired him , and when I heard he was taking a few pupils , << I >> went to him and joined his class '' .
`` Yes , it sounds great '' , << I >> said , `` but suppose you don't think of yourself as an impressionist painter '' ? ?
The upshot of the evening was that << I >> got the address of Pendleton's studio -- or rather , of the studio in which he gave his classes , for he didn't work there himself -- and joined the life class , which met every Tuesday and Thursday from ten to twelve in the morning .
It was an awkward hour , but << I >> didn't have to punch any time clock , and it only meant that sometimes I had to stay a couple of hours later at the drawing board to finish up a job .
It was an awkward hour , but I didn't have to punch any time clock , and it only meant that sometimes << I >> had to stay a couple of hours later at the drawing board to finish up a job .
After a short time , both George and Donald joined the class with << me >> so they wouldn't feel lonely , and we used to hang a sign on the door of the Brush-off reading out to work .
<< I >> don't know that it was always as rewarding as I had expected it to be .
I don't know that it was always as rewarding as << I >> had expected it to be .
Partly , it was because Pendleton himself wasn't what << I >> anticipated .
Actually , there was a lot of force in him , which is why << I >> kept on in that class instead of quitting after a week .
`` << I >> can't find it in the glove compartment '' .
`` Via must have it '' , << I >> answered readily enough , recalling her last visit .
<< I >> was silent .
<< I >> didn't want to stir things up .
`` << I >> drive my own car by courtesy of Via '' ? ?
She looked as if she were accusing << me >> of some fraud .
Walter was giving << me >> checks for my pay , the household bills .
<< I >> don't even own the house I'm standing in .
<< I >> was so sure it was all temporary that we would all embrace , and then the lawyer would tear up all those things
If << I >> am not to be Mrs. Salter I am nothing '' .
If I am not to be Mrs. Salter << I >> am nothing '' .
<< I >> love you , I hate you , I feel like killing you and myself , and in the same sequence I love you I think you're the most wonderful the most noble and so on and on , meanwhile eating a good breakfast and dinner and enjoying living .
I love you , << I >> hate you , I feel like killing you and myself , and in the same sequence I love you I think you're the most wonderful the most noble and so on and on , meanwhile eating a good breakfast and dinner and enjoying living .
I love you , I hate you , << I >> feel like killing you and myself , and in the same sequence I love you I think you're the most wonderful the most noble and so on and on , meanwhile eating a good breakfast and dinner and enjoying living .
I love you , I hate you , I feel like killing you and myself , and in the same sequence << I >> love you I think you're the most wonderful the most noble and so on and on , meanwhile eating a good breakfast and dinner and enjoying living .
I love you , I hate you , I feel like killing you and myself , and in the same sequence I love you << I >> think you're the most wonderful the most noble and so on and on , meanwhile eating a good breakfast and dinner and enjoying living .
So << I >> went about my business .
<< I >> made a lemon sponge , a light dessert , roasted a chicken , parboiled some frozen vegetables , so there would be something nice in the icebox for the weekend .
At last , << I >> thought , she's recovering her spirits .
<< I >> felt more cheerful , as if I had had a part in bringing her through to a greater tolerance of herself .
I felt more cheerful , as if << I >> had had a part in bringing her through to a greater tolerance of herself .
And << I >> went back to my own cottage to live my own little patch of life .
In the morning the fog was still thick so that to go to the village << I >> crept along with my headlights full on .
<< I >> did notice a twinkle of light from the big house through the woods but as I had left a light on in my own house because of the fog I assumed Mrs. Salter had done the same before she left for town .
I did notice a twinkle of light from the big house through the woods but as << I >> had left a light on in my own house because of the fog I assumed Mrs. Salter had done the same before she left for town .
I did notice a twinkle of light from the big house through the woods but as I had left a light on in my own house because of the fog << I >> assumed Mrs. Salter had done the same before she left for town .
<< I >> did my shopping , had my dentist appointment , and from there I went to the women's lunch at our parish church where we discussed plans for the annual Christmas bazaar , so that dusk was beginning to gather when I drove home in the late afternoon .
I did my shopping , had my dentist appointment , and from there << I >> went to the women's lunch at our parish church where we discussed plans for the annual Christmas bazaar , so that dusk was beginning to gather when I drove home in the late afternoon .
I did my shopping , had my dentist appointment , and from there I went to the women's lunch at our parish church where we discussed plans for the annual Christmas bazaar , so that dusk was beginning to gather when << I >> drove home in the late afternoon .
When << I >> came back from church at noon Mrs. Thaxter was turning into the Salter driveway .
Even at a car's length << I >> could sense that something was wrong , and so I followed her up to the turnaround in front of the house .
Even at a car's length I could sense that something was wrong , and so << I >> followed her up to the turnaround in front of the house .
She screamed , and both women ran up to the house , and << I >> followed .
Everything was as << I >> had left it the night before last -- her portfolio and bag for town , her lingerie and dress and shoes laid out only her mink coat was missing .
<< I >> , who until that day before had been Mrs. Salter's friend , her equal , was the servant now .
And when they spoke they spoke to each other and not to << me >> .
And after << I >> brought them sandwiches and coffee I had to go back to my place in the kitchen and wait .
And after I brought them sandwiches and coffee << I >> had to go back to my place in the kitchen and wait .
`` If << I >> am not to be Mrs. Salter then I am nothing '' .
`` If I am not to be Mrs. Salter then << I >> am nothing '' .
Why didn't that alarm << me >> then ? ?
And when she returned from taking her guests back to New York she had said , `` All they talked about was Harvie Harvie this , Harvie that When they know the truth will they drop away from << me >> , will I become a nothing '' ? ?
And when she returned from taking her guests back to New York she had said , `` All they talked about was Harvie Harvie this , Harvie that When they know the truth will they drop away from me , will << I >> become a nothing '' ? ?
And then << I >> remembered a few years before after their return from a short trip to Rome I had heard her boast , over and over again , `` On the boat people liked me for myself '' .
And then I remembered a few years before after their return from a short trip to Rome << I >> had heard her boast , over and over again , `` On the boat people liked me for myself '' .
And then I remembered a few years before after their return from a short trip to Rome I had heard her boast , over and over again , `` On the boat people liked << me >> for myself '' .
The last night << I >> had called , but the line was always busy and it reassured me .
The last night I had called , but the line was always busy and it reassured << me >> .
<< I >> assumed it was one of those hour-long conversations with Dolly or Constance , she comfortable in bed .
<< I >> tried to believe that what must have happened was that , restless , disturbed by this telephone call or whatever , she walked out in the night , as she had a habit of doing .
But << I >> didn't really think it was as simple as that , nor did anyone else .
When a fisherman brought her up in his arms , still , small , as if she were a child asleep , << I >> began to shudder with a terrible excitement , almost triumphant , that I still cannot account for .
When a fisherman brought her up in his arms , still , small , as if she were a child asleep , I began to shudder with a terrible excitement , almost triumphant , that << I >> still cannot account for .
<< I >> knew '' ! !
Everyone stared at << me >> and drew back .
Was that what had given way in << me >> ? ?
Even now << I >> am appalled at how little anyone knows of what they really are .
It is absurd of course to say that that one exclamation estranged << me >> from the family I considered my very own , but there it hangs , a cooling void that broke our close connection with each other .
It is absurd of course to say that that one exclamation estranged me from the family << I >> considered my very own , but there it hangs , a cooling void that broke our close connection with each other .
At the time << I >> was filled with self-pity at this separation , but in the years since I have come to understand that the sight of me was painful to them after that outcry .
At the time I was filled with self-pity at this separation , but in the years since << I >> have come to understand that the sight of me was painful to them after that outcry .
At the time I was filled with self-pity at this separation , but in the years since I have come to understand that the sight of << me >> was painful to them after that outcry .
it is when << I >> meet someone who was a close friend of the family , and therefore of mine , and they nod to me so coolly and walk away , that it hurts .
it is when I meet someone who was a close friend of the family , and therefore of mine , and they nod to << me >> so coolly and walk away , that it hurts .
<< I >> could tell them , but no one ever asked , why I had cried out so triumphantly at the sight of her body .
I could tell them , but no one ever asked , why << I >> had cried out so triumphantly at the sight of her body .
No , << I >> forget Mrs. Mathias , who had been away visiting a married daughter when it happened .
`` We all feel guilty '' , << I >> turned away from her coldly .
<< I >> added .
It was coarse , almost insulting , this harsh appraisal , and she has never come to see << me >> since .
If they say << I >> could have stopped her it is because they are ignorant of her last weeks of self-examination , her search into herself and its conclusions .
Yes , << I >> had cried out that I knew she'd do it , but without my fully realizing it at the time , it was a cry of triumph for her , praise at her deliverance from pettiness and greed -- and guilt .
Yes , I had cried out that << I >> knew she'd do it , but without my fully realizing it at the time , it was a cry of triumph for her , praise at her deliverance from pettiness and greed -- and guilt .
<< I >> waited .
Then Via called to say they had decided to cremate her -- as they had Ellen , the thought leaped to my mind -- and did << I >> want to meet her at the funeral home the next morning .
<< I >> knelt , just for decency I thought at the time , but found myself whispering , `` Our Father which Art in Heaven '' And it was only after that that something unlocked in me and I felt a grief .
I knelt , just for decency << I >> thought at the time , but found myself whispering , `` Our Father which Art in Heaven '' And it was only after that that something unlocked in me and I felt a grief .
I knelt , just for decency I thought at the time , but found myself whispering , `` Our Father which Art in Heaven '' And it was only after that that something unlocked in << me >> and I felt a grief .
I knelt , just for decency I thought at the time , but found myself whispering , `` Our Father which Art in Heaven '' And it was only after that that something unlocked in me and << I >> felt a grief .
Via was in the parking lot when << I >> went outside .
`` << I >> had a rather small place of my own .
<< I >> think I was what you might call a convivial man , and yet it was when I was alone in my studio , doing my work , that I really felt alive .
I think << I >> was what you might call a convivial man , and yet it was when I was alone in my studio , doing my work , that I really felt alive .
I think I was what you might call a convivial man , and yet it was when << I >> was alone in my studio , doing my work , that I really felt alive .
I think I was what you might call a convivial man , and yet it was when I was alone in my studio , doing my work , that << I >> really felt alive .
`` What about << me >> '' ? ?
`` Somehow << I >> imagine that as you grew up you were alone a lot .
`` << I >> guess so '' , she said taking a Kleenex from her purse .
`` Don't you know all about << me >> by this time ? ?
You know something more about << me >> every day , don't you ? ?
Would you be happier if << I >> made up some stories about my life , told you some lies ? ?
Why are you trying to worry << me >> '' ? ?
<< I >> like them '' .
`` Maybe << I >> could '' , he said , surprised that she could turn from herself and notice anything about him .
`` And << I >> don't know why you want to go on wearing that outfit '' , she said , making a face .
`` << I >> don't mind at all '' , he said , delighted with her attention .
`` << I >> think I'll sleep in this morning '' , she said drowsily , and as she snuggled against him , he wondered if she ever went to church .
`` Since we're having coffee with them this afternoon '' , he said , `` << I >> think I'll ask the daughter if we can pay her to come in every day to clean for us '' .
And he waited for her to say , `` Oh , no , << I >> can do it , Sam .
`` << I >> am what I am .
`` I am what << I >> am .
<< I >> can't help it '' .
Agnese , smiling too , said , `` 'ello '' , and then more slowly , `` << I >> am happy '' .
It's like a flame , << I >> guess '' , she said in a dreamy tone .
`` << I >> shall call your father ! !
Go back where you can bring no harm , or << I >> will go and get the old man from his bed so he can see your shame '' ! !
But now with real anger at last , something proud and indignant , Early Spring stood like a she wolf before her den and cried , `` << I >> will not shriek at you ! !
<< I >> will tell you to go , not begging .
<< I >> will simply kill you first .
Keep him back , if you must tell << me >> what to do .
<< I >> thought I dreamed of wolves fighting '' .
I thought << I >> dreamed of wolves fighting '' .
She said to him , her father , `` How was << I >> begotten , in pain or joy ? ?
Is it for << me >> to be forbidden the flesh you made grow on me ? ?
Is it for me to be forbidden the flesh you made grow on << me >> ? ?
Move from the line or << I >> will settle the whip on you .
If << I >> ever committed suicide , she thought , I would dive straight down from here -- and no one would find me for days .
If I ever committed suicide , she thought , << I >> would dive straight down from here -- and no one would find me for days .
If I ever committed suicide , she thought , I would dive straight down from here -- and no one would find << me >> for days .
<< I >> wish I were older or younger , Julia Bentley thought .
I wish << I >> were older or younger , Julia Bentley thought .
<< I >> wish so much someone loved me .
I wish so much someone loved << me >> .
`` << I >> -- I was just leaving here , Julie .
`` I -- << I >> was just leaving here , Julie .
`` Pietro's driving << me >> .
<< I >> just don't want anyone disturbed , Julie .
`` << I >> have to say good-bye upstairs .
<< I >> won't be long '' .
`` As a great favor , Julie '' , he said , `` please don't mention you've seen << me >> '' .
`` I'll call your mother as soon as << I >> get home .
<< I >> wouldn't have the strength to answer , he thought .
`` << I >> can manage '' .
`` << I >> wish I didn't have to go back to school '' , she said , and then , `` I wish you lived in New York .
`` I wish << I >> didn't have to go back to school '' , she said , and then , `` I wish you lived in New York .
`` I wish I didn't have to go back to school '' , she said , and then , `` << I >> wish you lived in New York .
`` << I >> wish I did '' , he responded .
`` I wish << I >> did '' , he responded .
`` << I >> wish I wasn't wearing this ridiculous costume , and that we could go to a theater together , or a nice restaurant , forget we knew '' He stopped speaking .
`` I wish << I >> wasn't wearing this ridiculous costume , and that we could go to a theater together , or a nice restaurant , forget we knew '' He stopped speaking .
`` << I >> know you feel badly , but that sounds like such a queer thing for you to say '' .
You've done << me >> the greatest possible service .
`` << I >> bumped into a door handle '' , George said .
That upsets << me >> more than anything .
`` Joan , did << I >> wake you '' ? ?
`` Yes , << I >> thought you'd probably be up .
Unfortunately it turned out to be << me >> , but I wouldn't quite put it that way to the boss .
Unfortunately it turned out to be me , but << I >> wouldn't quite put it that way to the boss .
<< I >> won't be in town for a couple of days , though , and there's that case I was supposed to handle this afternoon .
I won't be in town for a couple of days , though , and there's that case << I >> was supposed to handle this afternoon .
<< I >> might struggle in for a jury .
But << I >> thought maybe Tony Elliott could pinch-hit for me .
But I thought maybe Tony Elliott could pinch-hit for << me >> .
<< I >> wouldn't want to ask for a postponement -- it's really just a routine thing .
`` << I >> love you .
`` Myra wanted << me >> to thank you for taking Cathy .
`` She should have told << me >> herself .
On the defensive , he added , `` << I >> wish you'd think what it must be like for her to be without Greg , to be a new widow , a young widow '' .
`` << I >> wouldn't even be surprised '' , she said unhappily , `` if Myra tried to leave her with us forever '' .
`` << I >> can imagine '' ! !
But Myra was the merriest widow << I >> ever saw '' .
Suddenly , seekingly , Lucy asked , `` Mother , do you know something << I >> don't know '' ? ?
Again there was that curious pause , and then her mother said , `` << I >> guess I do .
Again there was that curious pause , and then her mother said , `` I guess << I >> do .
`` Cathy was in tears , of course , and << I >> heard Myra say , ' Now be good , and at Christmastime I'll send you a wonderful present from Paris ' '' .
Then , if Myra does nothing about fetching her , I'll pack her right back to her mother -- if << I >> have to take her myself '' ! !
Look , << I >> can put two fingers between the cords in the back of your neck .
They call << me >> Quint '' .
`` << I >> said Quint .
`` << I >> can speak both kinds of Latin , smart aleck '' .
`` << I >> don't smoke '' .
`` My mother never wops << me >> .
`` Because maybe << I >> won't have to wear it always .
Dr. Fortman says if << I >> exercise my leg more , maybe I can use a cane when I'm big '' .
Dr. Fortman says if I exercise my leg more , maybe << I >> can use a cane when I'm big '' .
`` Holy mackerel , that's the most unique dog << I >> ever saw '' , she said firmly .
`` << I >> gotta go .
`` So do << I >> .
Personally , << I >> prefer straight hair like yours , but as they say on the Continent , ' What can one do ' '' ? ?
`` Nobody gave << me >> flowers before .
Victoria , << I >> want you to -- ''
But now -- well , it would be a blessing , << I >> think .
Lord knows << I >> had everything set for you '' .
`` << I >> think we're agreed that he and Evans are equal in ability , so we have to look at the thing in terms of incentive .
With that wife of his , << I >> think he feels every chance he gets is his big chance .
<< I >> could get along without that three dollars .
In some ways it was worth being out the money -- just knowing << I >> was no longer obligated to Nadine ! !
<< I >> stumbled through the hall , wondering who would be calling at this hour .
`` You scared << me >> half to death '' , I said shakily .
`` You scared me half to death '' , << I >> said shakily .
`` Oh , she wouldn't do that '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> was all set for what came next .
`` << I >> can't make it in ten minutes '' -- Wondering , as I said it , why I should make it at all .
`` I can't make it in ten minutes '' -- Wondering , as << I >> said it , why I should make it at all .
`` I can't make it in ten minutes '' -- Wondering , as I said it , why << I >> should make it at all .
Why should << I >> go over at midnight to check on Francie , when her parents didn't care enough to leave a party ? ?
`` All right '' , << I >> said .
Not for the dollar or so Nadine would give << me >> .
Chris was sound asleep , and << I >> didn't see any sense in waking him .
<< I >> dressed in the kitchen , then left a note on the table telling him what had happened .
<< I >> drove off through the cool darkness to Nadine's apartment and rang the bell , and in a few seconds a young girl opened the door .
<< I >> just came over to make sure everything was all right '' .
`` << I >> have to get up early for church tomorrow '' , she went on .
`` << I >> didn't know it was going to be this late '' ! !
`` That's Mrs. Roberts again '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> crossed the beautifully furnished living room to the pale yellow phone .
<< I >> told Nadine everything was fine , and that I'd be getting on home .
She didn't even give << me >> a chance to refuse .
But then << I >> looked at Shirley and thought that I might as well -- the child needed her sleep , and Heaven knew what kind of a mess it would be , with Wally coming home drunk .
But then I looked at Shirley and thought that << I >> might as well -- the child needed her sleep , and Heaven knew what kind of a mess it would be , with Wally coming home drunk .
So << I >> told her Mrs. Roberts would pay her in the morning , and she scooted off to her own apartment .
After << I >> looked in at Francie , I went into the living room and waited .
After I looked in at Francie , << I >> went into the living room and waited .
<< I >> must have dozed off , because I came to with a start at the sound of voices .
I must have dozed off , because << I >> came to with a start at the sound of voices .
<< I >> opened the door , and Wally stumbled in -- fast -- as if Nadine had pushed him .
<< I >> had always thought she was so beautiful .
`` You stay out of this '' , she spat at << me >> .
`` He's ruined us -- do you hear << me >> -- he's ruined us ! !
We're ruined and he's going to get out if << I >> have to throw him down the stairs '' --
`` you'd better simmer down '' , << I >> said nervously .
<< I >> was plenty scared .
<< I >> clamped my hand over her mouth to stop the stream of filth .
She collapsed against << me >> , as if everything inside her snapped .
<< I >> got her into bed , and sat with her until she had sobbed herself out .
It was three o'clock before << I >> figured it was all right to go .
<< I >> had done all I could .
I had done all << I >> could .
<< I >> had done all I was going to do .
I had done all << I >> was going to do .
<< I >> snuggled up close to him -- loving him -- thankful for a man like him .
Thankful << I >> wasn't Nadine .
<< I >> kept on being thankful .
`` I'd had all this trouble with the old man , that's why << I >> drank so much .
<< I >> -- got fired yesterday for not attending to business '' --
`` << I >> thought I'd smooth things over through Ken '' , Wally said miserably .
And << I >> was plastered and I blew my stack '' --
And I was plastered and << I >> blew my stack '' --
But << I >> couldn't help thinking that Nadine and Wally were getting just what they deserved .
Little by little , during the week , Chris and << I >> discovered the crazy unbelievable way Nadine and Wally had lived .
`` << I >> wish we were in a position to offer a little money to tide them over '' .
<< I >> said I wished we were , too .
I said << I >> wished we were , too .
Something << I >> had simply never thought of .
<< I >> just stared at him .
It was incredible -- He gave << me >> an embarrassed , pleading look .
`` << I >> know we'd be pretty crowded .
`` << I >> won't do it '' , I said flatly .
`` I won't do it '' , << I >> said flatly .
Well , now she can sleep in the street for all << I >> care '' ! !
<< I >> didn't want to be like that , mean and bitter .
While << I >> worked , Nadine sat and cried .
<< I >> figured I could stand practically anything for a couple of weeks .
I figured << I >> could stand practically anything for a couple of weeks .
<< I >> mentioned it to Chris one stifling hot night , when I had slipped outside for a breath of fresh air .
I mentioned it to Chris one stifling hot night , when << I >> had slipped outside for a breath of fresh air .
<< I >> don't really believe in intuition .
But << I >> swear to you from the moment I opened my eyes , I knew it was going to be a bad day .
But I swear to you from the moment << I >> opened my eyes , I knew it was going to be a bad day .
But I swear to you from the moment I opened my eyes , << I >> knew it was going to be a bad day .
Part of it was the weather , so foggy it would take << me >> twice as long to get to the hospital .
For the thousandth time , << I >> wished I'd chosen some nice , nine-to-five , five-days-a-week profession .
And for the thousandth time , << I >> answered myself .
Actually , << I >> shouldn't complain , I told myself in the shaving mirror .
Actually , I shouldn't complain , << I >> told myself in the shaving mirror .
<< I >> had a lot to be thankful for .
A profession that brought << me >> as good an income as mine wasn't to be sneezed at .
Maybe << I >> didn't see as much of Gladdy as I'd like , but how much worse it would have been if I'd had to board her out somewhere after Alice went -- send my daughter to an orphanage or a boarding-home .
<< I >> was lucky in lots of ways , no doubt about it .
But << I >> mustn't start on Alice .
As usual , Gladdy's bright smile greeted << me >> at the breakfast table .
Her first class wasn't until ten , but she always got up to have breakfast with << me >> .
It made << me >> feel good and knowing that she'd decided , all on her own , to go to college right here in town made me feel good , too .
It made me feel good and knowing that she'd decided , all on her own , to go to college right here in town made << me >> feel good , too .
<< I >> had a feeling that young Pete Michelson , the most promising intern at Fairview , had something to do with it , too .
But once << I >> was alone again , driving to the hospital , the heaviness returned .
The boys were already waiting in the corridor outside my office when << I >> got to Fairview .
I'm Chief of Medicine here and this morning would start like all others , with << me >> taking the boys on the rounds .
When we'd finished our regular rounds , Pete pointed << me >> toward the small ward at the end of the floor .
`` << I >> haven't seen her yet , but I hear she's a lulu '' ! !
`` I haven't seen her yet , but << I >> hear she's a lulu '' ! !
<< I >> wasn't surprised .
The moment << I >> walked in , the whole miserable feeling of the day seemed to focus on the woman in the bed .
But there was something about her -- and << I >> felt my lips forming a name .
She looked about sixty , though << I >> recalled that the chart gave her age as forty-four .
No , no it was an unfortunate resemblance , that was all it was , and << I >> turned to Dick , forcing myself to put my disquiet out of my mind .
Turning toward the patient again , << I >> -- I can't describe what happened to me then , except to say that I felt sick .
Turning toward the patient again , I -- << I >> can't describe what happened to me then , except to say that I felt sick .
Turning toward the patient again , I -- I can't describe what happened to << me >> then , except to say that I felt sick .
Turning toward the patient again , I -- I can't describe what happened to me then , except to say that << I >> felt sick .
<< I >> tell you , it took every ounce of control I had to be able to speak .
I tell you , it took every ounce of control << I >> had to be able to speak .
<< I >> never liked going straight into an examination with patients -- it relaxes them , I've always thought , to chat first .
It was then that << I >> saw what the drawn-back covers revealed .
<< I >> asked .
`` << I >> been spotting a little now and then '' , she said quietly , no emotion in her voice .
`` Better do a Papanicolaou '' , << I >> told Pete .
It was only a few moments before Miss Groggins had her in the proper position for a vaginal , but << I >> couldn't see anything wrong on gross examination .
That done , << I >> told Miss Groggins to take her patient back to bed and again put her out of my mind .
Late in the afternoon , << I >> was up on Seven again .
One of my private patients was being admitted and << I >> went in to see her settled .
On my way to the elevator , << I >> ran into Pete .
`` Well '' -- << I >> didn't -- I didn't ever want to see that woman again .
`` Well '' -- I didn't -- << I >> didn't ever want to see that woman again .
`` Groggins tells << me >> she's started badgering already , wants to get out .
<< I >> grimaced in distaste .
`` Well , better see what << I >> can do '' .
We'd been standing right outside Miss Bancroft's door and as << I >> went to turn the knob to enter , I was surprised to find that the door was slightly ajar .
We'd been standing right outside Miss Bancroft's door and as I went to turn the knob to enter , << I >> was surprised to find that the door was slightly ajar .
`` << I >> sure can't complain about the service in this place '' , she said .
`` << I >> just got through seeing one of you guys .
There was something almost insulting in her tone , but << I >> disregarded it .
`` Suppose you let << me >> explain .
Actually , << I >> rather doubt that we'll have to do this .
<< I >> was sure that was the difficulty -- she just didn't want to stay here , where she couldn't get to the liquor .
<< I >> looked at her in amazement .
`` Will you tell << me >> why '' ? ?
`` I've got cancer , haven't << I >> '' ? ?
Just let << me >> die in peace '' .
<< I >> stared at her , almost speechless .
Her little speech was totally out of character with the sort of person << I >> thought she was .
This was someone who'd come down in the world , << I >> thought .
`` You haven't got cancer '' , << I >> said as strongly as I could .
`` You haven't got cancer '' , I said as strongly as << I >> could .
`` Don't give << me >> a lot of talk , Joe '' .
<< I >> gaped at her .
She was watching << me >> intently , a funny little half-smile on her lips .
Guess I've changed , haven't << I >> ? ?
`` Alice '' -- << I >> stammered through dry lips .
`` What's the matter , Joe , you scared of << me >> ? ?
Just let << me >> outta here '' --
As for coming back here -- well , I'll tell you the truth , << I >> didn't even know where I was when I came to .
As for coming back here -- well , I'll tell you the truth , I didn't even know where << I >> was when I came to .
As for coming back here -- well , I'll tell you the truth , I didn't even know where I was when << I >> came to .
The last thing << I >> remember is a bar in San Diego '' --
`` << I >> never asked you for any favors , Joe '' , she went on , `` but I'm asking one now .
Let << me >> outta here ! !
<< I >> looked at the pathetic wreck of a woman before me .
I looked at the pathetic wreck of a woman before << me >> .
What she'd said was true -- in all these years , she'd never asked for anything from << me >> .
If << I >> let her go , she'd disappear once more .
<< I >> was slowly swimming down to the bottom of the sea .
She made << me >> welcome .
the many little tricks she knew made her embrace the ultimate one -- the ever more fantastic pressures deeper in her body squeezed not << me >> but the air I breathed into a nitrogen anesthetic .
the many little tricks she knew made her embrace the ultimate one -- the ever more fantastic pressures deeper in her body squeezed not me but the air << I >> breathed into a nitrogen anesthetic .
<< I >> no longer knew how deep I was , somewhere under 230 feet , getting drunker , happier and more contented by the second .
I no longer knew how deep << I >> was , somewhere under 230 feet , getting drunker , happier and more contented by the second .
The metal-tasting nitrogen made << me >> wonder if I should remove the mouthpiece and suck in the sweet water .
The metal-tasting nitrogen made me wonder if << I >> should remove the mouthpiece and suck in the sweet water .
<< I >> chuckled aloud , and the mouthpiece fell out .
It was when << I >> packed up what duds I had and went to Paris .
It was when I packed up what duds << I >> had and went to Paris .
It was no vacation , just << me >> getting out after a bellyfull .
Wild kicks never are , but << I >> hoped to dig up a better frame of mind .
Once before << I >> had been to Paris , long before I married Valery .
Once before I had been to Paris , long before << I >> married Valery .
That first time was good and it stuck with << me >> .
<< I >> was twenty-one back then , in the army , and fog put our plane down at Orly instead of Rhine-Main .
<< I >> had a pocketful of money , which was unusual when I was in the army , and the plane would be grounded all night .
I had a pocketful of money , which was unusual when << I >> was in the army , and the plane would be grounded all night .
In less than an hour << I >> had gotten a hotel , showered , shaved and was out on the Champs Elysees in a fresh uniform .
<< I >> felt like a Hun in Rome .
There was the Arc de Triomphe and the Tour d'Eiffel -- << I >> was no yokel , but I was young , and this was Paris ! !
There was the Arc de Triomphe and the Tour d'Eiffel -- I was no yokel , but << I >> was young , and this was Paris ! !
<< I >> had champagne at Maxim's , then went into a cafe called the Jour et Nuit to ask the way to Montmartre .
<< I >> never got there .
<< I >> stared .
<< I >> didn't know a human could feed so fast and still be beautiful .
`` Handsome soldier , << I >> have assuaged one hunger with food .
<< I >> feel another of terrible urgency .
Toward the break of day << I >> waxed philosophical , and drew analogies about her way of eating bread and cheese .
Now it was nine years later , and it wasn't spring but winter when << I >> returned .
<< I >> made the mistake of going to the Jour et Nuit .
The place was busy but << I >> didn't feel like a Hun .
<< I >> sat waiting for Life to come along and sweep me up .
I sat waiting for Life to come along and sweep << me >> up .
<< I >> had part of a bottle of French beer called Panther Pils ( so help me ) , then switched to Tuborg .
I had part of a bottle of French beer called Panther Pils ( so help << me >> ) , then switched to Tuborg .
<< I >> went to my hotel and slept .
The next morning a little cognac made << me >> feel better -- but what can you do in Paris on Sunday morning ? ?
So << I >> drank more cognac .
All that day and Monday << I >> drank just enough to orbit but not make deep space .
<< I >> was turning over the idea of a good debauchery when I dozed off .
I was turning over the idea of a good debauchery when << I >> dozed off .
<< I >> felt better Tuesday evening when I woke up .
I felt better Tuesday evening when << I >> woke up .
<< I >> went out into it .
<< I >> walked around breathing the cold wine of the air until I found a park , and I sat down on a snowy bench where the light was dim and came from the sky .
I walked around breathing the cold wine of the air until << I >> found a park , and I sat down on a snowy bench where the light was dim and came from the sky .
I walked around breathing the cold wine of the air until I found a park , and << I >> sat down on a snowy bench where the light was dim and came from the sky .
<< I >> had on only a topcoat , but I wasn't cold .
I had on only a topcoat , but << I >> wasn't cold .
<< I >> was just miserable .
She saw << me >> and sat down beside me , three feet away .
She saw me and sat down beside << me >> , three feet away .
It gave her the right to sit down beside << me >> , back straight , one hand out on the handle .
<< I >> knew all about her .
<< I >> didn't much care if she were there or not .
Hardly glancing at her , << I >> smiled a bleak one which said , Thanks , baby , but I'd rather be alone .
`` I'm not unhappy '' , << I >> lied , staring at the snow .
`` Well -- women and unhappiness go together '' , << I >> observed profoundly , adding , `` You can wager your derriere on that '' .
This took << me >> so funny I had to look at her .
This took me so funny << I >> had to look at her .
<< I >> felt my frozen sad face crumble , and I grinned a silly one I couldn't have helped .
I felt my frozen sad face crumble , and << I >> grinned a silly one I couldn't have helped .
I felt my frozen sad face crumble , and I grinned a silly one << I >> couldn't have helped .
<< I >> even snorted a chuckle .
She was even more miserable than << me >> .
<< I >> could see the ancient cynicism reinforce itself in her eyes , and I wondered how many men she had picked up with this same gambit .
I could see the ancient cynicism reinforce itself in her eyes , and << I >> wondered how many men she had picked up with this same gambit .
Anyway , << I >> pulled a bottle of Remy Martin out of my topcoat , drew the cork , and passed it to her .
<< I >> could see she was shocked .
`` I'm sorry << I >> haven't got a glass '' , I said .
`` I'm sorry I haven't got a glass '' , << I >> said .
She tilted up and drank , and then << I >> drank .
It's really rotten to drink good cognac like that , but << I >> hadn't cared before .
<< I >> wasn't going to lug around a glass .
There wasn't much light in the blue dark , but << I >> could see her well .
<< I >> couldn't be sure .
<< I >> liked her , and all at once I was glad she was there .
I liked her , and all at once << I >> was glad she was there .
<< I >> suppose we were cold , but we didn't feel it .
<< I >> sensed no stranger in her .
<< I >> decided thirty-five was the best estimate of her age .
<< I >> think we were very tired , for we awoke at the same moment , deeply rested , surprised to see the late morning sun on the windows , which were wet where the rime had melted .
<< I >> felt wonderful , the absolute opposite of last night's melancholy .
<< I >> was hungry as a wolf , and my body felt lean and vital .
`` Bon jour '' , << I >> said brightly , sitting up , which pulled the covers to her hips .
Maybe closer to thirty , << I >> thought .
With a laugh she beat << me >> to the bathroom .
She came out pink from a hot bath , and << I >> gave her my robe .
<< I >> had brushed my teeth , showered , shaved and dressed by the time a waiter wheeled in breakfast .
<< I >> gave it to the woman .
`` But << I >> already have ! !
<< I >> used yours '' .
<< I >> said with round eyes .
<< I >> wondered if I ought to go use the new one myself .
I wondered if << I >> ought to go use the new one myself .
But << I >> smelled the coffee , and thinking , What the hell , live dangerously , I decided I would scald my worries away .
But I smelled the coffee , and thinking , What the hell , live dangerously , << I >> decided I would scald my worries away .
But I smelled the coffee , and thinking , What the hell , live dangerously , I decided << I >> would scald my worries away .
<< I >> grunted , sipping .
<< I >> raised my eyes to look at her in the mirror .
`` << I >> didn't really use yours '' , she went on .
<< I >> know men never kiss les putains '' .
<< I >> said with enthusiasm at the idea .
<< I >> put aside my empty cup .
The cynicism was back in her eyes , a bitter wisdom , and << I >> wondered if forty were not so far wrong after all .
The sommelier brought the wine first , a magnum instead of the bottle << I >> had ordered .
He must have thought << I >> was a tourist .
<< I >> didn't ask for a Jeroboam of champagne '' .
<< I >> thought that was pretty humorous , but I didn't laugh .
I thought that was pretty humorous , but << I >> didn't laugh .
The very night after her father's funeral she had thought , though never admitted to a soul : Now << I >> can go .
There's nothing to stop << me >> now .
And how on earth did << I >> ever get this letter anyway ? ?
This letter would have got to << me >> if she hadn't even put Rome , Italy , on it .
`` << I >> hate to call the doctor but if this keeps up I'll just have to ! !
`` << I >> just hope this happens to you someday '' , said Cousin Elec , who was not at his best .
) `` << I >> hope if you have any ideas along these lines you will write me about them .
) `` I hope if you have any ideas along these lines you will write << me >> about them .
<< I >> may settle on some makeshift arrangements for the summer and wait until you return in the fall so we can work out together the best .
<< I >> really shouldn't have smoked a cigarette so early in the day , thought Theresa , it always makes me sick .
I really shouldn't have smoked a cigarette so early in the day , thought Theresa , it always makes << me >> sick .
It never registered with them that << I >> had time to read all of Balzac , Dickens , and Stendhal while Papa was dying , not to mention everything in the city library after Mother's operation .
It would have been exactly the same to them if << I >> had read through all twenty-six volumes of Elsie Dinsmore .
<< I >> knew it as surely as everybody in Westfield -- that Lucille was a husband stealer .
Just as it has its Susan Dolan , though nobody'd ever bothered to tell << me >> that .
Susan Dolan , that's << me >> .
They even talked about Lucille down at the Young Christians' League where << I >> spent a lot of time in Bible classes and helping out with the office work for our foreign mission .
<< I >> never heard my folks talk about her , though .
Even if they ever did say anything about people like Lucille Warren , << I >> know they wouldn't have dreamed of saying it in front of me .
Even if they ever did say anything about people like Lucille Warren , I know they wouldn't have dreamed of saying it in front of << me >> .
My folks and my faith protected << me >> from things like that .
And so << I >> was really upset the first time I discovered that my boy friend Johnnie was seeing Mrs. Warren .
And so I was really upset the first time << I >> discovered that my boy friend Johnnie was seeing Mrs. Warren .
<< I >> asked him about it one night while we were sitting in his truck .
He gave << me >> a straight , honest answer .
Much as << I >> love you -- well , a guy's a guy and Lucille's willing to -- to come across .
Honest , kitten , that's all it is -- << I >> don't even like Lucille much '' .
My love for Johnnie was young and clean -- how could << I >> possibly compete with a woman like that , who didn't hesitate to use her sex .
He had an easy masculine grace about him , the kind that kids don't have , but that << I >> had sometimes admired in other older men .
The most unbelievable thing about the chance meeting was that he seemed interested in << me >> , too .
<< I >> guess she was between affairs or something , but anyway , she had set her sights on Johnnie , my Johnnie .
<< I >> didn't like it one bit .
But what could << I >> do ? ?
And he wouldn't leave her either -- he'd told << me >> that .
Johnnie loved << me >> and wanted me .
Johnnie loved me and wanted << me >> .
But the only love << I >> was giving him was the pure kind .
`` It's so crazy '' , << I >> told him once .
`` << I >> always imagined I would probably end up marrying a minister or somebody like that .
`` I always imagined << I >> would probably end up marrying a minister or somebody like that .
`` << I >> could walk out the door '' .
`` Or << I >> could visit Lucille Warren '' .
`` << I >> might '' .
He'd just admitted it to << me >> .
Johnnie and << I >> had been innocent in our love , and that was the way I wanted to keep it .
Johnnie and I had been innocent in our love , and that was the way << I >> wanted to keep it .
At first , Johnnie hadn't understood -- how could he , not being a religious person like << me >> ? ?
<< I >> had driven him into the arms of that scheming woman .
<< I >> had just the same as delivered him into the hands of the Devil ! !
So one week later , << I >> surrendered to him in the little motel on Route 10 .
And , though at the time << I >> blushed to admit it even to myself , there was in me a growing desire , a sexual awareness , that Johnnie had set in motion , an awareness that no other man had ever triggered .
And , though at the time I blushed to admit it even to myself , there was in << me >> a growing desire , a sexual awareness , that Johnnie had set in motion , an awareness that no other man had ever triggered .
<< I >> wanted him , with a terrifying fierceness .
Astonishingly enough , it was my own voice << I >> heard there in the darkness , begging this man to make love to me .
Astonishingly enough , it was my own voice I heard there in the darkness , begging this man to make love to << me >> .
`` Love << me >> , Johnnie '' .
`` Will you always love << me >> this way '' ? ?
And << I >> snuggled closer to the man I loved .
And I snuggled closer to the man << I >> loved .
<< I >> had had no wedding ceremony , no witnesses , no certificate of marriage , but I had all the joy that goes with them .
I had had no wedding ceremony , no witnesses , no certificate of marriage , but << I >> had all the joy that goes with them .
Idiot's delight , << I >> later discovered .
<< I >> felt no conflict between what I was doing and my strict religious upbringing .
I felt no conflict between what << I >> was doing and my strict religious upbringing .
<< I >> had always resisted the passes made at me by other kids , and many times I had thought about my love for Johnnie who , being thirty , brought a maturity to love that the kids around town could know nothing about .
I had always resisted the passes made at << me >> by other kids , and many times I had thought about my love for Johnnie who , being thirty , brought a maturity to love that the kids around town could know nothing about .
I had always resisted the passes made at me by other kids , and many times << I >> had thought about my love for Johnnie who , being thirty , brought a maturity to love that the kids around town could know nothing about .
<< I >> was practically a bride , after all .
Of this , << I >> had no doubt .
He'd not only told << me >> so , he'd proved it .
And if << I >> could contribute to that , I'd do it .
And << I >> had no doubts about how true this love was .
I'd never even petted with a boy , and after << I >> met Johnnie he never touched me for the longest while , not until I all but threw myself at him .
I'd never even petted with a boy , and after I met Johnnie he never touched << me >> for the longest while , not until I all but threw myself at him .
I'd never even petted with a boy , and after I met Johnnie he never touched me for the longest while , not until << I >> all but threw myself at him .
He was plenty attentive , all right , but he behaved like a gentleman , and << I >> figured that , emotionally , I was closer to his age than to my own eighteen and a half .
He was plenty attentive , all right , but he behaved like a gentleman , and I figured that , emotionally , << I >> was closer to his age than to my own eighteen and a half .
It wasn't , << I >> was sure , a difference in age that came between people , but a difference in maturity .
And hadn't << I >> rescued him from Lucille Warren ? ?
She'd have gotten him , if << I >> hadn't stopped her .
`` Love << me >> '' ? ?
<< I >> had mixed emotions about going .
I'd been seeing Johnnie almost a year now , but << I >> still didn't want to leave him for five whole days .
But << I >> had looked forward so much to being with this church group .
<< I >> hadn't been doing as much work as I used to in Westfield and I felt funny about that and wanted to work harder than ever .
I hadn't been doing as much work as << I >> used to in Westfield and I felt funny about that and wanted to work harder than ever .
I hadn't been doing as much work as I used to in Westfield and << I >> felt funny about that and wanted to work harder than ever .
So << I >> went to Boston .
My cousin Alma , at whose home << I >> was staying during the convention , introduced me to a group of young people from Rhode Island .
My cousin Alma , at whose home I was staying during the convention , introduced << me >> to a group of young people from Rhode Island .
<< I >> thought so , and he mentioned it , and Alma said so too .
<< I >> assumed Alma would get me there , but in the confusion of the meeting breaking up , we were separated .
I assumed Alma would get << me >> there , but in the confusion of the meeting breaking up , we were separated .
Outside the hall , << I >> anxiously looked around for her , then all at once there was a hand on my elbow .
<< I >> couldn't help laughing with him .
`` Well , << I >> should find Alma '' -- I began .
`` Well , I should find Alma '' -- << I >> began .
<< I >> went .
A couple of the girls were laughing rather shrilly and << I >> realized they were drinking .
But when Johnnie disguised the taste with ginger ale , << I >> enjoyed it .
Of course << I >> enjoyed 'most anything if I did it with Johnnie .
Of course I enjoyed 'most anything if << I >> did it with Johnnie .
Johnnie << I >> suddenly realized he'd been totally out of my thoughts all evening .
But that was only natural , << I >> decided ; ;
`` << I >> don't see Alma anywhere '' , I said .
`` I don't see Alma anywhere '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> drew back .
Not for << me >> '' .
But at least come along while << I >> get lubricated '' .
Strange faces , most of them , and << I >> wasn't even sure all of them had come from the League meeting .
`` << I >> hope so .
<< I >> must remember to warn the girl next to you in Larkspur .
`` << I >> spoke to the fellow next door , too '' , she might say .
<< I >> mean , she's still living , and she's ninety-six .
`` << I >> don't have a lemon '' .
`` Gee , neither do << I >> '' .
`` << I >> guess that redhead next to me took your advice .
`` I guess that redhead next to << me >> took your advice .
<< I >> haven't seen her on the beach '' .
`` Of course << I >> don't mind '' , she answered .
So help << me >> God , I'll get him '' .
`` << I >> didn't think it was necessary '' .
`` << I >> didn't ask you to fight for the ball club '' , Phil said slowly .
`` You trying to say << I >> started the fight '' ? ?
<< I >> am saying you're not a professional ballplayer '' .
`` Now listen to << me >> , Phil .
`` Now don't tell << me >> what a good ball player you are .
Dazed , Phil said : `` << I >> don't get it .
That's what << I >> mean by no heart for the game .
`` << I >> think you're wrong , Eddie '' , he said finally .
`` << I >> don't get it '' .
`` << I >> don't know '' , Phil said .
She asked him and , laughing , she added , `` << I >> was nervous about buying a book with a title like that , but I knew you'd like it '' .
She asked him and , laughing , she added , `` I was nervous about buying a book with a title like that , but << I >> knew you'd like it '' .
`` Yes '' , he lied to shorten the conversation , `` << I >> still have it '' .
At one such gathering Charlotte announced , `` << I >> was at Ryusenji today .
<< I >> was thoroughly startled '' .
`` << I >> shouldn't have been able to do that '' .
`` Well << I >> was able to do it '' , Charlotte said with no sign of irritation .
Sam , << I >> thought you knew everything about Tokyo .
Oh , that's what << I >> meant to tell you .
It had grown hot early that day , and << I >> hoped that the boy , my brother's son , would soon come across the broad black area of plowed ground , carrying the jar of cool water .
<< I >> almost ran over the snake before I could stop the tractor in time .
I almost ran over the snake before << I >> could stop the tractor in time .
It lay half in the furrow and half out , and the front wheels had rolled nearly up to it when << I >> put in the clutch .
<< I >> had never liked snakes much , I still had that kind of quick panic that I'd had as a child whenever I saw one , but this snake was clean and bright and very beautiful .
I had never liked snakes much , << I >> still had that kind of quick panic that I'd had as a child whenever I saw one , but this snake was clean and bright and very beautiful .
I had never liked snakes much , I still had that kind of quick panic that I'd had as a child whenever << I >> saw one , but this snake was clean and bright and very beautiful .
Go out of the furrow , snake , << I >> said , but it did not move at all .
<< I >> pulled the throttle of the tractor in and out , hoping to frighten him with the noise , but the snake only flicked its black , forked tongue and faced the huge tractor wheel , without fright or concern .
<< I >> let the engine idle then , and I got down and went around the wheel and stood beside it .
I let the engine idle then , and << I >> got down and went around the wheel and stood beside it .
His flat and gracefully tapered head lifted as << I >> looked at him and the black tongue slipped in and out of that solemn mouth .
You beauty , << I >> said , I couldn't kill you .
You beauty , I said , << I >> couldn't kill you .
<< I >> had killed snakes before , when I was younger , but there had been no animal like this one , and I knew it was unthinkable that an animal such as that should die .
I had killed snakes before , when << I >> was younger , but there had been no animal like this one , and I knew it was unthinkable that an animal such as that should die .
I had killed snakes before , when I was younger , but there had been no animal like this one , and << I >> knew it was unthinkable that an animal such as that should die .
<< I >> picked him up , and the length of him arched very carefully and gracefully and only a little wildly , and I could feel the coolness of that radiant , fire-colored body , like splendid ice , and I knew that he had eaten only recently because there were two whole and solid little lumps in the forepart of him , like fieldmice swallowed whole might make .
I picked him up , and the length of him arched very carefully and gracefully and only a little wildly , and << I >> could feel the coolness of that radiant , fire-colored body , like splendid ice , and I knew that he had eaten only recently because there were two whole and solid little lumps in the forepart of him , like fieldmice swallowed whole might make .
I picked him up , and the length of him arched very carefully and gracefully and only a little wildly , and I could feel the coolness of that radiant , fire-colored body , like splendid ice , and << I >> knew that he had eaten only recently because there were two whole and solid little lumps in the forepart of him , like fieldmice swallowed whole might make .
The body caressed through my hands like cool satin , and my hands , usually tanned and dark , were pale beside it , and << I >> asked it where the fire colors could come from the coolness of that body .
<< I >> lowered him so he would not fall and his body slid out onto the cool , newly-plowed earth , from between my pale hands .
<< I >> felt good and satisfied , looking at the snake .
<< I >> had my back to the corner of the triangular field that pointed towards the house .
The earth was a little heavy and << I >> had to stop once and clean the plowshares because they were not scouring properly , and I did not look back towards the place until I had turned the corner and was plowing across the upper line of the large field , a long way from where I had stopped because of the snake .
The earth was a little heavy and I had to stop once and clean the plowshares because they were not scouring properly , and << I >> did not look back towards the place until I had turned the corner and was plowing across the upper line of the large field , a long way from where I had stopped because of the snake .
The earth was a little heavy and I had to stop once and clean the plowshares because they were not scouring properly , and I did not look back towards the place until << I >> had turned the corner and was plowing across the upper line of the large field , a long way from where I had stopped because of the snake .
The earth was a little heavy and I had to stop once and clean the plowshares because they were not scouring properly , and I did not look back towards the place until I had turned the corner and was plowing across the upper line of the large field , a long way from where << I >> had stopped because of the snake .
<< I >> saw it all at a glance .
<< I >> could see the hunched-up shoulders , the savage determination , the dance of his feet as he ground the snake with his heels , and the pirouette of his arms as he whipped at it with the stick .
Stop it , << I >> shouted , but the lumbering and mighty tractor roared on , above anything I could say .
Stop it , I shouted , but the lumbering and mighty tractor roared on , above anything << I >> could say .
<< I >> stopped the tractor and I shouted down to the boy , and I knew he could hear me , for the morning was clear and still , but he did not even hesitate in that brutal , murdering dance .
I stopped the tractor and << I >> shouted down to the boy , and I knew he could hear me , for the morning was clear and still , but he did not even hesitate in that brutal , murdering dance .
I stopped the tractor and I shouted down to the boy , and << I >> knew he could hear me , for the morning was clear and still , but he did not even hesitate in that brutal , murdering dance .
I stopped the tractor and I shouted down to the boy , and I knew he could hear << me >> , for the morning was clear and still , but he did not even hesitate in that brutal , murdering dance .
<< I >> drove the tractor on , not looking down there ; ;
<< I >> was afraid to look for fear the evil might still be going on .
My head began to ache , and the fumes of the tractor began to bother my eyes , and << I >> hated the job suddenly , and I thought , there are only moments when one sees beautiful things , and these are soon crushed , or they vanish .
My head began to ache , and the fumes of the tractor began to bother my eyes , and I hated the job suddenly , and << I >> thought , there are only moments when one sees beautiful things , and these are soon crushed , or they vanish .
<< I >> felt the anger mount within me .
I felt the anger mount within << me >> .
<< I >> knew the boy well .
<< I >> saw then , too , the stake driven straight and hard into the plowed soil , through something there where I had been not long before .
I saw then , too , the stake driven straight and hard into the plowed soil , through something there where << I >> had been not long before .
<< I >> stopped the tractor and climbed down and the boy came eagerly up to me .
I stopped the tractor and climbed down and the boy came eagerly up to << me >> .
`` Can << I >> ride around with you '' ? ?
He asked , as he often did , and << I >> had as often let him be on the tractor beside me .
He asked , as he often did , and I had as often let him be on the tractor beside << me >> .
`` No , you cannot '' , << I >> said , pushing aside the water jar he offered to me .
`` No , you cannot '' , I said , pushing aside the water jar he offered to << me >> .
<< I >> pointed to the splintered , upright stake .
`` << I >> killed a snake ; ;
He tried to take my hand to show << me >> .
`` They are ugly and they eat chickens and << I >> hate snakes '' .
`` You are talking foolishly '' , << I >> said .
`` They're ugly and << I >> hate them '' , the boy insisted .
`` It was beautiful '' , << I >> said , half to myself .
The boy skipped along beside << me >> , and he was contented with what he had done .
The snake was hideous , and << I >> remembered , even then , the cool , bright fire of it only a little while before , and I thought perhaps the boy had always seen it dead and hideous like that , and had not even stopped to see the beauty of it in its life .
The snake was hideous , and I remembered , even then , the cool , bright fire of it only a little while before , and << I >> thought perhaps the boy had always seen it dead and hideous like that , and had not even stopped to see the beauty of it in its life .
<< I >> wrenched the stake out , that the boy had driven through it in the thickest part of its body , between the colored diamond crystals .
<< I >> touched it and the coolness , the ice-feeling , was gone , and even then it moved a little , perhaps a tiny spasm of the dead muscles , and I hoped that it was truly dead , so that I would not have to kill it .
I touched it and the coolness , the ice-feeling , was gone , and even then it moved a little , perhaps a tiny spasm of the dead muscles , and << I >> hoped that it was truly dead , so that I would not have to kill it .
I touched it and the coolness , the ice-feeling , was gone , and even then it moved a little , perhaps a tiny spasm of the dead muscles , and I hoped that it was truly dead , so that << I >> would not have to kill it .
I'm sorry , << I >> thought to the snake , for you were beautiful .
<< I >> took the broken length of it around the tractor and I took one of the wrenches from the tool-kit and I struck its head , not looking at it , to kill it at last , for it could never live .
I took the broken length of it around the tractor and << I >> took one of the wrenches from the tool-kit and I struck its head , not looking at it , to kill it at last , for it could never live .
I took the broken length of it around the tractor and I took one of the wrenches from the tool-kit and << I >> struck its head , not looking at it , to kill it at last , for it could never live .
The boy came around behind << me >> , dragging the stake .
`` I'm going to tell everybody how big a snake << I >> killed '' .
<< I >> said .
<< I >> could see the happiness in the boy's eyes , the gleeful brutality .
`` Don't '' , << I >> said .
He looked up at << me >> , puzzled , and he swayed his head from side to side .
<< I >> thought , you little brute , you nasty , selfish , little beast , with brutality already developed within that brain and in those eyes .
<< I >> wanted to slap his face , to wipe forever the insolence and brutal glee from his mouth , and I decided then , very suddenly , what I would do .
I wanted to slap his face , to wipe forever the insolence and brutal glee from his mouth , and << I >> decided then , very suddenly , what I would do .
I wanted to slap his face , to wipe forever the insolence and brutal glee from his mouth , and I decided then , very suddenly , what << I >> would do .
`` << I >> was just thinking how things have changed .
`` No , << I >> begged off .
<< I >> know it is midweek , but it's only eight days before commencement .
`` << I >> didn't know I looked so dilapidated '' ! !
`` I didn't know << I >> looked so dilapidated '' ! !
Here's what << I >> wrote '' .
`` << I >> know you wrote this in a hurry , but , Cady , Dave was only acting president of the student forum for a few days .
`` << I >> don't think you've been quite honest , Cady .
`` Maybe << I >> am padding it a bit , Anne '' , he said .
<< I >> won't be guilty of trying to run his life '' .
`` << I >> think you'll get tired of them there '' .
<< I >> can be as stubborn as she can , he thought ; ;
He apologized so sweetly , << I >> couldn't keep being annoyed with him '' .
`` It's a little contest Martin and << I >> have '' , she would begin gaily , carrying the anecdote through a frothy and deceptive course .
<< I >> think Adam Herberet is guilty of being too hopeful and better informed on defense financing than on the technical side .
He assures << me >> he has people to handle the money raising , and Ham Richert , my lawyer , says the legal aspects of the wedding of Zenith and Allstates are no problem .
`` Yes , << I >> appreciate that .
<< I >> wish you wouldn't tell Freddy I'm lukewarm ; ;
I've caused him trouble before , and he's beginning to resent << me >> .
`` One shouldn't mix commercial affairs with patriarchy , but in this case << I >> have no choice .
Let << me >> think about it .
I'm most grateful to you , so grateful << I >> wish you were my principal aide instead of Freddy '' .
Freddy's solution doesn't appeal to << me >> .
Will you see if you can help << me >> '' ? ?
Well , << I >> can't resolve this myself .
<< I >> can't guarantee you a sympathetic audience '' .
`` << I >> should explain : there's more here for me than advocating my little dream , there's you .
`` I should explain : there's more here for << me >> than advocating my little dream , there's you .
<< I >> hate that .
`` << I >> rather like the music '' , Willis replied quietly .
`` << I >> don't enjoy family quarrels '' , Adam said .
`` Hear << me >> out , please '' , William begged .
`` I'm an advertising hustler , << I >> admit , but I have to get hot once in a larger sphere .
`` I'm an advertising hustler , I admit , but << I >> have to get hot once in a larger sphere .
Why won't you give << me >> a chance '' ? ?
`` << I >> feel I must answer the question '' , he said , `` since the onus later , if any , should fall on me -- I don't relish recriminations spread broadcast outside my family .
`` I feel << I >> must answer the question '' , he said , `` since the onus later , if any , should fall on me -- I don't relish recriminations spread broadcast outside my family .
`` I feel I must answer the question '' , he said , `` since the onus later , if any , should fall on << me >> -- I don't relish recriminations spread broadcast outside my family .
`` I feel I must answer the question '' , he said , `` since the onus later , if any , should fall on me -- << I >> don't relish recriminations spread broadcast outside my family .
During the return trip , Barco kept muttering to himself in meaningless phrases , such as : `` They're under sand dunes They're better off , << I >> tell you I saved their souls '' .
During the return trip , Barco kept muttering to himself in meaningless phrases , such as : `` They're under sand dunes They're better off , I tell you << I >> saved their souls '' .
<< I >> can lead you to every one of the bodies , and there ain't four , nor five , nor six of 'em -- there's seven ! !
<< I >> knew that both these cynics were waiting with impatience for the dramatic moment when Viola was called to the stand .
<< I >> studied Welch closely as the trial progressed for any hint which might give me a lead as to how he might be thwarted .
I studied Welch closely as the trial progressed for any hint which might give << me >> a lead as to how he might be thwarted .
It wasn't long before << I >> sensed that there was something deeper than overvaulting ambition back of his desire for Viola's destruction .
During these first days of the trial << I >> didn't have as much time to commiserate with Viola as I should have liked .
During these first days of the trial I didn't have as much time to commiserate with Viola as << I >> should have liked .
<< I >> couldn't invite Viola to our house , for Mother snobbishly refused to receive her .
<< I >> hated being dragged into the salons of these aristocrats .
Mother even went so far as to trump up for << me >> matrimonial opportunities with Pasadena debs who had been educated abroad , and with those of the more lenient Los Angeles area where a debutante was a girl who had been to high school .
But at long last came a time when << I >> broke away from Mother and her society `` chi-chi '' in order to spend a cosy evening with Viola and her chaperon at her home .
Viola greeted << me >> , in checked apron , ladle in hand , and explained it was the cook's night out and that she herself was preparing dinner .
<< I >> sat and watched proceedings .
<< I >> realized that Hamlet was faced with an entirely different problem , but his agony could have been no greater .
<< I >> was saved from making the decision as the phone rang , and the girls were upon me instantly .
I was saved from making the decision as the phone rang , and the girls were upon << me >> instantly .
Jennie and Miranda twined themselves around << me >> , murmuring endearments .
Somehow managing to get out a cool , poised , `` Won't you hold on a second , please '' , << I >> covered up the mouthpiece , and with more warmth and less poise , gave a quick lecture on crime and punishment , mostly the latter , including Devil's Island and the remoter reaches of Siberia .
<< I >> promised to illustrate the lecture , if they so much as breathed till after the call was completed .
Speaking into the phone again and recognizing the caller , << I >> resumed my everyday voice .
<< I >> discovered that the girls had shrewdly vacated the kitchen , and were playing quietly in the living room .
It seemed that << I >> would be the gainer if I accepted the peace and quiet , instead of carrying out my threats .
It seemed that I would be the gainer if << I >> accepted the peace and quiet , instead of carrying out my threats .
Resolving to get something done , << I >> started in on the dishes .
What << I >> meant to say was that I started to start in on the dishes by gathering them all together in the kitchen sink .
What I meant to say was that << I >> started to start in on the dishes by gathering them all together in the kitchen sink .
They looked so formidable , however , so demanding , that << I >> found myself staring at them in dismay and starting to woolgather again , this time about Francesca and her husband .
How about them , << I >> thought .
`` You are bound to get involved with people when you have children '' , Fran had told << me >> at our first meeting , `` so it is good to know that those with whom you get involved are not just dreary little housewives and dull husbands , but People Who Do Things '' .
<< I >> admired their easy way of doing things but I couldn't escape an uneasiness at their way of always doing the right things .
I admired their easy way of doing things but << I >> couldn't escape an uneasiness at their way of always doing the right things .
No one could dislike them , << I >> thought .
<< I >> wouldn't have wasted time puzzling over this couple were it not for my fear that all the other inhabitants of Catatonia were equally unreal .
<< I >> couldn't feel at home among them .
<< I >> had once been a witness when Blanche had smiled and said with only minimum ruefulness , `` Oh , my souffle has collapsed '' .
But dear << me >> , no ; ;
She it was who had looked to see if << I >> was wearing shoes upon learning that I couldn't drive .
She it was who had looked to see if I was wearing shoes upon learning that << I >> couldn't drive .
The husbands of these women and others << I >> had met in Catatonia were distinguished only in that they were , to me at least , indistinguishable .
The husbands of these women and others I had met in Catatonia were distinguished only in that they were , to << me >> at least , indistinguishable .
<< I >> couldn't tell one from the other .
<< I >> never thought I'd live to hear people chuckle and say `` zounds '' ! !
<< I >> wouldn't have missed it for anything .
'' << I >> thought , and wondered what kind of homesteads such odd pioneers would establish in this suburban frontier ; ;
They were , << I >> felt , people invariably trying to prove not who , but what they were , and trying to determine what , not who , others were .
Becoming aware that it was nearly lunchtime , << I >> brought myself back to the tasks at hand .
<< I >> made plans for the afternoon -- doing the breakfast and luncheon dishes all at once , making the beds , and then maybe painting the kitchen .
<< I >> dug around and found a mix , and was able to surprise them with a devil's-food cake with chocolate icing .
( Sometimes << I >> think you need only one rule for cooking : if you can't put garlic in it , put chocolate in it .
Needless to say , << I >> was furious at this unparalleled intrusion upon free enterprise .
`` It is as though '' , << I >> said on the historic three-hour , coast-to-coast radio broadcast which I bought ( following Father Coughlin and pre-empting the Eddie Cantor , Manhattan Merry-go-round and Major Bowes shows ) `` That Man in the White House , like some despot of yore , insisted on reading my diary , raiding my larder and ransacking my lingerie ! !
`` It is as though '' , I said on the historic three-hour , coast-to-coast radio broadcast which << I >> bought ( following Father Coughlin and pre-empting the Eddie Cantor , Manhattan Merry-go-round and Major Bowes shows ) `` That Man in the White House , like some despot of yore , insisted on reading my diary , raiding my larder and ransacking my lingerie ! !
After an unspeakable siege , lasting the better part of two months , it was announced that the studio `` owed '' the government a tax debt in excess of eight million dollars while << I >> , who had always remained aloof from such iniquitous practices as paying taxes on the salary I had earned and the little I legally inherited as Morris' helpless relict , was `` stung '' with a personal bill of such astronomical proportions as to `` wipe out '' all but a fraction of my poor , hard-come-by savings .
After an unspeakable siege , lasting the better part of two months , it was announced that the studio `` owed '' the government a tax debt in excess of eight million dollars while I , who had always remained aloof from such iniquitous practices as paying taxes on the salary << I >> had earned and the little I legally inherited as Morris' helpless relict , was `` stung '' with a personal bill of such astronomical proportions as to `` wipe out '' all but a fraction of my poor , hard-come-by savings .
After an unspeakable siege , lasting the better part of two months , it was announced that the studio `` owed '' the government a tax debt in excess of eight million dollars while I , who had always remained aloof from such iniquitous practices as paying taxes on the salary I had earned and the little << I >> legally inherited as Morris' helpless relict , was `` stung '' with a personal bill of such astronomical proportions as to `` wipe out '' all but a fraction of my poor , hard-come-by savings .
<< I >> was also publicly reprimanded , dragged through the mud by the radical press and made a figure of fun by such leftist publications as The New Republic , The New Yorker , Time and The Christian Science Monitor .
<< I >> fought like a tigress but by the time I appealed my case to the Supreme Court ( 1937 ) , Mr. Roosevelt and his `` henchmen '' had done their `` dirty work '' all too well , even going so far as to attempt to `` pack '' the highest tribunal in the land in order to defeat little me .
I fought like a tigress but by the time << I >> appealed my case to the Supreme Court ( 1937 ) , Mr. Roosevelt and his `` henchmen '' had done their `` dirty work '' all too well , even going so far as to attempt to `` pack '' the highest tribunal in the land in order to defeat little me .
I fought like a tigress but by the time I appealed my case to the Supreme Court ( 1937 ) , Mr. Roosevelt and his `` henchmen '' had done their `` dirty work '' all too well , even going so far as to attempt to `` pack '' the highest tribunal in the land in order to defeat little << me >> .
Presidential coercion had succeeded not only in poisoning the courtiers , `` toadies '' and sycophants of the `` bench '' against << me >> , but it had been so far-reaching as to discourage any lawyer in the nation from representing me ! !
Presidential coercion had succeeded not only in poisoning the courtiers , `` toadies '' and sycophants of the `` bench '' against me , but it had been so far-reaching as to discourage any lawyer in the nation from representing << me >> ! !
<< I >> was ready , like Portia , to present my own brief .
<< I >> was , it seemed , persona non grata in every quarter , but not entirely without a staunch following of noted political thinkers and students of jurisprudence .
Henry Ford spoke of << me >> as `` utterly astounding '' .
Not only were the court costs prohibitive , but << I >> was subjected to crippling fines , in addition to usurious interest on the unpaid `` debts '' which the government claimed that Metronome and I owed -- a severe financial blow .
Not only were the court costs prohibitive , but I was subjected to crippling fines , in addition to usurious interest on the unpaid `` debts '' which the government claimed that Metronome and << I >> owed -- a severe financial blow .
<< I >> point now with pride to the fact that , long ere the Committee on Un-American Activities , the Minute Women , the Economic Council and other such notable `` watchdog '' organizations were so much as heard of , I was Hollywood's leading bulwark against communism , fighting single-handedly `` creeping socialism '' against such insuperable odds as the Fascio-Communist troops of the NRA , PWA , WPA , CCC and an army of more than twenty-two million mercenaries whom F.D.R. employed secretly , through the transparent ruse of regular `` relief '' checks .
I point now with pride to the fact that , long ere the Committee on Un-American Activities , the Minute Women , the Economic Council and other such notable `` watchdog '' organizations were so much as heard of , << I >> was Hollywood's leading bulwark against communism , fighting single-handedly `` creeping socialism '' against such insuperable odds as the Fascio-Communist troops of the NRA , PWA , WPA , CCC and an army of more than twenty-two million mercenaries whom F.D.R. employed secretly , through the transparent ruse of regular `` relief '' checks .
<< I >> tried my hardest , with little help , may I say , from my husband and leading man , but somehow the outside pressures were too severe .
I tried my hardest , with little help , may << I >> say , from my husband and leading man , but somehow the outside pressures were too severe .
As for his finances , << I >> was never privileged to know exactly how much money Letch had `` salted away '' .
It was << I >> who paid for our little home , the food , the liquor , the servants -- even Letch's bills at his tailor and the Los Angeles Athletic Club .
Never once did he buy << me >> a single gift and for our third anniversary he gave me a dislocated jaw .
Never once did he buy me a single gift and for our third anniversary he gave << me >> a dislocated jaw .
More than once << I >> was confronted by professional gamblers , `` bookies '' , loan `` sharks '' , gangsters , `` thugs '' and `` finger men '' -- people of a class I did not even know existed -- to repay my husband's staggering losses , `` or else '' I shuddered to think that someone so dear to me could even associate with such a sinister milieu .
More than once I was confronted by professional gamblers , `` bookies '' , loan `` sharks '' , gangsters , `` thugs '' and `` finger men '' -- people of a class << I >> did not even know existed -- to repay my husband's staggering losses , `` or else '' I shuddered to think that someone so dear to me could even associate with such a sinister milieu .
More than once I was confronted by professional gamblers , `` bookies '' , loan `` sharks '' , gangsters , `` thugs '' and `` finger men '' -- people of a class I did not even know existed -- to repay my husband's staggering losses , `` or else '' << I >> shuddered to think that someone so dear to me could even associate with such a sinister milieu .
More than once I was confronted by professional gamblers , `` bookies '' , loan `` sharks '' , gangsters , `` thugs '' and `` finger men '' -- people of a class I did not even know existed -- to repay my husband's staggering losses , `` or else '' I shuddered to think that someone so dear to << me >> could even associate with such a sinister milieu .
And at three different times during our turbulent marriage strange girls , with the commonest of accents , telephoned to announce to << me >> that Letch had sired their unborn children ! !
Having the deepest of maternal instincts , my heart fairly bled when << I >> thought of the darling pink and white `` bundles from heaven '' I would have proudly given my husband .
Having the deepest of maternal instincts , my heart fairly bled when I thought of the darling pink and white `` bundles from heaven '' << I >> would have proudly given my husband .
`` Ah , you're too old '' , was invariably his ungallant and untrue retort whenever << I >> suggested `` starting a family '' .
<< I >> now felt it wiser to keep Baby-dear in school and -- during the summers -- at a camp run by the Society of Friends all year around .
Her presence only made Letch more distant and irritable and , in the hurry of buying Chateau Belletch , << I >> had neglected to consider a room for Baby-dear , so there was no place to put her , anyhow .
( << I >> sometimes feel that God , in His infinite wisdom , wants us to have these inexplicable little lapses of memory .
Yet << I >> adored this man , Letch Feeley , why , I cannot say .
Yet I adored this man , Letch Feeley , why , << I >> cannot say .
With faint heart and a brave smile , << I >> endured his long absences from Chateau Belletch , his coldness , his indifference , his slights and his abuse .
The times << I >> can recall when I was publicly humiliated by him -- lovely dinner parties in our Trianon Suite where the collation was postponed and postponed and postponed , only to be served dry and overcooked at a table where the host's chair was vacant ; ;
The times I can recall when << I >> was publicly humiliated by him -- lovely dinner parties in our Trianon Suite where the collation was postponed and postponed and postponed , only to be served dry and overcooked at a table where the host's chair was vacant ; ;
a `` splash party '' at the new pool , which << I >> had built in the hope of keeping Letch away from public beaches , when Letch and a certain Aquacutie stayed underwater together for the better part of an hour ; ;
These are but a sampling of the insults << I >> endured .
As Mrs. Letch Feeley , was it any wonder that << I >> , once the social arbiter of Filmdom , was excluded from the smart entertainments given by the Astaires , the Coopers , the Gables , the Colmans , the Rathbones , the Taylors , the Thalbergs and such devout , closely knit families as the Barrymores and the Crosbys ? ?
As Letch's antisocial conduct increased , our invitations decreased and my heart was in my mouth whenever << I >> played hostess at a fashionable `` screenland '' gathering .
Between 1935 and 1939 Letch and << I >> made ten films together , each less successful , both artistically and commercially , than the one before it .
As << I >> was playing Mother Cabrini , the picture was actually `` all mine '' , with nearly every scene built around me .
As I was playing Mother Cabrini , the picture was actually `` all mine '' , with nearly every scene built around << me >> .
But in order to keep Letch in the public eye and out of trouble , << I >> wrote in a part especially for him -- that of a dashing ruffian who `` sees the light '' and is saved by the inspiring example of Mother Cabrini .
Did he trouble to memorize the very small part which << I >> had `` tailor-made '' to his specifications , a role eventually cut down to three short speeches ? ?
Thanks to Letch Feeley and the terrible strain he imposed on << me >> , the notices were few and unfavorable .
) The film was called The Diet of Worms , which << I >> felt was just what Letch deserved .
At the same time , however , << I >> availed myself of the services of that great English actor and master of make-up , Sir Gauntley Pratt , to do a `` quickie '' called The Mystery of the Mad Marquess , in which I played a young American girl who inherits a haunted castle on the English moors which is filled with secret passages and sliding panels and , unbeknownst to anyone , is still occupied by an eccentric maniac .
At the same time , however , I availed myself of the services of that great English actor and master of make-up , Sir Gauntley Pratt , to do a `` quickie '' called The Mystery of the Mad Marquess , in which << I >> played a young American girl who inherits a haunted castle on the English moors which is filled with secret passages and sliding panels and , unbeknownst to anyone , is still occupied by an eccentric maniac .
It was a `` potboiler '' made on a `` shoestring '' and not the sort of film << I >> like , as all I had to do was look blank and scream a great deal .
It was a `` potboiler '' made on a `` shoestring '' and not the sort of film I like , as all << I >> had to do was look blank and scream a great deal .
<< I >> really loved that boy , and , in a feverish attempt to preserve our marriage and to try to revive the wonderful , wonderful person Letch had once been , I took my troubles to Momma , hoping that her earthy advice would help me .
I really loved that boy , and , in a feverish attempt to preserve our marriage and to try to revive the wonderful , wonderful person Letch had once been , << I >> took my troubles to Momma , hoping that her earthy advice would help me .
I really loved that boy , and , in a feverish attempt to preserve our marriage and to try to revive the wonderful , wonderful person Letch had once been , I took my troubles to Momma , hoping that her earthy advice would help << me >> .
`` If << I >> could only think of something at the studio , near me , to absorb his boundless energy '' , I said .
`` If I could only think of something at the studio , near << me >> , to absorb his boundless energy '' , I said .
`` If I could only think of something at the studio , near me , to absorb his boundless energy '' , << I >> said .
Her reply stung << me >> , but this was too important to let my hurt make any difference .
`` << I >> can't turn the studio into a gambling hell or a saloon '' , I said .
`` I can't turn the studio into a gambling hell or a saloon '' , << I >> said .
then a couple of fluorescent lamps over the workbench an' << I >> guess we're about through down here '' .
`` << I >> was just sayin' to him that I'm all ready now for anything else you want done '' .
`` << I >> have a thousand things for you to do .
`` But those are the things << I >> built the workshop for '' , protested Mr. Crombie .
`` Those are the things << I >> can do , now that I'm set up '' .
`` We won't live long enough if << I >> wait for you , besides which you don't need to worry -- there'll be plenty more '' .
They recall Byron's classic comment : `` << I >> wish he would explain his explanation '' .
`` << I >> fear explanations explanatory of things explained '' , he said , leaving the biter bit -- and bitter .
`` It took << me >> five hours to write it that way '' .
A verse familiar to all grammarians is the quatrain : `` << I >> saw a man once beat his wife When on a drunken spree .
Now can you tell << me >> who was drunk -- The man , his wife , or me '' ? ?
Now can you tell me who was drunk -- The man , his wife , or << me >> '' ? ?
`` << I >> see the girl but I don't see the car with slacks on '' .
`` I see the girl but << I >> don't see the car with slacks on '' .
In one cartoon a family is shown outside a theater with the head of the family addressing the doorman : `` Excuse << me >> , but when we came out we found that we had left my daughter's handbag and my wife's behind '' .
An item in the letters column of a newspaper renewed a subscription , adding : `` << I >> personally enjoy your newspaper as much as my husband '' .
She said to the saleslady , `` << I >> want a dress to put on around the house '' .
`` It was only the other day that << I >> saw something of yours , about something or other , in some magazine '' .
`` << I >> may be back '' , he explained , `` and then again , I may not '' .
`` I may be back '' , he explained , `` and then again , << I >> may not '' .
The daughter replied , `` Oh , << I >> had dinner with -- well , you don't know him but he's awfully nice -- and we went to a couple of places -- I don't suppose you've heard of them -- and we finished up at a cute little night club -- I forget the name of it .
The daughter replied , `` Oh , I had dinner with -- well , you don't know him but he's awfully nice -- and we went to a couple of places -- << I >> don't suppose you've heard of them -- and we finished up at a cute little night club -- I forget the name of it .
The daughter replied , `` Oh , I had dinner with -- well , you don't know him but he's awfully nice -- and we went to a couple of places -- I don't suppose you've heard of them -- and we finished up at a cute little night club -- << I >> forget the name of it .
`` Dearly beloved '' , he preached , `` unless you repent of your sins in a measure , and become converted to a degree , you will , << I >> regret to say , be damned to a more or less extent '' .
`` If you can fix it up with the undertaker '' , returned the politician , `` it's all right with << me >> '' .
It would be hard to find anything more equivocal than : `` << I >> cannot recommend him too highly '' .
Another less ambiguous case read as follows : `` The bearer of this letter has served << me >> for two years to his complete satisfaction .
One said , `` When << I >> get a cold I buy a bottle of whiskey for it , and within a few hours it's gone '' .
One said , `` When I get a cold << I >> buy a bottle of whiskey for it , and within a few hours it's gone '' .
<< I >> called the other afternoon on my old friend , Graves Moreland , the Anglo-American literary critic -- his mother was born in Ohio -- who lives alone in a fairy-tale cottage on the Upson Downs , raising hell and peacocks , the former only when the venerable gentleman becomes an angry old man about the state of literature or something else that is dwindling and diminishing , such as human stature , hope , and humor .
After Gagarin became the Greatest Man in the World , for a nation that does not believe in the cult of personality or in careerism , Moreland wrote << me >> a letter in which he said : `` I am not interested in how long a bee can live in a vacuum , or how far it can fly .
After Gagarin became the Greatest Man in the World , for a nation that does not believe in the cult of personality or in careerism , Moreland wrote me a letter in which he said : `` << I >> am not interested in how long a bee can live in a vacuum , or how far it can fly .
`` << I >> have come to talk with you about the future of humor and comedy '' , I told him , at which he started slightly , and then made us each a stiff drink , with a trembling hand .
`` I have come to talk with you about the future of humor and comedy '' , << I >> told him , at which he started slightly , and then made us each a stiff drink , with a trembling hand .
`` << I >> seem to remember '' , he said , `` that in an interview ten years ago you gave humor and comedy five years to live .
`` << I >> was wrong '' , I admitted .
`` I was wrong '' , << I >> admitted .
`` << I >> woke up this morning '' , Moreland said , `` paraphrasing Lewis Carroll .
`` Can << I >> bear it '' ? ?
<< I >> asked , taking a final gulp of my drink , and handing him the empty glass .
Moreland fixed us each another drink , and said , `` For God's sake , tell << me >> something truly amusing '' .
`` I'll try '' , << I >> said , and sat for a moment thinking .
`` Oh yes , the other day << I >> reread some of Emerson's English Traits , and there was an anecdote about a group of English and Americans visiting Germany , more than a hundred years ago .
<< I >> took a deep breath and an even deeper swallow of my drink , and said , `` I admit that going back to Ralph Waldo Emerson for humor is like going to a modern musical comedy for music and comedy '' .
I took a deep breath and an even deeper swallow of my drink , and said , `` << I >> admit that going back to Ralph Waldo Emerson for humor is like going to a modern musical comedy for music and comedy '' .
`` << I >> am told that in America you have non-books by non-writers , brought out by non-publishers for non-readers .
`` There is non-fiction and non non-fiction '' , << I >> said .
`` Cryptic '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> know what you mean '' , Moreland sighed .
The sentimental pure heart of Galahad is gone with the knightly years , but << I >> still believe in the heart of the George Meredith character that was not made of the stuff that breaks '' .
`` We no longer have Tom Moore's and Longfellow's ' heart for any fate ' , either '' , << I >> said .
`` The heart '' , << I >> said finally , `` is now either in the throat or the mouth or the stomach or the shoes .
`` You have visited England five times in the past quarter-century , << I >> believe '' , my host said .
`` << I >> would say depressed , not impressed '' , I told him .
`` I would say depressed , not impressed '' , << I >> told him .
`` << I >> should say it is the turning of courts of law into veritable theatres for sex dramas , involving clergymen and parishioners , psychiatrists and patients .
<< I >> myself hear it said constantly -- in drawing-rooms .
`` If you are trying to get us out of the brothel , the dustbin , the kitchen sink , and the tawdry living-room , you are probably wasting your time '' , Moreland told << me >> .
`` Furiouser and furiouser '' , << I >> said .
`` << I >> am worried about the current meanings of the word funny .
Moreland sat brooding for a full minute , during which << I >> made each of us a new drink .
It now means , in my country , homosexual '' , << I >> said .
`` Oh , << I >> forgot to say that if one is taken to the funny house in the funny wagon , he is removed to a mental institution in an ambulance .
Recently , by the way , << I >> received a questionnaire in which I was asked whether or not I was non-institutionalized '' .
Recently , by the way , I received a questionnaire in which << I >> was asked whether or not I was non-institutionalized '' .
Recently , by the way , I received a questionnaire in which I was asked whether or not << I >> was non-institutionalized '' .
then he turned to << me >> .
`` Oh , that is demonstrable '' , << I >> told him .
And the sheep said -- all in unison , << I >> have no doubt -- ba-a-a ! !
`` If you saw the drama called Rhinoceros '' , << I >> said , `` think of the effect it would have on an audience of rhinos when the actor on stage suddenly begins turning into a rhinoceros .
`` Non-God , no '' , << I >> said .
But , like Caesar , he has only one joke , so far as << I >> can find out .
`` You and << I >> have fallen out of literature into politics '' , Moreland observed .
<< I >> said .
In our age of Science and Angst it seems to << me >> more brave to stay on Earth and explore inner man than to fly far from the sphere of our sorrow and explore outer space '' .
It seems to << me >> that the first human being to reach one of these planets may well learn what it is to be a truly great and noble species '' .
`` Not in the largest sense of the words '' , << I >> said .
`` There was also Gott strafe Angleterre '' , Moreland reminded << me >> , `` and Carthago delenda est , or if you will , Deus strafe Carthage .
`` Great satire has always been clearly written and readily understandable '' , << I >> said .
<< I >> wrote a few years ago that one of the cardinal rules of writing is that the reader should be able to get some idea of what the story is about .
The policeman got a confused , funny look on his face , and he had answered kind of politely , `` Now , look here , lady : << I >> know you got to entertain these kids and all .
`` This time '' , Arlene said , and she even kept on wiggling a little bit while she was just talking , `` you're going to tell << me >> what I am and what I'm doing .
`` This time '' , Arlene said , and she even kept on wiggling a little bit while she was just talking , `` you're going to tell me what << I >> am and what I'm doing .
She also taught them to sing `` << I >> wish I could shimmy like my sister Kate '' .
She also taught them to sing `` I wish << I >> could shimmy like my sister Kate '' .
`` << I >> suppose you all were playing and forgot '' ? ?
`` << I >> reached into that funny little pocket that is high up on my dress .
And << I >> found a radish .
<< I >> thought for a second .
But << I >> would not pamper myself in that silly way .
When he had left , << I >> could never remember whether he had poked them in their middles , laughingly , with a thick index finger or whether he was merely so much the sort of person who did this that one assumed the action , not bothering to look .
There had been some coconut in it , for << I >> remember my mother's taking a quick glance at a stringy bit of this nut on the cheek of one of them and then putting down her radish with a shiver .
`` Tell << me >> -- what do you do at the park '' ? ?
And , when the slat finally shatters , we see him count the fragments , all the while muttering , `` He loves << me >> , he loves me not '' .
And , when the slat finally shatters , we see him count the fragments , all the while muttering , `` He loves me , he loves << me >> not '' .
This brief resume hardly does the book justice , but << I >> heartily recommend it to all those who are engages with the major problems of our time .
Fing , a lean , chiseled , impeccable gentleman of the old school who was once mistaken on the street for Sir Cedric Hardwicke , is responsible for the rediscovery of Verdi's earliest , most raucous opera , Nabisco , a sumptuous bout-de-souffle with a haunting leitmotiv that struck << me >> as being highly reminiscent of the Mudugno version of `` Volare '' .
`` << I >> paint the nothing '' , he said once to Franz Kline and myself , `` the nothing that is behind the something , the inexpressible , unpaintable ' tick ' in the unconscious , the ' spirit ' of the moment resting forever , suspended like a huge balloon , in non-time '' .
<< I >> asked Quasimodo recently how he accomplished this , and he replied that he had painted his model `` a beautiful shade of red and then had her breathe on the canvas '' , which was his typical tongue-in-cheek way of chiding me for my lack of sensitivity .
I asked Quasimodo recently how he accomplished this , and he replied that he had painted his model `` a beautiful shade of red and then had her breathe on the canvas '' , which was his typical tongue-in-cheek way of chiding << me >> for my lack of sensitivity .
Dear Sirs : Let << me >> begin by clearing up any possible misconception in your minds , wherever you are .
The collective by which << I >> address you in the title above is neither patronizing nor jocose but an exact industrial term in use among professional thieves .
It is , << I >> am reliably given to understand , the technical argot for those who engage in your particular branch of the boost ; ;
Since the latter obviously require an audacity you do not possess , you may perhaps suppose that << I >> am taunting you as socially inferior .
<< I >> merely draw an etymological distinction , hoping that specialists and busy people like you will welcome such precision in a layman .
Above all , disabuse yourselves of any thought that << I >> propose to vent moral indignation at your rifling my residence , to whimper over the loss of a few objets d'art , or to shame you into rectitude .
You have unwittingly set in motion forces so malign , so vindictive , that it would be downright inhumane of << me >> not to warn you about them .
Quite candidly , fellows , << I >> wouldn't be in your shoes for all the rice in China .
As you've doubtless forgotten the circumstances in the press of more recent depredations , permit << me >> to recapitulate them briefly .
Sometime on Saturday evening , August 22nd , while my family and << I >> were dining at the Hostaria dell' Orso , in Rome , you jimmied a window of our home in Bucks County , Pennsylvania , and let yourselves into the premises .
What you were looking for ( unless you make a hobby of collecting old tennis rackets and fly screens ) eludes << me >> , but to judge from phonograph records scattered about a fumed-oak Victrola .
The foregoing , aided by several clues I'll withhold to keep you on your toes , will pursue you with a tenacity worthy of Inspector Javert , but before they close in , gird yourselves , << I >> repeat , for a vengeance infinitely more pitiless .
All this , though , is simply a prelude , a curtain-raiser , for what ensues , and << I >> doubt whether any Occidental could accurately forecast it .
If , however , it would help to intensify your anguish , << I >> can delimit the powers of a few of the divinities you've affronted and describe the punishment they meted out in one analogous instance .
Whether the pair of Sudanese ivory carvings you lifted really possess the juju to turn your livers to lead , as a dealer in Khartoum assured << me >> , I am not competent to say .
Whether the pair of Sudanese ivory carvings you lifted really possess the juju to turn your livers to lead , as a dealer in Khartoum assured me , << I >> am not competent to say .
Oddly enough , this is an amulet against housebreakers , presented to the mem and << me >> by a local rajah in 1949 .
Inscribed around its base is a charm in Balinese , a dialect << I >> take it you don't comprehend .
Neither do << I >> , but the Tjokorda Agoeng was good enough to translate , and I'll do as much for you .
Furthermore -- and this , to << me >> , strikes an especially warming note -- it shall avail the vandals naught to throw away or dispose of their loot .
A couple of years back , << I >> occupied a Village apartment whose outer staircase contained the type of niche called a `` coffin turn '' .
In it was a stone Tibetan Buddha << I >> had picked up in Bombay , and occasionally , to make merit , my wife and I garlanded it with flowers or laid a few pennies in its lap .
In it was a stone Tibetan Buddha I had picked up in Bombay , and occasionally , to make merit , my wife and << I >> garlanded it with flowers or laid a few pennies in its lap .
The more << I >> probed into this young man's activities and character , the less savory I found him .
The more I probed into this young man's activities and character , the less savory << I >> found him .
<< I >> learned , for example , that he made a practice of yapping at dogs he encountered and , in winter , of sprinkling salt on the icy pavement to scarify their feet .
Not long ago , << I >> rode down with him in an elevator in Radio City ; ;
`` << I >> wouldn't be in his shoes for all the rice in China .
As you can count on << me >> to do the same .
the doors of the D train slid shut , and as << I >> dropped into a seat and , exhaling , looked up across the aisle , the whole aviary in my head burst into song .
From what << I >> was able to gauge in a swift , greedy glance , the figure inside the coral-colored boucle dress was stupefying .